As I sit here, and watch the sun go down I realise that I am going down with the sun. I feel as if something is missing in my life. which if you knew me you knew it would be the biggest jack *** thing ever. I cant help how i feel though I have the perfect job me and the boys as in my brothers from another mother are working on putting out a complimation of un-released songs, likes songs we recorded before and placed them on a album titled **Beneath the Exterior** So why did I lie Issabelle????

That question has been running through my mind since I first told her I was leaving for a couple of months to Austrailia to work with the boys on the tracks. She believed me with out another care in the world. She looked at me like she was proud of me, but shouldn't a wife look at you like they are going to miss you. I still remember thinking about **The Lie** as if it just happened yesterday.

**flashback**

I walked through the door, to instantly be met by my babies, my new brand new pug puppies, Isabelle doesnt like them much so she always keeps them locked in one room. I always find it sad that the first thing I look forward to seeing in my puppies and the last thing i look forward to seeing is Isabelle, Right then is when I made the decesion i need to get away.

After I played with the pups for a bit, I invoulantary shuffled my feet across the floor of our Extra clean house, Our house doesn't even looked lived in we are in our late 20's you think we would have late nights. But you know we dont and we havent in a year now ever since issabelle found out she lost the baby, and therefore she will never be able to carry children.

Nothings been the same, We used to party, we used to have sex in random places now Sex is a chore, she always says whats the point. I find myself wondering the same thing everytime i step through the front door of our overlysized house which is always freaking spotless and shiny. Which would be great sometimes, but its kind of freaky to come home every day to it, and see your wife in the kitchen baking, she never leaves the kitchen. Yes i have a home cooked meal every day when im home, but lately I have been making up excuses to not come home I find myself begging Brian to let me babysit Baylee just so I dont have to go home. Im miserable you want to know why im Miserable Cause I love her so **** much, you know how they say shes not the same person I fell in love with, well shes not.

So thats when I did it, I Took a deep breath " Hey Izzy" I smiled at her, and leaned down to give her kiss on the lips and she moved her head away, and I lightly grazed her lips.

"Nicholas, How many times do I have to tell you were not 17 anymore, please dont call me Izzy, Call me Isabelle." Issablle rolled her eyes at nick "Nicholas your wearing your shoes in the house take them off, i dont feel like cleaning."

I just shook my head at the girl I have known for so long, she lost herself since she lost the baby, not only me but everyone has seen it. I feel like a little kid when she talks to me like this.
" Im sorry Baby." Isabelle looked up from the the pot she was stirring, and glared at me. "Sorry Issabelle, I will take them off. "I bent Down to take my shoes off, I walked over to the door, took a deep sigh.

I have been talking it over with the guys and they said that they would cover for me. I always promised myself I would make my marriage work, but i have fallen out of love with Issabelle, who said marrying your best friend was a good thing. I shook my head and walked back into the kitchen.

"good thank you Nicholas." Issabelle smiled, you know its not even the same smile I fell in love with.

"Issablle, could you please call me Nick."

"Nick, sounds so immature, Nicholas has a better ring to it."

"You used to always call me nick." Nick sighed sitting down at the kitchen Bar.

"Yea, Well you used to come home for Dinner."

"Im here aren't I, and I was thinking issabelle maybe I can take you out for dinner. you know go out like we used to." This was my last attempt.

"Nicholas, I dont think thats such a good idea what if the fans recognize me?"

"Baby, were married remember they love me therefore they will love you, Please".

"Nicholas, no I dont want too."

"**** it Issablle, you never want to do anything any more it wasn't that fans fault that you lost the baby, you lost the baby cause you cant carry children. Isabelle its not your fault at all. Please can we just go out."

"How ****ing Dare You Nicholas, you know how much I wanted a baby."

"Yes i know you tell me everytime I bring up going out and we have this conversation over again, and over its like our life is on ****in repeat I dont want to live my life this way any more Issabelle we need a change I think we should go to couples counselling."

"I dont have a ****ing problem you do, if you dont love me for who I am than I guess you dont love me" she stirred the pot harder.

"Issabelle, your not the same Izzy that I fell in love with." I screamed back at her.

"Yea well, deal with it. Im not going out dinner is going to be ready in 2 mins, I hope your hungry."

I just stood them dumbfounded, and lost...

I sat down and barely touched my food " Issabelle did you not hear me, im not happy and you just told me to deal with it."

"yea well your recording again so we will talk when you get back." its impolite to talk with your mouth full.

I remember thinking, almost saying no we are staying here to record...

"Yea, well talk when I get back." I chewed my food in silence

we started sleeping in sepeate rooms, god what i would give to kiss her but i dont even find myself wanting to kiss her anymore.
"Bye nicholas have a safe trip".

****End of flashback***

Thats what she said when she dropped me off and here I am sitting on the sandy beaches in Australia never been more at home and im alone, what does that tell you?? I guess when its done its done.

***Well guys I hope you enjoyed let me know what you think!
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The sun was setting as I went through mine and Issabelles realtionship, Wondering if we really were anything more to each other than a companion, someone to come home too, someone to cry on, someone to yell at, basically just someone to step in as a replacement until you find your one and only. Is it wrong that I knew all of this on my wedding day and I still wanted to marry her. Why Because she is my best friend, was my bestfriend and me and Izzy, sorry 'Isabelle' have been through so much together. We just Aren't the same people anymore, I love her but I dont know if i ever really was 'In love with her'.

You know somedays I think Back to when I was single and Free and how happy I was, I miss feeling happy the only thing that makes me happy nowadays is mine and the rest of the boys repaired relationships, sitting on this beach here starring at the ocean, and the Fans. Lets face it, the group isn't going to last forever, eventually we are all going to start familys and have 'Backstreet Reunions'. I chuckled at the thought, you know I dont see me and Isabelle there I just see myself. I really dont see Issabelle with me anymore. The hardest thing is saying goodbye.

My thoughts were intterupted by my ringing cell phone, it said Brian...

"hello" I answered cheerfully.

"Well **** its about time you picked, up I hope and Izzy weren't to busy." I listened to him chuckle on the other end.

"Brian, how are ya bro? Im god just you know chilling in Australia on the sandy beaches, watching the sun go down."
I sighed starring at the waves.

"Sounds peacefull, the only peace I get here is when Baylee is sleeping, but I wouldnt trade baylee in for the world, So I take it things didn't go well with Issabelle?" Brain inquired shaking his head.

"I bet, i miss the little guy he has became my special little buddy tell him that when I get back ill play some basketball with him."

"You bet I will." Brian smiled " Im glad you took our advice, as much as I love Issabelle shes not the same Izzy, you need to get away and see if what you really want in life is Issabelle if not you know what you have to do."

"Brian, you want to know something I have realised the whole 6 months I have been going over our realtionship, meaning mine and issabelles' she was never what I really wanted, I just wanted somebody but who better Brian then your best friend someone who knows everything about you."

"WHAt" Brian practically screeched. "Nick, you did what?"

"Well I was yet another Wedding, standing up there for A.J's best man and I found myself contemplating If i would ever find my somebody, and i remember looking over at issabelle laughing at something someone said and she looked over and smiled and waved. Thats when it hit me, I can have that with her. She would do anything for me, i knew she would never break my heart and I would never have to go through the awkard first dates, than the even more Awkward break ups. I guess you could say i hit a late 20's crisis."

"Wow, so your saying you never loved her in the first place." Brian shook his head and noticed leighanne look at him skeptically.

"No, im saying I love her so much I dont want to loose her, but I have nver been "IN" love with her." Nick sighed
"Brian how many times do you have sex?"

"Nick" Brian asked shocked.

"Brian me and Issabelle have been married for almost 2 years and we havent had sex since after she lost the baby."

"WHAT?" Brian asked ever more Shocked

"Yea, tell me about it."

"So you went to Australia to get laid?" Brian questioned shocked.

"No I came to find myself, whatever it takes." Nick stated "Well Brian i'll give you a call later im going to go and call Issabelle."

"Good luck man, have fun and dont do anything stupid."

"Im gonna need it. I'll try not too" Nick sighed.

Nick was about to pick up his cell phone and dial the very familiar number when his cell phone instantly started ringing, The caller ID said Izzy. Nick smiled " Hey Issabelle, how are you sweetie?"

"Im Good, I have to go though." Izzy sighed whiping the tears from her eyes, she didn't understand why she was doing this to him and herself but she was. She was tired of comming second in his life, she thought she could handle being the wife of a backstreet boy but she couldn't.

"Issabelle, Did you want something, you called me?" Nicke asked sweetly

"No, I dialed the wrong number". She let the tears fall freely, the Tears she cried were silent but held so much meaning and hurt. This is what was beneath her Exterior.

"Umm, okay Well I miss you." Nick rolled his eyes at himself how could he miss her, when he was so happy to get away.

"Bye Nicholas." Isabelle closed her eyes tightly, she gripped onto the cordless phone so tight she turned her knuckles white.

"I love you." nick Rolled his eyes, as the words rolled of his tounger.

Nick was met with a Dial tone, and the only sound he heard was the sound of the waves rolling in and crashing against the rocks at the west side of the beach, where its to rocky and dangerous to swim.

"This is what my life has come too" nick whispered agonizingly to no-one and anyone that wanted to listen.

Nick was so caught up in his little world he didn't hear the young woman calling his name....

He kept hearing this Angelic voice, lightly calling him saying "nick, come here". Nick Shook his head thinking he was Crazy then he heard it again " Okay I know im not going Crazy, nick walked towards the voice as he got closer " He heard nick, some here boy."

Nick practically jumped out of his skin when he heard her fustuartedly yell to no one and anyone that could here " **** it nick, im sick of playing this game come here." she sighed fustuaratedly

It was now pitch dark out side, and the fog was starting to roll in from coast to coast, The fog made it so you could only see the outline of peoples body. Nick reached the person who let out the fusturated scream. Nick Reached the Un-known figure in the mist of the night and tapped it on the shoulder.

"AHHHH" She Screamed " Get your hands off me you ****in Perv, god your lucky I dont have pepper spray with me."

Nick pulled his hands off and covered her mouth notcing the party on the east side of the beach and noticed people looking their direction the last thing he needed in his life, was headlines that say 'Nick, In Australia away from the boys and his wife abducting young women. Has nick lost his mind Read more to find out' He chuckled cause he knew it was true, they would write something so horrific.

"Shhh, he soothed im not going to hurt you he whispered lightly" nick tried his best to console her, he didn't plan on hurting her after all she called him over. why he had no **** clue!! he was just as if not more confused than her.

She Screamed, into his hand words that were all muffled by his hand " I will take my hand away from your mouth as long as you promise me not to Scream, I promise im not going to hurt you its just that people are looking over here. None of us need that kind of attention you know. "Nod if you understand."

Keira, Didn't know why she trusted this stranger but something about the tone in his voice the raspy whisper told her too trust her extincts, she wished she could see the strangers face. She nodded slightly and nick took his hand away from her mouth.

"What are you doing over here, I dont know you if you dont plan on killing me?" Keria asked exhasperated taking a step away from the stranger starring before her.

nick lightly laughed "You know I dont really know why I came over here, I heard someone calling my name so I decided to see where the voice was comming from. Espeically since I dont know anyone in Australia im from florida. So im a long way from home." Nick Rambled "My names Nick".

"Ohhh, I was just calling my dog it ran out of the house and took off somewheres I have no idea where it went I wasn't in the mood to chase it, and run the streets of Auzzi." She lightly sighed of relief "Thank god, I was scared you were going to hurt me and chop me up into little bits."

"Nah, thats not my idea of a friday night." Nick smiled towards the stranger, he wished he could see her face if her smile was anything like her laugh, he knew she was gorgeous.

"Nah, not mine either. Well my names Keria Marie You probably thought I was Calling your name cause you said your name was Nick. The little runt im looking after his name is "Nick-Nack." I just call him Nick, or nickers for short. Sorry about that."
Keira lightly laughed.

"I get ya, it all makes sense now" Nick looked around Awkardly

"Well do you need help finding "Nick-Nack." Nick Chuckled at the name

"I know its horrible, thats why I call him Nickers, not my dog my house family took off on vacation so im stuck looking after the little runt a cute runt but when he does stuff like this I wish he would drown in the ocean. nah i'd miss the little guy but yet GRR, so not what i had in mind for a Friday night. i have been searching for this little guy for hours and getting so freakin pissed." Keira sighed.

"Haha, sucks to be you. Yea nickers sound much better. Are you Adopted or something like that, you said you live with your house family?"

"Uhh, no im a Au Pair, or a Nanny how ever you want to call me thats what I am im Originally from Canada." Keira smiled.

"Uhh that makes sense, then I was going to say you dont sound like Aussie, so what did you have planned for a friday night Well i was suposed to meet my friends at a moive, and this is the last night its out and I really wanted to go but instead i have to go searching for nickers."

"Well, I have had many dogs, Eventually the dog will come home to you or it got picked up by the pound and you gotta bail him out." Nick chuckled lightly, giving her his best carter smile. Nick liked this girl there was just something about her.

"****, this is becomming a regualr thing for me then, last weekend I had to bail my best friends ex- boyfriend out of jail cause he started fighting with some guy that was hitting on me and her. He heard and got pissed. My friend left with the other guy and i was stuck consoleing a broken hearted drunk guy through bars until the head police guy game. Ohhh it was fun." Keria laughed Scarcastically.

"I bet" Nick Chuckled " Well do you need some help looking ofr nickers."

"Nah, I think im done looking I have been looking for 6 hours already where ever he is I hope hes having a good time and getting all the *****es he can, cause after tonight im taking him and getting him fixed. No more *****es for him, hes on lock down." Keira clapped her hands together, and staired at the ocean.

Nick didn't know what he was doing or why, he just needed to get to know this girl a little better, he liked her and he has never felt this carefree in a long time. Hey may be married, but what hes in he doesn't call a marriage, he hasn't even seen what the young lady looks like.

"Thats Hialarious not *****es for the sexually fustuarted nickers, Well if you dont mind I dont know anybody around here, so maybe I can go with you to the movie, what movie did you wanna see?" nick asked.

"I Uhhh...I dont know nick i dont normally do this with guys I dont know." Keira hesitantly looked around

Nick laughed " you Normally dont do what with guys, that you dont know? Go to movies?" nick shook his head at this girls antics. "I already promised you, im not gonna hurt you."

"ummm...okay but if your hand comes even close to my *** I will bring out the pepper spray." Keira Chuckled.

"Well, We dont want that now Do we Keira Marie." Nick let out the breath he didn't know he was even holding in until, she said yes. his heart was pounding and he even had butterflies.

"Well it doesn't bother me if you are permently blind." Keria said " On another note, The movie I wanna see is Wedding crashers, but we gotta go now or else were not going to make it in time Nick-." she laughed lightly " I dont even know your last name."

"Its Carter." Nick said a little hesitantly, he normally never gave out his last name to people on the first date. Wait this isn't a date is it? Nick asked himself lightly.

" Well Mr. carter should we get going." Keria asked and smiled " Lets go, Were gonna be late."

"Im comming, im Comming." nick said jogging to catch up to keira, who was walking at a very steady pace.

"Well god, dont you think its a little soon for that?" Keria joked and chuckled at his confused expression they were walking down the street called " Rickety Rickets.

"your Sick." nick Chuckled "your not a nympho are you?" Nick smiled his cocky smile and winked at her " Cause its okay if you are."

She lightly punched him in the shoulder playfully " no you DumbAss im not, I bet you would like it if I was though huh?"

Nick smirked " Well you know what guy wouldn't like to be hanging out with a nympho?"

Keria rolled her eyes " Men you are all the same SEX on the Brain. And to answer your question a gay man wouldnt like a nympho woman."

"Well how do you know im not gay." nick asked firting with this incredibly gorgeous stranger he glanced into her eyes and he saw something he has never seen before in the girls and his wfie he saw himself in her eyes. Her eyes were the most gorgeous shade of blueish/greyish/green he has ever saw. She has the cutest chin dimples. she stands about 5"4, shes fair skin but not to fair. she has a few freckles scattered along her cute nose. She has a very curvy yet realistic body he has ever seen a big chest, nice ***, and a decent weight shes not a tooth pick with boobs. He smiled " Well are you going to answer my question."

Keria never realised she was standing on the side walk of Rickety ricket Street, starring into the eyes of a stranger not realising that they have stopped walking. She sighed simply. " I can see it the way you look at me." she smiled and Grabbed his arm and linked them togehter and they walked down the street, little did she knew that wouldn't be the first time she saw her beautiful blue eyed stranger from Florida.

Meanwhile.....

Back in Florida Isabelle was on the phone with her friend Katrina " Kat, I cant live like this anymore, im pushing him away and hes not going anywheres. Kat, you dont hear the hurt and expecting tone that he talks to me with, you dont see how cold I am towards him. Most of all you dont see the look on his face when he tells me I love you, and i dont say anything back. " She cried to her friend and took a deep long sigh

"Me and pups have a better realtionship than me and my husband and its all my fault, I just feel so guilty I blame him for what i did and now im miserable That was my one and only chance and blew it for him. Do you have Any Idea how much I love kids and want kids of my own and I can't have them because nick is an insestive Jerk" Issabelle yelled into the phone.

Kat sighed, she has heard it over and over Again, she really doens't think Nick is an Insestive jerk there may have been times but it was kat and Brian who consoled him when he found out about Issabelle and her loosing the baby. She thinks nick blames himself. Kat smiled fusturatedly into the recieve of the phone. "Izzy, have you tried talking to him?"

"Talking to him, Talking to him is like talking to Brick Wall." Izzy yelled out fusturatedly " Actually, hes tried talking I just dont know what to say to him anymore. Well kat, im headin out with Andy. I'll be seeing ya hun."

"I thought you were done ****in around on nick?" Kat yelled fustuartedly into the phone at her friend.

"You cant tell me that his isn't out screwing some blonde, big chested hoe?" issabelle rolled her eyes at her friend, and quipped back.

Katrina sighed there was no getting through to Issabelle sometimes..."No I cant, but my guess he isn't."

"Ohhh, thats right hes not drunk yet?"

"Well I would drink too, if I lived with you." Katrina sighed " have fun tonight and wrap it twice."

"Ohh so the Truth comes out, by Kat have fun with A.J?"

"I always do, but hes in Australia so the phone is gonna have to do." Kat and Issabelle have been friends ever since nick introduced them awhile back. Kat knew all about nicks outting to Australia and A.j made her promise not to tell Izzy.

"I hope to god nick is having fun." Kat whispered into the Receiver.

"Me too Baby, Me too." A.J came up and wrapped his arms around her waist "Thanks for doing this for us and Nick." A.J kissed her head then her lips and broke away " I know it must be hard."

Katrina smiled " you know it gets easier, and easier every time I talk to her." she mumbled " A.J noticed the coldness in her voice. Then she started to un-button a.j's shirt. " you know lets forget about her and them and focus on us."

"Mmmm...sounds good to me." He lifted her up and carried them to the closest surface which just so happened to be the kitchen Island.

Nic couldnt remember a time he felt so carefree, none-commital, He could laugh with out worrying he would disturb Issabelle from her sleep, wake her up and piss her off. He couldn't remember a time he has watched a movie like that. Isabelle was never really into "guy" movies as she called it. Nick couldnt remember a night for awhile where he stretched the corners of his mouth and it wasn't a forced smile. Nicks cheeks were hurting from smiling so much and it wasn't forced. Maybe it was just Australia, Maybe it was the fact His Wife who he hasn't had a decent converstaion with in months is thousands miles away, That is making him smile. Or quite possibly maybe its just his company for the evening and the smile that is pursed on her lips when shes trying not to laugh, while her and nick were sitting at a 24 hour diner called Sunrise to Sunset.

"Come on Keria you promised you wouldn't laugh." Nick pouted and tried to hide his smile.

Keira let out the laugh she was holding in " Yea that was until you told me, if I would of known the story was so funny. I wouldn't of made such a promise."

Nick rolled his eyes " Keria please tell me whats so funny about my friends stripping me when im sleeping and putting me in the hallway of a hotel??." Nick tried to hide his smile.

Keria bursted out laughing " Well where would you like me to start? Well its a pretty good practial joke, not much is really funny just the fact that these girls were talking to you, and you thought they were hot. So you started to get excited and you didn't know you were naked."

"Yea well, I didn't laugh at your most embarassing moment." Nick sulked "They were hot, what was I suposed to do I was like 17 I couldn't control my hormones back then" Nick blushed. "Come on please tell me your most embrassing moment."

"Nick buck up, you didnt laugh cause I didn't tell you my most embarassing moment I know better than that, If I was to tell you I wouldn't go into Details, for instance." Keria motioned with her hands " I would of just said my friends stripped me and laid me in the hallway and some people saw me." Keria laughed again and took a few deep breaths to compose herself

" I wouldn't of did a long drawn out presentation of how it happened and you thought you heard people talking and you were cold, but you thought nothing of it". Keria giggled "The way you told the story nick you looked so innocent and you still looked shocked it happened." "Then you went on to tell me that you were starting to feel excited and you looked down and you were moooorrrttiiifed!! Nick its just to funny for words."

Keria couldnt contol their laughter, espeically when she saw nicks lightly redden cheeks and pouty lips. " I guess im just the better story teller here." Nick smiled proudly.

Keria chuckled and said scarcastically " Yep no doubt about that nick, I guess im just better at saving my myself from embarassment."

Nick rolled his eyes and smiled his cocky smile. " Please tell me, its only fair Keria."

Keria smiled and shook her head and stole a fry of nicks plate, not after getting slapped by his hand " Come on Keria you owe me especailly now that you took my last fry."

Keria smiled to herself " Well I guess I do owe you, but I thought I would pay you with something a little later." Keria winked at him.

Nicks smiled windened then he mentally slapped himself for thinking that way about a beautiful stranger.

Keria laughed " Nick, your such a guy your heads always in the Gutter."

"I wasnt thinking that." Nick defended himself his cheeks getting redder by the moment, he barely ever feels embarassed with anyone but with Keria. His hands get all clamy, and his heart starts racing when she smiles at him, and when they brush past each other nick can't help but get goose bumps all over his body.

"Aww, nick well I guess your right I'll tell ya."

"Will you really?" nick smiled

"Yea, but you might be here awhile I was like a really shy girl All through school. Guys would compliment me I would blush. Whenever I saw my crush and they said Hi my cheeks would go all red. To many embarassing experiences to count. But there is one that stands out from the rest. I was at my freinds 18th Birthday party and the week before i lost my virginity to this guy named mark. Well anyways his best friend was there and was my Ex, well anyways me and mark took off down stairs and were like". Keria paused feeling her cheeks redden thinking back to the experience.

nick was smiling like cheshire cat " You and mark were doing what." nick chuckled already knowing the answer.

"Shhhppp im getting there, do you wanna know or not?" Keria asked annoyed that he intterupted.

"Sorry." Nick smiled and motioned his hands for her to continue.

"Anyways as I was saying we went downstairs and were like making out and stuff, and then we ended up having sex in my bestfriends sisters room and we were trying out new sexual positons." Keria paused for effect and to see the shocked knowing look on nicks face, it was priceless.

" Somehow we knocked something over and it made a lound noise and everyone at the party walked in on us buck- naked, in a crazy position." Keria explained laughing herself.

"Keria, to to ****in funny. Hahah I can just imagine the look on your ex's face seeing as you didn't give into him and the look on your best friends face."

"Yea shock horror, is the best way to describe it." Keria laughed "Wanna know the funniest thing though, the look on peoples faces when someone said 'How do you do that'. All of their heads tilted sideways, Mark was bein cocky as hell cause he was an *** most of the time and said 'im double jointed'. Everone bursted out laughing, and my ex brandon wouldnt even look at me and brandon and mark were both stayin at my house for the night."

Keria laughed her *** off, watching nick trying to keep his laughter in "I laugh about it now but i was sooo embarassed let me put it to you this way. No one really thought of me as sweet and innocent Keria and i got lots of phone calls from Guys wanting some booty."

" Nick cracked up, thats Hilarious so whats your favrorite thing about Austraila?" nick qestioned her and smiled

"Mmmmm, my favotie thing about Australia is i dont really know many people here, like no one knows my past and cant judge me on past experiences and things I have done and haven't done. I can just be myself and not worry if someones going to rat me out and tell my family or friends. My favorite thing is the ocean, i love being so close to the water and when i really need to escape I can just walk out my back door and listen to the calming waters of the ocean." Keria smiled like she was listening to the waves crash in to shore right now. "It may sound dumb, and Dorky but its the truth sometimes you just need to get away you know."

Nick shook his head amazed at this woman in front of him, "Amazing" was the only word to describe her, she has every quality he has always wanted. A good sense of humour, a good heart, Amazing listener and a nice body to top it all off. She was very down to earth.

Nick lightly grabbed her hand and left money on the table for there food, "Nick what are you doing?" Keria Questioned.


"Taking you to the place I want to be, now come on." Nick smiled and little to his suprise he didn't let go of her hand, and she didn't let go either.

"Nick, You know I was perfectly capeable of paying for my own meal right?" Keria siad lightly while they were walking down the street.

Nick smiled " I know, but you wouldn't let me pay for your movie and I owe you." nick winked

"Why do you owe me?" Keria asked confused.

"Well, for many things for showing me what its like to laugh again, what its like to be Carefree for a night. Bascially for you being you." Thank you " Nick bent down and kissed her hand." Like he tried to do many times with his wife but she never would let him incase someone would take her picture.

"Well your welcome, Thanks for paying though." Keria smiled. She wondered what she did to deserve this beautiful stranger, the sun was almost rising. She felt the air get colder, which meant they were getting closer to the ocean again.

Nick sighed, thinking of his wife for the first time that evening, he felt Guilty so he let go of kerias hand. Well were here?"
**** it nick kicked himself, why should he feel guitly after all Issabelle is miles away. Because she is your wife the voice in her head said.

"Nick Thank you. For Bringing me here." Keria smiled, Keria noticed the far away look on his face " Hey Nick, are you there."

"Mmm what " nick snapped out of his state of A.M Thinking.

Keria Yawned " I said Thank you for bringing me here."

nickYanwed with her and chuckled " I figured you would like it, you know the getting away part everyone has to do it for a ltitle while. I l love the ocean just as much as you, and thats why I like Austalia. So i figured we could watch the sun set up and listen to the waves."

"Well you were right, I love it." She shivered as the wind picked up, nick noticed and took off his sweater to reveal he had a t-shirt on underneath.

"No, im not cold, but thanks anyways."

"Yes you are, now take my sweatshirt." Nick handed Kira his sweater.

"Nick, im really not cold." Keria said practically shivering.

"Yes you are." Nick argued back, smiling still holding his sweater.

"Says who?" Keria rolled her eyes, but couldn't help but smile at how concerened and gentlemanly nick was acting, from just hours ago nick was throwing pop corn at her durring the movie, and here he was offering her his sweater.

"Says me, and the goose bumps that are all over your arms." Nick said as he rubbed her arms, Keria got chills at the skin on skin contact."

"better." Keria asked as she put nicks sweater on starring into blue eyes.

"Much." Nick said as he contiuned to rub her arms, never leaving contract from her eyes. He watched Her lick her lips nervously then looked back into her eyes. His head started to get closer, and closer to her lips.

Keria Self consiously moved her head forward...

"Nick moved his head closer and whispered " Can I kiss You?" there lips were touching you could feel the heat bewtween their bodies.

Keria closed her eyes, and she couldn't do it "What would your wife think about that.?" mumbled biting her lip her and nicks head was still together nick leaned his forehead against hers.

nick moved his head away and looked into Keria's eye's "How do you know I have a wife?" Nick asked.

"Your Nick Carter of the Backstreet boys right? Nick I have been a fan of your music since I first heard your music, do you know how badly I want to kiss you right now? I can't do that to you and your marriage Nick its not right."

Nick stood up... "You knew, you ****in knew and you never told me you knew? Keria how could you do that?" Nick shook his head I have to go.

Keria Ran to catch up with him "nick its not like that, I really enjoyed spending time with you. Its not like you told me you were nick carter of the Backstreet boys." Keria said getting fustuarted.

"Yea but you knew, you let me believe I was someone else for a night." Nick shook his head dumbfounded. " You freakin new."

"Nick whats so bad about being you, Nick your just a person, with a paycheck like the rest of us. Nick im still the same person. why are you looking at me like im a monster? What does it matter if I knew anyways?"

"It just does. Im not looking at you like a monster." nick shouted to match her tone of voice.

"Yes you are, Im still the same ****in person but i guess thats not good enough for you. Well thanks for a Great evening nick." Keria started to walk away.

"I was just shocked I guess" Nick softened his voice after he caught up to her.

"Why?" Keria tapped her foot waiting for an answer.

"Because I was shocked I could find someone like you, I know you probably dont belive me but your everything I want in a person."

Keria nodded, noticing he has more to say she kept her mouth shut and urged him to continue.

"It turns out you knew, which is probably why your acting the way you have been acting its like our whole night was based on a lie. Thats why I was/am so pissed off. It just adds to it that I was about to kiss you, and make things 10 times as complicated as they really are." Nick shook his head.

"Nick I am, Who I am and if it makes you feel any better I didn't realise who you were until I looked into your eyes on the street on the way to the movies. Your right our whole night has been based on lies, you lied to me too so shouldn't I be a little pissed off, but you know what Im not. Nick things are only as complicated as you make them, your obviously not happy so find someone who makes you happy."

"Nick, I am who I am, and you are who you are." So lets just forget this night ever happend and move on okay."

Keria said and Walked away from nick, Nick was left standing there in the Cold ocean water.

'What the hell just happend'? H asked himself 'One mintue im about to kiss her, and the next we are screaming at eachother'.

Nick shook his head and headed to his beach condo...He was standing in the elevator, watching the numbers rush bye. "**** it all I want is a kiss, is that so much to ask." He shouted just then he heard a voice, male " I'll kiss you." He said nick shook head "No Thank you."

Nick went to his room and went to lay down but the only thing he could think about was the girl that stole his heart, the one that has his heart and wont give it back. Then the Girl he wants to have but cant have. nick sighed and rolled over and went to sleep dreaming of the almost kiss and what it would be like to just give Keria Marie one more kiss.

A summers sunrise is a beautiful thing, it starts a new day and a new Beginging, one sunrise is never like that last.

The Sun was Beeming in through the sheer fabric, swaying back and forth from the slightly adjacent window. The Australian weather at this time of year was hot, humid, and sticky. Nick was been tossing back in forth in His messed up Bed all morrning nick was trying to decide covers on or covers off. Nick Sighed and staired at ceiling hoping, wishing somebody would here his prayers for him to be able to sleep. Nick wiped the thin layer of sweat that was beginning to form on his forehead.

