1. How Did I Fall in Love With You by ajsmyreasony
The shrill ring of my phone was what made me jump out of bed quicker then JC on acid( heheh sorry) at 3:30 this morning. Stumbling quickly for the phone I checked the caller ID I had.
“ um well ...yeah it kinda is” he stumbled
“Nothings wrong with one of the guys... I um just had to call and tell you something and I kinda just got the nerve to do it now so I figured what the hell might as well do it now so if your mad at me you can be mad at me for both things at the same time and get it over with but then again if your not mad for why I called just the fact that I called this late then this is not going to work out like I .....”
“Remember when
“Howie what are you doing?” I asked but got no reply he just kept singing. So I shut my mouth waiting for him to stop.
“Those days are gone
What can I do to make you mine
I hear your voice
I wanna say this right
What can I do to make you mine
“Howie talk to me...what’s going on.....Howard?” I sighed fustratedly. What was he saying...what was he doing? was he high? I know sometimes I don’t get him all the way but this was just scaring me. He sounded so ...so ...so needed and wanting when he sang, I’ve never heard him like that before.
“ I’m saying I love you and I don’t want to be just friends any more.” he whispered.
“Howie NO..don’t say that....please....” I gasped at his words and the way he said them.
“ why I’m not aloud to tell my best friend the truth?”
“ Not when it’s that you love me......Howie I’m sorry but that’s just not how I feel...you know that.....why’d you do this D why?” I started to feel tears in my eyes but would not let them fall. I refused to let them fall I had to be strong. I hung up ...yeah that was strong.....that was great ....that’s was STUPID I just hung up on my best friend...my best friend who just confessed he loved me.... he loved me like I loved him. I couldn’t do this not to him.....loving me is wrong it would never work he’d be ruined. Why did he have to call...why’d he have to sing.....why’d he have to finally return my love?
Two days passed with
nothing . I wouldn’t pick up the phone every time it rang even if it wasn’t
Howie. I’m sure by now I have a few people worried about me, but I really
didn’t care. I hadn’t left my bed since his call...his call that changed my
destiny...huh that’s kinda ironic...he sings “How Did I Fall in Love With
You”....and I’m sitting he quoting “The Call” I guess the new CD really is
being put to use.
So
Howie loved me after how many years of me looking at him with dreamy eyes ? I
owed it to my self to take this chance....hell I owed it to him too! He took a
chance by calling that night. I had to explain my self I had to tell him why I
flipped out. I had to tell him I loved him to.
Getting to Howie’s was the easy part of my plan it was getting out of the car once I was there that was hard. I sat in my car for a good twenty minutes thinking of reasons I should just go back home.
1) He wouldn’t want me now I hung up on him.
2) This would be hell for us both.
3) I’m a chicken shit that is too scared to even get out of my car let alone go up there any talk to him.
Number three was wining on the why nots. After another ten minutes of sitting there I opened the door, put my foot on the ground and pushed my self up and out of the car. Ok I’m out now I have to walk to the door. That was surprisingly easy. Now ring the bell...there ya go bring the hand up and oh wow you did it you pushed the lil button. I waited...and waited and waited..by the sounds of things you’d think I waited for days but it was only seconds. The door cracked open Howie’s head popped out ( oh bad thought).
“ What do you want?” he said softly with a semi harsh tone
“ I want to talk...can I come in ?” I pleaded.
His door opened wider to allow me to walk past him and into the living room.
“ So talk” he hissed.
“ Look don’t be mad at me ... I’m sorry...I just... I ... hell I don’t know...what I’m saying.” I stepped closer to him cause I felt I was yelling across the room with him standing as far away from me as he was.
“ Howie I don’t know what to say, but I’m here to say something .....but please don’t be mad at me I couldn’t handle that.” I whispered looking down.
“ You hung up on me..... in all our time of being friends you’ve never hung up on me....”
“ I was scared” I explained
“ Of what me?”
“No of my self”
“ Of your self... I don’t get you sometimes” he shook his head disbelievingly so I knew I had to prove it to him. I had to show him what I was afraid of. Stepping closer to him slowly so he wouldn’t jump back I put my hand to his cheek. His soft smooth cheek, I ran my thumb over his cheek bone before letting my lips slowly meet his. They were so sweet and soft. I though I died and gone to heaven, the years I spent dreaming what his lips felt like never did my mind do them justice.
“ What was that?” he stumbled back.
“ I’m sorry I just had to .. I know you most likely don’t love me any more, but I had to do that cause I didn’t know what else to say...so I guess what I’m saying is I love you I know it’s.......” his lips shut me up.
“ Now your rabbling....” he smiled.” so what does
this mean?” he looked down.
“ it means I love you too.. I always have I was just scared me loving you could do so much to you I didn’t want to ruin you”
“ Loving you and having you love me back could never be a bad thing...” he paused as he stepped closer to me again. “ I love you AJ”
“ I love you too Howie” I smiled warmly at him
leaning in once more. “ I mean how could I not”
THE END