October 6th 2013

How could Roger hurt me? Roger was my boyfriend, well no ex-boyfriend of 9 years. It's been two days and I still can't get over it. How could Roger cheat on me? I am a catch, right? My name is Regan Algi. I'm full Italian. I am from South Beach Miami. I'm 25 years old and I still live at home with my parents. However, I live in the basement. A very furnished, nice basement. My parent's are blessed with a great house, with my dad being a pediatrician and my mom is a principal at a local high school here in Miami. My basement is small and cozy. It has two bedrooms, which one one bedroom I use for storage. I have a small eat in kitchen, a little living room, bathroom, and a little corner for my washing machine and dryer. I work as a vet tech at a local animal clinic. I love my job and I love animal which is obvious. I have my own 3 year old female bichon frise. Her name is Cannoli, and she is my fury best friend besides my bestest friend Diane Keet. I pay my own bills, regardless living in my parent's basement. Not to mention, I found myself attractive. I always notice I get extra special male attention. I am 5'3 and I am about 120lbs. I'm a curvy girl. I have a large 36d breast, 22inch waist,38inch hips, and a big ol' Italian booty. I also have long,thick, dark brown hair that stops right before the top of my butt. Big light, light brown, almond shaped eyes, a small nose, full lips but not too full, and an olive skin tone. I also find myself nice and funny. Two nights ago in the middle of dinner Roger said "I need more. I can't do this anymore. I am moving up in my company, moving out, growing up, and your still you. Living in your parent's basement with your dog, and your just a vet tech with shitty pay. God your gorgeous, but I need more. I found more in someone else I work with, and I am going to ask her to marry." After he said his piece, threw money on the table and left before I could even speak. I picked up Cannoli and crawled onto my couch and cried in her soft fur. This wound was going to take a long time to heal.

October 14,2013

It has been a whole week since Roger broke up with me. I'm still pathetically sad, but getting myself on a normal routine. I work, workout, eat dinner, and watch tv and play with Cannoli. My parent come to check on me every now and then to make sure I'm still alive. I just got out of the shower and was combing my hair when my cell phone went off. I picked it up to read the caller id. It was Diane. Diane has been awesome during this time. She's been stopping buy with chips and phish food ice cream every night. Which may not be a good thing since I have to spend another extra hour in the gym. Diane was gorgeous. She was tall like 5"7, fair skin, short blond bob, puppy dog green eyes. She was a dance teacher for little kids, and had a dancer's body to prove it. She was loud, crazy, single and loved her life. I picked up

"Hello"

"Hey whore, what's up???!" Diane yelled through the phone

"Uhh nothing, went to the gym, showered, and now I'm about cook some chicken for me and Cannoli" I answered

"Wow. ok. I love Cannoli and all but your worse than a crazy cat lady." she said sarcastically

"Whatever, what do you want? besides make fun of my life" I playfully said

"Well, you know my 26th birthday is next week, and my daddy gave me a fab birthday present. He is sending me and a friend of my choice on 3 day cruise to the Bahamas next week. But the catch is that it's a Backstreet Boy Cruise. Which you know is my fave boy band ever and I love my poor little Howie." Diane explained trying to hold back her excitement

"Okkk....so how do you expect me to take off of work on such short notice? who will take care of my Cannoli? and you know I always been a Nsync girl. That's what most of our fights were about as kids." I replied

"Whatever. Fuck Nsuck, besides Justin, where are they now? nowhere!! Your parents can watch Cannoli, they love her as much as you do and you haven't take a day off from work since you graduate school and started working. Oh and we sail out from Miami..perfect" Diane pleaded

I nodded " Your right, let's do this. I need this. Tell your dad he is wonderful and thanks. Now let me go do some shopping at beach bunny and bebe."

"YASSS HONEYY!!!!! Bring Halloween costume. Love you!! Bye" Diane squealed

I ended the call. I was excited to go on a vacation even if it was a Backstreet Boy Cruise.

October 24th, 2013

I was in my bedroom packing my clothes with Cannoli at my side. I heard a knock on my bedroom door. I turned to see my mother standing there smiling with her arms crossed. My mother was a lovely woman. She was my height or maybe an inch shorter. She was heavyset, but dressed well for her body type. She had salt & pepper hair up to her chin, almond shape blue eyes, full lips like my own. I loved my mom, but my parents in fact.

"Hi Mom" I said smiling

"I see you packing, Reg. Are you excited?" Mom asked as she picked up Cannoli and smothered her with kisses.

"I guess, I am. I need to have more of a life." I responded

"I think this will be good for you, Reg. You'll have fun! You'll get a nice, little break from work. Your dad and I will take care of Cannoli, and you'll be able to put that douche lord behind you." Mom said nonchalantly

"MOM?!!!!!" I shouted almost laughing

"What? It's true. Roger lost the best thing that ever happened to him. Watch and see, a few months you will be a different woman." Mom said

"I hope so, Mom" I nodded

"You'll see. Have fun, honey. Do everything I wouldn't do." Mom said as she kissed my forehead. Mom left my room, and the basement and took Cannoli with her.

I hope in a few months Roger will be the thing of the past.

October 25th, 2013

Today was the day of the cruise. We successfully board the ship, settled in our cabin and now were getting ready for the sail away party. I put my long, dark hair in a high ponytail, and some bronzer and lip gloss. I chose to where my pink and lime green beach bunny bikini, but of course with a pair of denim shorts to cover my big ol butt, and a pair of pink flip flops. Diane on the other hand wore a yellow polka dot bikini, white flip flops, a white fedora, and a cool aid smile.

"I'm so fucking excited! Can't wait to meet the boys, get drunk, and fuck." Diane said excitedly

"Fuck who?" I questioned

"Well, not the boys, I would love to, but they are married with kids. I'm talking about the hot security guards. I'm horny, and I'm sure you are too. Let loose, Reg" Diane smiled

She was right. I was horny. Very horny. I'm not the one night stand type of girl. Well I never tried to be, since Roger was my first and only boyfriend so far. Never had a chance to promiscuous. I never had complaints about sex with Roger, yet I had nothing to compare it to. I do know I never had the "fuck me senseless sex" Diane raves about.

"Come on,Reg! Let's go so we can get a good spot." Diane interrupted my train of thought.

I nodded and we left. The sail away was pretty fun. We danced to some backstreet boy tunes the dj played, and had some drinks. I had to admit the guys were cute. Even cuter than Nsync. The blonde one named Nick Carter was especially cute.

Later on, we went to the "Neon Party" all decked out in our neon colors. I ended up leaving early and left Di flirting with some security guard named Carlos.

October 26th 2013 The next day was fun. We went to the beach party, where we watch the boys play games and we got to enjoy the beach of the Bahamas. Now we where getting ready for tonight's Halloween party. I decided to be Princess Jasmine, since a lot of people always tell I look like her. I wore my long hair down with a little curl in it and a turquoise jeweled headband around my head. A turquoise and gold trim push up bra with matching bottoms, and gold ballerina flats. Diane was a cowgirl. She wore a cowboy hat, a white and red plaid crop shirt, short denim skirt, and cowgirl boots. I was reapplying my gold eye shadow when Diane walked behind me.

"You look great! You seem to be enjoying yourself." Diane said

"I am. Thanks to you. Even thought Justin Timberlake and Joey Fatone would of made this trip much more enjoyable!" I joked

Diane rolled her eyes " Whatever, crazy. Come on. Let's get wastey pants!!!" Diane grabbed my hand and we went to the party.

We had a great time. The boys were dressed up as the Village People. We were able to get quick shot with Kevin and AJ. By 2:00 am Di had asked if she can go hang out with security guard Carlos since he was getting off the clock now. I told her to have fun. 15 minutes after she left I decided to head back to our cabin to get some sleep. When I reached our cabin,I had stepped into darkness. I saw nothing. I just heard moaning sounds coming from Diane's bed.