"**** it" He cursed to anyone who was willing to listen Finally having enough, and giving up on the attempts for his body to surrender to sleep. with one last punch in his pillow he truged over to his suitcase and pulled out a pair of boxers and sleepily ran into the wall, while trying to make it to bathroom to have a cold shower. "Ouch, **** today just isn't my Day." Nick said after he forgot the low clearance of the condo bathroom and smacked his head straight on.

After Nicks shower he suddenly got the inspiration to draw, so he headed out and went to a local arts and crafts store. Luckily only a few people recognized him so he was bascially in and out. It wasn't like back home in the states he couldn't go out with put flashing cameras and reporters contstantly asking him about him and his wife's marrital issues how they knew he had no clue. He just smiled and said I would rather not discuss my personal life, that was on a good day or he would just give the paparazi a finger and the next day nick was on the head of the national equier giving his wife the finger. It never ceased to amaze him how there mind works.

Nick went back to his condo, and he walked out onto his Balcany he was over looking the ocean, he saw a father and son fishing so he decided to capture the moment and he got to work sketching, blending, shading. Then nick got out the various shades of blue and green he bought and started to color in the ocean. He was outside for a good 2 hours, when insomnia started to take over his body and he fell asleep on his Balcany, letting the cool Breeze mix with the humid air, and the salt. Put him right to sleep. Nicks last thought before he drifted off to sleep was 'This is defifantely what I needed, this is the life.'

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Keria was sitting at home making lost dog signs, she didn't really care if the dog was lost though! That dog has been nothing but a pain in her ***. It doesnt help matters any that she is allergic to dogs. Anytime she decides to show the dog some attention. Keria looks as if she hasn't gotten any sleep in days, her eyes are all red and puffy. She sounds like a sea creature. Not to mention the dog runs away at any sign of a female phermones. Any signs a dog is in heat nickers runs like hell and doesn't come back for a few days. Its normal but she hasn't seen nickers in awhile and was starting to get worried something happened to him. Hence, her making lost dog signs.

This was suposed to be a vactaion for her instead she is stuck looking after a lost dog, while her friends are in Mexico patying in true Feista style. " Getting Drunk as ****". Keria chuckled at the thought. "****, Dog pain in my ****in Rear."
Keria stommped her foot in True take a freakin fit style. " OUCH, **** it today just isn't my day." Keria Sighed as once again she has rememberance of Nick carter stuck up her ***.

It doesn't help everytime she turns on the radio she hears a backstreet boys song specifically one of nicks solo. She turns on the T.V there is anterview with him. Or there is something on T.V about his recent DUI which is a freaking repeat, cause that was almost 4 years ago.

Keria sighed Even if she wanted to forget about Nick Carter, the world wouldn't let her, it doesn't help that for the past 3 days all she thinks about is Nick and his laugh and how much fun they had together. If if she wanted to forget him she couldn't her life has become nick centric. It doesn't matter where she goes, she could go the womens bathtroom and in cherry red lipstick on the Mirror she could see Nick carter is a sexgod. It has been 3 seriously messed up days, and 3 long nights with Keria dreaming about her and nicks could of been kiss.

"What a ****ing Vactaion" Keria yelled exhasperatedly inside her Vehicle as she turned on the The air condtioning after deliversing all of the lost dog posters then she tunred on the. Radio, and someone requested help me by nick carter. " Everywhere I ****ing go"

She switched the radio station and got excited when she heard them introduce the song, then she heard his voice. " This is Nick carter I am taking over the Radio so if you dont like 80's music you better turn the station.

"What the ****." Keria Cursed as she shut her car off she fustratedly mumbled under her breath " If this your idea of Karma, for being pissed I didn't tell him I knew he was 'The Nick Carter'. This isn't funny anymore." Keria sighed defeated, waving her finger in the air.

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Nick awoke to a cool sensation on his feet, and smiled " Izzy, that feels so great, why haven't you done this before. This is kinda kinky I thought you were against sex. When nick got the rare oder of dog he instantly jumped up wincing in pain as he felt his Now sun burned arm as he peeled himself up from the plastic, sticky with sweat arm chair.

He looked over and saw a dog panting, tounge hanging out, Dirty as ****, which seemed to be a smile on his face. Nick remembered how Keria described nickers a few nights ago. She shook his head "You gotta be kidding me". He said as he looked at the dog tag with a phone number and a name in gold letters that said. "NICKERS" 657-890-9867~ If I get lost please bring me home.

nick smiled could this be Fate.....

He dialed the number and waited patiently for someone to pick up the phone...

"Hello" Keria answered out of breath.

"This is nick carter...I have your umm dog.".

"Of course you do" she slammed the phone down and grinded her teeth.

"VERY FUNNY" She shouted.

"is this a bad time.? Nick questioned she souded pissed.

"It hasn't stopped you for 3 ****in days, nick 3 just meet me at blandey park in a hour."

"I cant I have to do a little radio interview, but meet me at my place at 3." Nick said very professional like.
and hung up.

"Whats up her ***?" Nick asked the dog and went in search for some water and some left over steak to feed the dog.

Keria stared at the phone in Disbelief Nick has her dog, she was never really a true Beliver in fate and all its purposes and everything happens for a reason. If everything happens for a reason than why do planes fly into bulidings and kill thousands of people. Where is there people in the World Starving, why is there world hunger. Why?? She was starting to belive in fate a little now though how could she not for 3 days nickers the annoyingly horny dog has been missing, and for 3 days she has seen and heard nothing with out the word nick in it, or hearing his voice.

She shook her head in realization maybe nick has always been out there like that, and she is finally starting to realise that now cause he has gotten under skin. Keria swore after her past relationship she was going to join a convent , then she ran into Nick carter the man of all her sexual fantasies and late night Rendevouz in her moment of Rem sleep. She never thought she was going to meet him, everyone has a inentainable crush, someone you never touch. Nick carter has been hers her escape.

Keria Felt horrible shes pissed off at herself and took it out on Nick, None the less she is still pissed and anyone that knows her knows she is just as stubborn as an 85 year old man, that just had a pain in his chest and doesn't want to go the doctor. Basically because they are scared, of whats going to happen in the future. Maybe she should of told nick she knew but she thought it was completely irrealeavent to the situation. She Also knew the grown man overreacted none the less she had to meet the man that has been occupying her thoughts for the past 76 hours, in a hour. She then realised that she doesn't know where in the hell he lives, and the fact that he hung up on her.

'****er" Keria thought as she looked at the phone realising that he hung up on her. Thank god for caller ID Keria picked up her phone and dialed 654-765-0986. She waited impatiently.

"Nick was in the middle of cutting up the steak in tiny peices and he sprayed the dog with febreeze " ****, Nickers you Reek." He said as he placed the steak in front of the dog. He was just about to spray the dog again when the phone rang.

"Hello, Carter here." Nick answered the Ringing phone

Nick instantly Reconginzed the voice on the other end and couldn't help himself but to smile "Hey Izzabelle, How are you Baby?"

Isabelle rolled hey eyes " Nick, How many times do I have to tell you not to call me your Baby. We lost our Baby Remember."

Nick clenched his teeth together and smiled " How could I forget?" He muttered Scarcastically. "look can we not do this right now, im not in the mood to argue with you. I have to to a radio interview in 10 mintues."

Isabelle smiled knowingly " Can you forget about your ****in job for a minute Nicholas and put me first, you remember your wife. You never put me first."

Nick Raised his voice " Keria, I never put you first." He instantly winced at his slip up.

Isabelle was pissed " Who, in the **** is Keria, is she your new side prospect? Answer me Nicholas!!!" Issabelle screeched into the phone.

"No, Look I didn't say Keria I said Isabelle, Izzy can we talk about this later." Nick asked as he was looking for his keys to his rented escalade, and his Hat, and sunglasses.

"No, We Cant ****ing do this later, everything is do it later with you Nicholas." Nick winced at his full name.

"Look Issabelle, I tried to talk to you before, and you woudln't even listen to me or hear me out, now I dont have time to listen to you ***** about how im a terrible husband, and how im never there for you." Nick Quipped back at her as calm as he could possibly be which wasn't to calm."

"No, look I have to go you know I do have a job, one of us has to work."

"**** you Nicholas." Issabelle yelled.

"No, Izzy thats not possible for us cause that would involve you and me touching, Isabelle I cant do this anymore ever since you lost the baby you havent been the same, its like its my fault you lost the baby. I can't take it everything happens for a reason Issabelle. Im sorry if you lost our child i think I was just as upset as you were. I can't do this with you anymore Izzy I want out, I need out. This is where the sidewalk ends. I love you, but im not in love with you anymore I can't do this Issabelle, I just cant it hurts to much. All we do is Fight, which would be alright but we dont even touch and we haven't its like were strangers." Nick took a deep Breath and sighed.

"Issabelle, I didn't want to do this over the phone, but I cant Issabelle Either me and you go to counselling or Im out, you know what Second thought Im out anyways, I cant live this lie any longer. You me and me just got married becasue we were afraid of bein alone, and look at this we are prisoners of our own hearts either of us are happy. Issabelle you can have the house you can have it all. I Cant do this anymore. Nick said as he felt the tears run down his cheeks. He was crying because he was finally letting go, this is where the sidewalk ends.

Isabelle felt her tears run down her cheeks as well her tears, were tears of finally it worked pushing him away worked and it seems as though she pushed him right into the arms of someone named Keria. Issabelle should feel happy she can stop all of the sneaking around, she can stop pushing nick away. She can stop feeling guilty. She should be relieved but she wasn't she was sad, Sad the lost her bestfriend and husband.

"I, Uhh Nick Im sorry, so Sorry I didn't mean to make you feel this way, its just I have a lot of stuff going on right now."
Issabelle bit her lip knowing it was over this is where the sidewalk ended.

Nick spoke silently " And I dont Issabelle, I have delt with the loss of our child as much as you have, I have a new album comming out, I am dealing with getting over my drug addiction im dealing with life just as much as you are. It would of been real great if you would of been there for me though all of this like a supporting wife." Nick stated.

"I know and im sorry Nick, what more do you want me to say."

"Issabelle, I dont want you to say anything, there is nothing left to say, i have given ypu lots of oppurtunities to say something contribute to our realtionship and you never talked about it, you told me its all my fault." nick sighed.

"Isabelle, Yes I know I may have hurt you at first I couldn't help it we got married when I was just starting my coke binge ask any of the guys as soon as I found out you were pregnant I called them they came over. They flushed all my drugs down the toilet, they threw out all my stash." Nick bit lip to stop it from quivering, remembering the dark time in his life.

"The weekend after you told me I left, I checked myself into a rehab clinic I wanted to be there for you and our unborn child as a good and stable father should be. I know I yelled at you and called you a **** and how you were using the baby to hold onto me. Im sorry for that, I apologized numerous times. what more cdo you want me to say god didn't want us to have that baby." Nick saidl letting it all out, once and for all.

Isabble started to cry "Nick, it was your hurtful words that we lost our child, I went to my doctor and asked for the monrring after pill, i said me and you got carried away and we weren't ready to have children. What i didn't tell him was that i was already 4 months pregnant. So I took the pill at the doctors office, it didn't hit me until after your concert. keria stated through shakey breaths, remembering everything her mind flashing back to that day.

"I got horrilbe pains in my stomach and I doubled over in pain and I was bleeding I made us lose the Baby. For you, and because of that after I had the self inflicted abortion, I didn't go get myself cleaned up. I had my pap test the month later and he said I am not able to carry children anymore. So I Blame you Nicholas, you and Your ****ing Addiction as to why I cant have children. Thats why I am such a ***** to you, Because I ****ing hate you with everything I am. I HATE you. For what you made me lose." Keria Screamed into the phone.

nick sat up straight and felt like someone stomped on his heart " Isabelle, you told me you just found out were pregnant."

"Yea, well I lied I learned from you." Izzy stated bluntly.

"Nick, I was Scared and alone in the world, you called me a **** and I ws using our child as baggage, to claim you and hold onto you because I knew you were mad that you cheated on me."

"Izzabelle you cheated on me, I was pissed I found out 2 horrible things in one day, The first thing that came to mind was for how long was it going on, and the child probably isn't mine." nick took a deep breath to calm himself down. "you know I have a temper and I don't mean the things I say."

"2 months" Issabelle muttred " I was cheating on you for 2 months, I knew it was yours cause I was 4 months pregnant."
Issabelle let the tears scacade from her eyes like a waterfall.

"Whoa, you were ****ing some other guy, when you pregnant with my child, our child" Nick shook his head and picked up the knife and through it and it stabbed into the wall. Nickers whipered and left the room, but came back when he heard nick crying. Nickers came over and licked his hand. Nick smiled slighty at the dog.

"Yes, I pushed you away cause I felt guitly, and I started to have more feelings for the other guy, than you and i was torn and scared cause I didn't want to lose you as a best friend, but as a lover i didn't want you I fell in love nick, but durring that time I fell in love with someone else. Someone who is there for me."

"Isabelle, I Was always there for you. Whos the Guy Issabelle. I think I at least deserve to know that dont you think." Nick stated monotone. "Whos the ****ing Guy?" nick asked losing his cool.

Isabelle didn't want to tell him..." Nick, it doesn't matter who it is."

"Holy ****, I have given the brush off enough times, when asked the question that means I know who it is. Who in the hell is it?" Nick yelled getting mad, that his wife Ex-wife would cheat on him with someone he knew.

"Its, Its Nick its Andy."Isabelle waited for nick to say something.

"Andy, as in the Andy that I caught you cheating with before, my security guard that I fired over the incident ANDY?? You ****, how could you cheat on me, I have never onced cheated on you since I was sober."

"Really, well whos this girl thats all over the papers, and the internet. headlines that Read " It looks as if nick carter and Isabelle Carters' realtionship is over, is she the new Angelina of hollywood?"

"so who is she nick."

"Her name is keria and I just met her 3 days ago, shes a friend."

"Hmmm, is that what you call it these days shes your '**** friend' ".

"Look, Isabelle I told you I never cheated it doens't mean i havent wanted too, im a guy I would love to feel loved, im at my peek here and my hand does all the work. Because I stayed faithful to you, like a husband and wife should do, and you are out screwing Andy. screw you, Issabelle Screw you. This is where the sidewalk ends".

Nick hung up feeling a littlr relived and even more pissed off, he was about to walk out when his phone rang..
nick rolled his eyes " Issabelle I told you its Over, I cant do this anymore papers are on there way."

"Umm...nick this is Keria not Issabelle". Nick smiled for the first time since he last smiled at the dog.

"Thats good for you." Nick stated jokingly. "you dont want to be Isabelle right now."

"No your right I dont, I umm am very sorry to bother you I know I am suposed to meet you at your house, but i have been calling you for the last 20 mins and I have no clue where you live." Keria nervously laughed.

"Yea, sorry I hung up on you, you sounded pissed that I called so i figured distance would be good." Nick chuckled

Keria smiled " Yea well, umm sorry about that, I can tell you about that later when you give me nickers."

Nick looked out the ocean, you know how about we meet at this beach its close to my house and i really need to get out of here, I have been in this house for the past few days. I need to get out ill pack a little dinner and we can eat and talk." Nick smiled.

after a few minutes of mindless banter and talking and rambling. Keria spoke up " Great So ill meet you at Merriam beach in 40 minutes."

"Sounds great, its a date." Nick said then mentally cursed himself.

"ummm, kay see you then."

"A date as friends." Nick said

"Nick, I know what you mean no worries see ya then Bring nickers."

Keria laughed " You know what I should bring the food Nick a trade off kind of like a Ransom note, food for dog."

Nick bursted out laughing " Well, my interview is tomorrow i was looking at the wrong date thank god, I thought i missed it
so I figured we should still do this while the sun is up."

Keria chuckled " Okay, then you make the food and bring the dog, Bye."

She hung up before nick could get bye out....

Nick looked at the knife that was stuck in his wall and said " This is where the sidewalk ends". He took a deep breath and took his wedding ring off, and placed it on another finger. He then looked over at the sleeping dog and sprayed some more Frebreeze on him and said " This is where the sidewalk begins." and smiled and patted the dog, and made sandwiches for his and Kerias date, Umm friend date, nah date. Nick smiled and felt relieved.

Nick Cranked up the music as loud as it could go, without bothering the nighbours which wasn't very high cause one of his neighbours always had something to him. nick was humming singing along to the music, and spreading penut butter and jelly and on the Whole wheat, and White Bread. If someone could of seen him right now they would of laughed cause nick had a towel around his waist, and he was making sandwiches and singing jessica simpson songs, and his blonde hair was lightly dripping down his face. If the guys saw him right now number one they would make fun of him singing and dancing to Jessica Simpson, number 2 he doesn't care its not as if he really likes the song, its just on the radio and he is in a semi good mood considering the circumstances, he wants to take advantage of all life has to offer him, hes Free as a freaking bird and he loves it.

Nick smiled to the dog, he decided this dog needed a little something. Nickers needed to clean up his act so nick ran to his room and found a Bandanna and he folded it and put it around the dogs neck. Odly enough, the Bandana had nicks name on it a fan gave it to him when he arrived in Austalia. He knew he wouldn't wear it, so he gave it to nickers to wear. "There ya go buddy, your lookin hot.' Nick winked at the dog and went back to placing the sandwiches in the Bag. He looked in his fridge and saw strawberries and whipped Cream. He Remembered, he had asked them to stock his frigde for him he placed the items in the cooler. Grabbed a couple of waters, a couple of beers, a couple of rasberry vodka coolers, and a couple pepsis some napkins and paper plates. He didn't have a dog leesh so he hooked one of his chain belts he brought to the Bandanna and was about to walk out the door when his phone rang.


"**** Phone" Nick muttered " Im late as it is". Nick looked at the phone and then realised it didn't stop ringing.

"Hello" Nick answered annoyed

"Well aren't we cheerful" A.j joked

Nick smiled "Yea well you know how it is." nick chuckled.

"Nick, what in the hell did you say to Issabelle, She called Kat Bawling her eyes out and let me tell you she called at the most inappropriate times to call ever, me and Kat were getting it on the kitchen Table, and I was just about there dude.." A.J said eshasperated.

"Okay, A.J thats ****ing disgusting I am never eating on your kitchen table, ever again thats Just uhhh..." Nick shivered as he got mental images.

"Nick grow up, its not like you never had sex on a kitchen table before." A.J chuckled remembering a time he walked in on him and Issabelle a little after they decided to get married.

"Well, If i did I wouldn't tell you thats
just sick, but uhh im glad your getting your kicks A.J" Nick laughed and rolled his eyes.

"ALEXANDER JAMES MCLEAN" Nick heard someone yell he was assuming it was Kat.

"**** that doesn't sound good Man." Nick laughed

"Yes Dear". Nick heard A.J suck up, Nick was practically roaring no one knew how to put A.J in his place like Katrina Did.

"Shut the hell up." A.J mumbled into the reciever.

"A.J, you did not just tell me to shut the hell up." Kat Yelled at him.

"No, Baby i was talking to Nick." A.J pouted.

Kat smiled "your talking to nick" then gave A.J an Evil Glare, "I wanna talk to the little ****er."

"Hey, Man shes all yours now." A.J Chuckled into the phone " Dont tell her about the kitchen table."

"I think she heard ya Man." Nick laughed his friends were Bizzare but he loves them.

"I hope not, or else I will be sleeping on the couch." A.J sighed.

Just then they heard another voice " A.J, you are definately sleeping on the couch, better yet you can sleep on the kitchen table since you brag about it so much, try sleeping on it but Baby dont worry I will give you a pillow."

Nick laughed " Hey, Kat how are you??"

Kat smiled.. "Im Great now that I get the whole bed to myself for the night."

"Kat thats not fair, why are you being a *****." A.J grumbled

"Im not being a *****, I told you dont tell nick. What do you do you tell him, Men Will you ever learn."

"Proabably not" A.J said, "Well I love you baby, and nick me and you have some serious talking to do."

"I love you too Alex." Nick could practically see the googly eyes they were giving eachother over the phone, and smiled and almost Gagged. There realtionship was almost as perfectly inperfect it could be.

"A.J, you can count on it." Nick smiled, after he heard A.J hang up he said " So whats my favorite sister in law doing?"

Kat smiled " Well I dont whether to congragualte you, or kick you in the ***, You broke it off with Issabelle?"

Nick winced " Yea, I couldn't do it anymore i know shes your friend and stuff but I just couldn't do it anymore you know it was to hard and as much as I still love her this is where the sidewalk has to end .Its over and its been over for a long time."

"I know that Nick, I think Everyone knew it I just think that Isabelle thought you were always going to be there, thats not what I wanna kick you in the *** for though. What in the hell are you thinking, dont you think its a little soon to move on?
Kat asked with a heart full of concern.

"who said I was moving on?" Nick quipped back, he never liked people telling him, what he can do and what he can't do with his life. He knew Kat, was just trying to help him out but he didn't want to hear what anyone had to say right now.

"Nick, I know you! I knew you before I even met" Kat sighed " Nick, I know you dont like being alone you always like someone to cuddle with and hold. Are you sure its fair to you or the girl that is all over the tabloids and news. Are you sure its fair to either of you to put yourself in this rebound situation. Nick I know you and that girl must of been your final push to say **** it all to hell."

Nick took an a aggravated sigh " Look, Kat Do you have any clue how alone I felt in my realtionship with Issabelle. I met a Really good friend, someone I can talk to and trust. We are just friends, whether you belive it or not thats your decesion." Nick stated truthfully.

"Nick, Friends now but later what?" Kat asked " I just worry about you, your like a little brother to me." Kat sighed in defeat " tell me the Truth Nick, can you see something with this girl?"

Nick took a deep breath and shut his eyes " honestly, I think so but its to soon to tell I just like what I know about Keria."

"Ohh, so the Tabloid hogs name is Keria."

Nick Rolled his eyes "Her name is Keria and be nice."

"Nick honeslty what do you know about this girl, just that shes good in the Sack?" Kat asked.

"KATRINA" Nick raised his voice. "Stop its my life, and I will do what I want or whoever I want."

"Look, Im just looking out for you." Kat softened her voice

"I know you are Kat, and I love you for it but whenever I talk to keria she made everything go away, for a little bit and I need that right now. and just so you know i haven't slept with her, or even kissed her **** why does everyone think im a Man *****."

"Nick, We all Remember your play boy Days, and if your happy than i will supoort you and im happy for you" Kat sighed " Nick just go slow, please. So you see no chances of you ever getting back together with Issabelle."

"No" Nick sighed " Im done playing games, Im ready for a new hand in life." Nick smiled " Kat its time for me to live it, you know live my life im only 27 almost 28."

"I know nicky, well We love you and have fun and if you get married, or she ends up pregnant tell me about it, so I dont have to read about it in the tabloids. Nick play safe okay." Kat said in a teasing. half serious voice.

"Kat are you crying?" Nick asked after he heard her sniffle "Yes, its these **** hormones." Kat quickly closed her mouth and put her hand over it.

"KAT, your what? your not pregnant are you? Holy **** you are" Nick said after he heard silence.

"Does Jay know?" Nick asked

"No, he doesn't know I havent told him yet, i think im going to tell him when he wakes up after sleeping on the table, that way he cant freak out cause I will remind him what he just woke up one." Kat laughed through her tears.

"haha, your kids dont have a chance. your evil" Nick smiled " Well congrats, and I love you and take care tell A.J to call me tomorrow im late for my date, i mean meeting with Keria.

"Nick, love you too and Be careful" Kat shook her head into the reciever, and went off to find daddy to be.

Nick hung up and smiled " Im gonna be an Uncle again" Nick said to the dog, that he was walking out the door.

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Keria was standing in front of her mirror she couldnt decide on a bathing suit...She was a pretty busty woman so she didn't really have a choice with the not showing very much cleevage. She wasn't sure if this was a friendly thing, or a Date. she didn't want to see to over anxious.

" AGGGHHH" Keria Screamed in fusturation, why am I so freaking nervous who cares what I look like, cause you like him and want to ravish him. her mind screamed to her.

"very funnny, Great now im talking to myself" Keria pouted and decided on a blue, yellow, green. Bikinni not a stringy one though just one that shows lots, but enough to keep you guessing. she Grabbed her White and blue hat, put her hair to the side, and slipped on some white capris pants. She had on a light green shirt and and headed out the door.

Keria got into her car, and Stopped when she saw him sitting on the beach starring into the ocean...drinking a beer.
As soon as she wlaked closer to him she could smell his cologne and the scent of cocounut.

"Hey, you." Nick smiled when he felt her presence.

"Uhhh, Hey Thank you for taking care of Nickers for me, belive it or not i missed him." Keria sat down next to nick on the beach blanket.

"I can Belive it" Nick smiled "So I thought you weren't gonna show up, and say screw the dog since our last encounter." Nick chuckled

"Well No worries, im here now." Keria smiled and winked at nick.

"You most definately are, what took you so long to get here?" Nick asked and let out a breath he didn't know he was holding in, he was so nervous.

"I uhhh-" Keria Blushed " I umm got lost" Keria smiled and her cheeks tunred a light shade of crimson.

"You got lost? Belivable but I dont think so." Nick read her Face and changed the subject " Well you were most defiantely worth the wait, you look very beachable.

"Beachable?" Keria raised her eyebrows "Nick thats not even a word is it."

"Well I started to say ****able, but uhh didn't think that was quite appropraite." Nick lightly blushed, as it was now his turn for his cheeks to go red.

Keria didn't know where she was comming up with her comebacks, but when she was with nick she never really had to try so hard. " Well nick, I must say you look pretty **** Beachable yourself." Keria winked and pulled off her top. To expose her bathusit and body to nick and anyone else that was looking.

"Nick come on" Keria urged him " The water looks great".

"Not yet hun, you need sunscreen cause I dont smell any on you nor did you bring any with you. We dont want you to turn into a lobster."

"Now, lay on your stomach." Nick instructed her.

"No, I guess we wouldnt want that now would we nick, I have seen some headlines about us i dont buy that crap but when your at the grocery store and you see your face its kinda funny. The headlines will say "Nick dating a lobster?" In big bold letters read more to find out.

Nick chuckled, as he poured the sunscreen into his hands and rubbed Keria all over her back, he then untied her bathsuit top. He loved the way her skin felt so silky and smooth, but with imperfections it was great. she was great god if only she knew how much he was getting turned on by just rubbing lotion on her back, if they were to kiss nick would probably loose himself.

"Uhhh, nick what in the hell are you doin?" Keria asked refering to the untying of her bathing suit top.

Nick snapped out of his mini day dream he was having, about him and keria well hes a guy you get the rest.

"NICK". Keria asked as she slightly turned around covering herself the best she could, she smiled as she saw nicks tounge lightly sticking out, as he was concetratiing so hard on her back. Keria found her mind wandering to other places, she wondered if nick took that much time on everything he did, like kissing.

It was now nicks turn " KERIA, hello earth to Keria". Nick blew on her neck causing her to get goosebumps. Keria snapped out of her trance that just moments ago nick was in.

"Uhh, sorry Nick I was kinda lost in thought". Keria smiled, although nick couldnt see it.

"Ohh, yea what about?" nick kneaded her shoulders a little harder, and it took everything he had for him to not kiss her shoulders her neck. Nick has gne 6 months without sex, and the feeling of wanting sex. So today his sexdrive has to take over, why today of all days nick scolded himself.

"Well, honestly I was thinking about you."

Nick snapped out of his trance " There done" nick said as he tied her top back up and pulled her up, so she was sitting "You were thinking about me, Why?"

"Well nick here it is I have been fan of yours for a very long time, and do you know how many times I would sit on a beach and dream that your hands were caressing my body, rubbing lotion on me. You know its just like my daydreams so its all kinda surreal. I guess this is just sort of a fantasy come true.

"Well what else did we do on the beach?" Nick brought his head closer to hers "Did we do this.?"

nick brushed his lips against hers. He felt a surge of heat go all through his body, Keria felt spine tingling feelings. Nick had ignited a spark that she thought burnt out awhile ago. Keria deepened there kiss and tangled her fingers through his sun kissed locks. Nick started to un-tie her top as she felt kerias hands rub all over his back.

He then stopped himself realising it was a public beach, it just wasn't the right time. nick pulled apart "Baby, close your eyes."


Keria closed her eyes and felt herself being lifted up by nick, "Keep em shut" Keria felt the cool waves of water hit her feet as nick carried her and he mumbled "Did we do this." And he through her in the water.

"Actually we did" Keria swam over to him, after she caught her breath she then went under the water and pulled his swim shorts down, nick didn't really want to stop her so he didn't. no one would be able to see anyways.

He shut his eyes in anticipation and then felt her swim away. " I did this in my dream too." Keria said laughing and swimming away from him, with his swim shorts in hand.

"Keria thats not fair" Nick pouted " Give them back." Nick whined.

"Thats what you get for throughing me in the freezing cold ocean." Keria handed him his shorts and left, as he was trying to put them back on in the water without touching and going under the water.

Nick smirked "Well I thought we needed to cool off abit, it was getting pretty hot you know. not that I really minded" nick took kerias hand in his.

"Are you ready." Keria looked shocked

"Ready for what?" Nick noticed the look on her face and laughed " Not sex dummy, food im starving."

"Ohhh, Yea im actually really hungry myself."

Nick smiled " Good lets eat, but before we do" nick leaned down and kissed her.

"Okay now were good." Nick said

"Are you sure, you dont want another."

Nick smirked. He kissed her quickly again. "I always want another".

Nick took keiras' pinky into his own calloused hands, He led her to the blanket he had spread out for her and motioned for her to sit down. Keria smiled up at him, and laughed when she saw the contents.

"Penut Butter and jelly nick?" Keria laughed after taking her sandwich out of its wrapper

"Yea, Well I realised i dont know really know you well enough so i figured you can't go wrong with penut butter and jelly. If you dont like them together, I will eat whatever side you dont want and give you my side of what you like." Nick looked at his feet embarassed, and mentally scolded himself 'a 27 year old man slash that boy, packing penut butter and jelly sandwiches for a picnic.

Keria smiled and took a bite of her sandwich and swallowed and winked towards nick " I loooove penut-butter and Jelly."
No worries, its pretty good Pb&J Nick. So what else do you have in that basket of tricks, did you bring the juice boxes." Keria joked.

"Ohh, aren't we funny today." Nick rolled his eyes at her, and went over and licked her.

"Nick, what the hell?" Keria asked after she was just licked.

nick chuckled " You had penut butter on the tip of your nose."

Keira blushed..."uhhh, thanks."

Nick winked "no problem, anytime and chuckled " so we have strawberries and whipped cream, some beer, uhh some pepsi, and rasberry vodka coolers, ohh and water what would you like to drink?

