Date: 07/20/11 05:37 am Title: Chapter Thirty Eight
:( that made me soooo sad. Glad they found him but it must be killing Brian to see Nick deteriorating like that and being unable to stop. Can't wait for more. Great chapter Rose!
Author's Response: I know. :( Brian feels responsible even for things he can't control. Thanks Tracy!
Date: 07/20/11 04:10 am Title: Chapter Thirty Eight
I'm so glad they found Nick and that he's okay. Man, this situation is tearing everyone apart. Brian's right, something worse could have happened, but thank God he's safe...this time. Thanks for the update.
Author's Response: It's not easy for anyone, and while sometimes they bring people, at others it can tear them apart. Brian's got a hard job he's gotta deal with. :(. Thanks MA!
Date: 07/20/11 04:05 am Title: Chapter Thirty Eight
WOW! I was flooded with emotion there at the end. Poor Brian..poor all of them. I can't even imagine seeing someone I cared about slowing slipping away like that. You captured the feeling very nicely in this chapter. I like that he was at the Grove...knowing what it sorta looks like from Nick's tweets, I could picture the scene in my head.
Nicely done! Can't wait for the next chapter!
Author's Response: Thank you! When I really go for the emotional flood in a chapter I always worry about going over the top. So I'm happy to see I actually captured it the way I wanted to. I love The Grove, I've used it in other stories and it's just a great setting. Thanks Jen!
Date: 07/19/11 08:15 am Title: Chapter Thirty Seven
Oh shitballs. This is not good. Losing parts of yourself like Nick is doing sounds like it is worse than death. He is very blessed to have people like that around him that really love him. With every chapter I cry but in a good way because this is such a great story. This will sound weird but I have an idea how this turns out because of the 2 chapters written from someone else's pov but there is something that makes me think it will have a totally different ending from what everyone thinks. Either way I am looking forward to it. Yes I already bought 4 boxes of Kleenex. Priceless story. In a weird way I want Nick to find love before the end.
Marguerite
Author's Response: Right, which is why Nick (on a good day) is so frustrated. He can't stop what's coming. He knows he's lucky but it would be hard not to be bitter in that circumstance I think. I'm flattered I can make you cry! It sounds horrible, but it's good cause I did my job lol. Thanks! :)
Date: 07/12/11 10:44 am Title: Chapter Thirty Seven
Oh no Nick! I know he can't help it, but he should realise that he's not a burden to them, he's family to them. But I suppose in his eyes, he doesn't see it that way.
Great to see an update, can't wait for more!
Author's Response: Right, Nick should know he's not. But it's easy to see why he thinks that. Thanks Steph! I promise the wait shouldn't be so long this time lol
Date: 07/12/11 12:05 am Title: Chapter Thirty Seven
Crap! Nick going off like that! They better find him! Thanks so much for the update.
Author's Response: I know, poor Boys...poor Nick lol. Thanks for sticking with me through the delays :)
Date: 07/11/11 11:28 pm Title: Chapter Thirty Seven
Oh noes, NMN is missing!!! I laughed at the image of him wandering off with a vacant smile on his face, humming as he strolls off into the sunset, but it really is sad... he's gonna flip out when he realizes he has no idea where he is, and everyone else has got to be freaking out now that they realize he's gone. I loved the moment with Brian's mom, and of course, I loved the scene in the therapist's office. HITLER SKUNK FTW!!! I'm SO glad you finally got this thing updated again; I was missing me some NMN! Yay ZDR! Sad Panda Power!!!
Author's Response: LMAO we're so horrible. You laugh as you read...I laugh as I write. Yep, Nick wandering is definitely no good (entertaing for us? Sure!). Hitler Skunk is LOVE! lol. And LMFAO at "Sad Panda Power!" Is that our new chant to replace our old standby one of "Insomniacs Unite!" now? LOL. Thanks ZDR!
Date: 07/11/11 11:25 pm Title: Chapter Thirty Seven
Damn poor Nick....the whole thing about being a burden...I know all about what that is like after using it in one of my stories. He feels useless...like the others are annoyed and are just pitying him. I am scared he and Brian are going to have a fight about this. And now it seems Nick is having another memory lapse...hopefully the guys find him!
Author's Response: Yep, and you can't blame him for feeling this way. And the Boys don't have it easy either. Like right now when Nick goes missing... Thanks Tracy!
Date: 05/14/11 02:32 pm Title: Chapter Thirty Six
This chapter was perfect! So many things I loved about it. The description of their careers to date was amazing. I loved that they named their last album End Of The Road - I'm a sucker for the bookend ending and that's a great name for their last CD. I enjoyed how you mentioned they had released a Chapter Two and the unreleased anthology - I hope they do those things for real someday. The way that AJ listing those accomplishments made Nick feel better and grateful for his career, and not sad that it was ending was laid out brilliantly. And for all of it to take place on a boat was a really great touch. I loved this chapter and it was definitely my favourite so far!