"Uhh Carlos..yeah baby" Diane moaned

"You feel so slick around me" Carlos moanded back.

I stood there shocked. After a second, I quietly exited and walked back downstairs to the bar. It was going to be a long and sleepless night,

By the time I got to the bar the party people were gone. It was just staff cleaning up. I got the bartender's attention.

"Shots of scotch please. Keep them coming till I get up to leave" I said to the bartender.

He obeyed, and started pouring and passing. I sucked down my first two shots and went to grab the third when I heard a smooth male voice.

"Princess Jasmine, why so blue?"

I turned around and there was Nick Carter. Backstreet Boy's Nick Carter. I was actually star struck. He was no long in his construction worker costume, but wearing and American eagle white tee, dark green, baggy sweats with white and green sneakers.

"Hi" I managed to whisper.

Nick smiled and gestured to the seat next to me "This seat taken by your boyfriend?"

I downed my third shot, and went to grab my fourth.

"Ha! I wouldn't bring a boyfriend to a cruise like this. So no that seat is not for a boyfriend, because I don't have one anymore. He wasn't in love with me, he wanted someone else after 9 years of dating." I rambled as I took another shot.

I could feel the liquor getting to me. It was making me woozy, and my eyes feel heavy. I felt free.

"Shit! That sucks! His loss. Your a gorgeous girl and could drink with the big boys. Impressive." Nick smiled

He has a great smile.

I smirked " Thanks...I think. So where's your wife?girlfriend?whatever"

"Shouldn't you know this stuff? being a fan and all" he asked

I shook my head "No. Honestly, you guys are very talented and handsome, but I was an Nsync girl. My friend invited me along for her birthday. She's a super fan. Which leads to me being here. Drunk and by myself because she is banging security guard Carlos in our room."

"Wow, and your honest. Brutally honest. I like that. Well since you are all for honesty. I am engaged." He said

"Lucky girl, where is she?" I asked as I took my fifth show.

Ok now I was drunk.

"Home. She is back in our home in Tennessee. We have been fighting a lot lately. She helped me through my demons, so I proposed. Now she wants to get married asap and I just can't do it now. If we are in real love there is no need to rush. We are using these days as a break. No contact till I arrive back in Tennessee." he shrugged

I felt bravery sweep over my body. God damn he is sexy. I hopped off the seat and got real close to Nick. So close I could smell his fresh soap scent.

"Look I normally don't do this. I have a proposition. I am sad, you seem not so happy yourself. Tonight fuck me senseless. Take me back to your room and let's do this. One night, one moment, no strings attached, and just our dirty little secret. Tomorrow is our last day. We will never see each other again anyway." I whispered in his ear.

"You are drunk.." He whispered

"I know what I want. Are you in?" I whispered back.

He nodded and grabbed my hand and we went back to his room.

Nick opened up the door this room and turned on the lights. As he locked the door behind him, I went to shut off the lights, but his hand stopped me.

"I want to see all of you. Keep the light on." He whispered in my face right before he went in to kiss me.

His lips are so soft against mine. His tongue plunged in my mouth. Our tongues danced in each others mouths for a bit. He picked me up and I instinctively wrapped my legs around his waist. His lips never left mine as he laid me on the bed as we undressed each other. Once we were both naked he rolled on to his back and motioned me towards him. I crawled on top of him as I feasted on his lips. His hands down between my legs, and finger's feathered over my wet and swollen sex.

"God your so hot and wet" Nick groaned in my mouth.

We kept kissing as he played with my sex.

"Sit on my face" Nick said

"Wwhat?" I asked nervously

"Just do it!!" he insisted with a sexy smile.

I did as I was told, and put my sex on his mouth. Nick's hot breathe branded me. I held on to the headboard so I wouldn't topple over. His mouth closed on my clit, as I rocked back and forth. He used one hand to his fingers in my wetness and the other to play with my nipples.

"Nick!" I screamed as I erupted in his mouth.

My body went limp. I crawled off his face and laid on my back as I spread my legs for him. I wanted more. Now he he kneeled between my legs. He dipped down and gave me a kiss. I tasted my scent on him. Nick then thrusted his long, bulging length into my slick sex. We bought moaned as he entered.

"Your so tight." he said through his gritted teeth.

"I know, do it harder. Let me cum again." I almost begged

That's what he did. Each thrust was harder and faster. Making both of us scream louder and louder. After we climaxed, I remember Nick getting up and going to the bathroom, and I rolled over to go to sleep. I can't believe I just had the most amazing sex with Nick Carter.

October 27th,2013 It was 7:30 am when I awoke. I was naked in Nick's room. Nick was sleeping naked next to me. I couldn't face him. I quietly jumped out of the bed. Grabbed my clothes and got dressed quickly. I left quietly. I wanted to leave a note, but it was a one night stand. Nothing to say. Just take your shit and leave.

I returned to my room, hoping Diane would be sleeping. I tried to jump back in bed quietly but it was too late. Diane popped out of the bathroom.

"Dirty little stay out!! where were you? I was worried sick" Diane asked

"Uhhh....I slept on deck..on a beach chair. You didn't seem worried when you banging Carlos in our cabin." I lied

"Oh shit! I am sorry. I didn't mean to kick you out of your room." Diane said apologetically as she hugged me tight.

I hugged her tightly back too. I wanted to tell her. I didn't want to lie. I didn't want to look like a whore. Not because of the one night stand, but because Nick was engaged. I am as bad as the girl Roger left me for.

"No worries, Di. My night wasn't that bad. I'm going to go take a shower."

I walked in the bathroom, and started running the water. I undressed, and stepped in the hot water. I grabbed my body wash and started to wash all of Nick's scent of me from our night together. I have to be honest if it wasn't nasty, I would never wash his scent of me. I loved it.

When I got out of the shower, I realized my phone was buzzing. It was a text message. I picked up my phone. It was from someone named "Nick". I don't know a Nick...well, besides Nick Carter. How did it he get my number. I don't believe we exchanged numbers. I opened the text and started to ready and reply;

Nick: Hey Princess Jasmine, it's Nick from last night.

Regan: Hi, how did you get my number?

Nick: Not to sound too creepy, but when you fell asleep last night I kind of put my number in your phone. I knew we would need to talk.

Regan: oh! lol.

Nick: Can you meet me in my room in a few? My cabin number is E40.

Regan: Ok, let me get dressed. I will see you soon.

I rushed to get ready. My heart was pounding. I was excited to see him again, even though I knew it could never be. I put my hair in a slicked up bun. I threw on crop PINK tank top, black leggings, and flip flops. Then headed to his cabin.

10 Minutes Later

I knocked on his door. He answered the door immediately. God damn he was gorgeous. He wore black sweats low on his hips. Nick smiled and motioned me to come in. I stepped inside his room, and looked around nervously.

"Would you like something to eat or drink?" Nick asked politely breaking the silence

"No thank you" I shook my head

"Sooo?? About last night...." Nick went to speak

I interrupted him " I know, you getting married. I expect nothing. It was one amazing night. I'll never forget it. I don't need you to feel sorry for me. Today is the last day, then we will never lay eyes on each other again."

"Oh ok well I wasn't going to say that, but okay" he said staring at me in my eyes

I nodded " Ok see you around." I went to go on leave

"WAIT! What's your name? I know it's not Princess Jasmine." Nick asked loudly

"Regan. My name is Regan. Bye Nick. Good Luck. I responded. He just waved and I walked out the room.

The rest of the trip continued as normal. It was fun. I could of sworn I caught Nick staring at me through the crowds. That was in my head though since there was thousands of girls there. This trip was amazing, and I will never forget it.