"Well nick I must say you get definate points for the Strawberries and whipped Cream you comepletely redeemed yourself, with the PB&J. Thank you nick this is Great."

Nick looked confused " Keria, why are you thanking me?"

Keria took another bite of her sandwich " Well for just being you."

"Uhhh, Your Welcome." Nick took a bite of his sandwich and looked around confused, He smiled as he watched keria eat and smiled with himself normally silences were awkward for him. With Keria they seemed to be peacfull like nothing has to be said cause the other knows everything is ok. Nick has never felt this comfortable with a girl since, him and Isabelle first became friends.

Keria looked over her shoulder and caught nicks glance she smiled and continued eating her sandwich...She still felt nick's eyes burning into her Back "What, Nick, What do I have something on my face why are you starring at me.

Nick blushed and said the first thing that came to his mind " Your Beautiful, I know absolutely nothing about you though, We are sitting here eating PB&J together. I just want to get to know you." Nick dug into the cooler and Grabbed himself a Dasani through the meleted ice, and took a swig of the cooling sensation.

Keria was shocked to say the least, never was she expecting Nick to say those words, she was expecting Nick to say somewhere along the lines of you got penut butter on your face. Not I want to get to know you but somehow it doesn't really suprise Keria cause she feels the same.

"So serious" Keria stated playfully, and walked over and rubbed her thumb along the line of his jaw and in a barely audible voice, she whispered "I want to get to know you too." nick grabbed her hand and played with the ring on her finger.

He brought there intertwined hands up his lips, and kissed her hand delicately, soft, meaningful he dropped her hand and said "Good."

"So Keira, what is one thing in life you want most out of anything else in the World?" Nick asked in a Nasaly voice and pretended to right things down.

Keria laughed "Nick your a Goof."

Nick laughed "Yea I am a little, but you know you like it. So answer the Question." Nick smiled and Dug into the cooler and Grabbed another sandiwch.

Nick watched as Keria Closed her eyes and scrunched her face in deep thought and opened them "Nick, Do you see that couple over there?"

"Over there?" Nick pointed " As he looked at a couple the young women was reading a book to her daughter, and the Man that was with her watched them with such adoration, and love. Nick felt his heart skip a beat when he looked at them. Because his heart knows what his missing, but he doesn't know how to get it he tried with Issabelle and it ended in a 6 month breakup.

"Yea" Keria smiled " Nick thats what I want most at the end of the day I want somebody to look at me like that, That girl is oblivious to how the guy feels about her, but yet she knows. I just dont think she knows how much. I Just want to be able to love, but most of all I just want to be loved Back." Keria looked anywheres but at Nick at that moment Nick was the last person she wanted to look at. She hated being Vulnerable, She closed herself off to so many people particuarly Anyone with a ****.

Nick smiled for the beautiful girl sitting next to him "Keria."

"Nick I know its silly but-."

Nick cut her off " Keria, thats not silly at all!! I think thats what everyone wants at the end of the day they want to be loved back. Nick put the peice of hair that was blowing in the wind and tucked it behind her ear. "Hell, Keria I sing about it all the time, its not silly its real and realistic. You want to know something, I can pretty much gurantee you that somedoy will look at you that way." Nick smiled and rubbed her shoulders.

" Thank you Nick thats Sweet, But somedays I just dont think so." Keria shrugged her shoulders and closed her eyes tightly and stared at the crashing waves, and children playing, the happy couples holding hands. She quickly averted her gaze from the Ocean, to her feet so nick wouldn't see the silent tears that threatened to fall.

"Keria, Don't be so sure you are Beautiful on the outside, but you seem even more so on the inside. You have an amazing heart as far as I can tell." Nick lifted up her chin up so she would look at him. Blue eyes starring into blue pools. Nick whiped away her tears with his thumbs. "Dont let the *******s stop you from feeling anything, dont let them make you numb cause trust me being numb isn't much better."

Nick wrapped his arm around her, and she leaned her head on his shoulder nick leanned down and kissed her head and whispered " Keria, dont cry he isn't worth your tears."

Keria sniffed "Im sorry Nick, I know this is probably the last thing you expected to happen today, I think maybe I should just go home this is the last thing you probably need right now."

Keria started to get up from Nicks embrace "Keria, This is exactly what I need right now. I need to feel emotion as bad as that sounds I have been in an emotionless relationship for far to long. Isabelle, always got mad when I would cry, or yell at her. Keria We never fought, we never barely ever kissed, We never made love, and we most defiantly never had sex." nick lightly laughed mostly to stop the tears from falling.

Keria noticed nicks eyes getting misty, she noticed his light laugh she knows that laugh because thats the laugh she always uses when she wants to pretend like her past doesn't bother her and shes over all of the hurt and pain. That so called being in love has caused her. Keria placed on a reassuring smile" What, no sex and your at your peak thats gotta suck."

Nick laughed lightly " I know thats what I said too."

"Well nick if it makes you feel better, I was with this guy named Matt he told me loved me all the time, but all we did was fight all the time. He didn't trust me, and after I caught him cheating I didn't say goodbye so I could never trust him. All we did was fight. He called me a **** and he had a bit of a drinking problem and he was pretty heavy into drugs. He hit me a couple of times. Nick I really did Love him, but why didn't he love me back. "

Nick rubbed her back and held her tightly listening to her story, listening to what makes Keria, Keria.

Why didn't he treat me like he loved me. I told him I was tired of being his doormat. He would be out partying all the time, then come to my appartment and crawl into bed with me and whisper over and over again that he loved me, when I could smell the womens purfume all over his body. As bad as this sounds i could smell the aroma of sex on his body. One day at work I had extremely bad pains in my stomach and I went to the doctor he told me I loss the baby. I didn't even know i was pregnant the truth is I must of been pregnant for awhile cause i refused to sleep with Matt for a few months. I didn't ask how far along. Thats the night I woke up to what I was putting myself through, thats the day I woke up and saw matt for the Abusive bastard that he was, none the less still loved. I guess you cant change people, that cant change. I realised i can't change myself for anyone but myself."

Keria had tears streaming down her face, and nick whiped them away again. Nick Wrapped his Arms around her in a tight embrace. " Im so sorry Keria, He was an Idiot he didn't deserve you, or your body. He most Definately didn't deserve your love. if I ever see that ******* I will kick him in the ***. At least it would be a headline that meant something."

Keria pulled away. Nick noticed her lip quivering and her shoulders shaking from the heavy sobbing her body wants to get rid off, something she has been holding in for far to long. "Cmere hunny" Nick wrapped his arms around her again and kissed her head and let keria soak his shirt. Nick just held the borken girl in his arms and cradeled her, like he had so many times with his sisters, girlfriends before Isabelle but after mandy most of the time he held crying girls in his arms, it was after he hurt them from cheating or picking a fight just so his heart wouldn't get broken again cause none of them would want to get close enough and no-one got to close. Nick let so many great girls get away because he was scared thats why he finally let isabelle in, he figured he was safe with her but it turned out playing it safe, was to safe there was no room for errors.

After a few minutes of Keria crying, and soaking nicks shoulder making him wet with tears. It looked like there was mini rain storm, a dark cloud that hung over over Nick and Keria. Nick whispered Shhhhh...and rubbed her back and watched the sun go down, but this time he wasn't alone his arms were wrapped around somebody and thought of being with somebody the way he was. Brought tears to his eyes, but a smile on his face becuase it means he wasn't alone anymore.

After nick felt Kerias body, stop from shaking to mini little trembles and he caught her trying to catch her breath...
"Keria." nick questioned.

"hmmm." Came her sullen reply.

"Just making sure your still with me." nick squeezed her tightly and a couple times playfully.

"im still here just thinking" Keria smiled at him "Thank you for this nick, Believe it or not I havent cried like this in forever."

Nick smiled lightly and tapped her nose and kissed her head " Your Welcome Sweetie, and stated a little more playfully trust me I can belive you it felt like I was in a mini rain storm."

Keria laughed and lightly slapped him playfully on the chest..."Watch it carter, but seriously Thank you."

"Believe me I am" Nick winked at her, Keria rolled her eyes in response to seeing Keria take of her shorts that she had on over her bathing suit bottoms.

"like what you see? " Keria questioned playfully after she put on her AE white sweat pants, and pulled her hoodie over her head.

"Most definately." nick grabbed her hand and pulled her down next to him " I think I really like what I see." nick said as he licked his lips, and stared into her eyes then her lips and moved his head to kiss her neck lightly. "come with me." Nick asked.

Keria looked at nick Weird " Come with you, where?" What she really wanted to say was Anywhere but it was much to soon to say that. she was falling hard, which is completely what she didn't want to happen but somehow she needed it to happen. Now more than ever.

Nick looked at her "Do you trust me?" nick stared into her eyes.

"Nick, have you been watching Titanic again?" Keria said as she grabbed nick's out stretched hand, nick pulled her up and she brushed the sand off her, thighs and ***.

"Ohhh, your funny Keria, don't stop." Nick laughed lightly as he watched Keria whiped the sand of her body.

"nick, have you lost your mind dont stop what." Keria looked at him like he had an alein comming out of him.

"No, not today. I mean dont stop you could really turn a guy on." Keria looked at him and smug expression on his face.

"Nick you sick Perv" Keria laughed

There it is." Nick smiled tracing the curve of her lips, feeling his heart beat faster at remembering the feeling that shot through his body durring the last time his lips touched hers.

Keria got a little closer. "there what is?" Keria asked searching his eyes, and feeling her heart beating faster feeling her and nicks eyes interlock.

Nick leaned closer and brushed his lips against hers so they were barely touching he then brought his left arm to encircle her waist, and he brought his free hand to her cheek. Nerver losing eye contact. He mumbled against her lips, and sheer fibration feeling like a kiss in itself. Nick could feel Kerias' Heat beating nick found himself wondering if Keria could feel his heart. Nick has never been so terrifed to kiss soneone before.

With a shaky breath " Keria can I kiss you?" Nick asked still starring into her eyes. Nick and Kerias' forheads were still pressed together. Keria wrapped her right arm around nick and grabbed the back of Nicks head and she whispered an barely audible " Yes."

Nick closded his eyes and leaned down the rest of the way but was met in the middle nick lightly pecked her lips and then lightly bit her bottom lip he opened his eyes, and saw Kerias starring back at him, he rubbed her cheek, and smiled and licked kerias botton lip, keria opened her mouth slightly, and nick kissed her slightly adjacent mouth.


He rubbed Kerias chin, and pulled Keria closer to him if it was possbile there bodies pressed together close enough to being one. Keria suprised Nick and snaked her tounge out nick was exploring a part of keria he hoped he was one of the special ones, one of the few that experienced something this high. after a few minutes of sensual kissing Keria pulled away, and started to kiss down necks neck. Making Nick hold onto keria tighter, causing his hands to start roaming over her back, under her shirt causing, nick to start running his hands up and down Kerias thighs causing Nick to stir. Nick pulled away to catch his breath, he staired into Keria's eyes and saw the desrie burning in them, and was sure his eyes mirrored her own.

Nick took a few heavy breaths after pecking her lips lightly "Keria" Nick moaned after he felt Keria kiss his neck and then took his earlobe into her mouth and lightly sucked and licked. " God, Keria." nick opened his eyes, after he felt Keria play with the waist band of his swim shorts.

Nick took a deep breath, he was sure Keria had no idea how turned on he was gettingm Of keria didn't stop now he was sure he wasn't going to be able to stay in control, its been so long. Since Nick has ever felt anythng to strong from a few kisses. Nick took his hands out from under Kerias shirt and put the bathsuit back down over her exposed breasts.

" Keria" nick said in a shaky voice. Keria started to kiss down neck and shoulders and took one od his nipple rings in her mouth. " God, nick took another deep breath trying to regain his composure, and rational train of thought. All nick could picture was Keria under him and rocking eachothers world into oblivion. nick literally shook his head and took kerias hands that were playing with his waist band of his shorts. " Keria, Keria Baby we need to stop." nick said in laboured breaths.
he mumbled against her lips, before he lightly pecked them again.

Keria blushed lightly " Im sorry nick, I guess I got a little carried away."

Nick wrapped her in a tight hug, and whispered " Trust, me I enjoyed it, enjoying it. I was just enjoying it to much for a somehwat public beach and I want to know everything about you. In time I want to know what turns you on, and I want you to know what turns me on. Just I don't want to rush whatever we have going I like it."

Keria smiled " Me too Nick, Me too So what do you say we un-tangle ourselves, and go for that walk you were talking about."

Nick smiled and grabbed her hand " So what do you miss most about being away from home?" Nick asked her as he intertwined there fingers and played with her ring. He rubbed her thumb.

He noticed her eyes getting misty again 'good job carter, make her cry again your really out of practice with this dating thing, I can't be to out of practice i just had the most amazing kiss a few minutes ago.' nick reasoned on his head.

"Well" Nick proded "It cant be your bed either."

Keria puted lightly " Mittens". she sighed

Nick looked at her weird, "Mittens."

Keria laughed at the expression on his face " No, Mittens my Cat, My Baby hes almost 14 I miss him lots but it sucks cause im allergic to him, and im also allergic to dogs but not so much."

"Awww, muffin." Nick hugged her tighter

"no mittens, not muffin." Keria laughed "I know im silly but I miss him lots, especially now that I moved away from my family and my friends to Down under. im kinda happy I did, i feel like I am exactly where i was meant to be in my life which really makes no sense because trust me I have made my share of mistakes in life."

"you amaze me." nick said and couldn't help himself but to lean down and kiss her again, without noticing the flash of a camera, someone captured there moment. Just as it seems Nick and Keria captured a small peice of each others heart.

Nick Grabbed Kerias hand in the iluminescent glow of the moon light. Making her eyes shine an even more intense shade of blue then thy were before. Ironically enough her eyes matched the ocean. Nick found himself wondering if maybe thats what he was so atrracted to her in the first place, Cause one look into her eyes and we was instantly calmed. Someone could of rear ended him, and one look into her eyes he felt peace, he felt at home. The moon was more bright and more intense then nick or keira have ever saw it before, The Bright moon burning almost as bright as the sun, causing the water to sparkle, it looked so realxing, so peaceful yet so destructive.

Keria sighed as her and nick were sitting with there pants rolled up to their knees, with there feet laying lazily in the comfort of the sand, until the water came and caused there feet to jolt in suprise everytime, eventually there feet became numb. Nick had his jacket wrapped around Kerias shoulders, Nick has never really been all that senstive to the cold, which made absolutely no sense to him because he is only in snow on Vacations, and on the odd stops of a Tour when the snow is falling.

Keria and Nick said nothing for the longest time just taking in the beauty that surrounds them, the beatuy that everyone takes for granted, a Goregeous fall night at the stroke of midnite. This calming sensation in the air, the sound of silence the only thing heard was the silent breaths each took. The sound of the waves crashing onto the rocks, playing a melody that could put anyone at ease and off to sleep in a heartbeat.

"Its gorgeous isnt it?" Keria Broke the long silence between them, and smiled when she felt nicks arm that was wrapped around her shoulder pull her closer, she felt the cool breath on her neck giving her goosebumps.

Nick smiled his half smile, that he has profected over the years of being in the limelight, Many cameras being flashed it was funny how the pictures ever tunred out because being a Backstreet boy there was never just one camera on you. There were many thats how it was living in the spot light, there was possiblities of 2 of everything while everyone else was just lucky enough to have one.

"Yea it is, I love it out here." Nick sighed wondering why he moved to NYC, then he remembred Issabelle. They moved for her job, then she became more distant and a completely different person. She started "working late" nick had no idea if thats what she was doing now or not. Back then he would of thought nothing of it because she was a work Aholic, Isabelle said she always went to work, when nick was gone so she wouldnt miss him. Now he finds himself questioing her motives, if she was really working or if she was working at getting some other guy off.

"Me too, I have always loved the water but at the same time im Terrified of it" Keria lightly laughed " Now that I think about it im inrtuged by the forces of nature but they scare the hell out of me."

Nick gave her a crooked grin, and started tickling her, and in a creepy voice he moved his free hand down her leg then back up and grabbed a hold of her knee and squeezed it lightly " Are you afraid of lies in the darkness".

"AHHH" Keria screeched " Nick you are such an ***" Keria rolled her eyes.

"I always take the oppurtunity babe." Nick smiled and put his forehead against hers " You know Keira that pout of yours is gonna be the death of somebody some day."

"Im not pouting." Keria consiously stuck her bottom lip back in the appropriate place, as nick untangles himself from her embrace to jog up to the blanket to check on nickers and grab a couple drinks out of the coolers.

"Then, ohh Please tell me what your doing." Nick yelled on his way back, once they were in earshot of eachother.

Keria raised her eyebrows and furrowed them in deep thought, she watched nick take a drink of the cool vodka that run down the base of his throat. She figured this would be the perfect oppurtunity. "I am immitating what my face looks like durring an orgasam."

Nick spit his drink out, and it sprayed all over her face " Thanks Nick, I really needed the shower." Keria rolled her eyes.

"Anytime baby." Nick winked and moved so he was behind her and he whispered " So you have had got off, looking at pics of yourself in Mirrors?" Nick asked knowingly.

This caused Keria to get red in the face, nick could feel her heated flesh through her clothing "I uhh umm." Keria stammered.

"I think you need a drink." Nick chuckled opening up a bottle of rasberry vodka and passing it to her "Dont worry about it, I think its kinda hot you know what your face looks like durring an Orgasam. its so Erotic, and sexual." Nick whispered the last part in her ear. He was enjoying the effect he was having on Keria. It was good to make a Girl react to just words. Hell it was good to have somebody react to him.

Keria accepted the bottle nick extended to her "So Nick, are you going to tell me why your here in Australia."

Nick watched Kerias lips cover the bottle, he shook his head at their situation one minute they are through sexual banter at eachother playing a game seeing which one can turn into a tomato quicker than the other. Or they are having great converstaion learning more about each other each word they speak to eachother.

Nick gazed at ocean " To find Myself." He answered simply. "When I get lost, or im just plain confused, or I want to be alone I go to the ocean. The last time we were here, Me and the boys were recording and we stayed here and I fell in love with this place. Everything about it screams Beauty. The land, the smell, the Women." Nick smiled cutely at the last part and kissed Keria on the lips.

"Yea its beautiful here, you know my host family isn't so great to me but they sent me pictures of there home, the land and the area and The ocean. That was what sold me on the idea, I always find myself comming back here sometimes I just sit at the ocean for hours on end. Hoping and Praying someone will right my wrongs, give me guidance. Im 23 years old and dont have a clue what I want to do with my life."

Keria smiled, as she felt nicks kiss on her sandy hair and laughed when she heard him sputtering, she couldn't control her laughter anymore "Nick, whats wrong."

"Your hair, there was sand in it and I inhaled it and it went up my nose and down my throat."
Nick laughed at how that sounded.

"Uh-huh." Keria stated and yawned to tired to make fun of her blonde friend.

"Its true." Nick said in mock defence.

"Whateve-you-say-Nick" Keria yawned 3 times before her sentence got out

"You tired hunny?" Nick asked as he watched Keiras body fight sleep.

"No." Keria said while letting out yet another yawn, through her slightly pursed lips.

Nick held onto her tighter " Then why are you yawning, **** girl you gotta stop yawning here." Nick said as he followed suit. there bodies telling them there dates over whether they like it or not.

"Im not tired Nick, im yawning out of boredom." Keria managed to laugh without yawning.

"Alright, then lets go." Nick stated and scooped her up into his arms and was about to drop her into the water, when she held on tightly.

"Nick please dont." Keira bargained.

"Give me one good reason not too." Nick got a look in his eyes that screamed mischief.

"I wont kiss you again." Keria racked her Brain, she was to tired to argue but far more stubborn to let him win.

Nick lightly laughed " We both know you will." Nick shook his head at her craziness.

"**** IT" Keria muttered " I want to live, im to young to drown Nick Im so tired."
Keria pleaded in his arms, her arms wrapped tightly around his waist.

Nick started to straighten up and walk back to the dry land, by Nickers the loud snorrning dog, and there picnic lunch for 2. "See Keria, it wasnt that hard was it."

Keria decided she was gonna go out with a Bang. "Well its not now, but im sure I could make it that way." Keria qipped back watching the expression on nicks face turn to cocky, to uhh horny.

"Ohh you think your so smart, Prove it." Nick said as she picked up the blanket and grabbed the stuff and put in the back, of his green F150 truck.

"Well, Mr. carter I dont do that on a first date." Keria rolled her eyes, at there rambled banter.

"Ohhh, I beg to differ sweetheart!" Nick leaned over keria as she was leaning on his car, he had his hand braced upon the truck for support.

"Well your one of the lucky ones." Keria stared at Nicks lightly swollen lips from all the mini make out sessions they had durring the day. nick leaned down and took her lips into his, he held onto her tighter, pulled her close to him. He stopped kissing her lips.

"Mission accomplished Babe." Nick chuckled " Keria, I had a great time tonight like said you amaze me, just everything about you. I think I know you then bam you say something that comepletely throughs me off track. I would really like to get to know you. I know its kind of soon but do you think you would be interested in going on a second date?" Nick asked.

"Keria smiled "No, Nick."

Nicks heart sank "Ohh umm okay then good nite." nick started to walk away with a bruised ego, and he couldnt help but fight the tears. Tears for a girl he has only known less than a week. I guess A.J was right when he falls he falls hard.

"Nick, I think you got me wrong." Keria said after she jogged a little to catch up with him.

"No, I think I heard you right." Nick stated as he watched his toes bury benath the sand, which was what he wanted to do to himself.

Keria grabbed his hand "No, you know I dont think you did, this is our second date wanna try a 3rd." Keria stood on her tippy toes and kissed the closes thing to his lips he could find. There kisses were getting passionate, and nick picked her up by her *** and Keria un-consiously wrapped her legs around his waist. Then they were intterupted by a barking dog. letting them no his presence was still there. Nick and Keria opened one eye to look at eachother then the other to look at the dog and laughed.

"Nick, I think we have an audience." Nick chuckled.

Nick leaned back down to her lips " Thats okay they can watch." Nick pressed his body further against hers and backed her up so they were tight against the side of his truck, just then something happened causing them both to jump 10 feet in the air.

"Nick shut it off." Keria screamed over the loud beeping.

"I dont know how." Nick reasoned " This is rented, I had no idea this even had a set alarm."

Keria Chuckled, then nick unlocked the door and the Bright flasing lights and sirens, bells, whistles you name it went away.

"Thank god." Nick breathed a sigh of relief.

"I hear you there." Keria smiled, and looked into his eyes and stiffled another yawn.

"So you like me huh?" Nick questioned wiggling his eyebrows.

"I like what I know, Well Nick this has been fun but i got to go to tried to talk."

Nick ran in front of keira and placed his hands on the door before she could open it. " Keria, your not driving home like this, come back to my place you can have the bed ill take the couch."

"nick, Ill be fine."

"Not to mention you have been drinking".

"So have you Keria countered back."

"Well lets walk to my place then, im tired, I know your tired so lets go sleep."
Nick mumbled.

"Sleep is good" Keria said practically asleep on nicks shoulder it was going on 1:00 am

"Nick finally got to his condo complex it took twice as long, because he had to drag along a sleeping figure."
with dead weight.

Keria instantly woke up when she felt nick, lay her down on the couch. nick went and locked the doors and noticed Keria drooling slightly. he kissed her lightly " Keria, lets go to sleep baby."

Keria opened her eyes in a baby voice " nicky, can we spoon."

Nick laughed lightly "Keria, Spooning leads to forking." Nick laughed at the humour of his favorite shirt of the moment.

"Spoon now, sleep now, fork later." Keria mumbled against nick for support he held her as she took off her shorts and nick gave her a pair of boxers and a t-shirt for her to wear."

nick pulled the covers over her and stripped down himself and climbed in bed behind her and held her, just as she has requested he planned on doing it anyway. He loved the little pout she made when she didn't get her way. nick looked down at the sleeping figure next to him and took a mental pictrure, a vision of beatuy and comfort. Nick looked into her eyes and whispered to himself "Welcome home nick" He squeezed her a little tighter and gave her a kiss on the exposed skin on her neck. "Welcome home."

Nick awoke to the feel of something very un-familiar to him but, something so comforting he embraced the sudden change with open arms. Nick snuggled into the sleeping figure. Causing her to stir and tickle nicks bare chest, with her messy aloof hair, While she situated herself to get comfy. For a moment nick was starlted, having a sleeping figure next to him, He hasn't slept next tp somebody in a real long time. Nick instantly remembered last nights' events and smiled and couldn't help himself but to sigh at the contentness surrounding his room, his bed, his thoughts, but most of all his heart. At this moment Nick couldn't remember feeling more at peace than he has in a real long time. He looked down and saw Kerias face that was kissed by the sun. He literally laid there and counted the freckles place scatteredly on her nose, and along her cheek bones, The Window that was open and the rain that was falling brought a calming feeling thoughout his body, normally nick hated the Rain. Today he embraced the Tranquil sound!!!

Nick has always been an early riser because Of Issabelle and the problems they had. They slept in seperate beds most of the time, always fighting about something. Nick always stayed up late prentending to be watching the Game or some rare late night movie that TNT puts out. When in all reality for the past months Nick sat up awake anyalizing in his life, what he wants what he doesn't want. How he was going to say goodbye to Issabelle, to a part of himself he wasn't ready to give up quite yet but needed too. Nick remembered thinking 'If I was to die right now, I would die happily because I would be set free'. Thats the turning point when Nick realised he needed out. Or he was going to die, and wilt more than he already has. Nick always woke up early too sleeping pills the doctors prescribed never worked, if they did work he just woke up even more restless than he did. Cause he knew he had to wake up and see his Wife.

Normally Nick skpipped out early, and went for a morrning run, or Jog to get rid of Tension, Tenison of his life his job and the ups and downs of his Bank account. His latest fight he had with Issabelle over him signing an autograph, the latest fight he had with Isabelle about never being home. In all reality who would want to go home, when you felt much more comfortable in a hotel room. Most of the time though it was Sexual Tension though, Nicks personal trainer loved when him and Issabelle fought it meant a more in shape Nick. One day nicks personal trained went over to him after a long tortours session of excercise that would have most men his age to his knees had nick reering for more. Leaving nicks personal trainer out of breath.
'Whats your secret?' Jake asked Nick while taking a gulp of his water. Nick Remembered chuckling
'Get married dude, and find out.' Then he smiled at Jakes response
'I am married and i sware you are in better shape than me somedays.' Jake chuckeld while bending over with his head between his legs and hands on his thighs. Nick sighed deeply 'Try being married to the Ice Queen dude, and not having sex for months on end'. It was true Nick is in the best shape he ever been with, but he was the most unhappy at the point in time. Hes finally starting to find himself and reason to laugh. His music Career, and the sleeping beauty on this chest.

Nick Remembered picking up his bag, and glarring at his wedding ring, Nick layed in Bed with his arms wrapped around her, for once in his life he didn't want to go for a jog he was perfectly content right where he was at, prefectly happy his eyes started to wander down her body to her feet and he noticed the toe rings on her toes and wondered how she wore those things. Nick chuckled lightly when he felt Keria Mumble into her chest, the vibrations coarsing through his body sending chills through out. he felt her soft velvet lips, on his bare chest. He felt how the Sun and Cool wind air has lightly chapped them, or was that his lips did caused hers to be chapped. Nick snickered lightly to himself, and smiled. Then he felt, her kissing his chest but she was obviously asleep right.

Nick found himself moan when she started leaving butterfly kisses, but her breathing stated she was still sleeping. Nick was just about to reach for her head and give her a proper good morrning kiss when the tune of the pink panther played in the pocket of his shorts. Nick found himself chuckling at himself, he knew it was A.j before even looking at the called I.D because the pink panther was his tune. The loony toons one was Howies, Brians was I like big butts. and Kevins was the Grim Rapers. Cause normally when kevin called his cell it meant trouble and buisness back when he was younger. Nick had the same cell phone since he was 18 and hasn't upgraded or changed tunes or anything. He was still a kid at heart, or really freakin lazy.

Nick tired to get up but he couldn't move with Kerias dead weight sprawled out on top of him. not that nick minded or anything, he reached as far as he could but all he could reach without waking up Keria was, the speaker phone button.

'**** it I was trying to shut the phone off not answer the **** thing.' nick thought sheepishly to himself, and chuckled at A.j's irritated voice.

"****, nicky its about time you stopped Jerking off and answered the **** phone." A.J chuckled.

"Dont talk so loud Alex, I was not Jerking off I was sleeping." nick rolled his eyes at the phone, just hoping Keria wasn't awake.

"Right Kaos, remember I shared a room with you for the majority of to the tours."
A.J Chuckled. "When you thought I was asleep I heard your moans and groans from playing with, what do the girls call it again ohh right Thor."

nick couldn't help himself but laugh a little at the nick name girls has giving his **** over the years. "A.J, you havent shared a room with me since I was 20. Then we all got our own rooms for the never gone tour. Things change dude, and can we please stop talking about my ****."

"fine, whatever things change, but I do know the last time we talked you weren't having Sex, because the Ice Queen doesn't put out, I guess. By the way whats up with you two?" A.J asked concerned.

"What do you mean, Kat hasn't told you?" Nick asked surprised

"Told me what, what the **** nick. whats going on?"

Nick looked down at the sleeping figure, sprawled out over top of him and he smiled a truly genuine smile. " Well, umm I kind of ended it with her thats why when Issabelle called Kat, she intterupted your great table top sex which is still ****ing disgusting man I am still not eating on the table." Nick practically gaged thinking of A.J and Kat going at it on the kitchen table.

A.J couldn't help but smile, he finally said goodbye. " Its about Freaking time Nick, So when are you comming back to the US of A little brother. What happened Nick, to finally make you say Bye."

"Age, I really dont wanna get into it right now, stop talking so **** loud."

Nick felt keira move over him a little and she nuzzled herself so she was on the crook of Nicks neck.

"Like Hell Nicky, were gonna talk about it right now." A.J stated annyoed

" Well can I call you back later then?" nick asked hopefully.

"Why" Then A.J finally realised he was on speaker phone "Holy **** Nick, Im on speaker phone you got a girl in your bed dont you?" A.J asked accusingly.

"Please dont tell me you cheated on your wife?" A.J has never been a big fan of Infedelity on your wife. Or girlfirends, he normally broke up with them then did what he had to do.

"No." nick stated annoyed this was his life, and he intended on living it.

"No what Nick, no you didn't cheat, or no there isn't a girl in your bed." A.J knew Issabelle well they have become pretty good friends over the years but Nick and Issabelle arent right for eachother. A.J doesnt like either of his friends being hurt and being with eachother was just causing them heartache.

"No I didn't cheat A.J, and yes theres a girl in my bed. Now can I call you back before you wake her up?"