Author's Response: Wow...perfect? I loved playing with their careers and what I wanted for them. That title HAD to be it. And little factoid, in my head that album has a recorded acapella of the Boyz II Men song. But I love the title...because it not only states it's the end, but it goes full circle back to when they used to sing it acapella when they very first started. :). I would love to see a Chapter Two, and the unreleased anthology actually was mentioned in the Q&A from the cruise so I hope they actually do it LOL. I also knew I needed a way for Nick to realize just how LUCKY he's been, despite everything. This seemed a good way to go. Thanks again!
Date: 05/14/11 02:24 pm Title: Chapter Thirty Five
I didn't realize I was two chapters behind! This one was so sad. Nick had so many different emotions in this chapter, but I think that the saddest part was the end - when he reverts back thinking they're planning the Millennium tour. I really felt for Howie during that part, and I really liked the description of Nick acting like his 19 year old self. Great chapter, Rose!
Author's Response: Yes you were! You FAIL! lmao, okay not really, but I was wondering where you were and if I scared you off the story somehow lol. Thanks, this chapter wasn't easy to write cause I was trying to portray this accurately and not say cheesily or badly lol. Thanks Steph! :)
Date: 05/11/11 01:11 pm Title: Chapter Thirty Six
I only just noticed this update, so that was a nice little surprise for me today as it's quiet in work!
It's so sad to think of their last group CD :( But ten albums not including greatest hits is something to be proud of. How weird is this, in my latest chapter of my story, I also wrote about a 20th anniversary CD of unreleased songs, wish that would come true, it would be awesome!!
That was nice of the boys to arrange the day out on the boat for Nick, I think it's just what he needed. Brian is such a wonderful friend to have and I know Nick will be in safe hands while he's got friends like those.
Great chapter Rose!
Author's Response: I only just saw the review and I was happily surprised as well. :). It's sad to think about Backstreet ending but at the same time, I liked that they had a good run as I wrote it, and realized Nick needed to see that too. And LOL at that coincidence, I picked up that idea from the cruise. They were talking about doing that in the Q&A. :) I'd love it if they did. And I agree, if you wanna help Nick, put him in the ocean or a boat lol. I also agree about Nick being in good hands, he's lucky in a lot of ways even if he's unlucky in others. Thanks Steph!
Date: 05/06/11 01:31 am Title: Chapter Thirty Six
Aww, you did it, ZDR. You made me cry. I don't cry at fanfics very often anymore, but you made it happen with last few paragraphs of this chapter, all the talk of the final BSB album and how it's the end of an era, yet how proud Nick is of all they accomplished, even though it's so sad. :`( It was sad to see things be so awkward between Nick and Brian at the beginning, but I'm glad Nick's open to the idea of moving in with Brian. I loved the guys going sailing altogether, even though they used it to spring that idea on Nick. This was an amazing chapter!
Author's Response: Awwww I finally made you cry? *fist pumps* Yes! (Hmm...is that insensitive? LMAO). Things are so awkward but unfortunately there's just no way to fully bridge that gap anymore. :( The disease is just going to always reopen it. I knew when the guys were going to spring this on Nick, they'd need a way to soften the blow and sailing seemed to be the way to do it. Thanks ZDR!
Date: 05/05/11 08:01 pm Title: Chapter Thirty Six
This was one of my favorite chapters. He finally got some peace and fun times and realized that he has had a very blessed life. I want to hug him. I swear you make the characters seem so real like they will jump out of the story. Keep it up. I have a feeling this won't end like we think it will.
Marguerite
Author's Response: I knew eventually that would hit him. One of the stages of grief is acceptance you know? Thanks, hopefully they don't actually jump out cause I think that would freak people out LOL. As for the ending, I know exactly how this will end, but I'm not telling :P. Thanks!
Date: 05/05/11 04:24 am Title: Chapter Thirty Six
Wait, why isn't Brian going back to Atlanta? Were marital issues between him and Leighanne touched upon in earlier chapters? I'm confused. lol
Thanks for the update and for the lighter chapter.
Author's Response: LOL what? No...Brian and the family had come out to his LA house. Brian had decided to just keep the family out there given the circumstances. I just didn't bring up Leighanne in this chapter.
Date: 05/05/11 03:44 am Title: Chapter Thirty Six
I loved this chapter, I felt so bad for Nick and wondering if he will still remember how he loves the ocean or how to paint...its the little things he thinks of that get to me. Being out with the guys on the boat was a good thing for him I think. Going through this disease is not easy for people around you. I remember with my grandma we always tried to make her feel like she was a part of things and still loved her. I totally understand the motivation behind the boat trip. Glad he let them take him...and I loved seeing an update for this again. Great job again Rose!
Author's Response: You know, the things he wonders are usually things I wonder about the disease myself as I continue this story. Cause little things like that make a person who they are, if you lose your memories, does all that leave too? It just makes you think. And that's the thing with Nick, this disease isolates you horribly so the guys have to work at keeping him involved. Thanks Tracy!