December 27th,2013

Not much has really changed in the past two months. I just turned 26 years old two weeks. Even with all of Diane's insisting that I go out and be a party whore, I opted to stay home and have a cake with my mom and dad. It was still my boring pathetic life. Me and my dog in my basement. I was pretty much over Roger, even though I get a pang in my chest when I thought of his engagement. I often thought about Nick. I wish I could of been his girl. His one, but like Roger, he was engaged.
Even during Christmas dinner I wondered what Nick was doing or how he was celebrating. I often wondered if he thought about me the same way I thought about him.

But now I was jogging along the beach with Diane. I was stuck in my own thoughts. I wasn't even paying attention to what Diane was rambling on about. Suddenly, I started to feel dizzy, nauseous , and a tightness in my abdominal area. I seen Diane screaming my name but couldn't hear a thing. Then things just went BLACK.

I woke up in the hospital. Everyone was there watching me. My mom, Diane, and my dad was holding my hand. My dad was such a gentle man. I called him the gentle giant. He was a very tall, stocky man. He could of played for the Miami Dolphins, but he was too gentle, too kind for that. That's why he is such an amazing pediatrician.

"Hi" I mumbled

"Hey doll face" my dad whispered back

"I'm glad you up, Regan. I was so scared." Diane said

"My head is killing me. What happened?" I asked

"You were running with Diane and you fainted. The doctor ran some test while you were sleeping, and she should be back with the results soon." Mom replied

The doctor walked in with my filed in her hand. She was smiling when she seen me awake.

"Glad to see you up and alert Regan. I'm Dr.Bashita. How do you feel?" she asked sweetly

"I'm okay. My head hurts horribly." I replied

"Normal, I will give you something for that. But before that I have some results here, and I will like to ask your friend and family to leave while we talk." Dr.Bashita said with concern in her face.

"Dr.Bashita, anything you can say to me, you can say in front of them." I reassured her.

"Are you sure, Regan?" Dr. Bashita asked

I nodded yes.

"Well, Regan, after running some test it seems to be you are pregnant." Dr. Bashita said

Everyone in the room gasped including me. I felt my body go cold.

"Can't be" I said nervously.

I looked to Mom and Dad for help but they were frozen in shock. Diane was confused.

" Regan, when was your last menstrual?" asked Dr.Bashita

I thought, and I thought. Then it hit me. Oh shit. Nick. Nick's baby.

"October 16" I responded quietly

"Congratulations, Ms.Algi. Your going to be a mother. Seems your about two months along. I would set up and appointment with your OBGYN and until you then stay of your feet and take it easy." Dr.Bashita said before leaving the room.

It felt like an eternity on the way home from the hospital. Even though the hospital was only 15 minutes away from our home. There was silence the whole way home.
Cannoli greeted us at the door. I picked her up and kissed her. I tried to disappear with her and Diane at my side to the basement. I knew my parent's weren't letting me get off that easy.

"Regan, come sit and talk to us." my mother said in a stern tone.

I sat on the couch across from my mother and father in our living room. I'm holding on tight to Cannoli and Diane sat next to me with her hand resting on my back.

"Regan, how could you do this? do you even know the father? you need tell him." my father demanded I seen tears in his eyes.

"It just happened. I know who the father is. I refuse to tell him. He is busy and he is getting married." I said

"Damn, Regan this story keeps getting worse and worse." Diane chimed in.

"Honey, Regan, you are making a huge mistake." my mother said trying to be calm.

"No child is a mistake. I will take care of this baby. Think what you want I'm not a whore." I said standing up, and I walked downstairs, and Diane followed.

I sat down on bed, and was playing with Cannoli.

"Regan, who's the father?" Diane asked sitting next to me

"Look, Diane, in time , I will tell you but now just need you to be my friend and auntie." I said with a smirk

"Ok, I can do that. I can't wait to be a aunt." Diane smiled and hugged me.

I hugged her back, and deep down I really can't wait to be a mom.

July 19th,2014

On July 19th, 2014 at 7lbs and 19inches my daughter was born. I was in labor for 12 hours, and boy it was painful. When the doctor handed me my daughter, I felt something I never felt before. I felt love that I would give my last breath for. She was beautiful for a baby just born minutes ago. She was so tiny. Her head was full of thick, black hair, big blue eyes, a button nose, and full lips. I couldn't wait till my parents and Diane to meet her. My parents have gotten over their anger, they were now very excited to meet their grandchild. Myself, mom, dad, and Diane finished her nursery just in time. The nursery was lilac with all white furniture. The theme was puppies and kittens, to represent my love for animals as a vet tech. I couldn't stop giving my little one kisses as I held her. Nurse Rose interrupted our bonding session.

"Ms.Algi,do you have a name for her yet?" asked Nurse Rosie

I thought for a bit. My whole pregnancy I haven't really picked out a set name. I figured when I met her it would come to mind. As I held my baby, it came to me. Her first name would be representative of the first night me and her father met and the middle name would represent her dad. Over the past few months I did a lot of research on the Carters.

"Her name is going to be Jasmine Leslie Algi." I smiled

"Fits her well, honey" Nurse Rosie smiled back

"Yeah...Yeah it really does" I nodded

"I'll send your family in" Nurse Rosie said as she left the room.

Seconds after My parents and Diane rushed into the room. They were so excited. My father basically snatched Jasmine from arms, and him and mom started cooing over her and so did Diane.

It almost bought tears to my eyes how much love my daughter will be getting. I wish I could give her a father.

August 22nd,2014

Jasmine is already a month and 3 days old. She has grown into her looks already. She is already a chunky little thing. Jasmine weights 12.5 lbs , and she is 20 inches long. She has a lot of thick, black hair, my olive skin complexion , my almond shaped eyes with Nick's blue eye color, she still had her button nose and Nick's lips and smile. She was perfection. I am not just saying that because she is my daughter, but she is really is a beauty. One thing, about my little Jazzy is that she had one hell of a pair of lungs. I haven't slept more than 4 hours a night since she was born. Between breast feeding and stress I lost all my 30 pounds and plus in a month. I weighed a 115lbs now but still had all my curves. My parent's and Diane helped as much as possible, but they had work and their own lives to go about. I was a single mom, and I am on maternity leave till November. This was my life now, and it was stressful but I loved it. Cannoli love Jazzy, she is very protective over her. Just me and my girls. I often thought that one day I would love to give Jazzy a father figure, and I hope I can do that. It hurt the most when I would go for walks with Jazzy, and see doting dads and little girls loving their daddies, I want that for her. It bought tears my eye thinking about it again as I watched her peacefully sleeping in her crib. I jumped out of my thoughts when I heard Diane's voice behind me.

"Hi skinny" Diane said from behind me

I turned around to see Diane standing there holding Cannoli.

"Hey what's up?" I asked with a smile.

"Nothing, came to see you and my goddaughter, but I see I am a little late" Diane pouted.

"Yes, you are but don't worry we can have some girl time. Want some Ben & Jerry ice cream?" I asked.

"Sure!! Lead the way!!" Diane smiled.

We sat down with the ice cream in between us on my kitchen table. I took a big spoonful.

"Mmmmm...so good!!! This is the first I have eaten all day." I sighed

"Your crazy! Your breast feeding you have to make sure you eat more. I know you don't have post podem, so whats your deal, Reg?" Diane asked with concern as she put some ice cream in her mouth.

She was right. Something is bothering me. My lie. My secret is eating at me.

"I have been lying. I have a confession.." I said running my hand through my long dark hair.

"It's okay. Let it out.." Diane said inching closer to my face.