"Im already up Nick, A.J here kinnf of talks a little loudly." Keira looked at nick and sat up and stretched a little.

"Im sorry, he called and i meant to end the phone converstaion." Nick stated while rolling his eyes.

"Hello, can you two please exchange the awkard morrning after stuff later, Nick there was a reason I called you, you know."

"Its okay nick, no worries I have to get up anyways and head out."

"no, you can stay, my friend here is just freakin out a bit." nick leanced over and kissed her cheek and wrapped his arm around her a little bit.

"Hello, Nick did you not hear me I said exchange the morrning after bit later, or have sex later I called to tell you that your going to be an Uncle."

Nick chuckled he loved getting A.J going " Ohh, Keira **** keep going that feels sooo AAAAAhhh god, harder use your teeth a little bit, there we go."

Nick was trying really hard not to laugh, and Keria was looking at him like he had to heads and nick whispered in her ear just go with it.

A.J was listening to what was going on in disbelif...

"Mmm...Baby you like that dont you." Keria asked in a seductive voice, swallowing her laughter.

"Nick, you are ****ing Disgusting please tell me you are not getting sucked off right now."
A.J asked grossed out, but happy at the thought nick was getting some.

"no were just messing with you Aje, sometimes your just so easy, so you said im going to be an Uncle again, Aaron finally got Hil knocked up?" nick chuckled.

"No you dumb ****, Me and Kat are going to have a Baby." Aje said annoyed he was so excited, and in a good mood then Mr. horny pants had to ruin it all.

Nick laughed " Yea, I know Kat told me yesterday im so happy for ya man. Are you excited to be a Dad?"

"Well, how did you feel man" Aje contemplated.

"you know how much I wanted a baby, But i was scared ****less but I know your going to be a good Dad, look how good you are with Bay." nick sympathized.

A.j chuckled " Yea I know, but your the favorite uncle."

"Well I am the cute one" Nick chuckled " Aje seriosuly you are going to be great but can I call you back later."

"sure as soon as you tell me, what the hell your doing the chick you screwed last night was probably a fan, and your rebound and shes gonna get hurt, then shes going to go to the press and sell her sob story." A.J asked rolling his eyes.

Nick looked over at Keira and she looked furious " A.J, dont talk about me like im not here, Trust me even If I was nicks rebound chick I wouldnt go to the press i dont get caught up in all that Drama its not worth it" Keria pasued and took a deep breath " Me and Nick didn't have sex, I just slept in his bed. I know your worried about him A.J I really do But trust me im not like that okay, and by the Way my name is Keria, I love your music and congrats on the Baby. Your gonna be a great Dad."

A.J was left speechless " Uhh, im sorry Keria I didn't mean to offend you its just that, in this business you have to be really careful who you associate with. Im sorry and thanks you seem like a really nice girl, with a good head on her shoulders."

"umm, thanks A.J I didn't mean to be rude or anything its just that, the phones on speaker phone and pretty much just called me a gold digger." Keria smiled.

"Yea, Im sorry I guess im just kinda Tweaked with all the good news lately."
A.J smiled, he liked this Keira Chick she has spunk.

"Yea, Well thats understandable well have a good day, maybe ill talk to you later or something." Keria lightly laughed at the situation.

'Yea, You can count on it. well Nick me and you have some talking to do, but I will talk to you later and Keria take care of my little brother."

"Bye, daddy to be." Nick said and looked over at keria.

"Keria, Im sorry hes just worried." Nick said and kissed her head.

"I know im not mad, hes a good guy and so are you."

Keria smiled and yawned " Im so tired Nick."

"Well you can go back to sleep hunny."

"No, cause then I will sleep all day, and I have to clean up the house my house parents get back today." Keria rolled her eyes at the thought.

Nick chuckled and laid them both back down, and nick pulled Keria closer to him, and wrapped his arm around her. "I take it your not a big fan of cleaning?"

"Keira smiled up at him " No, not at all but its gotta be done."

"I hear you there, you Know Keria this is nice you laying in my arms the only thing missing is the good morrning kiss."

"Well whats stopping you?" Keria rubbed his chest and placed a chatsised kiss just above his nipple.

"Well the fact that we are laying in a bed and I dont really want to rush things with you, but i know if I kiss you then I wont have the power to stop?"

"Well between the 2 of us im pretty sure, we can stop." Keria raised her eyebrows.

"Well if you say so, im always up to a challenge." Nick chuckled and was just about to kiss her.

"nick, your always up." Keira could feel nicks growing desire pressing into her.

nick chuckled "Well, yea lets just say its been a long time, and being around you wanting you 24-7 doesnt help matters of the heart any." Nick whispered into her ear before he dipped down and kissed her neck.

keria was trying to find her voice "Nick" Came out as a little moan causing nick to suck jsut a little, on the bottom of her ear.

"Yes" Nick whispered into her ear " Your cheating nick, your suposed to kiss my lips if you dont do that, i dunno if I'll be able to stop."

Nick chuckled lightly " Im sorry baby, I love your neck." Nick moved up and started to kiss keria slowly, but rough. Nicks kisses weren't anything like they were last night, slow and scared. This kiss was passionate full of pent up desire and emotion.

Nick had his hands and fingers all though kerias hair kissing her roughly, and kissed her more passionately when he felt kerias hands massaging his body. "Mmm" Nick moaned against her lips " your hands feel so soft and warm."

Nick, started to rub kerias stomach, and started to dip his hands lower, he started to massage the bone just above the desired area, he wanted so desperately to be in. Nick started to bite kieras bottom lip when he felt Kerias hands dipping into his boxer shorts, she started to massage him and stroke him. Causing Nicks eyes to shut and his head to go back a little and he kissed her harder.

" Mmm, Baby" Nick started to inch his hands down, to brings kerias hands up " you dont want to be doing that." nick said through ragged breaths.

Keria opened her eyes and looked at nicks eyes burning deep into her own " I guess a kiss just isn't a kiss with us is it." Keira stated a little embarassed.

nick chuckled and kissed her again " Nope, but I like that, cause that means that theres not going to be just 3 dates, and you are going to come out with me tonight."

"Nick, I cant, My host family comes home tonight and we are having a little get together. Maybe I can come see you tomorrow, when the kids are in school.

"Mmm, I think I can handle that." Nick smiled and kissed her lips "Keria, I just want you to know, I dont think I have ever felt the way I feel about you. I dont think I have ever wanted to be with anybody as much as I want to be with you."

Keira chuckled lightly " Nick, i just want you to know im not fighting until I let you go." Are singing to me" nick asked

"mmmm, maybe sorry couldn't help myself. Anyways what do you want to do tomorrow."

"well, I kind of think that we should be out in public, so I dont ravish you in my bedroom not that I would mind but I kind of want you to know that im not just in this for sex, or the chase of it. so maybe we could like I dunno go bowling and out to lunch?"

"Won't you get mobbed?" Keria asked

"Yea well most people still think im married, I can just say your my cousin."

"haha, a kissing cousin cause my pic is all over tabloids with you kissing me, I bet because remember that camera flash we saw yesterday, it was probably a freaking reporter."

"Well then I will just tell the truth." nick smiled.

Keria smiled and sat up and got dressed, and put on her sweat pants and shirt she discarded last night cause it got so hot. "Whats the Truth Nick."

"Well that my wife was cheating on me, I was married to the Icq Queen and met a beautiful stranger and I want to ravish her, right now if she doesn't stop licking my feet."

"Well, Nick that sounds good right up the point of ravishing and licking feet, Im not licking your feat hun!"

"Well if your not then who is" nick looked over the bed "**** Keria what is with your dog and always licking my feet?"

"Haha, I think nickers has a foot fetish." Keira laughed.

"I do not?" nick pinned keria down and started tickling her.

"Not you, the dog nickers."

"Ohhh, my bad sorry." Nick laughed and stopped and just started starring at kerias grey eyes.

"Well are you gonna let me up?" Keria asked and poked nick in the sides.

"Well I was going to, but im kind of liking this position." Nick wiggled his eyebrows and let her up.

"Ha, I bet you do, nick I think you need a cold shower." keria chuckled.

"I think I need you." nick blushed " did I say that out loud?"

"yea, you know I was ready and willing, to help you out bur you stopped me." Keira chuckled

"Yea, Will thats what I get for being a good guy." Nick pouted " Can I least get a kiss".

"Didn't we just say a kiss isn't just a kiss nick?" Keria chuckeld.

Nick got up off the bed pulling keria with him to the door " Just a kiss, baby and ill see you tomorow okay, I have your number so ill call ya."

keria nodded before she could comprehend what was going on, nicks lips crashed to hers and he deepened the kiss they kissed for a few minutes. Then Nick pulled away.

"see just a kiss". Nick smiled at kerias still closed eyes.

"Isn't just a kiss." Keria said and crashed her lips onto nicks lightly swollen ones and pushed away.

"Bye, Nick."

"Bye, hunny ill call you later on tonight after my radio interview."

"Wow" Nick thought " ****, Never has a kiss ever felt like that." nick said out loud and went and had a cold shower, trying to get rid of the acess heat corsing through his body.

Nick smiled ' A kiss is never just a kiss with her.' it means so much more.
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The Rain was comming down heavy in sheets you could barely see from one side of the street to the next, the Wind was howling and hissing. The Waves were a good 2 feet higher than they were last night. Nick wrapped a towel around him and went searching for a clean pair of Boxers. Nick thought to himself '****, now I have to do my own laundry.' Nick chuckled if that was one thing Issabelle was good it, it was babying him to death.

"Yes" nick Screamed in Victory "Dont have to do laundry until tomorrow."
Nick slipped on his favorite blue and Green plaid boxers, then put on a pair of faded kahakis, and went searching for his flip flops only to find the toe seperator has been chewed. "**** Dog" Nick muttered while searching for another pair of foot wear.

nick was frantically throwing around stuff looking for his sneakers now 'now where did I put them, i had them on the other day before I went to play basketball! Hmmm, their there are I found them.

nick put on his shoes grabbed his car keys, and was about to head out the door when suddenly all the lights went out. "****" nick cursed when he ran into the door. Then suddenly all the lights came back on. "What the hell". Nick had his music turned up really loud blarring the killers latest cd, so he didn't hear the hissing and howling of the Violent Windstorm. Just then he heard the Rattaling of his window, and the shaking of the building. Then the lights flickered again. Nick took this time to search for candles and matches He wasn't suprised when he came up empty. He searched the drawers and all he came up with was matches but no candles and a miniture Bible that looked like it was used as a coaster.

"Well this sucks." nick turned on the T.V and flicked it to the local weather station that Said Hurricane Melody is kicking up quite a storm. Then suddenly, the Music shut off, the lights went out and Nick was left sitting on his floor in a pair of boxers. Listening to the sound of the holwing wind, in pitch dark.

"**** it, I need to close all the windows". Nick thought as he seens papers being blown around his paint equipment got knocked over. Nick has done this many times when he grew up in florida he always at least was there for at least one hurricane. He new that durring a Hurricane you needed to stay away from arches or anything that could fall down. So nick decided to sit on his bed.

Nick went looking for his game boy ds, hoping it was charged, he hated storms everything about them, most of all he hated being alone in them. When suddenly he heard a ringing cell phone. he got off the bed looking for it, in the dark room it wasn't the easiest thing to do. nick, was searching for the nosie and the faint light that phone glowed.

'Come on dont hang up yet.' Nick thought while searching for the phone. He finally reached the phone just as the unknown called hung up. He looked at the phone and didn't recognize the caller, he his *68, and listened to his messages. " **** I really need to check this thing more often." nick chuckled out loud.

Then he heard her voice and he smiled " Hey, Nick its Keria im assuming by the weather your interview was cancelled. I hate storms but most of all I hate being alone in storms. your probably off sleeping or something Im sorry if I woke you, im sorry if i snored last night. Well uhh please if you get this call me back im scared." He then heard the faint sigh, and the whisper in her voice.

Hey smiled and called back and waited for her to pick up. He had to chuckle when he heard her cursing " **** it, **** Freaking toys, who needs this many **** toys, ouch, **** that hurt mother. Hello" Keria said in an annyoed tone.

"Hey sweetie, you alright?" Nick asked when he heard the pain in her Hello.

"Remember, when I said i needed to clean up?" keria said annyoed.

"Yea" Nick chuckled adjusting himself on the bed, getting comfy knowing this was going to be a long conversation. That he more than welcomed.

"Well I was cleaning and everything, when freaking nickers get loose of his chain to chase after some female dog, ready to reproduce." Keira sighed " Nick, I sware this dog probably fathered about 60 of the dogs at the petshop."

nick laughed " Keria, im sure hes not that bad."

"Ohh, well you didn't have to try and pry him off the stupid little ***** literally. Anyways I was joking before but now im serious hes getting fixed." Keria said glarring at nickers who whimpered.

"dont freaking look at me like that, you dud yourself in the own hole." Keira wagger her finger at the dog.

"Keria, he's Horny let the dog live life a little." nick laughed at their conversation.

"Nick, Fine you know what it turns out my house family is delayed from the storm, so why don't you look after him for me. And see how much you like it. No wonder the Kennals wont look after him." Nick was in hysterics.

"Alright, on one condition." Nick smirked into the phone.

"Anything, you name it, its yours, just as long as I dont have to see Nickers until my house family gets back." Keria sighed " nick, dont get me wrong I love dogs, but Nickers isn't a dog I sware hes my ex b/f in dog formation."

nick rolled his eyes at the mention of Kerias Ex, but smiled at the comaparison. Only Keria would think up such crazy ideas. " Alright, well you need to promise me that you will say yes."

Keria sighed "Alright, I promise anything Nickolas Gene Carter I am yours, happy now! now tell me what you want me to do."

"Well miss Keria Maire, I could get used to that your mine."

"nick, your such a guy." Keria smiled into the phone.

"Yea but your the one with your head in the gutter, after todays kiss though I dont blame you." Nick wiggled his eyebrows, and lightly laughed.

"And yours isn't." Keria said seductively into the phone.

"Hahah, its been there since the first time we kissed hun." nick made a kissing noise into the phone.

"Nick your such a goof." Keria made a kissing noise back into the phone.

"Yea but you love me." nick said in a know it all voice.

"Maybe someday hun." Keria smiled.

Nick was baffled " I uhh, Keria I umm Yea I was just joking but I like your answer".

"I know you were Nick, so what is the thing you want me to do." Keria lightly laughed at nicks confusedness

nick stated playfully " There are a lot of things I need you to do for me, one of them is come over here tonight and keep me company durring this storm. The big thing that I need you to do is. I kind of need you to be a date to my friend Howies Wedding next month." Nick muttered.

"Well, umm you do know you can go to weddings alone, right?" nick smirked at her response.

"Yea, I know I can but The last wedidng i went too i got so lonely I got down on one knee and proposed to my bestfriend, you saw how well that turned out." Nick chuckled.

"Ahhh, so you dont want to get drunk and propose to the first girl you see, huh?" Keria teased him. "Nick dont pout I'll come, afterall im not sure I really want you getting waisted and proposing to any girls."

"Well If I do get drunk and waisted, I will propose to you but at least you will enough sense to say no, right so were all good." nick chuckled he loved how keria could make any conversation fun.

"So who is Howie Marrying?" Keria got her car keys and got Nickers and hopped in her car, nick wanted here there she hated being alone it was perfect.

"****ers." Keria cursed at a Dark Green Truck that just cut her off for the 3rd time, it was bad enough not being able to see cause the rain was comming down so hard.

"Excuse me?" Nick asked confused

"Nothing, just cursing my house family." Keria thought quickly for some reason she wanted to see the look of suprise on nicks face, when he saw her at his door.

"Yea, so as I was saying Howies marrying a one time gropie, which me and the guys call a "one night stand gone bad". nick chuckled anyway her name is Tonya and shes a really pretty girl she has an amazing heart. The first night they hit it off and have been dating for like 2 years and engaged for 1, and the wedding is in The Bahammas. So wedding atire is a bathing suit so its kinda nice."

"Awww, thats sweet- Mother ****ers". Keria Cursed. as she was again cut off, but then she tried to get to nicks suite and the secuirty guard wouldn't let her in.

"What in the Hell did The house family forget to leave you toilet paper or something, whats with all the *****ing?"

"Nothing, can you open your window nick?"

Nick looked around the room, "how do you know its shut?" Nick asked that was a kind of random question

"Cause im climbing up your back deck, and all the fire stairs to come see you, I see you in your green Boxers and the secuirty guard is watching nickers while i told him I had to pee in the bushes."

"your what?"

nick hung up the phone and walked and open his window and grabbed Kerias hand and let her in "Are you insane? You could of just told me to let you in."

"Yea but I liked the look of suprise on your face, I wanted to see you I hate being alone durring storms and I have never been alone durring a Hurricane Nick, When I called you the wind blew in one of my windows and When I took nickers out to pee, the Wind so so strong. I just Didn't want to be alone." Keria stated with tears in her eyes.

Nick opened his Arms " Cmere Baby, why dont you go have a hot bath and just Relax and you will feel much better, it will be dark though cause as you see I have no power. And me being dumb I have no candles I have matches but no candles." nick chuckled and kissed her head. I will go and Rescue Nickers alright, ill be right back."

nick gave her one final kiss on the head " Okay I i'll go set the temp for you, how i like it and you get undressed and ill bring you some of my clothes to put on."

nick smiled and shook his head after arguing with the Secuirty guard, that he is going to be seeing a lot of Keria and Nickers so he better get used to it."

nick walked in and saw an illumiating glow comming from the bathroom, Nick peeked his head in and was in awe of what he saw. Kerias hair turning a little curly from the water. Her head immersed in bubbles, and her body covered in the water from bubbles. He saw the steam rising causing a flicker to the candle light. He heard the heavy rain pattering on the window. He Was amazed at how beatiful and peacefull she looked.

nick, turned away from the bathroom and got out some steak that he had left over, from what he cut up last time for the dog and put in in a dish. Nick was always amazed at how your eyes got used to the dark. He then walked in and heard Keria humming softly and got out a towel from his suitcase and handed her a pair of sweat pants, and the last pair of clean boxers he could find. and a T-shirt and a sweater.

"Hey goregeous, feel a little better now?" nick intterupted, causing her to jump a little and try to cover herself up.

"Relax Sweetheart, I cant see you, your covered in bubbles" nick chuckled "What did you use?"

keria smiled sheepishy relaxing a bit " I, umm kinda used like almost all your body wash im sorry I can't lay in a bath tub without bubbles I feel so...-"

nick cut her off " Naked. Dont Worry about it hunny I can definately get more."

"Well I was going to say exposed." Kera chuckled.

"Well I didn't mean to intterupt your luxuxry bubble bath, but I wanted to bring you in some dry clothes, I know there not going to fit but its the best I can do." nick smiled and turned to walk out.

"Ummm, Nick do you think maybe you could umm... stay with me and wash my back its kinda hard for me to reach and uhh..."

nick couldn't help himself but to lean down and give her a quick peck on the lips " your so cute, you know that?"

Keria Blushed "Of course, I can wash your back sweetie, no need to embarassed its not like you asked me to make love to you in the tub." nick winked and motioned her to turn around nick got down on his knees and balanced himself outside of the tub to wash her back. Nick whispered in her ear "although I cant wait until the day we do."
Nick noticed goosebumps appear on her skin. He smiled satisied at himself, knowing he put them there.

"Im sorry Nick, Its just that Yea We haven't really done anything like this yet and you never saw my naked before, and you can see my breasts now, and im a little shy especially around you. Cause im sure you have seen many sets of **** before. so its kinda like I feel the need to cover myself up around you, you know?"

Nick grabbed her hand that was in the water and motioned for her to turn around "Keria, My god sweetie you have no reason to feel the least bit self consious" Nick smiled and kissed her hand. "You have a gorgeous body, and an amazing heart, Yes I have seen my share of naked Women. But Trust me your body is the most beautiful. Keria Your real your not a faker barbie girl. you have Dreams and ambitions, you have Real boobs". nick took the wash cloth as he was saying all of this and massaged the front of her body.

Keria lightly chuckled " Keria, you have an amazing ***, amazing legs your just real, your a real person your not a fake and I think thats what I love most about you. You are who, you are. Your not afraid of that. Keria I love what I see on the inside and out. Okay hunny. nick took his hands and rinsed her off, making the water fall down her breasts and land in a pool by her feet. "Thank you nick."

nick smiled in response no words were said except for nick saying she looked like a prune, and it was time for her to get out, before she dwindled away. Keria giggled at Nick, and his crazy antics.

"Nick im scared." nick placed the towel out so he couldn't see her and she stepped into the towel. nick wrapped the towel around her shivering body.
"Baby, its going to be okay Ker. The storm will pass trust me I have been in worse storms than this." nick smiled and leaned down and wiped away the tears that were falling down her cheeks.

"No Nick, Im not scared of that really but I am, but im more afraid of falling." Keria smiled up at him her heart pounding more and more each time she heard him speak or looked into his baby blues.

Nick looked confused " Umm, okay do you want me to carry you then." Nick leaned down and picked her up and carried her to the sofa that was in the living room where nickers was sleeping soundly after nick blowdried nickers, with the batteries out of his gameboy ds.

"Keria smiled, Nevermind nick it doesn't matter thanks for not dropping me though when we slipped."

"No keria tell me what your affraid of?" Nick smiled and leaned down and kissed her nose.

"Im afraid of falling for you." Keria mubmled looking at her feet.

"What" Nick asked, he didn't really here her clearly.

"im afraid of falling for you nick, Im afraid of falling in love with you." Keria said holding the towel around her tighter.

Keria all of a sudden felt very hot, and very cold at the same time, her heart was pounding. As she watched nick ponder the thoughts in his head. She could see a smile and a frown on his face at the same time. She saw the I love you in his his smile, but in his eyes she saw fear, and rejection. Keria has never been so scared to hear someones reply.

Keira half contemplated jumping out the nearest window, leaving nick towel there. Keria contemplated pinching herself so she knew this was a dream. She contemplated laughing it off as a joke. Although Keria did nothing but stare at her toes, anything so she wouldn't have to look at Nicks Face. So she didn't have to see rejection, she had ears she could definately hear it. What was worst was She heard nothing, nothing came out of Nicks pouty lips. Not even his world trade smile. notta, nothing, Zip.

Keria was brought out of her thoughts when she felt Nick caress her cheek, he got down on his knees so he was facing her and he tilted her head up so she would look him in the eyes and he said something so simple Keria wanted to freaking hit him. All this time and silence and he comes up with Why...

"Why, what Nick?" Keria was no starring directly into nicks eyes, that were now full of emotion, Emotion Keria couldn't decipher.

Nick took a deep sigh "Why are you afraid of falling for me, Why are you afraid to love me?" Nick lightly carassed her cheek.

Keria took a deep breath here it comes she thought to herself " Nick, how many ways do you want me to answer this question. Im not just afraid of falling in love with you, I am afraid to fall in love with anyobdy. Love is a tricky thing and somebody always get hurts."

Keria took a minute to look into Nicks eyes and she saw something she was sure mirrored her own. Fear a simple for letter word which she feared more than the other 4 letter word that everyone says is so wonderful and great.

Nick nodded his head in acknowledgement that he was listening...

"Nick, not only does someone always get hurt, worse that someone is me. I have very strong feelings for you Nick. Since I met you on the beach each day I spend with you the feelings i feel for you they escalate. That scares me because I have only known you for a short period of time. Im afraid that If i keep on spending time with you. My feelings are only going to get stronger. Then if things dont work out with us im going to be left broken hearted again I honestly dont think I can take another broken heart. Especially since I haven't healed from my last HeartBreak."

Nick noticed Kerias Knee bouncing and her biting her lip, nick took that as signs of nervousness. Nick smiled inwardly she does that a lot. The first time they kisses she bit her lip. He bounced her knee when they get on a topic shes not 100 % comfortable on, and tries to change the subject.

Nick smiled " Keria, Im afraid too and I feel everything your feeling if not more. Trust me every little thing you do I compare you to my Exe's and you are absolutely nothing like them. I love that about you, I love how you express your feelings. I love how you try to keep things bottled up but you dont quite exceed. I love how cute you are when you sleep, I love they way your lips feel on mine. Most of all I love how you fit in my arms just right." Nick let out the breath he was holding.

He whiped away one of Kerias lone tears "I have only known you for a short time, But I want to get to know more about you. If I fall in love along the way while trying to get to know. So be it Keria, I want to know more about you. I wanna know what pisses you off, I want to know what makes you cry, so I can hold you in your arms. I want to know your favorite kind of cereal, I want to know you. Im afraid too, but Im not afraid to give this a try if your not." Nick smiled and grabbed Kerias small hands in his.

Keria took a deep breath " Nick, I dont know if im ready for all this."

Nick sighed deeply " Keria, I don't either, but I know im not ready to say goodbye. So if durring the hellos I fall in love. Well I don't think I could be happier."

Keria couldn't help but giggle through her tears " nick, that was so adorably corny, but I loved it. Im not ready to say goodbye either nick, But I dont know nick."

"We will go slow". Nick smiled and took her hand "So keira how about you help me bring these candles out here, and we can play monopoloy?"

Keria took nicks outstretched hands and helped him bring out the candles and helped him light them after she got dressed into nicks overysized clothes.
placing them all around the area were the board game was going to be.

nick whistled when he saw her. "**** Gurl you look much better in my clothes than I do." nick leaned up and kissed her, then pulled away.

"nick did you blow dry the dog, and he smells good what did you do?"
Keria was getting out the peices to the game and handing out the money to her and nick.

Nick lightly laughed " Yea, he better smell good I used a whole **** bottle of Frebreeze on him and I used my batteries from my gameboy ds, to put in my battery operated hair dryer. So I dried Nickers, he smelled horribly and I thought maybe if he looked a little nicer you would spare him his nuts." Nick said all serious and cutely, then at the end he laughed.

"Yea, he is peacefull sleeping but no they have to do something nick you will see, hes hornier than me and you combined after watching porn and drinking a whole bottle to tequila." Keria rolled her eyes and looked, at the money handing out the last little bit.

"horse or dog?" She asked nick, while he was still contemplating what she just told him.

"Uhhh, the car." Nick said.

"Nick, the only two peices you have here is the dog, and the horse. Nick how are we going to play this you need a magnifying glass to read the chance and community chest." Keria chuckled.

"Do you have a better Idea?" Nick chuckled in response " Its the Travel version, its not like I could carry my favorite monopy game every wheres with me."

Keria couldn't help but laugh he looked so innocently cute at that moment, and the way the candleligh hit his face. He almost looked angelic.

"Yea, I dunno but we can try." keira stated, when she saw nicks pout

"Well I do have another game, but I dont think you will want to play it."
nick laughed at kerias hopeful expression.

"Whats your idea genious." Nick asked dripped with scarcasm.

"Well, We could you know use that empty corona bottle and play spin the bottle?" Keria clapped her hands together in pure enjoyment.

Nick couldn't help himself but smile at her and her enthusiasm...

"Alright, Keira how old are you again."

Keria smirked and wiggled her eyebrows " Well maybe if your good, we can play 7 minutes in heaven too?"

Keira laughed at the expression that came over nicks face, like a little kid at Christmas seeing his presents for the 5th time after sneaking down stairs, really wanting to open his gifts. His parents said no they had to wait until the sun came up. Except Keria was the present that nick wanted to unwrap this time.
"Alright, so lets play this spin the bottle but keira how is it gonna work there is only 2 of us and the dog."

"Well the dog can play, but no tounge action for him cause thats kinda gross."
Keria shuttered at the thought.

"Alright, so Ill go first cause im the oldest." nick stated while getting up, through the candlelight to find the corona bottle, he sat down diagonally from keria cause he said chances are the bottle will be on a diagonal more so than straight across from her.

nick spun the bottle and it landed on the sofa " Keria, how does this work."

"you kiss the sofa" Keria stated matter a fact like.

"I am not kissing the sofa unless im drunk and wont remember in the morning."
nick chuckled at keria " Keria u know I luv ya, but this is dumb. I think miniture monopoly is better."

"Well carter, do you really think monoply would have us making out, it would have us *****ing at eachother I dont know about you but i get pretty **** agressive in that game. If you didn't trade with me, I would get pissed off." Keira stated " I think thats something you dont want to see quite yet".

Nick winked " No, your right I think I will take the chances of us making out."
nick sighed in defeat "Alright so I will kiss the sofa."

nick was about to pucker his lips and kiss the sofa, when he saw keria rumadging through his cubboards and found it. "Aha, Tequila and never been open." Keria smiled in triumph at her find.

"Keria, what are you doing baby?" nick walked over and wrapped his arms around and lightly kissed her neck.

"Nick alright heres the rules" Keria said as she took his hand and led him beside her and got 2 shot glasses. If you dont land on me, you have to take a shot. Same goes for me if you land on me you have to kiss me. Sound like a plan?" Keria smiled at nicks excited grin.

Nick smiled " Or if you dont want to take a shot you have to answer any question the person has for you."

"Ooooh, sounds like a plan, let the games begin baby." a hour later

Keria leaned over and kissed him before they started, when they pulled away nick asked " Keria, what was that for I didn't land on you."

"Well that was for good luck, Cause Baby your gonna need it" Nick smiled at her and let her finish her sentence " And this, is a pinch to grow an inch." Keria lightly laughed as she pinched his ***, as he slightly reached up to grab his 10 shot and answerd 5 questions already.

Nick laughed his girl was obviously getting a little hammered seeing as she didn't answer any questions so far, and took all the shots. nick shook his head knowing how she was gonna feel in the morrning.

Nick growled "Baby, why dont you answer a question instead of taking that shot, I dont want you to pass out on me, besides if you keep kissing me like that, and pinches to grow an inch. Im gonna keep growing more inches. If you get my drift." Nick laughed as he watched Keria sway back and forth.

"I am having so much fun Nick ko las." Keria said " Baby, your name has 3 syllabbbbllless."

"Keria, baby why dont you just answer a few questions while I put the tequila away, and get you some water. your pretty drunk."

"No im not drunk just Horny, ohh nick wheres the porn." Nick spit out his drink of water he poured.

"ummm, its keira lets sit on the couch and talk okay baby, Drink up."

"nicky, I wanna watch porn." Nick noticed she never called him nicky or whined he found it amazingly hot, and cute.

nick laughed " Keria, your drunk."

"Im not drunk, my face isn't even red, and my ears aren't hot." Keria stated while stumbling her way over the the mirror in the bathroom nick, close on her heels.

"Keia baby your glowing, and your ears are hot you almost look like an elf version of rudolph."

"Nick, your so funny and sexy, can we go to the closet now?"

Nick couldn't help himself but lean down and kiss her, which wasn't smart cause if he would of known how great the kiss was he never would of kissed her in the state she was in.

