Chasing Beautiful by Pengi
Summary:

It's been sixteen years since Brian, Nick and Amanda took their epic journey in search of Something Beautiful, and now the daughter Brian never knew he had is in search of answers to questions about the father she never met...

Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys Characters: Brian, Nick, Other
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: Death
Challenges:
Series: Something Beautiful
Chapters: 42 Completed: No Word count: 57954 Read: 65742 Published: 10/21/11 Updated: 05/14/12
Story Notes:
Sequel to the story "Something Beautiful".
Prologue by Pengi
Prologue

I can't believe it's only been sixteen years since Brian died.

It always feels like it was just yesterday we were on the bus laughing and enjoying the company of each other, until I close my eyes and try to remember what his laugh sounded like, or the way his features moved when he made certain faces. Then, it's hard to believe it hasn't been decades since we were there.

I remember spending long nights, staring into the darkness, thinking and feeling guilty. I even remember feeling guilty for feeling guilty, since I knew that's not what he wanted. 'No matter what', he'd said, 'never believe you're guilty.' But I couldn't help but believe somehow that it was my fault. My fault for going on the trip with him, letting him stop his treatments. My fault for listening to him when he tried to say good-bye, I guess.

And God knows I've raised my fair share of ruckus in the past sixteen years. I guess that's the way it goes when you lose your best friend and push everyone else away from you in the aftermath...
This story archived at http://absolutechaos.net/viewstory.php?sid=10720