Date: 12/22/10 09:06 am Title: Chapter 44
Nick...... when will the boy learn? At least he accepts that he should've told them. I'm hoping he will soon.
Author's Response: LOL good question! Thanks for the review!! :)
Date: 12/22/10 05:43 am Title: Chapter 44
Wow, that was pretty close to the guys to find out what was going on. Cary handle the situation really well, I'm glad she was there to save Nick. I think the guys were right to try to find out what was happening with him, but yeah... That whas the perfect chance to tell the guys what he was going through. I was scared when the blood came. Love this story, do more <3
Author's Response: Thanks!! Yep, it's definitely going to get hard for Nick to keep this a secret much longer, now that they're onto him and know something is going on, even if they don't know what yet. He should have told them, but he's an idiot. LOL I'm gonna post the next chapter in a few! :)
Date: 12/22/10 05:04 am Title: Chapter 44
That was a REALLY good scene between Nick and AJ, when he asked straight up if he was using again. I really enjoyed it. There was a lot of tension in this chapter, and rightfully so. I'm glad the guys are starting to catch on to the fact that something is not right, even if they think that Nick's doing drugs again. Maybe they will keep a closer eye on him and eventually figure it out. Gah. Awesome chapter Julie!
Author's Response: Thanks Steph!! I enjoyed writing it. I love the dramatic scenes. It's definitely coming to a head. Update coming in a few!
Date: 12/22/10 04:51 am Title: Chapter 44
Oye vey in a half shell. Why didn't he tell them? Okay, I know he wants to finish off this leg of the tour, but still! They're gonna try & stick him in rehab or something! Jeez!
UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!
~Lenni~
Author's Response: Thanks, Lenni! Got another update coming finally in a few! I know, Nick's stupid LOL.
Date: 12/22/10 04:23 am Title: Chapter 44
Wow. Man, how bad is Nick willing to let things get with his health and his relationships with the guys? Those are definitely two "costs" of this whole secret. Now the guys are suspicious that he's doing drugs again. Wow. Another great update, Julie.
Author's Response: Good points! In his own misguided way, I think he thinks he's protecting them, that the actual truth is worse will hurt them worse than thinking he's back on drugs. In a way, he's right; a drug addiction is at least something that can be controlled and cured, if the person is willing and gets the right kind of help. His real illness is out of his control, and they're all going to be helpless to do anything about it. But he really needs to tell them. The truth will come out very soon. ;) Thanks, MA!
Date: 12/22/10 03:44 am Title: Chapter 44
Loved this chap, Julie. I figured that it's time for them to be suspicious. And it's very realistic with the fans finding out about the ER...I mean, that would most likely happen.Nick really needs to tell them. I can't even imagine how they'll react, but they need to know the truth. This was such a powerful chap. Thank you for updating!
Author's Response: Thanks, Sel! Yeah, definitely, it was about time. I think the guys have been noticing things for awhile and have just been waiting to confront Nick about them, which is what happened here. I had the toughest time figuring out how to handle the whole trip to the hospital; I knew there was no way he'd be able to completely cover it up, and I'm sure there are plenty of stalker fans who realistically would jump in a cab and tell the driver to follow Nick's cab LOL. The truth will come out, soon... Stay tuned! Thanks again!! :)
Date: 12/22/10 03:43 am Title: Chapter 44
It's good to see Nick's mind slowly evolve to what it is now. When this story first started, it was stubborn and cocky, then the cockiness faded away because he had Cary around to keep him sort of grounded about it, but the stubbornness was still there. And now you're slowly starting to see the stubbornness fade away and in its wake, defeat and fear are setting in. It's like he's being stripped of his armor and all you're left with is a scared little boy who doesn't know what to do anymore. The last line especially proves it.
Great chapter!
Author's Response: Thank you, Lily! You always put things into words so much better than I can even in my mind LOL. I never thought about it quite like that, but you're right. This has just been wearing him down and wearing him down, until you can sense he's about to cave, not because he wants to, but because he knows he can't hold out much longer. I love that you can see that evolution in his character over the course of the story. Thanks again!! :)
Date: 12/21/10 05:13 am Title: Chapter 43
Juxtaposing everything Cary was in that one simple line made me realize yet again how hard this must be for her. Though Cary is just as a main character in this story as Nick is, I feel like (as a reader, or at least in my case) you put most of your awareness on Nick, because he's the one that's being irrational, and Cary is just along for the ride. But I've said it before, and I'll say it again, Cary is a character for the ages. Her pull is so strong, and I really commend you for writing a character so defined; they're hard to come by.