Keria sucked his tounge right into her mouth, she had her fingers all through his hair, with her free hand she grabbed his *** which was turning him on even more. nick pulled away.

"Keria, Baby I dont think we should go to the closet I dont think either of us can stand up that great". Nick said wobbling as the alcohol was starting to hit him.

"Well then why dont we go to the bed and lay down?" Keira wiggled her eye brows, and grabbed his hand and led him to the bed.

"Take me Nick." She giggled as she laid down sprawled out in nicks clothes on the bed.

Nick started to untie the drawstrings of her pants, and climbed on top of keria not intending on having sex, just a little fun. Nick leaned up and kissed her lips. He started to kiss her neck and he moved down her body and pulled up her shirt and kissed around her navel. Nick was about to move down her legs when he felt keria jolt.

Nick sat up, and noticed Kerias almost Green complexion..

"Keria you feel okay?" nick questioned as he rubbed her forehead.

"Nick, i think Im going to be sick." Keria stated as the room started to spin.

"Here, baby I'll help you out. I will take you to the bathroom and bring you some aspirn and water."

Keria took his hand and nick went to the kitchen to find what he needed.

He went back and pretty much saw kerias face, and the Sweat starting to form on her forehead when he watched her place her head over the toilet. And emtpy the contents of her stomach yet again. Nick held her hair and soothed her while rubbing her back.

"Baby, dont hold it in, let it out im right here okay?" Nick said as he rubbed her back in soothing circles and feeling his stomach get queezy with every lurch of her body, and tightening of her stomach.

"Better now?" Nick asked a few mins later.

"Here, use my toothbrush ill get a new one tomorrow". Nick said as he put the tooth paste on for her and turned on her tap. "After your done take a drink of this and these while I get you something a little more comfy to put on."

Nick dug and all he could find was his basketbally jersey it was the only thing clean. "Here sweetie put this on." nick handed it to her but noticing she was still pretty drunk he undressed her, and not once blinked at her body. He slipped the jersey on over her head. " There you go baby, now crawl into bed, im just going to blow out all the candles."

"Okay" Keria nodded and let nick tuck her in " Nick, your sleeping here right?"

"Do you want me too?" Nick asked after he kissed her forehead goodnite

Keria nodded in response " Yes, can we cuddle?" Keria asked in a little girls voive nick found utterably adorable.

Nick smiled lightly and crawled in behind her and wrapped his arms around her stomach but not to tight, in case she was still feeling sick. "There, you feel a little better hunny?"

Keria rolled over and gave him a chatised kiss on the lips and snuggled into the crook on his neck. " A little, thanks for taking care of me". Keria mumbled before she kissed his chest lightly " Good nite nick."

"I will always take care of you, good nite Keria". Nick said and held keria a little tighter.

Nick drifted off to sleep, but his last thought was someday we wont be affraid of those 4 letter words, someday we will embrace them.

nick woke up as soon as soon as the sun came up, he took a deep breath not wanting to wake up but knowing he had to. Nick had tons of phone calls to make to his boys, to his manager. He may have been on a mini vacation, but there was always press and buisness involved. promoting himself, and the rest of the boys. Nick was dreading going to the radio interview, knowing he was going to have to answer questions he didn't know the answers to himself. If someone was to ask him who Keria was what would he say, just a freind, a freind with benefits, my girlfriend. He didn't know what to answer, but he knew he better think of it and think of it soon.

Nick looked over and his shoulder and felt Keria snuggled in next to him, then he heard her mumble something. "MmmNickCanYouTurnoffTheSun?"

Nick had to chuckle, he had no idea what he just heard esacpe her still bruised lips. Nick rolled over closer to her, not carring about her morrning breath or his. "What did you say sweetie?"

Nick asked looking into her eyes that looked so sleepy and full of pain. Nick chuckled thinking to himself, she must have one hell of a hangover. He looked over and noticed the teqilla was 3/4's gone. Nick moved his body up a little and kissed her forehead.

Keria moaned " I said, nick can you please turn the sun off?" Keria smiled half heartedly at him, and groaned and put her head on his chest.

Nick laughed " No, I haven't quite figured out how to do that yet? I take it you have quite the hanogver there pretty lady?" nick smiled and raised his eyebrows. and pulled Keria closer to him.

"Mmmm hummm" Keria Mumbled all the while rubbing cirlces on Nicks bare chest " See Nick this is why I don't like to drink, I act a fool and drink to much and feel like S*hit the next morrning."

nick laughed " Its okay hunny I kind of like how you act when your drinking. Your very umm...touchy and Cute. Did I say Sexual?" Nick smirked at the look on Keiras face.

Keira punched him playfully on his bicep " Nick, your not funny." She pouted.

"Thats not what you said last night?" Nick leaned down and kissed her fully on the lips.

Nick pulled away a few minutes later. "Get up, have a shower, drink some coffee and eat some food you will feel much better trust me."

Nick said pulling the covers off of her...

"Nick Dont" Keria whined " I wanna sleep a little more, pwease nick". Keria pouted and gave her best puppy dog eyes she could.

Nick shook his head and covered Keria Back up, he got up out of bed and put on his sweat pants over his boxers. "you know the longer you lay in bed, the worse your going to feel." Nick leaned down and kissed her eyelids.

"Mmm you know what I like most about you nick?" Keria mubled burying her head in Nicks pillows.

"Whats that?" nick mumbled while sitting himself next to the bed, and rubbing Kerias forehead.

"The way you always know just what do do and say, to make me feel better. But mostly just the way you care, and take care of me. No guy has ever cared enough for me to treat me the way you treat me. So thank you."

Keria opened her eyes and looked at Nick and pulled Nick Down for a Kiss not just any kiss, but she released everything into that kiss. Every emotion she possibly felt for him. It wasn't passionate and hot, but it wasn't dull. There wasn't a lot of tounge, but there was just enough. It was a kiss that was short and sweet but left you breathless and reeling for more. It was a kiss that you didn't just feel the kiss, you felt it in your heart, you felt the heat coarse all through your body. You saw it in the expression on each others faces. You saw it in there eyes, when they opened and she carassed his cheek. When they parted there were so many words that could be used but the number one word someone could use for that kiss. was LOVE.

Nick pulled away first "Wow, Keria that was Wow I have never felt anything like that before. Wow im speechless." Nick muttered while catching his breath and and hugging Keria tight. "Your Welcome Keria."

"Nick" Keria muttered she couldn't help the feelings that were rapturing through her body.

"yea baby?" Nick asked while he was putting spare blankets up over his curtains to keep some of the sunlight out for her, so she can get some sleep. Hopefully feel better when she wakes up.

"This isn't just a fling is it?"

Keria asked scared on the answer, scared of the words that were going to come through his lips. Mostly because she wasn't sure what she wanted the answer to be. She wasn't sure if she was ready to be in another relationship even though its been over a year almost 2 years. she wasn't ready to run away either. She wasn't sure if she wanted nick to say yes, or she wanted him to say no.

Nick had the same look of fear in his eyes. " No, I don't think so." Nick stuttered trying to read Kerias eyes for some kind of answer. He saw her exhale.

"Okay" Keria smiled "Okay" Keria said a little bit louder.

Nick walked over to her with tears in his eyes " I promise you, I wont hurt you like your past b/f's. I will cheerish each moment I have with you."

"Nick please dont make promises you can't keep, I dont mean to be a ***** but no one can say there never going to hurt me. Just as I can't say im never going to hurt you. As of now I can't see myself ever doing anything to hurt you." Keria took his hand in hers and squeezed it " I dont make promises I can't keep."

Nick smiled " Your amazing you know that, everything about you the way you kiss, your level head, your smile, your sense of humour. your everything I have ever wanted in a person." Nick smiled and whiped away one lone tear.

Keria smiled " Likewise hunny." Keria reached up and wiped away and kissed his tear. "now please leave so i can get some sleep."

nick chuckled "your kicking me out of my room already?"

"Yes." Keria stated, you talk to much for me first thing in the morrning.

"Well do you want some company?" nick asked, while taking off his sweat pants.

"If you plan on doing anything but sleeping, then you can put those pants back on." Keria laughed as nick put his pants back on and jumped on top of her, and ravished her with kisses all over her face. and tickeled her.

"Your my girlfriend now, you better get used to my company." nick stated while tickling her.

keria laughed back and licked his ear then bit it, then kissed lips quickly then leaned up and nipped his nose. Then moved over and snaked her tounge in out of his other ear and whispered sexily.

" Im your Girlfriend so you better learn quickly to let me sleep when im tired, but i would love for you to lay with me if you think you can resist my sexual wit."

Keira stated as she rubbed her hand down his leg, than back up to his chest. She kissed his lips again and mumbled against them " So, Nick whats it gonna be, do you think you lay down with me with out kissing me, touching me."

Nick got up off her and whispered " I think I can, but I dont think you can so im going to leave you to sleep all by your lonesome." nick chuckled.

Just then he was pulled back down by his waist. " I promise ill be good." Keria smiled. "This bed misses you, i think."

Nick smiled "Well I think this bed misses me too." Nick smiled and wrapped his arms around Keria. And started to kiss her neck, then moved down to her shoulder that wasn't covered by his jersey. He started to lightly suck, enough to leave a little mark, but not one noticeable. Nick heard Keria whimper, when he moved back up to her neck and started to leave little kisses.

"You like that don't you?" nick mumbled while kissing her neck causing her to giggle.

"Nick that tickles." Keria stated while playing with the ring that was on nicks finger, and pulled away from Nick.

"Nick, are you sure your ready for another realtionship?" Keria asked between yawns.

nick sighed and looked at his finger for a minute, then looked into Kerias lust stricken eyes. "You know Im not over my Marriage with Issabelle I will always love her and she will always hold a special place in my heart."

Keria looked away from his eyes to his hand where his commitment with Issabelle used to be. Nick noticed her expression and brought her face to look at him. "But Keria, I know I am ready to be with you, one day at a time right."

Keria couldn't help but giggle " Nick we sound like an AA meeting, you just need to take it one day at a time."

Nick laughed " Keria only you would say something like that, I cant wait for you to meet the boys espeically A.J you have the same sense of humour."

Keria smiled " Nick, I cant meet them." Kerias' face turned crimson.

Why, not! Dont be scared hunny i will assure you, they will love you?"
nick chuckled

"Nick I dont mean to sound all weird and stuff, but did you forget I am a Fan and have been since i was 13. I cant meet them I will be starstruck and act like a goof then they will think im a money grabber, a gold digger like that song and-"

Keria Took a deep breath after nick started massaging her shoulders. Nick whispered " Calm down Keria, Its going to be okay they are going to love you. They are just going to be happy im not with Issabelle anymore. Okay?"

"Nick you dont understand its just meh, i will look like a dumbass in front of them i dont wanna look like a bambling idiot."

Nick rolled his eyes " Keria if you do look like a bambling idiot, whatever the hell that is. You are My Bambling idiot. Okay trust me they will like you. Besides you didn't freak out when you met me?"

Keria chuckled " Yea, I didn't freak out on the outside, but i was freakin flippin on the inside. You have no idea."

nick laughed " Okay Well it looks like im dating a Teenybopper."

Keria glared at him " Keria, dont give me that look I can give it right back." nick joked trying to giving her his pissed look as photographers call it.

Keria giggled " Nick you are such a goof, you look like your trying to seduce me, your evil eye almost looks mischevious not watch out ***** on the loose."

Nick tackled her " Well maybe you got my looks confused" He whispered sexily in her ear.

Keria smiled " Well, what look did you just give then?"

"I gave you my 'you better watch out' look cause Nick got something up his sleeve-look"

Keria chuckled " nick is it wrong that im not scared of that look."

"If your a fan than you know I like to play jokes, or in your case make love until the sun comes up." nick raised his eye brows " So what do you say?"

Keria shook her head and pulled nick off of her " Well I say that, that would be a real long time seeing as the sun already came up, and you have a radio interview and im tryin to be good here so you can't whisper all sexy like that, and use that pout on me."

Nick stopped pouting " I can say im sick so i dont have to go to the radio interview. you have no idea how hot you look lying there with my favorite jersey on, riding up on you so i see most of your legs. your driving me crazy here." nick whined


"Well..sorry baby good genes i guess, and you have no idea how much i want you. But i have learned from experience that sex ruins the realtionship and i'm not ready for our realtionship to be ruined." Keria did her little half smile, unknowingly that drives nick crazy.

nick took her hands into his and pulled her up " Well, alright then you need to get up out of bed and feed your dog?" nick chuckled as he kissed her and mubled against her lips when he felt the dog licking his feet.

"Alright I know thats not you." Nick said when he pulled away " Keria we need to train this dog that when were in the bedroom he can't come in." Nick said exhasperated. He pulled Kerias hands.

"Nick, I dont wanna get up." Keria whined

"Whine, Whine, Whine..you are getting up." nick chuckled.

"But baby I dont want to, can't you lay here with me and not try anything?" Keria pouted.

"No, not a good Idea im going to need like a 10 minute cold shower as it is." nick exhaled deeply.

"Well you have your little shower and relase some 'Tension' And I will sleep."
for 10 minutes then get up with you and have breakfeast.

"Ooooee, why dont you join me?" Nick asked already walking to bathroom that adjoined his room.

"good nite Keria you have 10 mins." Nick chuckled.

"Just shower you stink." Keria rolled her eyes.

"Yea probably you puked on me last night before we you know." nick chuckled knowing it wasn't true.

"No we didn't nick, and no I didn't."

"how can you be so sure?" Keria mumbled.

"Cause your a nice guy and you wouldn't take advantage of me like that."

"Trust me Keria you were more than willing." Nick chuckled.

Keira noticed the smirk hidden in his expression. " Right, Well was i bottom or top?" Keria asked playing the game.

nick thought about it for a second, " You were on the bottom baby, just how you like it."

Keria giggled " Yea but not as much as i like it on the top, when im drunk and horny i like to be in control and on top. So good try." Keria rolled her eyes.

Nick looked shocked and winked "Well I will have to remember that, well dont miss me to much while im gone, im gonna be in the shower for 15 mins now."

"Nick you barely have any hair, whats going to take you so long?" Keria grinned knowing she had him caught.

Nicks face turned bright red " Well uhh yea umm...**** it Keria theres enough sexual tension in here, cupid wouldn't know what the hell to do."

"Bye, nick have fun in the shower you can be vocal." Keria was haivng fun watching nick sqirm and grow by the minute.

"how do you know i sing in the shower? Wait **** Keria you are a dirty. i think I have met my match. Bye Baby see you soon, you can be vocal too if you want." Nick winked " Bye Babe enjoy yourself."

"Don't worry I will be sleeping im not that hot." Keria looked at him innocently as he could.

"Yea well I could make you hot." Nick walked over sexily and gave her a deep kiss.

"Nick go have your shower." Keria got up out of bed and pushed him towards the door.

"Well you come with me, i promise i won't peek." Nick pouted,

"Nick you might not, but i know i will! Thats a can of worms you dont want to open."

nick pulled her into the bathroom with him " Well i will take my chances." nick smirked.

Keria opened the door and left " Bye, nick."

She heard nick lock the door " Keria thats so you dont get any funny ideas. We are trying to be good here."

"Smart move." Keria hollared back.

"I know i know all the moves."

"Nick did you just wake up horny or something you havent been this sexually flirty with me ever."

"Well now your my girlfriend and I just want to show how much I ______ you."
Nick turned on the shower so the last part was muffled.

'What am I thinking I cant tell her I love her, I dont right?' nick asked himself...I hope she didn't hear me nick asked as he stepped into the semi cold water.

Nick walked out of the shower in just a towel wrapped around his waist and he heard a low whistle " ****, nick your looking fine". Keria winked and continued rummadging through his cubboards for something to eat.

Nick walked over to her and wrapped his arms around her and gave her a little kiss on the cheek. " Ewww, Nick your all wet, now im all wet."

Keria Glared at Nick "Awww, im sorry baby". Nick pouted " Kerias not mad is she?" Nick asked with the most adorable innocent look he had ever had.

"Nick your lucky your so cute" Keria tapped him on the nose " Or else you would be toweless by now, and outside poseing in the nude. For the public." Keira giggled.

Nick gulped thinking 'I really found my match, she wouldn't do that would she'

"Keria, you wouldn't do that to me would you, im sorry you just looked so cute, standing there in my jersey, I couldn't help but give you a hug." nick asked while taking her hand and twirling her around so she was trapped in his arms.

Keria Couldn't help but smile " Nick your such a goof, Of course im not mad,
I could get use to you walking out of the bathroom soaking wet, with flushed cheeks from doing god knows what." Keria gave him her sexy smirk. " I really like the fact that you cant wait until your dry to hug me."

Nick smiled and dipped her lower in his arms and kissed her " What can I say im a huggable person." Then lifted her back up.

nick sat down and polished an apple, snickering at Keria rummaging through his cubboards. She would open one and find it empty, and get the cutest disapointed look on her face. Nick couldn't hold in the snicker when she opened up his fridge and her look was so funny when she saw all that was in there was Beer, and Water, and milk and the milk was expired a week ago.

"Babe, what are you looking for?" Nick said between bites of his Apple.

"nothing, I looked im done looking. nick have you heard of a grocery store?" Keria asked exhasperated as she sat at the table, and pouted.

"Yes, but I dont know if you realised but im nick carter and a trip to the grocery store, isn't always the most pleasant. I go in for milk and come out with missing shoes and ripped pants, and chunks of my hair missing. Milk just isn't worth it. Who knew 16 year olds were that agressive?" Nick chuckled and laughed when he saw Keria pouting.

"Nick, it wouldn't be so funny if it wasnt true!" Keria sighed " Well how about this I need to take Nickers for a walk so I go and get you some food. I wouldn't want the *cute one* to starve.

Nick rolled his eyes " Ohhh, your sense of humour is just off the charts today."

Keria smirked " Just like yours".

"I meant that Keria, your not funny." Nick stated with his hands on his hips.

"I know you did." Keria said taking his apple out of his hand and taking a bite. Nick oblivious to the burn that keria just gave him.

"Hey I was eating that." Nick looked like a little kid who just got his lollipop stolen.

"I know Nick, but share its the only thing to eat. Besides I cant live off a penut jelly sandwich and your kisses forever." Keria put her hand on her head for dramatic effect.

nick gave her a quick kiss, tasting the apple on lips and tounge. " I know how to share." nick whispered huskily into her ear.

Nick was about to kiss her again when the phone rang...

Keria giggled "Saved by the bell." And ran away from nick while, she went and looked for her clothes.

"Babe, where did you throw my clothes?" Nick put his hand over the reciever

"Uhh, they are on my side of the bed somewheres, you dont need to change you look hot in that."

"Okay, so you want me to go to the store, wearing only your jersey and my thong?" Keria asked while searching under the bed.

Nick walked in to find her *** in the air " **** if I only had a camera!" Nick raised his eyebrows and dangled her clothes in his hand.

He then heard a NICKOLAS GENE CARTER....
Nick lifted his hand " Hold on a sec, man."

Keria looked up and snatched them " Nick your an ***." Keria rolled her eyes and nick smiled " I always take the oppurtunity babe, dont be mad you looked so cute on all 4's" Nick chuckled and ducked the pillow being thrown his way.

Keria walked over to him and smiled " To bad your not going to see me on all 4's very often. Now get your sexy @ss in there and write a grocery list. Or im gonna head back to my house and eat there and let you starve, or give yourself to all the little girls that wait for you in grocery stores knowing you need to eat." Keria smiled and kissed him on the cheek.


Nick heard laughter errupting through the phone "Nick, A.J's right shes sassy, she got you whipped. I bet you anything you are looking for a pen and peice of paper." Kevin laughed

"I am not!" Nick lied through his teeth '**** it where did I put my freakin note book.' nick asked himself while holding onto the phone, and searching for any writing untensils. Hoping to god his towel didn't fall down in the process.

Kevin shook his head while setting up for there annual poker game, they had one poker game once a month, where just the guys get together and play. Kevin shook his head in sadness. cause this was going to be the first one where nick wouldn't be too. Kevin taught nick how to play, now nicks normally the one giving kev the tricks. Hes the master of the poker face now. Kevin smiled to himself saying out loud 5,4,3,2,1

"YES" nick shouted

Kevin smiled knowingly at his little brother through the reciever of the telephone " you found it didn't ya little brother."

"Yea" Nick realised years ago there was no use in lying to Kevin, He always knew. Nicks real dad had eyes in the back of his head. But Kevin has xray vision, or has learned to read minds.

Kevin laughed, "A.J owes me 10 bucks."
Nick sighed " your not betting already, Kev the game doesn't start until 9".

Kevin shook his head " Yea, Man thats in like 30 mins here nick."

"Ohh right" Nick smiled sheepishly. " I can't belive im missing the monthly poker game."

"Naw, your not gonna miss it, were going to film like 10 mins of it for the nic cam."

"Dude, you cant do that its the nic cam, IM Nick and you are Kevin. Its not the Kev cam." Nick pretended to be mad.

"Nick, you forgot to film something before you left so me and the boys are covering your ***! So yea so where just gonna say this is dedicated to you while your away doing some promo stuff. Speaking of, when are you going to start that. you have been there a month and Johnnys *****ing cause you missed your biggest radio interview. Now hes even more pissed that your getting a divorce, and being back to a playboy. He says he doesn't want to have to deal with another paris or Mandy situation." Kevin said all in one long speel.

Nick shook his head " Kev tell Johnny to calm his *** down, Its not like that! Number one its not my fault there was a major hurricane that cancelled the interview and I dont know when its rescheduled for cause they haven't gotten back to me. I called them and left a Message but no one answered."

Kevin heard the anger in his voice " Nick, calm down Johnny's just looking out for the group and your image."

"Kevin I love you, But Screw my Image. I dont care what people think about me this is me. Im not a saint. I am, We are human beings. Who cares. Where in the hell does johnny get off *****ing about me being in a divorce when he cheats on his wife, his wife finds out and gives him a divorce that isn't real and get remarried. I didn't tell him what I think. I didn't cheat on my wife i left her cause i wasn't happy the same reason we left johnny years ago. Kev dont get me wrong I love Johnny like a father and im so thankful for what he does for us. But sometimes he has to mind his own buisness." Nick said in a huff.

"Nick I get it, I was just saying so you didn't have to get into it with Johnny. This way I can give Johnny the censored version so he doesn't fire your ***." Kevin said in a strong voice.

"Okay Kev I love you for looking out, but im okay. Im doing good and for once in a long time im happy. So can you please just be happy for me." Nick stated sighing into the phone.

Kevin smiled "Alright so now that buisness is taken care of, are you going to tell me who and what this mystery girl is to you?"

nick smiled the biggest grin " Well her name is Keria Marie, shes an Aupair here in Australia originally from Canada. She has a 7 year old brother and 2 loving parents. and Cat named mittens that she misses. She has the most amazing eyes, and shes real." Nick smiled in a dreamily way.

"she sounds interesting, Nick. So tell me more about her whats her body like im not shallow but i sware if your dating another paris hilton im gonna kick your *** all the way from there to yemen."

Nick chuckled nah the quite oppistie actually " Shes about 5"4, about 135 pounds, long legs, little bit of a belly, a nice ***, and Amazing boobs. Let me tell you she brings a new vison into my head of beautiful woman. she has the cutest laugh, and the best smile, and the cutest chin dimple. And-"

Kevin cut nick off and shook his head " Dude, your in deep you dont just fish with a rod, you use a whole net. Are you sure your ready for this, cause this doesnt just seem like a Fling. This seems real! Are you sure your ready so soon after breaking it off with Issabelle?" Kevin asked concerned.

"Are you sure shes not just after you for your money, name, and fame?" Kevin asked again after hearing silence from nick he learned silence from nick isn't a good thing it either means he hit a nerve and hes pissed. Or he hit a nerve and is making him think.

"Kevin, im 27 years old sometimes i think you forget that. Im not sure of everything but im sure of one thing. I really, really like this girl. shes perfect for me. Shes everything I am but most of all shes everything im not." Nick stated

Kevin smiled " Well im happy for you man, but please just be careful. Alright man I will but i got to go finish making my list, and shes almost out of the shower. Have good at your poker game tonight. Love ya man! give A.J a hug for me, for the new little backstreet, or backette hes gonna have."

"Bye" Nick said and hung up before kevin got anything out...

Little did nick know he was on speaker phone and all the boys were sitting around already playing poker it was 10:00pm where they were not 9:00. They all new nick was horrible with time differences.

A.J then spoke up first " Guys you all owe me 50 bucks I feel kid of bad taking the love sick fools money though, but ohh well this can go towards the backstreets, or backettes as nick likes to put college fund." A.J smiled
The rest of the guys groaned, A.J snickered out loud

" If nicky only knew how much money I have made on him over the years."
"alright kev its your turn to deal man."

Howie laughed " Yea you would be a dead man, hed be pissed he hates it when we gamble with his love life."

Brian shook his head "Lets play this game, but wait 100 bucks says he brings her to howies wedding." Brian showed A.J the money.

"I see your hundred and raise you 50" A.J said while they were waiting for kev to finish dealing.

"your on Alex, Gambles of the heart part 10." Brian laughed.

"Alright lets get this game started, back up." Brian said while taking a drink of his root beer. Ever since A.J went into rehab, they always drank root beer instead of beer. For respect, and so the rest of them dont fall down the beaten path.

~:~:~:~:~:~Back in Australia.:~:~:~:~:~:~:~::~

Nick saw keria walk out in her clothes and whistled " you look fine baby, although I do prefer you in my jersey"

Keria walked over to nick and wrapped her arms around his waist from the behind " Nick you know I love your look you got going on, but aren't you cold?"

Nick laughed " Is it that obvious?"

Keria shook her head " Dont tell me you dont have any clean clothes either?"

Nick blushed " No, not really only my towel I need to do laundry but i need to wait until its after 10:00 pm do to my laundry." nick laughed cause it was true.

Keria smiled and gave him a kiss, when they pulled apart nick said " **** your in a kissy mood."

"Well we make a good pair then dont we babe? your hugable guy, and im just a kissable girl." Keria smiled and kissed him one last time.

"I guess your right". Nick said and hugged her tight.

"Nick, go get dressed and bring your laundry you can do it at my house while i make us and nickers a decent brunch." Nick couldn't help but smile and laugh.

"Keria, its so obvious your canadian now, the way you say house and brunch. Only Canadains say stuff like that."

Nick noticed the evil eye he was getting " But Canadians are super nice, and your very sexy, and cute, and hot. Did I mention beautiful?" Nick said quickly.

Keria smiled " Nick your lucky your good with words".

Keria helped him pack his dirty clothes and found him some clean clothes rolled up in the bottom of his suitcase mixed with clean and some dirty clothes.

"you ready to go?" Keria asked.

"Im ready but are you sure your ready?" Nick asked taking her hand and squeezing it.

"I think I am, if im not im going to learn to be" Keria said starring straight into his eyes picking up on the double meaning to his question.

"Good, cause i kind of like having you around." Nick smiled and kissed her before he opened the door and locked it on the way out.

~:~:~:~:~:~:~:~:~:~:~~:~::~

Nick and Keria walked together with there hands intertwined joking and laughing around, they never noticed the somber looks on peoples faces around them. All they noticed was eachother and how much they are falling for eachother. They never noticed the little boy and girl crying in the corner of the elevator grabbing ahold of there fathers leg. They never noticed the old man bowing his head praying. They never noticed the sound and eery feeling engulfing there bodies and surroundings. They were joking around with each other oblivious to the outside world. Oblivious to damage and destruction that was there momentairly sanctuary.

Nick and Keria walked out of the elevator with there arms wrapped around each other, if they would of been paying attention they would know. As soon as they step out those doors, there lives will be indefinently changed, a memory that will stay implanted in there souls something that will make them weaker and stronger all at once. Nothing could of prepared them for what they were going to see and encounter head on. There were no words for how greatful they are going to be to have eachother, to have someone to lean on. For there lives as they know it has changed.


Keria was the first one to see it, her home away from home half of it floating away. All her Memories and good times of her year in Austraila nothing but a floating Memory. Were her and her friend Casilyn used to hang out to get ice cream after they worked there *** off at the gym. She saw the sign floating by her. She saw the place were she was suposed to take nickers to get fixed the once old victiorian style house was blown over, engulfed in smoke. Keria had to blink twice to make sure she wasn't dreaming. She opened her eyes and muttered 'This is real'. Keria had to swallow back tears. Never in her life had she experienced such destruction, such an emtional jolt in her heart.

Never in her life of 22 years had she seen such devistation, never in her life had she seen so many people crying. She never heard the chrous of cries and pleas. If she was to listen closely or if she was to read minds she was sure she would hear all of the missing praying for there loved ones. Nick noticed her eyes tearing up " Lets go okay, theres nothing we can do."
Nick squeezed her tightly and felt his own eyes stinging begging for release.

Keria looked up into nicks eyes "Nick if its like this here, Then trust me i have nothing to go home too." Keria said instantly remembering the high waters of the ocean pouring into her back yard.

Just then nick leaned down and kissed her head " Everything is going to be okay."

"Nick how can you say that?" Keria shook her head " Nick you have something to go home too, your home probably isn't floating in the ocean somewheres."

Nick had no idea what to say to that comment " Keria, lets not think the worse until it happens okay. Lets go check out your house and the damage."

Nick wrapped his arms around her just then the Security guy last night walked over to them. " Mr. Carter im sorry we advise you to stay in, they are warning everyobdy to stay off the roads. major flooding over in the julinapea area, roads are washed out tree limbs are down and if there not down they may fall over."

Nick looked at his nametag " Ralph, Thanks for caring but what about the Sandiroa area. how about that how are things looking over there?"

Ralph looked disapointed " Nick, I know that look I am telling you to stay off the roads. Raplh noticed the look in Kerias eyes pure fear, he noticed the way she was clinging onto nick for dear life. he noticed the way she was starring into his eyes hanging on every word.

Ralph sighed " But if you were to head over to the Sandiroa area, you would get on the 206 highway you would turn off at exit 33 then you would follow maskin road until you came too blundery st. then you would go straight through the lights until you came to a 4 way stop intersection you want to turn left onto the road called Sara lane and follow it straight for about 10 mins. Then that should take you straight to the small town of Sandiroa area. But of course that is just hypothetically speaking."

Ralph smiled the best he could. You would want to take the car in the garage because your to vehciles have been submerrged in water. "Mr. Carter you were lucky you were staying on the top floor, the bottoms have been flodded and they woke up to there beds floating."

Nick sighed "Thank you ralph."

"Mr. Carter please be safe, and be quick they are about to close the highways, you will need to take the back entrance because the front exit as you see is flodded, the back exit there is slightly less water, be careful and darlin as far as I know there hasn't been any significant damages reported in the sandiroa area, just a few broken windows and such. They were pretty lucky in those parts."