"The cruise. Halloween theme night. I didn't sleep on a beach chair while you were that guy. I was with someone. Nick Carter. I met him by the bar. I was drinking. We started taking about how sad I was over Roger, he told me was having a bumpy relationship. I gave him an offer he couldn't refuse. One night. One moment, no strings attached. Look where that got me. He is getting married. The sick thing is that I like him even barely knowing him. It kills that I have lied to you, my parents, myself, my daughter. Jazzy may be too little now, but what happens when she is older? I know I should of been more careful...but I don't know...I'm lost." I said as tear streamed down my face.

"Why didn't you think you could of told me this? I am your best friend. Your sister. It's okay. You should tell him. I am sure there is ways to get in touch with Nick." Diane said as she brush some hair away from my face.

I shook my head " I have his number. But I don't want the publicity this will be. Plus all he would do is pay me tons of money to keep Jazzy away, and I don't need his money."

"Ok, I guess. How about this? Tomorrow I am off. I will take care of Jasmine. You go out and get a makeover, and new wardrobe because too be honest your raggedy. hot mess. rachet." Diane laughed

"I will def take you up on that" I laughed as well.

The next day, I did take care of myself. I got the whole works. First, I got a facial, mani and pedi. I got my eyebrows done, eyelash extension filled. Went tanning. Bought a whole new wardrobe as recommended by Diane. My major change was my hair. I cut and dyed my hair. My once long hair now lays about an inch past my shoulders with layers and a side bang. I dyed my dark hair to a honey blonde color. With this new look I was starting to feel better already.

August 24th,2014

So I have been standing on line for hours at the Backstreet Boy Meet and & Greet in Orlando. Usually I be excited to see the boys, but I was here on a mission. I drove a few hours to be here, and I am third on line so hopefully I can complete my conquest quickly. I had lied to Regan, but only for her and my little Jasmine's benefit. I had offered Regan to go out on a Mommy Pampering day, so that was my time to swab Jasmine's mouth with a qtip, and cut a strand of hair. I know it was very FBI of me. Nick had to know. I believe every child deserves a father and I think my best friend has a soft spot for Nick, and I want her to be happy. I had the qtip and hair strand in a zip lock bag in my demin jacket pocket.

Screams erupted. I seen the boys enter. Nick was the last one. Perfect.

Finally it was my turn. I got a couple of things signed, hugs from the guys. Last one was Nick. Here goes nothing. I reached Nick and he put out his hand with a smile. Damn I do see Jasmine in him when he smiles. I take his hand and pull him close to whisper in his ear.

"I am going to make this quick and easy. You had sex with my friend Regan on the last cruise. She got pregnant with your daughter who is a little over a month now. I have some DNA right here, I came prepared because I know how you celebrities are. Do the right thing." I said as I put the zip lock bag in his hand. I walked away feeling accomplished as I left him there stunned and speechless.

August 27th,2014

I just hung up the phone with the clinic. It's official. I am dad. I can't believe I had a baby by a woman I barely even now. That made me just feel like Usher in "Confessions". I barely know her, but I was intrigued by her. If she would of made me talk that last day in my room, she would of known that, and maybe things would have been different. The first task I had to conquer was tell, my fiancée, Lauren. Lauren and I had been struggling with our relationship for over a year now. Once, we got engaged things changed. She changed. I even changed. I tried to leave a few times but she always threaten she go off the deep end again. I would never want that for ever. We got through our addictions and our other issues together, and if either of us went down that path again it would only lead to death. I took a deep breathe, and walked into our bed room. There Lauren was sitting on our bed on her laptop writing on her fitness blog. She looked and smirked.

"I thought you never come in to check on me." said Lauren

"Sorry, I haven't been in my right my mind for a few days." I replied running my hands through my hair

"Well, come here and I'll give you something to free your mind." Lauren winked as she put her laptop aside.

"I actually came into talk to you about something. Its very important, and I need you to hear me out." I said as I kneeled in front of her and took her hands into mine.

"Ok, tell me. Your worrying me." Lauren said with a look of worry on her face.

"I just found out I fathered a baby girl. She is only a month or so. When I was on the cruise, and we were on the break I slept with a woman I met, and she got pregnant. I took a DNA test and the baby is mine. I want to be part of this little girl's life, I don't want her to be bought up in a broken home." I said

"Your such an asshole. How could you?!! We weren't on a official break. We were just not suppose to talk for 3 days, that's it. What do you mean you want to be part of her life? You want to be this whore?" Lauren cried

"No...I don't know. She's not a whore." I said getting defensive.

"This is what your going to do, I am going to pack up some things and stay with my father for a week. You go take care of whatever you need to because you and I are going to have our own family, and your going to marry me." Lauren said stood up and walked over to closet and started throwing her clothes on the bed.

I watched her pack. I didn't stop her. I didn't beg her not to be mad. I didn't want to. Finally, she left. I called all the boys, which they were all in shock but wish me the best. Told my brother and sisters they were aunts and a uncle, they called me stupid but are excited to meet her soon. Then I called my publicist and manager and told them to see how they think it's best to let the world know. Not that I care what the world thinks. The tabloids were going to eat this shit up.

In the zip lock bag this blonde mystery woman gave me was an address that was Regan's. I went online and booked my ticket to Miami. Next, before I pack I had to call Regan and tell her daddy is coming to town.

August 27th,2014

Diane and I were sitting on the floor in front of Jasmine while she was in her bouncy chair. Cannoli sat next to the bouncy, guarding Jazzy as usual. We sat in front of her talking to her and singing to her. I heard my cell ringing from my bedroom. I got up and ran to my room. I grabbed it without looking at the caller id.

"Hello!!" I said

"Regan? It's Nick Carter. How are you?" Nick asked

My body went cold and limp. I leaned against my dresser for support.

"Umm hi. what do you want?" I managed to choke out.

"What do I want? Don't you know? You sent your friend to tell me about our daughter with all these DNA samples." He said matter of factly.

"What friend?" I asked

"This skinny, blond girl with a short hair cut." He answered

"Oh my! you have to be fucking with me? What do you want from me and my child?" I hissed

"You didn't send her? So you were never going to tell me? Do I seem like some kind of monster? Did I treat you badly?" Nick asked sounding kind of annoyed and hurt.

"I never said that" I said as my tone softened.

"Well, we will talk tomorrow. I'm coming to Miami to spend time with you and OUR daughter. I'll be there by noon. Your friend also gave me your address too. I'll be seeing you. Good Night, Regan and sweet dreams to our little girl." He said

I just hung up. I was pissed. Diane played me. She lied to me. I stormed into the living room.

"You had no right!!!" I screamed

"Wh..What are you talking about?" she asked confused

"ooh don't play coy with me. After I told you, I wanted to not have Nick in my life for many reasons, you make it your business to go and tell him with DNA samples??!! Is that why you offered to watch her?!! Now he is coming tomorrow for a whole week. Your a liar." I screamed

"I am a liar? You lied for 10 months about everything. I did it because maybe I feel your child deserves to have a dad or atleast know who he is, and maybe you deserve to be happy too. I don't think you feel you deserve to be happy. Maybe for once you can have your cake and eat it too. I want that for you and Jasmine. I am sorry I went behind your back." she said sincerely.

"You need to go. You were wrong. You went behind my back. I don't want to see you ever again." I said in a disgusted tone as a tear streamed down my face.

She nodded " If that's what you want. Ok. You better get ready and put your new wardrobe and look to the test, he will be here tomorrow."

Diane bent down and gave Jasmine a long kiss on the head, and she gave Cannoli a pet. Then she walked up the steps and left.