As for Nick, I'm hoping he'll really open his eyes and see that things could've been a lot worse, and it's time to stop being unrealistic about his sickness, and the tour and whatever else he's hiding. But at the same time, I'm scared for him, because he's stubborn, so the deal he made with Cary just might backfire.
Author's Response: Wow, thank you SO much!!! Seriously, you don't know how much your compliments about Cary's character mean to me. Maybe it's because a lot of my fanfic friends are anti-romance people, but I am always really conscious of my female leads when I write them, and my goal is always to make them likeable and actually relatable, rather than perfect Mary Sue or annoying Anti-Sue. I have an older pair of stories, "Broken" and "By My Side," that are similar to this one, and the main girl in that, Claire, was like the best female character I've ever created; she was the kind of character I could see clearly in my head and know exactly what she would do or say in any situation. I felt like I had a challenge with Cary in this one to create just as vivid of a character, but not a replica of Claire. I was a little worried Cary was going to seem boring because I was trying to make her not like Claire, so it really means the world to me that you feel so drawn in by her. I like writing her a lot. I've always known that although this is a story about Nick, it's really her story; she's the one telling it. I'm glad I decided to switch on and off to his POV too because I think that's interesting, to see how his thoughts too, but I find Cary's easier to write in most of the time. I think she's just easier to relate to. Sorry to keep rambling on in my response LOL. Thanks again; your reviews always prompt me to think, and I love that!! =D
Date: 12/21/10 04:56 am Title: Chapter 42
Ah, two chapters, I feel so far behind! That cliffie from the last chapter, I feel like I've been on the edge of my seat! I really, really hope this is the swift kick in the ass Nick needs. And for some reason, when Nick asks Cary if she's mad at him for the Red Bull...was so freaking endearing, I CAN'T even be mad at him, and I've been calling him a dumbass in my head this entire story haha
Author's Response: LOL no worries! If this isn't the swift kick in the ass he needs, I'm not sure what will be. Dumbass Nick indeed LOL. But he is an endearing dumbass LOL... I'm glad you liked that part. ;) Thanks Lily!
Date: 12/20/10 10:18 am Title: Chapter 43
No wonder he had trouble sleeping! But at least he now knows how to take his own pulse readings, so he can be reassured that his heart is beating normal.
Great chapter Julie, was nice having a couple of chapters to read in one go :)
Author's Response: Thanks again! Yeah, I'd have been freaked out too. Glad you liked! :)
Date: 12/20/10 10:06 am Title: Chapter 42
Oh god Julie, that chapter was so intense and so brilliantly written! I love how much attention to detail you put in your stories.
Poor Nick though, he's really going through a hard time :(
Author's Response: Thanks Steph!! This was a hard chapter to write, cause it was so intense, and I was googling something every few sentences, it seemed. But I'm happy with how it turned out, and I'm glad you liked it! Thanks again!!
Date: 12/20/10 09:57 am Title: Chapter 43
Wow, Nick is really scared - but that is understandable. I really hope Nick takes better care of his body/health now than before.
Franzi
Author's Response: Thanks Franzi! Yeah, understandable... I'd be freaked out, too! (Of course, I would have been freaked out the entire time, instead of Nick, who is just naively delusional LOL). Hopefully this will be the wake-up call he needs. :)
Date: 12/20/10 06:28 am Title: Chapter 43
These last two chapters were awesome! Great job once again with all the medical stuff. While what happened was very serious, I'm glad that this happened in a way. Hope it was a wake up call to take this seriously and slow down a bit. I also really liked the ultimatum from Cary. Can't wait to read more.
Author's Response: Thanks Sel! Totally get what you mean. It was a wake-up call he needed, and Cary needed to show him some tough love. Thanks for the review, as always! :)
Date: 12/20/10 02:31 am Title: Chapter 43
Poor Nicky. I feel for him & can understand his reasoining & such. I hope it all turns out the way he wants it too.
UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!!
~Lenni~
Author's Response: Thanks Lenni!! I'm glad it makes sense to you. He's making so many bad choices in this story LOL, but I try to make them justifiable if you think about them from his point of view. Maybe we all wouldn't do the same thing, but I'm glad you can see why he does. Thanks again!!
Date: 12/20/10 02:20 am Title: Chapter 43
I like the new deal, but how will she gage if he is chugging red bulls again? I know the hospital visit scared him, but he hid the red bulls from her for how long prior?
Author's Response: Good point. He did hide it from her, but now that she knows he was doing it, he might have a harder time... also it would be pretty dumb of him to keep doing it when he knows what it can do to him (then again, he's made some pretty dumb choices already in this story LOL). Thanks for the review, Lore!