Ralph said in a thhick Aussie accent " Thank you Ralph" Nick replied and Keria went over and gave him a big hug " Thank you for all your help."

"Your welcome darlin, and Nick please call when you reach your destination" Ralph replied.

Nick smiled " Will do, Thanks again."

Nick and Keria rolled up there pants to there knees, and walked through the deep water, and moved the peices of wood floating around. Keria then noticed something that caught her eye. She let go of nicks hand and waded over and saw her lisense plate off her car it said 'ARS2207 ' . Nick saw her grab the lisense plate and hold it tight to her chest. Nick saw her whipe her eyes with her hands which just caused more water to run down her face. As her hand was submerged in water.

Nick wrapped his arm around her waist and opened the car door for her, once they reached the area, ralph was right there wasn't as much water out back, but it was still going to be difficult to get to there destination.

Nick was able to get through the massive puddles that looked like ponds, and made it too the turn off on the highway. There was a pretty big tree limb acting as a barrier for the highway. Nick noticed there was another car there pulled over in the same boat. he walked over and tapped on the window, he rolled down the window only for there to be a bright flash in his eyes.

"What the Hell" Nick asked while he rubbed his eyes trying to stop the dots from appearing.

"your Nick Carter of the Backstreet boys right, i am a reporter and my sources tell me that you are staying here in Austraila. They also tell me that you have a new a Girlfriend and you are cheating on your wife. What do you say to that Nick Carter.?" The reporter asked jotting down nicks every move and every pause.

"I say that you have a lot more things to worry about right now, Are you fuc*ing crazy? There was a huge hurricane and your more worried about my love life. There are people lost, and dying and have lost everything they own and all your worried about is my love life!!? " Nick asked again through gritted teeth.

"You are Fuc*ing un-belivable" Nick shook his head

The reporter was speechless " Mr. Carter I'm sorry but i have a job to do, and i was assigned to you. I know its not right but its how I make my living until I find a new job. I didn't mean to disrespect you or anyone else, but this is my job and im on probation for 3 months. I just got out of college and i need the money. Do you think I want to be doing this? My wife just had a baby, and our house is flodded out. We just bought it, and we didn't even have the chance to put insurance on it. We need the money for our little merrilee, our beautiful week old daughter. I promise I wont bug you again but i need your help."

The reporter speeled out with tears in his eyes. Nick was completely speechless he had no idea what to say to that. He never thought of reporters or the paparazi doing this to him and everyone else out there im the limelight for money. He never once thought of them having familys and needing the money. He just always thought of them as annoying and ignorant as*wholes who care about no one but themselves. Nick looked over at Keria and lightly smiled with tears in his eyes.

Nick sighed " Alright I will give you the story as long as you help me move this peice of tree blocking the road,and go directly home to your family. They need you right now more than anything. This is a time to be with family and friends and loved ones. so heres the scoop" nick smiled as the man held the tape recorder up to him.

"I love Issabelle and she will always hold a special place in my heart but things just weren't working out. So we are getting a divorce. As for having a new a girlfriend I would really like to keep that to myself. Im not saying I have a girlfriend and im not saying I dont I would just like to keep that part of my life to myself and the people close to me. As for staying in Austraila I am here to do some promoting but due to the recnet tragedy here im not sure how long I will be staying but i will do in all my power to help out, while my stay here premits me too."

"Thank you Mr. Carter, for doing that for me do you have any idea how much that story is going to help out me and my family. Do you have any idea that that exclusive just bought me and My family a life something to live off of until my next gig."

Nick didn't really know what to say he wasn't fond of the paparazi, but after todays incident he is going to be a little more nice to the media, more understanding. and not always so no comment. Hes going to put the record straight. " your welcome, but please dont add words to the statement and twist it around, I told you the truth and I expect you to speak the truth thats all I ask. If you do or my words get changed in some way. I will sue you and your company. Man to man I gave you your story, so I expect you to act like a Man and do it the way i asked."

Nick smiled " Now lets move this so we can try to move on with our lives".

The reporter smiled and helped him move the barrier, Nick and Keria got back in the car and drove onto the highway and were happy to see that therr were very few cars, Just lots of water laying on the road. Between the two of them they were able to move anything that was in there way, on the old roads. Nick and Keria heard a tree fall over behind them and it just missed their car. Nick jsut grappbed Keria's hand tighter and squeezed it.

He noticed Keria looking at her little town, she has made her home for a year and watched as she took mental images and compared it to what it used to be. Nick broke the Silence " What you thinking about hun?"

Keria looked over at him "Ummm...nothing and everything my mind is pretty blank at the moment, yet i have so much running through. I guess im just thankfull that We are okay." Keria smiled the best she could.

"Yea, i know what you mean?" Nick stuttered "Im glad I have you too". Nick kissed her hand then slammed on the breaks. when he saw 4 kittens wandering around aimlessly in the middle of the road looking lost.

Nick pulled over and parked the car, and walked to move the kittens keria helped him out. There cries were soft and heartbreaking and Keria lost it she broke down everything she has been trying to hold in she let out, and nick was there to catch her when she fell to her knees.

"Nick look". Keria said as she pointed towards the side of the road where there was a cat, the looked to be dead. Nick noticed the kittens surrounding the cat.

"Nick its not fair, all those kittens are going to starve because some ******* killed their mother. Nick its not fair they have no one. The are little orphans." Keria cried.

"Aww, hunny come on let go go pick them up they can stay with me okay. There not going to be orphans." Nick was caught by suprise When Keria kissed him hard on the lips, and her tears. The passion in Their kiss was the last and final emotion nick needed to spill warm tears cascading down his cheeks they meshed together.

Nick was out of breath when he let her pouty lips go " What was that for?"

Keira muttered "I just felt like it, Nick you are Amazing you will really take the kittens in."

Nick lightly laughed " Anything to make you smile."

"Now come on, we need to get to your house and feed these poor little drowned rats." Nick pouted after keria, lightly pushed him then grabbed him by the waist " There not drowned rats." Keria glared after trying to put a seat belt around them.

Nick chuckled " Keria I really dont think the seatbelts gonna work to well hun". She shut the car door.

"The way you drive and lock the breaks up, these kittens are gonna need something to save them." Keria stated jokingly, but it was a serious joking.

Nick pulled her into a hug, and saw nickers cuddled up on her lap. Nick patted the dog " Your still alive aren't ya little guy." We was surpised when they were walking through all the water all the times nick had slammed on the breaks though the course of the day. He was suprised Nickers didn't die from a heart attack.

"Barely." Keria giggled lightly " Nick just drive."

A few minutes later they pulled into Kerias driveway " **** Keria your house, is like 5 times the size of my house its gorgeous. " Nick stated in awwe... "Well babe your house is okay."

Nick said once they were inside the foryea, Keria let the kittens down and the dog went to his room where his food, doggy door, and bed was located. and The Kittens imidately followed him and started to cry. Nick and Keria watched as nickers picked up the kittens by the scruff of the neck and carry them one by one to his bed and jumped up and went to sleep next to them.

Nick helped Keria find some bowls and poured some milk into it for the kittens, he poured some dog food for Nickers. Nickers opened one eye and looked at Nick with his arms wrapped aroound keria from behind. Then shut his eyes and went to sleep.

Keria Yawned " She leaned against nick for support, god im so tired."

Nick smiled and picked her up " Wheres your bedroom?" Nick asked in a seductive voice.

Keria pointed up " Nick, carried her up the stairs and had to stop half way. " **** Keria you could of warned me there was like 50 stairs to walk up."

Keira giggled " you didn't have to carry me you know, I would of gladly took your hand and dragged you to my bedroom." Keria winked.

Nick smirked " Ohh, Really so which rooms your bedroom?" Nick asked once he he was at the very top and noticed a really nice decorated area.

Keria giggled " All of it, My bed is right behind you!"

Nick turned around and had to laugh " wow, you have a bigger room than me." Nick said as he fell back against the bed and looked around the decorated area.

Keria chuckled and crawled on top of Nick and kissed him hard " Yea, i know im going to have to go back to Canada in a month and back to small little room in the attic. This bed is bigger than my bedroom bak home." Keria said and kissed his neck.

Nick kissed her back and pulled her shirt over her head, and kissed all the bare skin he was able to touch and leave his trail of fire causing her skin to burn. Nick then pulled away and had to laugh at a thought that was drifting through his head.

"Keria when you go back to Canada whos gonna take the kids?" Nick laughed trying to mask his sadness he never knew he could feel this strongly about someone so soon, so fast.

Keria pulled away and stopped kissing him "Nick shut up and just kiss me." Keria reached down and un-did his shorts, and pulled them down over his ***.
Keria mumbled against his lips "I love your ***." Keria giggled and squeezed it, and massaged and kneaded it.

Nick moaned " God, Keria my *** loves you too."

She then pulled away " Nick is this okay?"

Nick was throughly enjoying the attention he was getting from Kerias hands, her lips, the reaction her body had when he itimately touched, the look in her eyes when he pulled her shorts down over her hips. and left the imprints of his lips all over her body.

Nick pulled away breathlessly "Is what okay, Keria?" Nick asked as he brought his head up from her belly button and kissed all the way up to her leaving stuble marks all across her bare skin. causing fire to burn deep within her. He kissed her lips and moved his head to her ear sucking on her earlobe, and sucked it in and whispered " Us doing this, us being intimate, us making love, us making eachother feel out of this world good. Yes i think its okay do you?"

Nick asked huskily causing keria to breathe more shallowly, she then arched her body as she felt Nick do things to her body she has only imagined, she has only read about in romance novels. She has never felt anything this amazing.. "Mmm...I think so." Keria moaned. She ridded nick of the rest of his clothes he kissed her passionately " Are you sure?" Keria kissed him harder for response and kissed him down his well defined chest, bringing nick to experience the same things and more that Keria has. Then nicks phone started to vibrate and make a loud noise on the floor. They ignored it at first then it was to hard to ingore as it continued ringing.

Keria climbed under the covers as nick answered the phone buck naked and answered the phone out of breath " Hello!! What" nick asked out of breath.

"Nick its Brian, Johhny has been trying to contact you all day, where in the hell are you dude. We have been worried sick you were hurt from the hurricane. We never knew it was that bad man why didn't you say anything?" Brain asked the fear obvious in his voice.

"Me and Keria didn't know it was that bad, anyways sorry im at Kerias what does Johnny want." Nick asked a little more kinder and his breathing starting to return to normal.

"What no he cant." nick said after Brian told him.

"Sorry Man, I know you are enjoying yourself down there, but he doesn't think its safe for you down there and all your Promoting events are cancelled until everything returns to order down there."

"Yea, whatever i will talk to you later."

"Nick, dont shoot the messenger. Love you glad your okay. talk to you later sorry to interupt, whatever it was I intterupted." Brian chuckled.

"Sorry, yea its nothing dont worry about it dude. Bye Brian."
Nick sighed 'Well not anymore' nick realised looking over at keria asleep under the covers.

Nick looked out the window then crawled under the blankets and wrapped his arms around keria and kissed her forehead Keria just drew her body closer too nicks and snuggled against him.

Nick mumbled " Well isn't this just a beautiful disaster."

He wasn't ready to leave Keria not yet, he wasn't sure if he was ever going to be able to leave her. He loved her and he was never ready to leave the ones he loved. Those were the last thoughts before he drifted himself off to sleep.

Keira woke up to the feel of comfort complete and utter warmth. Something she hasn't felt in a real long time and she welcomed the feeling with open arms. She no longer felt scared, ashamed, and empty like something was missing in her life and she could never just narrow it down to one thing. She always found her self come back to the word happiness, of course she was happy but was she really happy. normally every time she woke up her in bed she found her self questioning that very same analogy but today she wasn't.

Keira felt complete and utter bliss when she was tangled around Nicks body. When his arms wrapped around her protectively she felt anything but scared, she was terrified to let someone in to give in to the burning desire of her heart and pass it on. To surrender her heart, mind, body and soul to someone else to treasure her heart until they drop it and stomp on it repeatedly until you feel you can no longer stand the pain and become numb. Most of all she was afraid because she couldn't stop herself from doing that. Keria Marie was afraid to put her heart into the skilled hands of nick carter.

Nick watched as Kerias eyes lazily fluttered open then shut in a last attempt to block out the late afternoon sun, to go back to her sanctuary where she can dream and reality is at a stand still she finally opens her eyes. Nick couldn't help but smile at the woman laying in tangled sheets with him.

Nick couldn't help but laugh when she finally opened her eyes and cuddled in closer to his neck. He felt her body tense up when she looked under the covers and saw that they were both as naked as the day they were born.

Nick laughed "dont worry we didn't sleep together, well we did but you get what I mean."

Keria smiled "your awake?"

"Yea I have been awake since umm after we were rudley interupted and very muchly anticipating to finish up where we left off, only to find you passed out on me."

Keria giggled " I didn't?"

Nick smiled back " Ohhh, you did hun."

Keria laughed " Im sorry" Keria then got more serious " You know we shouldn't of let it get that far-"

Nick leaned over and kissed her on the lips softly and pulled away " I know but I can tell you one thing, It wouldn't of been a one night stand, and I wouldn't of regretted it." Nick said making sure Keria was looking at him when he was saying this.

Keria tried to look away but his eyes, and the beat of his heart made her stare directly into his. Capturing her gaze with his, she wanted to run away, far, far away from Nick she was scared ****l*ss after all the drama with her Ex and recent flings, they all turn out bad. Keria was half ready to become a Nunn and sware off men for good, then she realised thats absolutelly crazy then the minute Nick walked into her life and after there first kiss. She threw that idea out the window like an old shoe.

Keria coundn't bring herself to leave Nick arms and some weird some strange way. It was terrifiyingly comfortable, being in Nick arms was terrifiyingly comfortable, which was too good of a feeling to pass up. Keria was absorbed and highly addicted to the auora of being around Nick Gave off. Keria wanted nothing more to leave but she couldn't she was stuck on nick and the words. Hell there were no words for her to describe what it is she feels for nick and how she feels at this moment. Maybe if she did she would of ran away. The fear of not knowing is sometimes better than knowing.

Keria did all she could do but nod " I know nick and it terrifys me because I feel the same way too." Keira leaned up the rest of the way and squeezed nick tighter.

Keria couldn't help but smile at the look of relief that washed over him, she heard him let out his breath. It was like she could litterly see a barrier fall down around them, one that neither knew was up until this moment.

Nick moved the stray peice of hair that had fallen into her eyes, and skillfully moved it away. " Keria it scares me too, I was married I am still married soon to be divorced but I have never felt for anyone as I feel for you. Its like I just can't explain it. Im not ready to give up on us yet, Im not ready my hearts not ready."

nick sat up as he felt Kerias legs move from out beneath him and around him, he watched as she tried to process everything. She sat up clinging the sheet tight around her. As if it was the last part of herself she could cover up, cause her heart was no longer in its rightful place it was already in her, just waiting for nick to capture it.

nick noticed her pull away from him "What are you so terrified about?" Nick asked as he watched her, she looked she just seen a ghost, and that ghost was nick he was no longer invisible to her.

"I, I, Umm..Ahh God Nick so many things, Im afraid to give you my heart, Im afraid of you not being over your ex wife/current wife. Im afraid you are going to hurt me even though you say you wont. Love hurts Im not ready to go there, my Brain isn't ready to go through this nick. Im afraid because I dont have a choice of feeling you because you have gotten to me. Do you have any idea how far I want to run away right now. I dont deal well with my feelings and trying to put them in order. I have been hurt far to many times. I dont trust easily when your on tour with those girls Im going to be jealous. I will never show it though it will eat me up inside. That will hurt you and its not fair to you. I will push you away from me, when I only want to be closer to you. Most of all I dont know what you seen in me. I Am nothing special trust me-"

Nick listened to her every word he took all of it into consideration...
He decided on a simple phrase..

"Keria none of that matters because I Love you, I know I do if its not love than It is soon to being so. I know its soon and really fast paced. I can't help how I feel! I know love sucks trust me it does. But You know I would rather love and lost. To not love at all. I would rather lose you in the end, and experience great memories with you like what makes you pissed off, what gets you so incredibly hot you melt under my touch. I want to know more about you. I want to know more about you and the tour thing, I am a very flirty guy, but know I am comming home to you. You are the one I want no matter what. I know how you feel because trust me I am the same way, im not very trustworthy of other people. I think I am more scared than you, but sometimes fear is exciting you know your heart races, you get butterflies and all that chick flick stuff." through his little speech he had to stop and gently whipe her tears away. He kissed were the stains were.

"Nick I dont know what to say?" Keria muttered and swallowed her tears.

"Say you will give me, us, a Chance." nick grabbed her hands and kissed her knuckles one by one. " please."

Keria shut her eyes and punched the bed " **** it Nick, dont make me regret this. nick I dont want to be your rebound girl."

Keria couldn't get the last Ssss sound out before nicks lips crashed onto hers.
"I'm not about to make promises and trust me you were never my rebound girl. I wanted you to be but it didn't turn out that way. So Thank you baby. Do you mind if I call you that?"

Keria Giggled and sniffled " Nick, your crazy you have been calling me baby and hun and sweetie. I havent said anything to you about it yet so why would it bother me? I never really had a guy call me a pet name before so I find it incredibly cute."

"Just Cute?" Nick asked while pouting, but giving her a sexy smirk in the process of doing so.

Keria, contemplated this for a moment until she felt nick pull her closer to her body and wrapped her legs around his. " I like being tangleg up with you." Nick whispered sexily into her ear, and rubbed his 2 day old stubble against her neck causing her to giggle.

"you know nick do that look again."

Nick laughed " What look?"

Keria rolled her eyes " The look where you pout and smirk at the same time. When you are trying to pursway me to do something for you."

Nick rolled on top of her so they had skin to skin contact and leaned down and kissed her lips and looked at her " you mean this look?"

Keria giggled " No, not that look. its more of a non cocky type of thing. right now you are extremely cocky."

"Why thank you." Nick grinned proudly.

Keria swatter his arm " No you dumbass, not that cocky."

Nick pouted "There it is." Keria screeched out in delight.

"That look is extremely what did you call it? Beachable?" Keria leaned down and kissed him deeply, letting nick explore for a little bit then rolled over off him.

"Get up nicky." nick winced at his niccame of many years.

"Please dont call me nicky or Nickolas now that this is official no calling me that, unless its during sex, got it?"

Keria couldn't help but laugh "Alright, only durring sex."

Keria was getting ready to duck...

"Alright well then get up Thor."

Nick tackled her with his skilled hands and tickeled her until she begged to stop. "You did not call me what you think you did". Nick said ouloud then brought his head down to her ear and released his grip. "Only in the bedroom cause you dont want to awaken the beast from deep within."

"Nick to much in time movies for you." Keria laughed "We are in the bedroom so I can call you thor."

"Fine since we are in the bedroom I will call you P*ssy".
Nick winked and laughed "P*ssy, i will see you later." Nick made a bad impressesion out of the movie doing the whole to hand guns things. From western movies.

Keria winced "Nick that just sounds wrong, I feel like im in a porn movie." Keria giggled at the thought.

"Id watch it." Nick said in all seriousness not even cracking a laugh.

"Yea you would, I dont think we will be making any home videos. Skanky bi*che H*es are in your past. Im not one of them.

nick got up and put on his boxers which were hanging off the edge of the bed. and saw the non-humour on her face, he wrapped his arms around her.

"Keria, babe its not like that. I just think its incredibly hot to think of us doing that and watching ourselves. Give me a little break I have been sex deprived of anything for almost 8 months now. I get hot at seeing the little mermaid." Nick joked trying to get her to smile.

"Nick its not that, I dont know how to tell you this. Its just your going to be deprived for a little bit longer."

nick looked at her to continue " If your waiting until marriage I uhh understand it will be hard for a long time. But I will get use to it.

Keria laughed " Nah I wont hold out that long I dont think I will hold out as long as I plan too but I really want too." Keria gave nick an encouraging half smile.

"so your not going to hold out until your wedding night, good thing cause I was going to call for someone to marry us right now cause you look so hot. laying there in all your nakedness. You are my beautful woman!!". Nick laughed at how cheesy he sounded then he ducked the pillow being thrown his way.

Keria blushed " No nick not until my wedding day 6 months, I want to make sure were going to last. I promised myself after my pregnancy scare and me loosing my child, and many permiscuous flings and ending up as one night stands. I didn't want that anymore the fear of being pregnant and the guy not wanting to be with me or not even knowing the father. I want to be with someone I love, so I know if I have the baby at least she/he will be based on all the good times we had. So I would know she wasnt a drunken mistake and I wouldnt have to carry that guilt around with me." Keira said so fast nick could hardly understand.

Nick smiled at her " Your everything you know that Keria. So 6 months? i will wait as long as you need too .I just want to be with you as terrifying as being with you for 6 months is going to be with no sex. I will defiantely take the consulation prize. Your heart." Nick smiled and kissed her and pulled her up.

" Get up babe. I want our last 2 days together to be, just what they need to be."

Keria couldn't help but swallow the lump in her throat "you-your leaving in 2 days?" Keria asked with such a small voice nick was suprised she was even talking."

This was the part he hated about his job, the look of hurt and disapointment that crossed over his loved ones smile. " Yea, Im sorry babe I didn't tell you, It was Brian that called because of the hurricane and My divorce We are actually going to record a few new songs. I am no longer needed in Australia. Johnny and Jive cant take the responsibilty of me being here when such tradegy has blown through here."

"Ohhh." Keria said disapointedly. "Well I guess this is goodbye."

Nick leaned over and hugged her" Keria its never goodbye, I will be calling every chance I get, i will email you. Anything babe I dont want to lose you yet." Nick said getting teary eyed.

"Nick, come here hunny. We will work through it I guess our 6 months will go by even quicker." Keria pulled him into a hug.

"Keria im sorry-"

" Nick dont apologise you live in USA and I live in Australia for a few months. This will just put our relationship to the test." Keria tried to be optimistic about the situation.

Just then Keria and nick heard a loud meowing sound, nick looked down and laughed " Keria the kids are awake."

"**** I have 5 kiddies and not even the fun of experiencing it with you, Nick I thought it was a dream the whole you taking in the kittens."

nick rubbed her back " no its not a dream babe, they are mine well ours."

"nick this is a horrible day, I found out I have 5 kids to care for, your leaving and Austraila is destroyed and to top it off I still have the hangover from hell."

Nick had to laugh " Yea I guess its not a great day, well night do you want to go to sleep?" Nick asked while rubbing her temple.

"No, I guess its time to face reality huh?"

"As long as your reality is still my reality." Nick winked.

Keria kissed him deeply " Im going to miss you so much it terrifys me."

nick smiled " Me too babe, me too."

Nick watched Keria swallow her tears, and it killed him to see that knowing he was the reason her tears were place inside her beautiful eyes, he noticed when she was excited and cought up in lust between them her eyes lit up they were a darker shade of grey. When shes happy her eyes are almost look exatly like the ocean, blue with a hint of green and grey. Right now her eyes were a very light shade of blue, causing her tears to show up even more.

"Keria please dont be sad, I can't stand to see you hurt and knowing im the reason. Im sorry but its my job-" Nick sweeped away the hair that was disturbing his view of the precious gem that came into his life.


"I know Nick, So please dont apologise." Keira thought to herself 'If only he known that she should be the one apologising if he knew the truth would he still be there for me.'

"Keria did you hear me? Earth to Keria." nick smiled.

Keria momentairly snapped out her trance, she felt so guilty she can't keep up this charade but the truth was going to kill him. Afterall she remembered a converstaion somethings

"Sorry nick I just have always been a huge space cadet, I must have been one in a past life." Keria chuckled.

Nick just smiled " Are you ready to listen now, or are you going to space out on me again?" nick joked with her, that was one thing he loved About Keria he could tell her anything and say nothing and not feel embarassed or ashamed. Nick felt like a better person when he was with her, he never wanted anything more to own her heart. Ever since he saw her it was fate to him. The chance encounter. everything. He started to belive again someone was looking out for him, and sent him his guardian angel.

"Yea give er!" Keria said motioning with her hands for him to continue.

"Well its nice to have you back, belive it or not I missed you." Nick smiled "Anyways as I was saying I think we should go out and do something I noticed you have a boat, so I was thinking since nothing is open here and the next town over im assuming didn't get hit to hard maybe we can take the boat, go out for a late dinner and drinks maybe a little bit of dancing i would love to see how you move. then we can spend our last nights together in a hotel over there, We can even get seperate beds.

Keira felt her heart Breaking even more, Nick was perfect for her, sure he wasn't perfect but he was perfect for her. She couldn't loose nick, and she never planned on it as long as her secret Never came out. She knew she didn't deserve him, but it doesn't matter she would let nick decide that.

Nick was scared when he saw her silent for a bit, he wanted to make there last 2 days together memorable. They may not be able to close in every way possible but he has been told he was good with other parts of his anatomy. He wanted it to Be Romantic and special he had special plans for her. He was going to do it right he was gonna propose. Not propose as in forever, he was going to ask her to be his girl. They just said they were going to be together, but Nick was going to make it official. He didn't care about any of the blacklash and ridducul he was going to get for falling in love, and being loved. He knew Keria was his one, and he knew she wasn't like the others.

Keria looked into her eyes " Nick that sounds perfect." Keria walked up and kissed him, really kissed him knowing after what she told him at dinner was going to be the last time she would get kissed like that by Nick Carter. Her soul mate.
when they pulled away they were breathless, heavy breathing that shouldn't happen after a simple kiss. Keria looked away from nicks quizzical stare. She knew he felt what she did, she just hoped he couldn't trace her guilty lips.

"I just want to get freshened up." Keria stated swallowing back her tears, the stinging in her eyes was to much to handle, the passion in there kiss sent her on overload. Kerias breath started get shaky as the last of her statement came out conjumbled.

Nick noticed her tears and pulled her back to him. "Keria I Promise, Im not going anywhere."

"Nick if you want to take a shower the key is in my desk drawer to the bathroom downstairs they look it cause they dont want there kids going in. Australia just recently had a baby drown in a toilet so now they lock the bathroom."

" wow thats horrible i can understand that maybe I should do that when A.J has his little one. Thank you keria, I mean what I said Im not going anywhere."

Nick smiled and leaned up and was to kiss her again and she pulled away. Knowing her emotions can be read in a kiss. You can tell if someone is really into you, or its just lust. When Nick kisses her, she knows exactly how he feels by how he holds her. Body language can tell you about any situation. If nick knew anything about body language he would know this was their good-bye."

"Keria what are you afraid of?" Nick asked " I thought we were going to try this."

"Nick, Just go look for the key. once you find it! You will find the key to my heart."

"Keira, okay but can I atleast have a kiss to tide me over, until your done in the shower."

Keira shook her head "Im sorry, I can't do this it wasn't suposed to happen I wasn't suposed to fall in love with you. It just wasn't suposed to happen."

"Keria-" Nick heard keria slide down the back of the door and her sobs became appearant to him. He didn't know what was going on. Her moods were so up and down. Nick automatically started thinking the worse. after a little bit of sitting on the other side of the door he heard the shower start running. So he figured he would get up and go have a shower and hopefully Keria would be willing to talk when she got out.

Nick, got the key and next to it there was an envelope that said 'Assingnment: Get Carter.' Nick didn't want to open it but the envelope intrigued him, afterall it was his last name. Nick decided against it he went to have a shower, after all it was her privacy its not like it was adressed to him.

When nick came back he saw Keria sitting on the bed with her head in her hands sobbing un-controllably. When Nick came back from his shower, all dressed and refreshed he cleared his throat. Keria couldn't read his expression.

"Nick your still here!" Keria ran up to him

"Of course im still here, I told you I wounldn't leave you. whats wrong baby girl." Nick went and sat down next to her.

Keria sat up and started pacing back and forth " you didn't read it did you?"

Keria asked with tears in her eyes...

"Read, what baby? i dont understand whats wrong?"

Keria walked over to him and handed the 'Get Carter' Envelope to him. " This Nick, Im not who you think I am, we this wasn't suposed to happen I wasn't suposed to fall in love with you. You sure as hell weren't suposed to fall in love with me. I was just suposed to..God I can't even say it Nick please just read this."

"Keria, Babe whats wrong." nick put the envelope down and tried to wrap his arm around her " Nick, just read this please just read this."

Nick slowly opened up the envelope and saw various pictures of him in sightings around Austraila, him buying ciggerettes and him stumbling home from various clubs and bars. Him comming out of a liquer store holding a 40 of Jack Daniels, and him sitting on the curb drinking it straight.

Keria watched as his face expression changed from a smile, to a confused look, to a frown. She saw the fire in his eyes burn. Then when he turned the page he couldn't believe what he saw. An Expose on him and all the intimate stuff him and Keria talked about, to the way he kisses, to what turns him on. He read the full expose on His wife/ex-wife and his battle with drugs that wasn't out in the public. nobody knew about it they guys managed to keep it all hush, hush. To the way he treated his wife, and how he was in a loveless marriage. Everything personal and intimate was written on paper. In a long essay.

Nick looked at her " How could you? I ****ing Trusted you with my life, I told you things about me and the guys, I Told you secrets and its all in here. How could you do this to me." The first part of his statment was cold and loud, the last part of his rant was quiet.

Keria had tears streaming down her face " Nick, please you dont understand."

"Keria I understand perfectly well, your nothing but a two faced *****. I dont care if I ever see you again. To think I actually fell in love with you your pathetic Keria, wait thats not even your real name " Breanna Smith."

"I know everything I told you about me and my family is true, How I feel about you is true too. Im so sorry nick I never meant to hurt you."

"Yea well in the end it all hurts just the same doesn't it."
nick Turned to walk away.

"Nick, Please you dont understand I had no choice." Keria could barely speak through her tears.

"Cut the ****ing crying bull****, Do you not Understand. Im in love with a ****ing fictional character. I dont know you Breanna Smith, dont you understand I dont know you, I dont like you. and I sure as hell dont love you. Dont call me, dont even ****ing contact me." Nick screamed and slammed the door.

Leaving Breanna smith balled up on the floor, Crying her eyes out "you said you would never leave me nick."

She walked home after a night out with her boys, her friends of lonliness. The people she welcomed most on nights like these. The one where she reminices about her life, her lies and her decphit. All the wrong she has done in her life, and barely ever thinks of the actual good she does. To help other people, She barely ever helps herself. For the most part of the night she talked to her Friend Jack, and The captian Morgon. She even spent a little time talking to Keith, Bud, and Labbat blue. She tried to find guidance within them all she found was numbness. An emotion she was prone too until she got assigned to Nicholas Gene Carter. The Man that turned her life upside down. More so than it already was. Her lies caused her pain, and that pain caused her to push away the one person who gets her as a whole. Therefore her story, the Truth will never be told and Nick will go on thinking she is this horrible person. Named Breanna Smith. Well she is a horrible person but shes not Breanna smith she is Keria Marie.