August 28th,2014

I stood in front of my long length mirror staring myself making sure I look presentable. My now honey colored blond hair was parted to side falling a little past my shoulders. I had lightly applied some brown shimmer eye shadow, smudged a little black eye liner, mascara, bronzer, blush, and lip gloss. I was going for a nice, mature look, not the party Miami girl look he seen the last time. I wore a black fitted pencil skirt that fell right before my knee, and a white crop top. Of course the white crop top did not show my stomach, it just off in my waist. I paired black and gold strappy stilettos with my outfit. My sweet little Jasmine was dressed nicely as well. I dressed her in a pink and purple short sleeved dress. It had a lamb on it. It was a casual every day dress, not frilly. She has so much hair, so I put pigtails in her hair. Pink and Purple bows with lambs on it held her pigtails together. I also was able to find silver ballerina shoes that are small enough to fit her tiny feet. I heard my mother call my name to come upstairs. I grabbed Jasmine and we went upstairs, with Cannoli following right behind us.

"Are you nervous?" My mom asked as she handed my dad a cup of coffee.

"Yes" I said as I gave my Jasmine a snuggle.

They smiled.

"Wait...why are you guys home? It's 11:45am. You guys are usually working." I said confused

"That's why we called you up here, why don't you go take a peak." my dad said nodding towards the entrance.

I walked over with Jasmine still in my arms. I noticed that all our blinds were shut tight. For some reason, I didn't bother to ask why. I just went to open the door. I heard my parents yell.

"DONT OPEN THE DOOR!!!"

Of course, I didn't listen. When I opened the door, camera flashes were going off everywhere. People yelling my name. There was about 30 paparazzi in front of my house. This was what I wanted me and my child to avoid. My anger started to build up towards Diane. Paparazzi were yelling questions like:

"Regan, Can you give us details about your night with Nick?"

"Regan, what is the baby's name?"

"Regan, how do you feeling being the other woman and having a love child with the most popular backstreet boy?"

"Regan! That baby is beautiful!! You could you smile for us more!!"

I slammed the door, and ran into the living room and slouched down on the couch. Jasmine still in my arms, she was looking up at me cooing. My parents walked into the living room.

"I guess they aren't leaving anytime soon. We will just have to venture to work. It's ok, honey. Have a good day. We love you both." my mom said as they went to leave.

I heard the yelling when my parents stepped outside. I nuzzled my face into Jasmine's next, and inhaled her sweet baby smell to calm me down. I heard the door open again. I didn't look up thinking my mom must of forgotten something as usual. Cannoli started barking. I ignored it.

"Regan?" said the male voice.

I looked up and there stood Nick. He was more handsome than I last saw him. He stood there tall and lean. He was much taller than me. He wore a dark green button down shirt and black jeans with sneakers.

"How did you get in here?" I asked standing up.

Cannoli finally stopped barking,she was too busy smelling Nick now.

"I was coming in when these people who must of been you parents were leaving. They told me just to walk in." he said stepping closer to us.

"Oh, your here alone?" I asked hoping he was.

"Yes, can I hold her?" He asked stepping even closer.

God he smelled like heaven.

"Yeah, um..be careful with her she is only a little over a month. Her name is Jasmine Leslie Algi." I said

"I know, and don't worry I won't hurt her. I never will." he said as he took her from me.

I smiled.

"I think I am in love with her already." he said smiling at her.

I sat next to Nick on the couch. I was feeling uncomfortable. He was just staring at Jasmine and touching her face.

"I have a gift basket I had put together for her in my rental car. I was going to carry it in, but once I seen the paparazzi I figured I will bring it when it calms down out there." he said to me but not taking his eyes off of Jasmine.

"Thank you, but will it ever calm down? how they find out?" I asked shaking my head.

"My publicist put out a statement that I fathered a child with a woman from Miami named Regan. So they probably find you..I guess...paparazzi are like physics. They will go home. They have families to be with." He replied

"Well, thanks for asking me before you put out a statement." I said with an attitude

"And thank you for making the decision that I would never want to know my child." he snapped back

"Sorry" I whispered

"How come I had to find out from your friend and not you about this?" he asked me. He was now looking into my eyes. His eyes so deep, blue and powerful like our daughter's.

"Your getting married. I didn't want to ruin your life. I don't want to go to court and lose my daughter. Deal with paparazzi invading our lives." I said

"It's kind of late for the paparazzi, but that comes with the territory. Know that I would never take our daughter away from you. I see she has a good home, you and your family take good care of her. However, we will go to court to discuss the money I will give you and we need to split holidays. I want to be part of her life." Nick said

"I don't want your money." I said shaking my head

"That's too bad." Nick said

"How did Lauren take the news?" I asked, trying to change the subject.

"Lauren? You know her name? I thought you didn't follow me or the other guys like that" he smirked.

"Well I had to do research on my baby daddy." I joked.

"HaHa!! She was real upset, but we are going to get married when I return." he said.

"Oh! Wonderfull! When is the wedding?" I asked. My heart sank.

"September 13th." he replied. He didn't seem to thrilled to be getting married.

"Happy for you." I said trying my best to lie.

"Thanks." he said with a smirk.

"So my parents wanted me to offer you to stay here. We have a guest room upstairs." I suggested

"I have a room by the fountain blu....." he started to say

"Don't worry, you don't have to" I interrupted

"Can you let me finish? I would love to stay and be close you guys." he smiled.

"Great, let me show you to your room." I smiled back.

His room was upstairs. Right across from my parent's room. It was small, but big enough to fit a queen sized bed, a dresser, tv, and a personal bathroom. It wasn't much, but he appreciated it. Afterwards, we talked, and played with Jasmine. Nick even changed Jasmine's diaper. It was cute, funny, but cute.

Later on, when my parents arrived home. Nick ordered us dinner from Bongos. Actually, my parents were very welcoming to him. He was funny, charming and sincere.

Around 10:30pm, I walked him to his room. We stopped in front of his door.

"It was a fun day" I said smiling.

"Yeah, it was. Can't wait to take Jasmine to the beach." said Nick.

"If we can make it outside with out the paparazzi hounding us." I said rolling my eyes.

"They are not stopping us tomorrow." He smiled

I smiled back at him.

"By the way you look amazing. I love your new look. Your body is still crazy sick." Nick flirted.

"Thank You." I blushed.

"What are you doing tomorrow evening? I would like to take you out to a nice dinner? He asked.

"Nick. Your girlfriend will not be happy." I shook my friend.

"Yeah, but it will make me happy." He said

"Okay, my mom will watch the baby. Good night, Nick." I said walking away with a smirk.

"Night." he said walking in his room.

August 29th,2014

Today we took Jasmine to the beach. We took so many pictures of her. We also passed by magazine stand, which pictures of me and Jasmine from yesterday were on the cover and pictures from my instagram. It's crazy how they found all this. They were calling me all sorts of unpleasant things. Nick and I laughed it off. It didn't bother because I knew the truth.

Later on that night, Nick and I went to Mr.Chows for dinner. I wore a fitted, navy maxi with dress. It had long slit going up my leg on one side. I styled my hair to the side with a slight curl, and a smokey eye with light lip-gloss color. I paired black strappy heels with my dress. Nick looked delicious. He wore a grey button shirt, black slacks, and black shoes.

During dinner, we spoke a lot about his life as a backstreet boy, his addiction to drugs and alcohol. He spoke about Lauren, struggles with his family and how losing his sister really affected him. I also spoke briefly about my job, my relationship with Roger, my pregnancy, and how I ended my friendship with Diane. Then, Nick told me I should forgive her and she was trying to be a good friend. I shrugged off his suggestion. We were getting ready to walk out the door, when a familiar voice from behind me called my name. I turned around to see Roger standing there. Roger was handsome as always and dressed in a suit which is everyday wear for him. He had short, thick brown hair, brown eyes and a killer sexy smile.

"Well don't you look ravishing." he said walking up to us

"Roger, what are you doing here?" I asked in shock

"I'm here having dinner with possible clients. I seen you walk and I figure I come say hello...who is this your with?" Roger asked nodding towards Nick.