Keria laughed as she walked into the house, when she slipped on a pair of shoes and she jumped when she saw a hand extend to help her out.

Keria gasped at the shadowy figure "Nick what are you doing here?" Keria asked through slurred words.

Nick helped her up and wiped the sleep out of his eyes seeing as it was 4:00 am. " What do you mean what Am I doing here? I ****ing live here. I should be asking you what in the **** your here. If you want more for your little expose im not talking. Now leave my house Before I get Frank on your ***. I dont want to hear you Or see you again. I thought I Made that clear." Nick shouted through clenched teeth he couldn't belive this girl. most of all he couldn't belive how much he still loved her. He couldn't deny his heart skip that little beat when he saw her at his door.

Keria went to stand up and fell back down again, this time tripping over her own feet. "nick this is my house, I just left the door open."

Nick was getting mad " Keria, this is my house I had to let Out your freaking dog to take a leak, so I left my door unlocked. What are you doing here?"

Keria started thinking " Ohh, Uhh im sorry I was just thinking when I was walking. I was thinking about you and I just walked and I ended up here im sorry nick." keria said with a slurred speech, and many breaths through her confused tears.

Nick could barely make out anything she just said but listened really carefully, he walked closer to her and could tell you everything she drank that night, he could also see dried up puke on her shirt. He couldn't help but feel bad for her.

"Look Keria, i mean Breanna just sit here and I'll call you taxi and send you home." nick said as he walked over and picked up the phone.

nick walked back " Great, theres no Taxi company open this late or early."

nick walked back into his livingroom to find her passed out on his couch...
This time there was a difference he didn't take care of her or change her he just shut out his light and walked to his room and locked his door.

nick couldn't sleep at all so he got up and went to the living room and watched her sleep. all he thought about was The mytery lady fast passed out on his couch. He couldn't sleep cause he was worried about her. After everything she did he was worried about her. He also couldn't sleep cause he wanted answers, why? did she do what she did. He wanted to know if he really was in love with a fictional character. Somehow he knew he was in love with someone very real. He was to hurt and scared to open up to that person. He wanted answers but somehow he already knew he didn't want to know the answers. knowing the truth would bring more heartache to him.

Keria woke up cold, and to someone licking her feet. "Ouch **** it, Keria moaned in pain as she sat up, and felt her head still spinning. " Ohh, god someone kill me." Keria moaned as she sat up fully, and jumped when she heard Nicks voice

" Here, take these." Nick handed her to the two pills, emotionally. Keria looked into his eyes and saw nothing but hurt, she didn't see the trade mark grin. she saw nothing and that scared her more than anything. she wanted to see anger but she saw nothing but hurt, tired eyes, drawn out eyes.

"Thanks." Keria said as she took the pills out of his hand and the glass of water out of his other. She offered him the best smile she could, but she came up with nothing.

"I thought you didn't like drinking." Nick asked as he towered over her.

"Yea, well I dont like it, but I do it it helps at making me numb." Keria said laughing at herself, how stupid she was.

Nick shook his head " You can escort yourself out." Nick laughed "**** I really thought you were diffrent too."

Keria sat up best she could " Nick please just let me explain." She went to stand up and got dizzy again.

"who ever the hell you are, theres nothing you can say." Nick got up and helped Keria up walked her to the door. "ill have frank come over to take the kittens, and take your dog." Nick said handing nickers over to her.

"Look you dont understand nick."

"I dont understand, I understand you used me, not just me but my heart, mind, body, hell maybe even my soul. I you lied to me, hell I dont even know your name." Nick shook his head incrediously. " Tell me Im wrong, call me a lier." Nick walked over to her challenging her.

Keria had tears in her eyes "your wrong Nick, my name is Keria Maire and yes I used you, well it started out that way. Nick that was the expose I written about you. It was suposed to be handed in on Thursday, 6 days ago. I didn't hand it in. My reporter name is suposed to be Breanna smith, which is the name I was suposed to to you but I didn't. I gave you my real name which is Keria Marie. I'm not an Aupair, I was an Aupair but I decdied to stay here in Austraila to get a job. I was normally a writer for the paper just little things. Then one day my boss said I was doing a fantastic job and wanted to give me an assignment. My assignment was to get dirt on you plain and simple.

nick sighed " Keria, it doesn't matter. Whats done is done and I just want you to leave."

"Nick please just me let me finish, then I will leave." Keria looked straight into his eyes.

Nick silence urged her to continue " Okay, well the first minute The first night I met you it was all a set up. I guess you could call it a lie, but you know what everything I told you about myself personally was true it just wasn't with the timeline I gave you. Anyways durring those 3 days I started to write the article. Thats why I couldn't kiss you, it wasn't right. on the 4 day however I didn't turn in the article and got fired. It wasn't right, I never wanted to be paparazi nick I want to be a writer. I dont agree with the paparazi how they twist the truth and make up lies, or tell someones secrets. Its not right and its wrong. I wrote the article yes, but I never handed it in. I couldn't do that to you, Nick I never thought I would fall in love with you but I did. Im sorry I hurt you, I tired to tell you so many times but I couldn't cause I didn't want to lose you. I guess karma came around and bit me in the ***.

nick lightly laughed at the last part " Yea I Guess, Keria I dont know what to do with this."

Keria smiled " I dont expect you too, I just wanted to tell you the truth im sorry I hurt you. Its been nice knowing you nick carter."

Keria said as she was walking out the door with nickers in her arms.
"Keria, wait a minute How do I know this is the truth?" Nick asked as he grabbed her arm.

Keria bore a hole deep into his soul " I guess you dont, you will just have to trust me."

"I dont trust you." Nick stared back into her eyes.

"I know you dont, well i guess this is bye." she walked up and gave him a light kiss on the cheek, and left the inprint of a tear a stain on his cheek.
Keria walked out the door and shut it lightly.

Nick leaned against the door and counted to three he didn't know if this was the right decesion or the wrong one. All he knew was he loved her.

"Wait a Minute Keria, I said I dont trust you. It doesn't mean i still dont love you. We can work on the trust thing. The truth always comes out anyways." Nick said as he walked over to her and grabbed her hand.

"nick, I love you too so much, which is scary cause we havent known eachother for a very long time."

"I guess the heart just wants what it wants. Now lets start over hi im nick carter. Hi Im Keria Marie and I am un-employed but starting school next week to become a teacher."

Nick smiled " Well its a pleasure to meet you." Nick couldn't help but kiss her hand.

Nick couldn't help but kiss her hand, He wanted to show her that he forgives her and wants to be with her, but everything isn't great, he still couldn't belive that she did that to him. Nick couldn't help but be greatful though if she was never in that line of work, he probably never would of met her. The Women that brings out so many emotions within him. Never once has he had his heart broken by a women, and wan't that very same women to mend him back together. Nick took her hand and led her inside his room, and they sat on the couch. Not really saying much at all to eachother mostly because either of them knew what to say to eachother.


Nick watched the blood rush to her cheeks, and they turned a light shade of pink. "Dido." Keria smiled up to him, she couldn't belive the man before her eyes the one she thought she lost was to still with her, talking to her, kissing her hand.

"Keria, dont think everything is great between us because its not, I really don't know how we are going to be together if I dont trust you." Nick laughed lightly at the situatuon. "All I know is I didn't want to see you walk out the door, without giving us a fair chance."

Nick grabbed kerias hand and played with the ring she always wore, it wasn't the nicest ring he has ever saw but it was definately the most elegant.

"Nick, I know everything isn't great between us, and that kills me because up until yesterday everything was the best. I honestly couldn't ask for more, I know it was me who ruined everything and that hurts cause I know theres nothing for me to do to fix it. I will just have to wait for you to someday trust me again." Keria sighed and looked over at the painting of the ocean, it the picture instantly calmed her beating heart.

Nick took his hand and tilted her chin "It doesn't matter as much as it matters, It doesn't. Lets just start over as I said."

Keria got up and started pacing " Nick, It does matter, more than you know it matters!! everytime we have a problem in our realtionship whatever we are. I dont want to just sweep it under the rug and pretend it didn't happen." Keria sighed.

Nick got up "Well what do you propose we do then?" Nick asked in scarcastic tone.

Keria was slowly counting to 5, and then counting backwards " Nick dont be an ***."

Nick walked over to her "Dont you dare start accusing me of being an ***, I never once lied to you. I was always honest and upfront with you about everything. Im over these bull**** realtionships." Nick went into his bedroom and came out with a smoke and a lighter, and inhaled sharply as the familair senstation calmed him.

"So now this is a bull**** relationship?" Keria asked tapping her foot inpatiently.

"I didn't say that!!!" Nick defended himself.

"Then what in the hell are you trying to say." Keria yelled a little louder.

Nick sighed " Keria I really just want to forget about it, and move on with you."

"No, Nick I want to know what you meant by the comments you made."
Keria looked right into his eyes. "Why in the hell do you want to sweep it under the rug."

Nick took another drag of his smoke before budding it out and droping it, in the near by ashtray. " Look, Keria I guess I mean its your fault were in this situation you, if you never lied to me this never would of happened."

"Look nick, I know that okay I said im sorry what more do you want me to say, Im not going to sit here and grovell at your feet for forgivness. and for you still be with me, cause if this is what its going to be like. I dont want any part of it. I made a mistake, can you look me square in the eye and tell me you have never made a mistake?"

Nick shook his head slowly

"I didn't think so, just so you know. I lost my job over you Nick. I gave up a pretty good assignment for you. I want to be a writer, and its not good on resume that I got fired, it doens't matter to them if it was in moral or not. you for fired, you didn't meet their orders plain and simple. I gave up my dream to be with you. I want to be a writer but thats nearly impossible to do with no good references. Nick I was good at my job. I gave it up to be with you, cause I didn't want to hurt you like that. Cause I knew we had something, i felt a connection with you Nick." Keria looked into his eyes and grabbed his hand "And I still do."

Nick didn't know what to say, he was so angry at her but he never thought about it like that before, her giving up her dream for him. He never once thought of the repurcussions of her actions.

"Im sorry Keria." Nick looked into her eyes and squeezed his hand " I know we should talk this through, but I honestly dont know what to say. Cause honestly nothing is going to make either of feel any bettter. All I can say I guess is, Thank you for finally telling me the truth, I love you for the sacrifices you made to make me feel better, but I just wish you would of told me the truth the day you quit."

Keria sighed " I love you too, but can you honestly say your reaction would of been different if i told you sooner, if possible it could of been worse Nick. I dont really know if thats possible though because being called a Two faced *****, and Whore, wasn't on nicks Greated hit list." Keria opened her heart in all honesty.

"I'm sorry Baby." Nick leaned down and kissed her lightly and pulled away " Im sorry I didn't mean it, well I did mean it but I dont anymore. how about we go out and go mini golfing."

Keria laughed " Mini golfing?" Keria shook her head " after one kiss and mini-golfing you think everything is going to be better?"

Nick kissed her forehead " No, not all better but we can work on it, lets just take things to steps at a time. Mini golfing is a great stress reliever." nick smiled.

Keria laughed "Nick you are the most moody person I know, you know that. One minute your telling me you hate me, the next you say you love me, the next you say were a Quote: bull**** relationship. The next minute you say you love me again, then god nick you make me dizzy." Keria shook her head.

"See MiniGolfing would do you good, please Baby." nick pouted.

"Nick I dont know, we still have stuff to talk about." Keria smiled

Nick put his hands in the air in defeat " You know what, I really dont know what there is left to talk about. We talk about it on the way there, were walking." Nick grabbed her hand, and locked his door on the way out.

Nick smiled at her " Now Talk, you said you want to talk about it so talk."

Keria laughed " Nick your crazy."

"Yea but you love me anyways, because of it." Nick wiggled his eyebrows.

"Yea one of the many actually." Keria couldn't help but pinch his but.

Nick laughed " What is so special about my A S S." spelling it out in letter formation.

"Thats classifed information, cant tell you that." Keria winked

"Why not?" Nick asked " Keria, do you have any idea how freaky it is to go on the internet, and see pictures of your *** and other regions of my body posted on the internet?" Nick asked with a scared look on his face.

Keria laughed " **** Nick, you should give me addy i would love to see that."

Nick raised his eyebrows " Really, that can be arranged you know, Never fear."

"Nick, that wasn't one of my fears ever actually, my fear was losing you."
Keria gave him a half smile and felt the tears spring to her eyes.

Nick took her hand and led her to a secluded bench in the park they just passed by, on there way to a Glow put. "I know I heard you when you said but you said you would never leave me." Keria looked up into his eyes, and Nick whiped away her tears like he has done so many times before.

"Keira I dont want to ever leave you that upset again, I dont want to leave you alone, or cut you out of my life. So please dont give me any reasons too. I dont want to put up with anymore bull**** relationships I guess thats what I meant. Im sick of putting time in and getting jack in return. I guess I just want to be treated as others want too. I want to love you, and for you to love me back with no hidden agendas. I dont want to have to worry about who your screwing behind my back, If I dont call you at a certain time I dont want you to freak. I just want to have a Somewhat normal relationship where people are together, fight, make up and just fall in love with eachothers quirks and faults." Nick said in all one big breath.
Keria looked into his eyes, and pulled him up off the bench " I cant make empty promises but I promise you this I have secrets, I would have to have them to be a human. I promise none of them have to do with you, or us." Keria looked into his eyes and felt nick hold her tighter.

"I can deal with that, as long as we tell eachother one each week. Secrets aren't always good burried, they always arise and haunt us in our sleep." Nick smiled and moved a peice of hair that was falling into her eyes."

Keria smiled " Deal." Keria kissed his cheek.

"Come on now, I think you can to better than that." Nick joked, and leaned in against her lips.

Keria leaned up and kissed him passionately in the street...
when they pulled away they were both breathless. Keria nick took short laboured breaths trying to regain there compusure. Numerous people walked by and told them to get a room, to ewwws, and when do you think they will come up for air, as onlookers watched them.

"Much Better" Nick smiled and his eyes twinkled as he did so. " So what do you say we take this 2 steps at a time." Nick squeezed her hand.

"Im up for that, I need to tell you something though." Keria watched his eyes for some sort of reaction and found nothing but silence. She noticed Nick was good at the silent treatment.

"Well, I guess you need to know is, I may not being doing the assignment, but trust me melvin has other people out there. So right now we are probably being watched."

Nick smiled "Dont worry about it, Im used to it! Not looking forward to Kevin and the rest of the boys reading the headlines though."

Nick sighed " I can only imagaine, I guess while we are saying things I should tell you Sunday I am leaving to go back home to the states. do work on our album a little we are going to record a few new songs, added to the old un-released songs."

"Well thats good nick." Kera tried her best to smile. " Im going to miss you."

"Why don't you move to the states, you might find it easier to get a job there, rather than here." Nick stated as they walked hand in hand, jumping the puddles of water, laying on the ground.

"Mmm, yea but you know that house I took you too, that was my friend Andreas. Im house sitting for her while her and her husband are on a 2 month honeymoon in the Bahammas. They are comming back soon, so I am living there until, I do something productive with my life." Keria smiled.

Nick smiled " Really, your friend has a very luxurious home!"

Keria couldn't help bit giggle " Yea her and her husband have pretty good jobs, and they won the lottery about 9 months ago, on the lottery ticket i put in there card. So that definately helps."

Nick chuckled " Wow, bet you were kicking yourself on that one."

"You know, Not really they were married and in love and Deserved it just as much as anyone else out there."

Nick wrapped his arm around her tighter " Your amazing you know that?" Nick kissed the tip of her nose.

"Well I will soon, if you keep on telling me all the time. I might start to belive it soon." Keria smiled " You know your pretty **** good yourself."

Nick smiled " I try! I just have one question though if those weren't kids toys than whos are they?"

Keria laughed " Nickers, Nickers is spoiled rotten most of them are his, and Maddison's Andrea and her Husband mark have a little 3 year old. They were 2 years older than me. Its funny how there realtionshipm started, it started as a one night stand. That resulted in Andie getting pregnant, which resulted in them falling in love. They are the best friends in the world, I could ever ask for. Im sure you will meet them someday." Keria smiled.

"Im pretty sure I will too." Nick smiled "So are you ready to play some minigolf?"

"you know Nick im not so stressed anymore." Keria said in a playfull tone.

"me either wanna make out?" Nick joked.

Keria laughed a little " You know Sorta." Keria giggled

"Well I know the perfect place" Nick smiled and led her away from the glow put door, and off to a different direction. Nick and Keria walking step by step together slowly. Taking every stride one step at a time.

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Keria and Nick walked side by side, as the afternoon sun was finally reaching the estimated high of the day. Kerias Hair was quickly drying from the quick shower she had at Nicks, before they went out on the search for mini golf. Nick walked with his arm around her and his hand in her back pocket, as Keria did the same to him. Nick and Keria Quickly forgot about making out as the sun was starting to bead down on them hard. Keira saw an Ice cream stand and practically knocked the man down. Although they didn't make out, Nick stopped and pinned her against the few trees. Claiming there were reporters and he wanted to hide but the only way to silence her was to kiss her. Not that Keira Minded, At first Keria acutally thought there were reporters until Nick started pinning her against every 3rd or 4th Tree along there walk. She started to clue in to his little game.

"Come one Keira their following us." Nick grabbed her hand, and whined when she didn't go behind the Tree.

"Nick are you Aware your Whining?" Keria Giggled and kissed his nose.

Nick groaned, Keria then moved her head to his ear " You know if you want to kiss me, you dont have to pull me behind a Tree. You can do it just like this. Keira stood up on her tippy toes and kissed him long and hard and quick.


Nick pulled away breathless and whispered huskily " What was that for?"

Keira grabbed his hand and interlaced there fingers " Just to let you know I care." she winked " Ohh, and for the Ice Cream."

Just as Nick leaned in to kiss her there was a bright flash, just as quick as it blinded them. Nick grabbed her hand and started Running after he seen the sea of Reporters.

Nick looked at Keria Accusingly, then seen the shock look on her face and the hurt in her eyes, when she saw Nick Accusing her with her eyes. He knew it wasn't her Fault and this is what Keria was talking about.

Nick pulled her behind a tree, and was bent over trying to catch his breath.
and noticed Keria in the same position but peeking behind the tree. "okay, I think we lost them, **** now I know why they made me take a Running class."

Nick shook his head at her " They make reporters take a Running class."

Keria laughed " Yea I made out with the guy that does them, just so I didn't have to take the class. He told my boss I took it, The way I see it is, if they are gonna run away from me im not going to chase them." Keria smiled.

Nick said in between breaths " Keria, Naughty Girl." Nick then broke out into a song started singing peices of Beyonces song Naughty Girl.

Keria laughed her *** off " Nick do you have any idea how gay you sound right now."

Nick smiled "That was the whole point, so are you sure there gone?"

"Not completely but I dont see them anymore, i never understand why you people run away. They are going to say something like "Nick Carter Ran Away with Girl. While on Vacation is Austrailia. Is he running away so his wife Issabell doesn't find out?? Read more to find out."

Nick never looked at it that way before " You know I Think its going to be good to have a Girlfriend that is Ex. Paparazzi. That way you will know all the tricks.

"Nick I never wanted to be paparazzi, trust me I want to be a writer I have written a few stories and stuff. I just really enjoy writing, you take yourself to another place even if just for a little while, you get to escape reality." Keria smiled.

Nick smiled at her " I know, I was thinking you shouldn't give up on your dreams Ker, To get to what you want to do, you should most definately do what ever it takes. Even if it means taking jobs you dont quite like and agree with." Nick took her hand " Im sorry you had to choose,"

Keria smiled " Ker, I like it. No one has ever called me Ker before i used to get called ria. Which is nothing like my name at all. I like it im gonna call you uhhh, your name is already really short I could call you nic, but nick and nic sound a like. I will call you Babe."

Nick smiled " Your crazy Ker, I can do babe, you can call me anything you want excpet thor, that just creeps me out a little. So are you ignoring what i said about your career choice, or what." Nick tapped her nose, and kissed it afterwards.

"Not purposely, I just dont know what to say to that. It was an easy choice choosing between you and and my career. I didn't like my job Nick, I didn't want to be paparazi I just wanted to be a writer. Its just the fact that me qutting isn't going to look good on a resume no matter what the situation was"

Keria smiled at the man before her and nick pulled her down so she was resting between his legs and leaned aganist him " How did I get so lucky to have you in my life."

Nick squeezed her tighter " Everything happens for a reason."

Keria smiled " I guess so, so since we already did the making out part what are we heading too after our rest behind the tree."

"I want to show you something, who said we cant make out again.?" nick raised his eyebrow.

"Well we can, im kind of intrigued at where we are going though, besides making out in public places when your hiding from the "others" isn't really the best choice. Besides the type of making out I want to do is behind closed doors." Keria winked.

"I can find us a closed door, screw what i want to show you." Nick whispered sexily into her ear and nipped it slightly, causing Keria to elict a light barely audible moan.

Keira jumped up " Uh-uh sexy, thats just going to have to wait." Keira put her hand out for nick to grab onto, and he moaned in protest.

"Ohh, get up you big baby." nick rolled his eyes and in protest and he whined " But I was comfy." He pouted.

Keria couldn't help but give him a little kiss, when they broke away Keria started laughing once she looked at his head " Ohh, my god Nick eww thats nasty." She backed away form him

"Whats nasty, I never heard you say that after you kissed me." Nick said with a confused expression on his face, his face was all scruched up face, and two raised eyebrows and lightly pouted lips.

Keria came closer to him " No nick the Kiss was wonderful like always. But The bird **** on your head is pretty Nasty."

Nick cringed " What the F*uck" he cursed "Thats what i felt in my hair, i thought it might of been your fingers. " **** it, it feels so gross, thank god my hair isn't shaved anymore, or else it would of dripped down my face."

"Okay nick, Yuck! I dont need to think about that right now. Here ware my hat."

"im not wearing your hat its pink" Nick whined.

"Ohh, nick according to Brian Real men wear pink." Keria rolled her eyes trying to put her hat on top of his head.


"Brian isn't a real Man his wife just shops for him. Even he doesn't agree real men wear pink." Nick argued,

"Fine whatever Nick, if you want people to see you with bird poop, on your head go right ahead, but I think I would rather where a pink ball cap."

Nick glared at her " At least its not one of those blossom hats, nick pouted. " i am never sitting under a tree ever again."

"Lets go Whiny." Keria smiled and interlocked her fingers with his. " Nick you look so cute, pink is definately your color." Keria joked causing her to get glared at and pinched on her side.

Keria gasped " Nick did you just pinch me?" Keira pinched him back a little harder in the ***. "Owwe, **** it babe that hurt."

"Thats what you get for pinching me." Keira giggled.

"you think its funny" Nick pinched her again but this time he pinched her boob.

"Nick Stop." Keria glared at him, nick stuck his tounge out at her " You started it."

"No, I didn't" Keira shook her head at him " Yes you did you were making fun of me."

Keria laughed " What are you 5?" Nick stuck his tounge out at her again.

"nick dont stick it out, unless you plan on putting it to good use." Keria winked

"maybe, maybe not." Nick held her a little closer

"So where are we going anyways?" Keria asked again.

"A suprise." nick simply said back

"Nick are we almost there we have been walking forever." Keria said the heat was finally starting to get to her.

Nick laughed and bent down.. Keira looked at him funny " Nick what in the hell are you doing?" Nick just abruptly stopped on a busy walkway, with seas of people taking pictures, once they realised it was a backstreet boy. "hop on." Nick said still crunched down.

"Hop on?" Keria asked incrediously " Nick your crazy". Keria said shaking her head.

Nick laughed " Obviously, And your wilting away so hop on and we will get you some water." Keria hopped on and nick pretended to fall to the ground when she jumped on. " **** Girl your heavy." Nick joked.

"Ohh my god im sorry, baby I didn't mean to hurt you." keria said trying to get off of him, so she didn't cause any further damage.

"I was joking Ker, Realx I got you and you didn't hurt me your acutally a lot lighter than Brian."

"Nick I dont even want to know." Keria said shaking her head.

"Not like that, just for shows and stuff we goof around." Nick smiled the happiness in his voice at that moment caused Keria to sigh contently " Nick are you sure im not hurting you?"

"Postive, now relax." Nick said concentrating on not dropping her and getting to their destination.

Keria was starting to finally get comfortable on him Nick grabbed her ankle and it startled her " Ker, People are looking at me funny, must be the pink hat." Keria couldn't see his face for a fact, but she knew it was his whiny face. Which Keria just wanted to kiss all over.

Keria massaged his shoulders lightly " Nick its not cause your wearing pink, its probably because your a backstreet boy and giving her a piggy back through the busiest section in Australia.

"Well I think its the pink, Damm Baby I think you definately could get yourself a career as a Massuesse, your great with your hands. I will hire you as my personal one. I dont want to share those hands." Nick reached around and held onto her with one hand and grabbed her hand and kissed it.

Keria kissed his neck lightly, just a quick peck "Yea maybe so, but then I couldn't be your girlfriend. Cause we would have to have a professional relationship or I would lose my lisense."

Nick kissed her hand once more, and put his hand back to its original places around Kerias waist and seure her better. "Ohh come on Keria it would be the scandal of the year. Us getting it on, you massaging me and following me life couldn't get any better." Nick joked but he was half serious.

"Babe your serious arent you?" Keria wrapped one of her arms around his neck, and the other one around his stomach.

"Only half, I just dont want to leave you, us just when things are getting good. Im truly in love for the first time, I have never felt this strongly about anyone. I have to leave you, to go to my job. I just want you with me. I hate long distance relationships, relationships are hard enough, but then you add this distance and it makes it 100 times harder." Nick sighed " I just want us to work."

Keria squeezed him a little tighter " Well we will just have to work harder to make it work, but I can't go with you babe. I have commitments here, and you have commitments back in the states." Keria sighed

"I know that, we will make it work, Well were here babe hop down."

Nick backed up against a picnic table, and keria climbed down off his back and hoped down onto the picnic table only to have it collapse. nick looked around " I didn't do it."

Keria laughed hysterically " Wow, they dont make picnic tables like they used too." Keria said thinking back to the times, she made out on them when she was growing up.

Nick smirked " What you thinking about?"

"My past". Keria smiled and grabbed his hand, so are you going to tell me why we are at the ocean?"

nick grabbed her tight and pulled her close to him " I love you Ker."

He leaned down and gave her the most gentle Kiss " I love you too, Babe"

"Well lets go and I'll show you." Nick grabbed her hand and took her to a boat, not after talking to a security guy and paying him for the damaged pic-nic table. and paying the man for the boat rental.

"So do you know what were doing now?" Nick asked after he grabbed her hand for her to step up onto the Yacht.

"Uhh, no not really im assuming we are going for a boat ride."

Nick wrapped his arms around her from behind and kissed her neck softly causing all the hair on the back of her neck to stand up, giving her goosebumps all over her body.

"not exactly, we are going to face your fears."

"Were going to face my fears, Nick what fears are you talking about?" Keria asked, as nick watched The Fear creep into her, and he watched all of her features change. I promise im not going to let anything happen to you."

"I'll be right back I have to get the stuff." Nick left and The cool ocean breeze hitting her, felt her to feel even cooler now. Nick left and Keria was rubbing her arms to stop the goosebumps from sneaking up on her.

Keria turned around when she felt Nicks Presence behind her she saw what was in Nicks Hands. "Na, Na, Nnnn No." Keria stuttered " Nick, Please tell me were not doing this."

"I Cant do that, Me and my Girlfriend promised not to lie to eachother" Nick looked at her innocently. " Please baby, once you see whats underneath you wont be scared any more."

"Nick i'll go swimming with you, but This is crazy I dont even know how to scuba dive."

"Ill teach you." Nick beemed proudly Keria couldn't help but smile at him "Keria come on dont pout, you will be fine."

Keria sighed okay If I agree, and im not saying I do but if I do how are you going to teach me. "Im liscensed to teach ker, I can teach you! You are looking at a certified scubadiving teacher / Backstreet boy." Nick beemed happily at his achievements.

Keria sighed and rolled her eyes " Yea, you are a jack of all trades. Nick I dont know If I can do this." Keria tapped her foot worriedly looking over the side of the boat.

"Please Baby, you will see the other side of things. I dont want you being afraid of something, you have no idea the beauty of."

Please nick I have been to sea world in Orlando, I dont need to see what lies beneath the exterior of the water. nick went over and hugged her " Please, pretty please. I know you will love it."

Keria Gave in " Fine, **** it Nick but If i get eaten by a shark or a whale I will be sure to haunt you in your sleep, or anytime I want." I will pants you in front of a bunch of screaming girls that want a peice of Thor.

Nick laughed and picked her up and spun her sround " I promise you wont regret this."

"I better not, well Mr. Carter where do we start?" Keria shurgged her shoulder and took a deep breath.

"well first you breath babe?" Nick smiled at her and continued his lesson comming over to kiss her every now and again, saying thank you over, over again.

Seeing the excitement on Nicks face, seeing how important it was to him. That she did this with him, she wondered why it was so special to him, in a few mintutes she was sure to find out.

Durring the time she was watching nick she found a new respect for him, she found herself paying very close attention, she found her heart falling deeper and deeper into the palms of Nick carter, she found herself falling even more in love with him. She just hoped they were strong enough, to stay together living worlds appart.

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durring the whole time Nick was teaching Keria All the fundementals of Scuba diving the differennce between doing it and doing it safely. He couldn't help but fall deeper for her, the way she asked him for a peice of paper and and a pencil to write notes. Right down to the way, She furrowerd her eyebrows in confusion to the the way she licked her lips and tossed her hair from side to side. He couldn't help himself but to go over between practice sections and give her a series of quick kisses. Only to have her giggle, a little and lick her lips again and pushing Nick away. Nick figured Keria was going to be Natural she caught on so quickly to what he was saying.

Nick couldn't help but laugh when he made her do something that wasn't exactly something you needed to know. He made her lay on the boat and pretend she was swimming, she gave him a weird look and did it anyway. Nick couldn't help but watch the movement of her hips, when he told her to kick, right down to her freestyle swim, eveytime she stretched her arms it caused her shirt to rise a bit, just so he could get a quick look at her mid-drift. Nick caught glimpse of something he has never noticed before, he sun caught a glare of of her Emerald body jewerly. Nick found himself getting increasingly hot. The way she stretched her arms caused her stomach to tighten, and you could see the start of some well defined abbs. Most of all he watched as her cleavege became more noticeable. nick had to get her up, before drowned himself in a puddle of his own drool. Nick always knew Keria was beautiful inside and out, but now his heart was racing just a little more than usual. Its like his body, and mind just connected and he saw just how special she was to him, and how much she meaned to him.