"He is my daughter's father." I said.

I felt Nick's body tense up. Nick was silent and stone faced.

"Oh yes! Congrats on the baby. It's all over tv and in the magazines. Your baby is beautiful." Roger said as he clasped his hands together

"We should go, Regan." Nick interrupted.

"Wait, one sec. I have the same number. Let's do dinner, please. Sandra and I broke up. I realized no one is like Regan Katherine Algi." Roger said stepping close to me.

I nodded, and Nick gently tugged on my arm to leave.

The drive home was silent. Nick looked pissed.

We walked into the house. Everyone must of been sleeping because the whole was completely dark. I knew Jasmine was sleeping in the bassinet my parents kept in their room for when they watched her. I flicked on the living room. When I did, I seen Nick was in my face. We were face to face. His face was so close I could taste his breath.

"Are you going to call that guys?" He asked in a husky tone.

"Roger? No. That shipped sailed a long time ago." I said softly.

Then he kissed me. This kiss was much soft and deeper than our first kiss. He picked me up and was going to lead me to the couch, but I stopped him. I broke the kiss.

"My room, downstairs. Not here." I said out of breath.

"Okay, I've been wanting to do this since I walked in the door yesterday. Do you want this too?" he asked softly

"Yes, more than you know." I said as kissed him again.

With that he carried me downstairs. We made love, and we made love every night after that. I was falling, falling hard.

September 2nd,2014

We laid in my bed. Our naked bodies entwined in together. So far, the past few days have been amazing. We have gotten so close, deeper than just physical. Nick has been bonding with Jasmine. I can see they are taken by each other. It felt like family. He was kissing and sucking my beck. I needed to say how I feel. This urge took over me.

"I love you, Nick" I whispered.

Nick stopped and looked at me. He was in shock. He didn't say it back, and it was okay. He just kissed my mouth and again we made the passionate love we have ever made. I wanted this. I wanted him in me and Jasmine's life forever. Not just a few days, forever.

September 2nd, 2014

When Regan fell into a deep sleep, I snuck back upstairs into my room. I did not want to get caught by Regan's parents leaving the basement. I sat on my bed. I was in shock. I can't believe she loves me. I wasn't expecting that. I do love her too. I love our child. We have a bond that goes beyond our child. I noticed it the night I seen her by the bar. There was a spark. Now here we are, I love her, she loves, we love our child, and I am getting married next weekend. I had to call Lauren. I picked up my cell and dialed her number.

"How nice of you to call me Mr.Carter?!" Lauren answered the phone sarcastically

"Hi, I need to talk to you." I said

"I seen the magazines. Cute. Baby is beautiful. Regan, I must say is pretty attractive, could afford to tone up a bit, but hey that's just mu opinion." cattily said Lauren.

"Whatever, Lauren. I'm just going to say it. It's not working. We are not working. I'm sorry. I want to call off the wedding." I said calmly.

"NO!" she argued.

"Yes" I argued back.

"No no no no no!!!! Not your some bitch!!! You will humiliate me for some whore!!!!We have been through so much together. Your my crutch. I will die without you. I will hang up, hurt myself, and tell the whole world of your lying, cheating ways. You'll be ruined, and you'll have guilt because you would have ruined me too. Marry me. Come back tomorrow, and I'll get this ever happened. We will get married and be very happy." She said as she hung up.

I love Lauren. I don't love her in marry me and have my babies love you type way. It's been like this for awhile even before Regan. However, Lauren, is right we saved each other from almost dying. I needed to respect that. Maybe marriage will change things.

September 3rd, 2014

I took shower, and threw my wet hair in a messy bun. I put on a crop top, and yoga pants with sneakers. I wanted to go see what Nick wanted to do today. His door was open. I walk in the room to find him shirtless in sweat pants, and he is packing his stuff in a suitcase. I was very confused.

"Hey, what are you doing?" I asked with a look of confusion on my face.

"Packing." he said in a curt tone.

"Yeah, I see that. Why? What's up,Nick?" I said taking a seat on the bed next to his suitcase.

"I'm getting married in a few days. You know that, Regan." Nick said.

"Your still getting married?" I asked sounding hurt.

"Yes, why wouldn't I?" he asked.

"Well, because I told you I loved you. How you connected with our daughters.Us. I thought you like being a family." I wondered.

"Listen, Regan, meeting you was the best thing to ever happen to me. You opened my eyes to a lot of things, and you gave me Jasmine. I never knew I could love something so little so much. Lauren needs me, we may not have a child together but we have history. I will always be here for you and Jasmine. When I get back from my honeymoon my lawyer will send over papers about child support and we will split holidays. Don't make this harder than this already is." Nick pleaded.

"She needs you?? that's best you can say. I don't want your money. I want you. Me and Jasmine both want you. What do you want Nick? Who do you want Nick?" I asked trying to hold back tears.

He was silent for a good two minutes.

"When you told me you loved me, did you hear me say it back? No, I didn't. So like I said I leave tomorrow. I'm going to spend the rest of the day and night out. I need to clear my head. I will be back in the morning to give Jasmine a kiss goodbye." He said and he walked out and left.

My heart shattered. I was mad, sad, angry, and lost. I took my cell out and text Roger to see if he wanted to come around 7pm and I'll cook dinner. He replied definitely. It beat being alone at night when the baby was sleeping.

Later on that evening.....

Roger and I sat across from each other in my eat in kitchen. We had just finished dinner I cooked baked ziti with a garden salad, garlic bread and a we had a glass of red wine. Roger as usual was in a suit. He was handsome, but no Nick. He didn't make my heart jump, he actually never did when we were together all those years. Jasmine has been down for two hours already, she has been doing well with sleeping through the night since Nick has been here. My parents are out with friends, and Nick never came back. I could use any company. I was still annoyed with Diane, so I didn't want to call her. Roger would have to do.

"So tell me what it's like to be famous?" Roger asked interrupting my thoughts.

"I'm not famous. at least not famous for the right reasons. I slept with a famous guy, got pregnant, and the whole world knows about it. I have a million followers on instagram now, and I got an offer to do playboy, but my clothes are staying on my body where they belong. My child does not to have pictures of her mother on the internet like to haunt her. I'm a lady despite reports" I said smirking.

"I can tell you love him." He said.

"I do...I really do." I said quietly taking a sip of my wine.

Roger got up from his chair and over to me. He pulled me to me up by my hand. Then he pulled me even closer. We were nose to nose. He held me close.

"He's getting married ya know? You have to let him go. He doesn't love you." Roger whispered into my hair.

"I know he loves me. It's just.." I try to say, before Roger interrupted me.

"It's just? It's just nothing. Who did he choose? He chose this woman, you chose him, he didn't choose you. I chose you." Roger interrupted me

He was right. For so long I longed for Roger back in my life. Now here is. Nick is who I really want, but he made his choice.

Suddenly, Roger bent down and kissed me. His tongue plunged in my mouth. His kisses were rough, but I allowed him to kiss me. I gave in. I broke. I had sex with Roger. After, it was over I cried myself to sleep.

September 4th,2014

Yesterday I spent all day and night cooped up in a hotel room. I hardly ate. I just thought and thought. When I thought of expanding my family I thought of Regan and Jasmine. When I envisioned my wife, I seen Regan, not Lauren. I just walked into Regan's home. I used the spare key Regan gave me the other day. It was 8:45 am. Regan's parent's must have left for work because their cars were gone. I went downstairs. I smelled coffee. Weird. Regan hates coffee. I walked into Regan's kitchen, and I seen Roger standing there drinking coffee in his boxers.

"What are you doing here?" I asked Roger.

"What am I doing here? What are you doing here?" Roger asked with a smart alec tone.

"I'm here to talk to Regan, and she my daughter." I snapped at him.

"Regan's sleeping. So is the baby." He said rolling his eyes.

"What are you doing here half naked?" I asked.

"Regan and I spent the night together. Maybe even gave you daughter a little sibling." He smirked at me.

He was taunting me. I got up in his face.

"Your a fucking dick. I don't believe you. Stay away from my family." I said angrily.

"Back the fuck up man." He said nastily as he pushed me.

That was it. I punched him in his nose. It was bleeding. We then started fighting and throwing punches.

"STOP!! STOP FIGHTING!! YOUR GOIN TO WAKE THE BABY!!" Regan's voice yelled from behind us.

We listened. We both stopped. I walked up to her, and touched her face, she leaned into my touch. I took her in. Her honey blonde hair disheveled. Her big, beautiful eyes watery, and shameful. Her full lips, extra swollen from probably Roger's kisses. She was dressed in a white button down business shirt which had to be his. All evidence that she was with him. I was broken. I thought she loved me, I love her. Here stood a women who just shattered my heart and my soul into a million pieces, and I was still touching, still longing for her. I was a fool.

"Regan, please, please tell me this is a dream. Please tell me you didn't sleep with this douchebag. Please" I pleaded.

"So sorry" she cried.

I snapped my hand back. I startled her.

"I can't believe you. You really had me fooled." I pointed at her.

"Nick, you told me you didn't love me." she said softly and defeated.

"So you sleep with this guy? While our daughter is in the next room? Really? Is that what you do? A guy breaks your heart and there you are in the sack with someone else????!!" I questioned her angrily

"No, no, Nick. It was never like that you know it. I love you." She said defending herself.

"I came here to say you were right I love you. Let's be a family, but now I'm done with you. I will always be here for my daughter, but I never want to see you again. You disgust me. You just killed me, you don't even know. When I get back from my honeymoon with Lauren, you will be served with papers. I am going to take you to court for full custody of my daughter. I can't have her living with a women who brings men in and out of the home where she lives." I yelled.

My eyes were misty. I refused to let her and him see me cry. She called after me. I ignored, and just left.

Tennessee here I come.

I put my face in my hands and started crying. Roger came behind me and hugged me from behind.

"It's okay,babe" Roger whispered in my hair.

I moved from his hold.

"What's wrong babe? Don't cry. We belong together. I am really all you know. You are finally worthy. Your more than a vet tech. Your celebrity. Us. We work." He said seriously.

"Wha...What? The only reason you wanted to spend time with is because I'm worth it because I am famous. Nick never was ashamed of me or of our situation. You are actually not worth my time and not worth to have my child in your pathetic, loveless life. Get the fuck out of my house. Stay away from me and my child. I'm going to go tend to my child when I'm done you better be gone." I viciously said.

I turned on my feet and walked into Jasmine's nursery. I found her fussing. I picked up and changed her diaper. Then I nursed her back to sleep. When I put her back down in her crib, I looked around. He was gone. Thank God. How did I ever love him?

I ripped off his shirt that I had on and threw it in the garbage. I took a shower and scrubbed my hair on body of my night with Roger. When I stepped out, I threw on a big sweatshirt, and shorts with flip flops. I needed someone. I needed my best friend. I couldn't resist the urges anymore. I hated being mad at her. I picked up my cell and dialed her number. She answered.

"Regan?" Diane answered.

"Di, I need you." I cried.

"Reg, what's wrong?" Diane asked.

"Nick. I fell in love with him. He told me he was still getting married. So I slept with Roger, and Nick came back to tell me he loved me too but seen Roger was here. Such a mess." I managed to speak through my tears.

"Oh shit! Okay, Reg, I'll be right there" Diane said.

I looked out the window of my basement. It was raining really bad. There thunder, lightening, all that stuff. It is hurricane season in Miami.

"Diane, just wait. It's real bad out there." I said

"Don't worry. You need me, and I missed you. I'll be there. Sit tight." She said as she hung up.

I hung up as well. I heard Jasmine crying. I went to go tend to her.

2 hours later...

It's been 2 hours, and no Diane. I texted her, called her, and even called and text her parents. No answer. I am very nervous. I was putting on a new jumper on Jasmine, I just finished giving her a bath. Suddenly my phone rang. It was Diane. Thank God.

"Di?" I answered.

"Regan, it is Diane's mom Belinda. There's been an accident. Diane is hurt really bad, not much home. Can you get down here?" Diane's mother cried through the phone.

"Oh no, yes!! I am coming." I said.

I hung up and told my mother what happened quickly and hand her the baby and left. I drove like a bat out of hell. I got there in no time.

I ran up to the nurses desk, and gave her Diane's name. She told me the room was around the corner, straight down on the left. I ran, pushing past people. Then Diane's family came into sight. It was her mother, father and little brother who was only 8 years old holding each other. They were crying. I walked up them. Her mother looked at my and shook her head. I started crying hysterically. My best friend. My sister. Dead. Her mother opened up her arms and held me in their circle, and we all cried together.

4 hours later..

I was still sitting in the waiting room of the hospital. I was waiting for Diane's family to do some things. I wanted to be around just incase they needed. Diane's mom stood before me, and knelt down.

"Regan" she said.

I looked at her red eyes, and blotchy skin. She was tired and sad, as was I.

"Hi Belinda, do you need anything?" I asked while crying.

"No. You should go home, baby. You have your own daughter to take care." She suggested.

"How could you be so nice to me? I am the reason why she is dead. I needed her, and she was coming to me. It's all my fault." I shook my head.

"I don't blame you, Regan. That was my daughter who I just lost, and I don't blame you. She wanted to come see you. She loved you. You were the sister she never had. I heard you guys on the phone. You told her to wait and she insisted. She got killed by someone driving a truck who was drinking and driving in storm. Baby, there is your plans and then there is God's plans. At the end of the day God's plans always win. It's hard for me to say, but he maybe he needed an angel. Diane, told me about the fight that you guys had. She wanted really bad to call you or text you, but knew you wouldn't answer. I suggested she do things the old fashion way, and write you a letter. She did write you letter, just never sent it. I found it in her purse. Read it. Go home. Read it. Get some rest, and kiss that beautiful baby. Be a mom, a wonderful mom. Enjoy her, worship her, love her, hug her, kiss her, because you know when your last kiss to her will be." said Diane's mom.

She stood up. Kissed my fore head and left.

I've been sitting in my car in my driveway for over 15 minutes. I didn't have the energy to get up and move on once I stepped through my doors. I took Diane's letter out of my pocket, and began to read it aloud to myself.

"Dear Regan,
Okay, so how corny is this letter? But this is my best way to reach out to you. Look, I am so sorry. I should not have gone behind your back like that. Not cool. But I had no choice. Your a great mom, but you were missing something. I honestly felt you have feelings for Nick. Even for a one night stand. I wanted Jasmine to have a dad, and I wanted you to be happy. You deserved to be happy. You deserved to love and be loved. I hope you do find that with Nick on his visit here. If you do find that love, then let it be. Don't fight it, don't hold grudges, go after what you want. Life is too short. If we never are friends again, we did have amazing memories, especially one. We always have THE CRUISE.

Forever Friends & Sisters,
Diane"

I leaned my head against the steering wheel and started crying. After another 10 minutes, I got out of the car. I went into my parent's room. My parents were sleeping. Cannoli was at the end of the bed sleeping, but he popped his head when I came in. My baby was fast asleep in her bassinet. I picked her up gently, and held in my arms. I walked over to my mother's side of the bed. My mother flicked her eyes and looked up. She motioned us to come in the bed. I laid Jasmine in between us. My mom brushed my hair away from my face.

"I'm so sorry. I love you." she mouthed to me .

"I love you too." I mouthed back.

I needed this. I needed my baby and my mom. Within minutes we were all sleeping.

September 12th,2014

Days have passed since Diane passed away. Her funeral was two days ago. It was hard saying goodbye to her. I haven't heard from Nick nor Roger, which I was glad no word from Roger. I have spent many days and sleepless nights reading over Diane's letter, playing out that horrible night with Roger in my head, and all the good times Nick, Jasmine, and myself shared when he was here. I decided in honor of Di, I was going after what I wanted. What I want is Nick. Tomorrow is his wedding day. I plan to stop the wedding before its too late. I was at the airport. My flight left at 9pm, and it was 8:15pm. I was waiting to board. If Nick was marrying anyone it would be me. I was nervous. My heart was beating a mile a minute.

Finally my section was called. Its now or never.

September 13th,2014

Today is the day. It's Nick's wedding day. I stood outside of some church in Tennessee. Media was everywhere. I made sure to disguise myself. I dyed my hair dark brown again last night when I got to the hotel room. I felt more life myself with the dark hair. I wore a light pink body con dress, nude pumps, a light pink scarf wrapped around my head with big sunglasses. I was pulling a Jackie O disguise. It must of worked because no one noticed me sneak in through the back. I walked down the long hallway. I walked down quietly but quickly. First room I passed was Lauren's. I couldn't see her dress. I just heard her voice and someone else talking to her about what a beautiful bride she is. I must have been coming up to Nick's room because I seen two males leave the room. I hid in a corner, until they were fully out of sight. It look like it was Nick's brother Aaron and Kevin that left the room. Finally I walk up to the room to see the door half open and Nick staring at himself in deep thought in the mirror. I sneak in and lock the door behind me. Nick looks up, and he shocked. He turns around with his arms folded.

"What are you doing here? Where is Jasmine? Is she okay?" he asked with concern.

"Jasmine is great. She is back in Miami with my parents." I said reassuring him.

"Ok, good. I'm real sorry about your friend." Nick said looking down at his feet.

"Thank you, I am going to really miss her. I didn't even get to say I am sorry or hug here. I was upset you didn't call." I said.

"Call to say what?" he asked.

"To say your sorry to hear I lost my best friend." I said.

"I am sorry. I am not good with words. When I heard I felt terrible for you. I knew it must of been hard but I'm not the only who should of picked up the phone and said I am sorry." Nick said to me looking back from his feet, and now looking into my eyes.

"Your right." I whispered.

"You never answered my question. Why are you here, Regan?" He asked.

"I'm here for you. Diane left me a letter she wrote back when we fought. What she said in the letter got me thinking. Life is too short. It's too short to fight, to hold grudges, and to not go after what you want. I want you. You and I have a deeper connection than just a child that we share. We've always had that spark with each other. So I am here telling you to please stop this wedding. Come back to me and Jasmine. Let's be together. Be with me. Marry me. Grow a family with me. I'm sorry I hurt you, but you hurt me. You walked away, I didn't. It still doesn't make what I did right, but you have to accept responsibility as well. If you don't want to come back to us, and you want to take me to court because I am unfit, then okay. Know that I will fight for my child to death of me. Also know that every time we are in court and I see you I won't hate you, I will love you and wish that I was with you, and wish that you, me and Jasmine can be a family. You are my one that I will love always. So I'm putting out hand if you want to leave take my hand and we will leave." I teared up.

Nick looked at my hand and then back at me. He then turned his back on me, and started fixing his tie.

"Like I said my lawyers will be in touch." Nick said coldly.

I was stunned. My heart was beating fast, and my knees were weak. I just ran out of there. I had to get out. I hailed a cab. I was going to get my bag at the hotel and get the first flight out to Miami.

September 13th,2014

20 minutes have passed since Regan left. Why did I have to be so cold? I still couldn't get the image of her and Roger out of my head. She right when she said life is too short to hold grudges. I couldn't get married. I couldn't marry Lauren.

I walked into Lauren's room. Thank goodness she was by herself.

"You make a beautiful bride" I smiled at her.

Lauren was startled, but she smiled back. She did make a beautiful bride. Her hair was in a loose wavy bun with some type of crystal headband. Her dress was white and fitted with a sheer button down back. Her make up was natural. She is a beautiful bride, but she's not meant to be my bride.

"Nick!!! What are you doing here?!!" Lauren shrieked.

I walked close her. I must of had a certain look on my face, because she knew. She shook her head NO, and nodded my head YES. She fell into my arms crying.

"Please, Nick!! No!! I'll...." She started to say.

"STOP THREATENING ME!! You need to stop that!!" I interrupted here.

"Your leaving me for her? What will I do without you?" she asked sadly.

"This has been a long time coming, Lauren. You and I both know that. I do love you and you have gotten me through so many rough patches, and I don't know if I can ever repay. We grew into better people together, but we also grew apart. We aren't meant to be lovers. You won't hurt yourself or fall off track without me. Look how far you came. Your a fitness guru. You know what you will do with out me? You'll get to really live. Deep down you know what we had has faded, your just too scared to let go of what you already know so well. Lauren, you will make a man very happy one day, it's just not me. My heart is somewhere else. It belongs to two women now, and I can never leave my heart behind." I said as I grabbed her hands and kissed them.

"Your right, who was I fooling?" She shrugged.

"It's better we did this now before we were legally married." I said.

I kissed her forehead and gave her a hug, and was about to leave.

"Nick, one more thing." she called after me.

"Hmm?" I wondered.

"What will we tell all those people? I don't want to be humiliated." She said.

"You won't. I'll deal with it. Take one of the limos and go on our honeymoon with anyone of your choice. I'll say you dumped me." I clarified.

"Thank you! Your going to be an awesome dad. Regan and Jasmine are lucky girls.

10 minutes later...

I announced to all the guest in the church that Lauren decided not to marry me. Her family was upset, but once I told them she was getting ready to leave and had one extra ticket for our honeymoon they seem to forget and run to see where she was. I explained to the boys and their wives the real deal. They wished me luck, and our happy for me if I am truly happy. They also can not wait to meet little Jasmine.

September 15th,2014.

It's been two days since I seen Nick. I was now back in Miami. I turned off my phone. I haven't been on the computer or watched any tv. I was just focusing on myself and Jasmine. Jasmine was going to be 2 months in 4 days. She has grown so much. Her hair was longer, she was so much more alert. She can actually hold her head up, and she is such a chunky monkey. I can't take how cute she is.

Today me and Jasmine were visiting Aunt Diane's grave. I told Diane what happened between me and Nick, but I was going to remain strong. It was a gloomy day. Dark grey clouds, just a plain sad day.

We had just walked out of the cemetery. My car was parked right in front. I went to go put Jasmine in her car seat until I heard my name. I turned around to see Nick. Nick was so handsome. He had a dark blue Armani shirt, black jeans, and black and blue sneakers.

"What are you doing here, Nick?" I asked.

I was stunned.

"I went to your house, and your mom said I could have found you both here." He smiled.

"Shouldn't you be on your honeymoon?" I asked

"Haven't you watch the tv?" he asked

I shook my head.

"Well, I called off the wedding. I told everybody she left me in respects to her but that's not true. I couldn't bare to not be with you and Jasmine. I love you both."

"I love you too." I choked out.

He stepped close and wrapped his arms around me and Jasmine.

"What does this mean?" I asked quietly.

"This mean me and you are going to be boyfriend and girlfriend who happen to have the cutest baby in the world together. Eventually we will get married, and have more beautiful babies." He said as me kissed me.

"Can't argue that." I said in between his kiss.

The sun suddenly came out. I couldn't help but think that was Diane shining down on us, smiling from heaven, knowing her job is done.