"Okay, Ker that was great! you have a great form." Nick smirked

Keria shook her head and rolled her eyes " Babe, you didn't need me to do any of that did you?" Nick could never lie to her and look her in the eyes so he looked over her shoulder and looked at the water.

"Of course you needed to do it." Nick couldn't help but laugh after he saw the look he was getting from Keria. "Okay, okay you caught me, it wasn't needed but it sure was a great view." Nick winked.

Keria laughed "Nick your insane, I must of looked funny trying to swim on a boat."

Nick laughed " Yea it was pretty comical, but trust me you have never looked beter" Nick smiled a cheeky grin " By the way, I love your belly button ring, its very sexy." nick walked over to her and traced his fingers over the patch of skin that was exposed to the afternoon sun He ran his hand along her midrift causing keria to giggle when nick rubbed his hands up and down her back and leaned in forcefully and kissed her passionately.

Nick had sat her back against a chair that is on the boat, still kissing her exploring every inch of her mouth. showing Keria how much he needed her in his heart, and just plain needed her. Keria Ran her hands over his face and pulled away with her breath sweeped up from deep within her.

"Wow, That was intense?" Keria said while she still had her forehead pressed against nicks. Nick slowly leaned down and pulled her tighter, not really meaning to but showing her exactly what it is that she does to him.

Nick nodded his head in response and kissed her forehead, then kissed her cheek, and leaned down and started kissing her neck softly, then getting more agressive. Keria was starting to lose control and she let out a soft moan when she felt Nicks hand roaming aimlessly all over her body, her knees did everything but give out when she felt Nicks kisses move up her neck and towards her ear and grabbed ahold of it with his teeth. His hot breath sending her body on over drive, causing her to get that familar feeling that she has missed. Nick sucked on her ear lightly and held her tighter

" God, Keria you have no idea how much I want you right now." Nick pulled away and pulled her closer, He stopped his assult on her ear, and brought his gaze to hers and stared at her her intently. He traced his finger from the top of her cleavage all the way down to the button on her short jean shorts.

Keria noticed her breath getting more heavy, she swallowed silently and moved the hair out of Nicks eyes. " I want you too, Just Right now isn't the right time for me, I hope you understand. I promised myself the next time I have sex its going to be real and mean something. im not saying if we were to get down and dirty right now it wouldn't mean something. Because trust me I know it would mean the world to me, just your leaving sunday and you already have my heart to take with you, I just can't give you anything else right now." Keria averted her gaze from his.

Nick, tilted Kerias chin and looked her in the eyes, and held her closer and wrapped her body in a hug. "I will wait Keria, its not about sex for me. I just sometimes get caught up and wrapped up in the moment. Besides I dont think its ethical to have a Teacher/student relationship."

Keria smiled and kissed him quickly on the lips "Thank you."

Nick turned around and grabbed the scuba dving gear for her to put on, alright Ker, are you ready to do this?" Nick walked over to her handing her the wet suit for her to place on, and a bikinni she left at his house one day that she took to the beach.

"As ready as I'll ever be." Keria smiled and started to get undressed, and was starring at Nick as he watched her every move.

Keria cleared her throat and motioned for nick to turn around " Ohh sorry" Nick quickly turned around, and Keria only caught a glimpse of his reddened cheeks.

Nick Couldn't help but smile, he wasn't even looking at Keria and already know exactly, what she looked like at that moment. Only knowing her for a short time he knew a lot about her expressions, how she acted when she was uncomfortable, to how she acted when she was in control of everything. Lately everything Keria did lately was getting to him in the best way. With every smile and curve of her lips, every soft whimper she made durring and after they kiss. Nick found himself loosing complete and utter control. Nick was losing the Growing battle between his head and his heart. With every curve of her lips, with every sway of her hips nick was losing himself in Keria, He was more drawn and intrigued in this young woman, than he has ever been before.

Nicks mind was starting to wander off into NCFantasy mode as he liked to call it, Normally there were many girls visiting Nick's fantasies, but lately there was only one woman visiting, that girl was changing right in back of him. Nick found his pulse racing as he was playing with the bracelet around his wrist, With every sheer sound of fabric hitting the decks White metal floors. Nick heard her belt hit the ground causing a loud clinking noise. Nick then heard the sound of fabric rubbing against her body, just the mear sound was making nick excited. Mostly because he knew he couldn't have her, she was naked right behind him and there was nothing he could do about it to make her stay that way.

Nick was starting to drift back to his fantasy about Keria and just getting to the good part, when a loud splashing noise interrupted his guilty pleasure.
Nick Ran to the side of the boat, and couldn't help but laugh at what he saw he saw all of Keria's clothes scattered around his feet and he saw the wet suit floating around Keria around her ankles. He saw her aimlessly tredding, to keep a float. Nick made sure to note this in nicks Personal Halmark moments book. Always to remember the good times in his life, when all he can think of is the bad.

"Ohhh, My Keria are you okay?" Nick asked between fits of surpressed laughter. "What happened?"

Keria noticed the smirk on his face and she glared at him " Nickolas Gene Carter get that smirk of your face." After Keria said that she saw Nicks smirk turn into a pout then a bigger smile. " Babe its not funny." Keria whined and stuck her bottom lip out.

Nick smiled " I know Ker, its not funny its hilarious. I mean how many times can you say i was changing standing on a railing, slipped and fell into the ocean." Nick laughed " Are you hurt?"


Kera glared and swam closer to the boat " Nick your an ***, No im not hurt."
But I uhh seemed to lose my uhh, yea umm bikinni top. Durring my happenings of your amusement."

Nick gave her a sexy smile "Oh really." Nick reached over and picked up her bathing suit top that was dangling over the railing. " You mean this." Nick asked dangling it over the side of the boat.

"Yes. now give it." Keria tried to stay as far under the water as possible so nick didn't get a nice view.

"Nuh-unh, Keria take it back! Tell me im not an ***." nick was playing with her, pretending like his feelings were hurt.

"Nick, come on your not that good of an actor! Your An *** but lucky for you you have a romantic side to you. Please Babe just give me my top, so I can get that wet suit thingy on. We can be diving down under, in down under." Keria looked around and laughed lightly at her little joke.

Nick smiled and stripped off his shirt and took of his swim shorts, that he put on when he went to get the diving equipment. He stood on the railing and took Kerias bathing suit top with him. Keria got a good frontal view and lets just say the rumours are true and leave it at that.

"Nick I can't believe you just jumped in here, naked at that." Keria said still tredding through the water, Keria laughed when she felt nick swim around her and threw her over his shoulder.

"Nick put me down." Keira stuggled against him " Please baby?" Keira gave him her most innocent look she could muster up.

"As you wish." Nick smiled wickedly and threw her 4 feet in front of him
Keria came up spitting water.

"Nick you Jerk, what if I couldn't swim." Keira glared at him and swam over and grabbed her bathingsuit top, out of his hands.

Nick rolled his eyes " Ker, dont be so mellodrmatic you know As Well as I do that you can swim, and you asked to be put down."

"Yes I asked for you to put me, down or I think my exact words were let me go." Keria tried to tie her top while tredding, but it wasn't working as sucessfull as she wanted it too. She started to go further and further under the water. Until she felt nicks warm hands run over her bare back. Nick placed kisses on her neck. He turned her around to face him, nick reached behind them and tied up her bathingsuit top. Giving her a deep kiss in the ocean water.

Nick pulled away and rubbed the bottom of her cheek with his thumb "You ready to go back on the boat now." Nick whispered

Keria held him closer " No, not yet." She mumbled against his lips. Keria leaned in and kissed him hard, she started to leave kisses all over his neck she lightly sucked and nipped. Nick had stronger legs so he was able to keep them both a float while keria was wrapped around his waist. She kissed down to his chest and traced the outline of the footprints with her tounge. Keria heard him moan. He whispered into her ear " ****, Ker do you have any idea what your doing to me?"

Nick looked at her with lustfilled eyes, "No what am I doing to you?"
Keria breathed sexily into his ear. Keira knew full well what she was doing to him and enjoying every minute of it, after all he was naked theres only so much you can hide. Her being pressed against him probably wasn't helping matters any.

Keira got off of nick before he knew what was going on...
and she swam for the ladder laughing so hard she had to stop to breath.

"Your just going to leave like that?" Nick yelled to her incrediously of the situation. " Tease" Nick yelled back.

"You know you like it, dont act like you dont." Keria winked back as she was crawling up the ladder.

"Yes but thats beside the point". nick said crawling up before her, grabbing around her waist, not trying to but he accidently untied her bathing suit bottoms. " What the hell, Nick." Keria asked shocked, nick seemed just as shocked " Wow Keria, I didn't mean. Just as Keria took the bottoms out of his hands. They heard and sometimes on the Ocean we have some celeberties from America, and it looks like thats Nick Carter from the backstreet boys. All of a sudden Nick heard them and completely forgot about being buck naked. He climbed the ladder and saw even more flashes, then out of the blue he saw a police boat pull up next to them. "Name and Boat number please sir."

Nick looked at him and keria tried not to laugh at the situation. Nick gulped "Good afternoon officer can I help you."

Nick was wishing that this police officer was Gay just this one time. " Name and Boat number please." The officer replied with not even a smile.

"Nick Carter, 57890 " Nick sighed he could see the steam comming out of Kevins ears now.

Nick tried not to laugh, he couldn't help it than out of the blue Nick had handcuffs wrapped around him. " We dont tolerate Americans comming into our country and breaking laws, we dont allow skinny dipping in these parts, and we most definately dont allow what we saw in the water. Tour groups come through here. You and your lady friend will have to come with me.

nick was getting mad " You have got to be kidding me, you can arrest us for swimming."

"No im not arresting you for swimming Mr. Carter, I am Arresting you and your lady friend for swimming naked, and being smart any more comments?"

Keria rolled her eyes " You can't Arrest us for this, theres no signs. were just 2 young kids in love."

The police officer pointed to the side of the boat Please wear swim wear when swimming, this is a public boating area, many tour groups come through. Thank you Aussie goverment

Keira then had cuffs around her aswell...Keria looked helplessly at Nick and nick just simply shurgged his shoulders.

"Uhh, can I at least call someone to pick us up when we get to the police station." Nick asked shinging his pearly whites and hopoing to god the blanket the guy put around him didn't fall off again. He could only imagaine the pictures of his nakedness being posted every where. Nicks only thought was ohh god what is kevin going to say.

"Yea you can, sorry about arresting you but its my job, and you didn't give my daughter an autograph once cause you were sick. So..." Nick glared at the officer.

"Im sorry, but i was probably sick or just had a long tiring day." nick apologised. The police officer handed nick the cell phone, and un-did his and kerias cuffs....

" Hey, Yes no im not it trouble, Yes I know I only call you when im trouble. Not that much trouble but can you come pick me and my girlfiriend up at the police station and bring cash." nick sighed. Nick held the phone away from his ear " Thanks Yesenia, your a lifesavor." Nick winced at her cursing, and he hung up.

"Nick looked at Keria " Ohh God what is Kevin going to say?"

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Keria and nick were sitting at the police station with blankets wrapped around them, nick was looking apologetically at Keria. Keria just shrugged her shoulders as they listened to the officer about all the Rules they broke. If Nick didn't learn anything today, he learned one thing. Before you Decide to get naked look for signs.

"So we are letting you two off on Bail of 500.00 each and a Warning, do it again and you will suffer the consequences be sure of that Mister, and You Miss you are a beautiful intelligent young Woman. With a lot going for you. You dont need to stoop as low as you have. Sure hes a superstar but if he doesn't love you for who you are than he doesn't love you at all. you dont need to be his whore."

Keira took a sip of the water that was passed to her earlier and she nodded and agreed with the officer, then she thought about what he said. "Wait a Minute, you have this all wrong im not Nicks Wh*ore I am his Girlfriend, and we were just having a little bit of fun."

Keira smiled for the first time to herself it felt really good calling herself that Nicks Girlfriend. It had a nice little ring about it, that made her get all mushy, and giggly and she couldn't stop smiling.

"Im sorry I am acutally trying to get my masters in physcology, im switching majors after seeing how severly messed up some people are and can get. I want to help them before they lose it." Officer Dugin replied.

"No its okay dont worry about it, and the masters thats real big. Im sure you will be great at it. I just wanted to set the record straight im not his wh*ore. thanks for the encouraging words though." keria smiled, and rubbed her thumb down his arm. She giggled slightly as she did so.

Nick saw all of this taking place before his eyes and he was getting pissed, Keria just called him her Boyfriend and shes flirting with the 40 something fat guy. Keria caught nicks glare and winked. This caused nick to pout and smirk didn't know exactly what Keria was up too. He knew one thing for sure though he found it incredibly hot, he knew this wasn't going to be good.

"So what do you think the chances are our charges can get dropped?" Keria took a cherry sucker off his desk, and popped it into her mouth sucking on it seductively. Keira pretended to knock something over on the desk, and she bent over right infont of Officer Dugin giving him a nice view of her Ample bottom. Nick watched this all take place in front of him he couldn't help himself but to giggle at the wrongness of the situation. It was like the beginning to a porn flick. He has never once seen this side of Keira and he liked it, however he didn't like the Way the obviously married Dugin guy was checking her out like she was a peice of meat or the way. He looked down her shirt. He was violating her with his eyes, only he was allowed to do that.

Nick cleared his throat so the man would at least look away for a second and whipe the drool from his Hairy beard. No such luck his hand was getting closer and closer to her @ss, and nick was getting Antsy. Nick told Keria he wasn't that Jealous of a guy, well he is and he was 2 seconds away from knocking out the Dugin perv. That was Nick's new Nic Name for him, the Dugin perv it about fit.

When keria stood up from picking something up, she winked at Dugin whispered. "So Sweetie, I can call you sweetie right?" Keira looked innocently at the old man flinching in his seat.

The man nodded " You can call me anything you want Sweetheart." Keira tried not to giggle and come out of character, she looked over at Nick and saw him clenching his fists into the creaky wooden chair. She looked at gave him an calm down look.

Nick just rolled his eyes and motioned his hands for her to continue, Keria just smirked back " So, you think Me and Nick here can get off, We were just having some fun." Keria said the last part with a bit of a orgasmic pitch." Nick just shook his head and tried not to laugh.

"Well Miss. I Think the chances you me getting you off are pretty good, but pretty boy over there, hes not my type so im not going to get him off." The Officer responded "If I thought you were a w*hore before, I most definately think you are now. I will disregard this because its not like I didn't enjoy the little show you put on. If your Boytoy over in the corner wasn't here me and you would have a little fun." Officer Dugen Replied. " I am happily married sweetheart, did you not see the ring? I think you should go back over to your boyfriend. It was fun playing your little game, very interesting to see how far one can go to get out of a ticket. You my dear seem like one of the ones that like to go all the way." Dugen smiled a cheeky smile.

"Smartass." Keira muttered " you know what Honestly dont you think its ridiculous we got arrested for swimming naked, i mean babies are born in the water. They are naked the day they are born. Im sure if you would of wrote us a ticket, and gave us a warning would of been suffice. Just Because he is Nick Carter doesn't mean he should of got arrested." Keria Ranted on, "We were just having some harmless fun with each other."

"Sweetheart, your not in America anymore. Your sure as hell aren't in Canada. I Could care less if hes a Backstreet boy or not. He is just another person that Broke a law as did you miss, now i suggest you sit down over there and stop moving those pretty little lips before you get a bigger fine and harsher sentence for arguing with an officer."

Keira rolled her eyes and Saluted him " Yes Sir!" Keria walked over to nick and slumped down in the chair she looked at Nick and caught his smirk he was holding back. "Nick, dont even."

nick looked at her innocently " I didn't say anything." He pouted towards her " So I guess your plan backfired huh?"

Keria nodded "Mmm... I didn't really have a plan to tell you the truth, I was just tryin to get the officer to touch me then I'd get mad and we would make a deal and everything would be peachy." Kera rolled her eyes. " Didn't turn out that way though." Keria laughed Then she heard a voice.

"Ohh Sweetie it never works out that way your lucky you didn't get in even more trouble, with your little plan it was hard enough getting you guys out of here. They wanted to give you jail time for that little stunt you pulled, the room was being videotaped. They have had so many young girls claim they got touched so they put in a video camera. So Your Lucky they aren't keeping you for trying to seduce an officer." The young lady responded.

She then walked over and smacked nick in the back of the head "Nick, Why is it im your favorite cousin only when your in trouble. When you filled out your police reports it says you have been here for a little over a month. You couldn't even come see me! " She pouted " Im starting to think if I wasn't an attorney and a lawyer I would never get to see you blue eyes." She smiled brightly

Nick Chuckled and got up out of his seat and Gave her a big hug "I missed you Couz, so how have you been Yesseenia?"

"I missed you too Big guy I can't Believe we are the same age look how tall you are and how blessed I got with these short sticks they call legs." Yeseenia giggled.

"So whos the chick nick?" yeseenia asked

Nick smiled " Yesseenia this is my girlfriend Keria, Keria this is my cousin Yesseenia". Nick smiled brightly and wrapped his arms around Kerias waist.

"Its really nice to meet you, I have heard lots about you." Keira tried to say with a straight face.

Yesseenia stood up " God dont't lie, I know you haven't heard anything about me me and Nick are kind of like the black sheep in our family we cut off ties to our parents at an early age. We only see eachother at christmas when we all get together ohh its like an Jerry springer show. You see Nicks mom Jane and my Sister dont talk anymore, because she took bobs side durring their divorce. I just got sick of the bull**** so I gave up on my family and started my own." Yesseenia patted her obviously huge stomach.

"Ohh wow im sorry to hear that hun, Congrats on starting your family." Keria smiled and entangled herself from nicks grasp and gave her a little hug as soon as she wrapped her arms around yesseenia.

Yesseenia pulled away first " I think the baby likes you" Keria smiled

"Well I think I like the baby." Keria smiled

Nick walked over to her " ****, you and matt finally decided to settle down and have some kids what did you do, he was terrified of having kids, did you hypnotize him or something." Nick chuckled

Yesseenia laughed " Hell no I told him no more sex unless its us having a baby." *lol*

Nick laughed " Mmm, yea I think that would work, and it obviously did" Nick laughed

Officer dugen walked over " excuse me hate to interrupt the family reuninon here but your standing in a police station, Your Free to leave unless you want to stay otherwise your more than welcome too." Officer Dugen replied with the Scarcasm dripping from his tounge.

Nick chuckled " No, not that the stay wasn't a humble experience we are more than ready to get the hell out of here, ohh and My girlfriends eyes are above the neck. I suggest you start looking there thanks." Nick said through gritted teeth as he saw the officer checking out Keria.

The officer tipped his hat in true western fashion its obvious he was brought up in the south something along the lines of texas, he clearly didn't have the Aussie accent.

Keria practically had to push Nick to the Exit of the Police station the daggers they were throughing back to each other were starting to become one heading towards dangerous territory.

"Nicky, someday that temper of yours is going to get you into trouble, and those pouty lips of yours and babyblues aren't going to help you." Yessenia replied.

"Yea, You only tell me everytime you bail me out of trouble." Nick rolled his eyes.

"Yea its pretty frequent, huh?" Keria laughed at the two cousins arguing! they were seconds away from pulling out 'well you were always the favorite to grandchild card.'

"So Nick tell me what does Issabella think about you having a mistress?" Nick practically choked on the gum he traded the lady who booked them for an Autograph, for the sweet minty taste.

"Umm, What?" Nick said through gagged Breaths.

"Well last time I checked you were Married, I know we dont talk often but I was at yours and Isabelle's Wedding. Or did you finally come to your senses and realize she wasn't good for you, like everyone told you." Yeseenia patted her belly as she was getting worked up, she always hated when Nick played dumb, Always and he was doing it now.

"Ohh, well its complicated but yea she knows and were not together anymore and Keria is my Girlfriend."

"Well what do you say you and Keira come over to our house for Dinner, and we can chat and catch up say about 7:00pm, you still remember where I live right."

Nicks blank expression said it all " You dont remember do you?" Yesseenia chuckled.

Nick turned a light shade of red Keria laughed " Awww, Baby you are so cute". Keria giggled.

Nick poked her in the sides "Yea whatever uhh I dont remember, the last time i stayed there I was a little intoxicated to say the least."

"Yea speaking of you still owe me for the new carpet we had to have installed." Yessenia glowed as she talked pregnancy has never looked so good on anyone as well as it fitted her.

"Ohh, come on were family." Nick joked.

"Were not that close nick". Yessenia smiled " So heres the adress, get a pen."

Nick took kerias purse and digged for a pen and paper, he found the pen but not the paper, after many years of watching young fans improvise when they dont have anything to write on. He pulled up keiras shirt and started writing on her belly. It looked like he had a seizure once he was done. Keria was giggling the entire time, she was so ticklish."

Then they seen another flash and camera crews come out of hiding. " Nick carter is it true, you and your wife are split up."
"Is it true she left you because of your fling here with this young lady who used to work for the austrilian water."

"Is it true that Issabelle kicked you out because you got this young lady pregnant."

"Is it true, that you are engaged to paris hilton."

"Is it true you are buying a house in Austraila?"

"Is it true that you adopted kittens?"

"Is it true that you belive in Aliens, and claim you have been abducted?"

"Is it true you were out skinny dipping and got caught in the sinful act?"

nick looked around for Yesseenia and she seemed to have fled from the scene quite quickly, he looked over and spotted her talking to some reporter, then he saw her get into her car that was parked in front of the police station and took off like she was in a race.

Nick was doing double takes from the amount of flashes, causing his eyes to squint heavily, and he had a bunch of tape recorders in his face, it was times like these were he wished he had a body guard so him and Keria could get away without getting mobbed by the press!!

Nick looked over at keria who was getting grilled and Nick mouthed " Im sorry Baby." Keria looked over and smiled slightly back to let him know she wasn't mad. A peace offering!

one question through him for a loop "Keria is it true that you had a baby at 15 and gave your baby up for adoption?"
nick watched as kerias eyes filled up with tears " Yes."

Nick walked over and wrapped his arms around her, he didn't want that to be on the front of any paper. he could already see the headline

'Nick carter found his long lost babys mother read more to find out. Little did he know the apple doesn't fall far from the branch. '

Nick grabbed her hand and dragged her to a taxi cab that was parked across the street, he sat her down. " I thought we said no more secrets" Nick tilted her chin.

Keira nodded slightly...and cried into nicks shoulder

Nick paid the cab driver " Do many loops as many as it takes to lose every car thats following us, thanks."

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Nick took out his phone and called Yesseenia and told her that they wouldn't be able to meet for dinner, and yesseeina hung up him. thats family for you
nick chuckled to himself, after he got off the phone he averted his attention back to Keria


Nick sat there holding her and stroking her back in calm cirlces waiting for Keria's sobs to die down. He really didn't know what to say or do to make her feel better, because he doesn't know what the hell is going on. He doesn't know if its all the recent publicity their realtionship has gotten, or just the day finally got to her or that last question that made her tear up. He doesn't know anything except everytime he feels Keria's body shudder in his embrace it causes his heart to break just a little. So he can give her that peice of his heart to mend her Fragile one. If Nick could do anything right now, he would do anything to make her feel better. Truth of the matter their wasn't a thing he could do but hold her and wait for her to come around and let him in to the part of her life, he wants them to so desperetly wants to share with her.

"Shhh, Im hear Ker whenever you need me im here, its alright do you want to talk about it?" Nick whispered into her ear that was leaning on his shoulder.

Keria shook her head no, and looked into Nicks eyes and whispered " Thank you" with a shaky breath And gave him a kiss on the cheek.

The Cab driver then opened up the window just as nick was about to say something " Can I stop driving in circles now I stopped the meter about 25 mins ago, I have never had someone give me over 200 dollars before and im not about to start now, Just let me know when you and the lovely lady would like to be dropped off." The older man responded.

Nick looked at Keria and back to the old man, Nick narrowed his eyes and looked at his nametag. " Jim, you can drive us here". Nick told the man the adress and said " Thank you for everything, Jim We really appreciate it you really saved us back there from the paparazi." Nick smiled gratefully towards him.

Jim chuckled " You know I haven't seen paparzi like that since Paris Hilton hilton got married and hired and sent out invitations for them to be guests at her wedding."

Nick Laughed " Yea that would be Paris for you, can you belive how much she calmed down since she had kids though."

Jim laughed " Ohh, yea partying 5 times a week instead of 7 is definately an improvement, my son Josh had the biggest crush on her growing up, Until he finally met her at the house of Wax premier and was disgusted with how fake she was." Jim replied.

Nick smiled " Yea, but she does have a good heart, she was my girlfriend at one point in time and I really loved her, but it became to much for me. She has an amzing heart when she puts it to use. Unfortuanately she annoyed me to much, we just weren't a good match we are still friends though. Thank you Again Jim." Nick stopped talking about his 20'sLove when he heard Keria sniffle.

"Sweetie im going to take you home okay, you need sleep you had a really long day. This wasn't the way I planned on ending it, but Im glad I still get to end the day with you." Nick leaned in and wrapped his arm around her and pulled her closer to him and gave her a kiss on the head " I love you, Ker! Baby what ever it is that has you so upset I promise you I will be here to listen when your ready."

Keria nodded slightly and grabbed his free hand and watched his hand and played with the ring on Nicks finger and the wrist band nick was wearing, she moved them up and down. She then intertwined their fingers clasping their hands together so they are joined one of the many ways they can be as one. Then she unclasped them, trying to take her mind of her secret she has kept for many years a peice of her past she thought was long gone and burried, a Peice of Nicks past he doesn't even know about. It was all to much for her and she didn't know if she could handle the truth being out. She just hoped the paparazi doesn't know as much as they say they do, and she can get up the nerve to tell Nick herself, if not shes not sure Nick could ever forgive her.
The last thing she needs right now is To loose Nick, Nicks her everything.

Nick noticed how quiet Keria has been for the past 45 minutes she hasn't said anything which is unusal to him. Silence he normally appreciated but this silence spoke volumes louder than any crying baby. It was the silence of something needed to be said, just no one knew how to break it, and thats the worse possible kind of silence you can have.

"Keria, Sweetie are you sure your okay?" Nick broke the silence he had to it was driving him crazy, not to know what was going on inside her pretty little head. Not to know what made her so upset, was it something he did he had no idea and was clueless to what could make her so free spirit and normally happy one, real. What made her seem so scared!

Keria nodded slightly....

Nick Couldn't take it anylonger he practically snapped they were so close to each other physically, but emtionally they were on other sides of the world he couldn't take it any more. " Keria, Baby please say something, talk to me tell me whats wrong or just talk to me. I love you I, I is it me, did I do something. Whatever it is we can work on it. God Ker just talk to me."

For a moment Keira looked into Nicks eyes and saw them filling with water, his eyes looked calm like the ocean, but the waves were starting to form and about to knock her over she was about to drown. She tried her best to smile when nick put his finger on her lips.

"Shh, I dont want you to smile if you dont feel like smiling. I dont want you to be fake with me I want you to be real, and if you feel like crying baby then let out. Cry for as long as you want too and I will be there to hold you. Its just I need you to talk to me or do something just please dont be silent." Nick traced her lips and held her tighter.

Keira looked into his eyes with no expression or smile and she leaned in and kissed him. " I Love you." She whispered.

For some reason those 3 words calmed him and he felt like he was at least in the same counrty as she was. He knew it wasn't everything, but at least now he knew it wasn't him and she still loved him.

Nick tilted her chin so they were looking directly into eachothers eyes "I love you too, Ker." Nick held her closer.

Just as Keria was about to say something Jim opened up the window " Okay were here now, I will give you a few moments." Then Jim put the window back up.

"Good nite Keria, I'll see you tomorrow." Nick held her tight afraid it would be the last time he would hold her. The unspoken reality lingering over them that Nick was leaving to go back to the states in just a couple of days.

Nick was about to pull away when Keria held him closer and she whispered in his ear "Would you please stay with me tonight?" Keria looked into his eyes bitting her lip. With her statment the true meaning of stay with me tonight, they both knew what it meant.

Nick touched her trembling lips "Are you sure thats what you want?" nick questioned looking into her eyes. Keria nodded and whispered "More than sure."

Nick knocked on the privacy window, when it opened Jim asked " Are you ready to leave now?" The old man smiled.

"Yes thanks for everything how much do I owe you?" Nick said taking out his wallet.

"Nothing, you dont owe me anything. Take care of that young lady of yours though. Im sorry your life has to be so tough Mr. Carter." Jim smiled.

Nick raised his eyebrows quizzically " My Daughter had posters of you and the other 4 boys plastered all over her walls it was her dream to meet you before she died, and she did. I had 17 wonderful years with her and she spent 14 of them talking about how much she wanted to see you and meet you and you made my babys dream come true, the next day she died without warning to cancer . Its the least I can do Mr. Carter you put her to rest, she was finally able to die peacefully. " Jim was in tears by the end of his speech " I have wanted to see you for years now, I knew that someday fate would come my way and it did. So thank you."

"I, I really dont know to say!" nick said in a shaky breath trying not to let his tears fall.

Keria squeezed his hand to let him know she was there " You dont need to say anything mr. Carter just take care of the ones you love and never take life for granted. Live your dreams and live life to its fullest everyday." Jim smiled " Now you two have a better evening than you had day. Good bye Miss. and good bye Mr. Carter."

The Taxi driver sped off out of their lives, but somehow they would always remember the kind old man and his daughter.

Nick was holding back tears and once they got inside he slid down the wall " you know Keria, I made that girls dream and wish come true and I dont even know who she is. Somedays its really scary having the impact on peoples lives as much as we do. I dont realise it until I have an encounter with somebody like this."

"I know baby, I know you know what though you made her dream come true nick, that has to mean something." Keria slid down the wall next to nick and whiped away his one fallen tear falling ever so slowly down his chisseled face.

"Thats the thing Keria we just Sing we dont stop world hunger, we're not apart of the peace core, we can't magically save lives. Were no one special." Nick sighed rasing his voice an octive.

Keria shook her head " Nick, Sweetie don't you see thats just it your A normal human being with a Heart of Gold. Someone wanted so much to meet you, you made her dream come true. Sometimes there are no answers baby just Answers that cause more questions." Keria smiled her best she could.

Nick shook his head and placed both hands on the side of her face "God, do you have any idea how much I love you. Nick held Kerias Gaze for a long time and started to caress the sides of her face with so much tender, loving, care gently as if he was to caress any harder he would change her face. nick brought his head closer and closer until his lips finally touched hers.

Their kisses were starting to get intense and burn like fire, they couldn't feel enough of each other. Not only did they want each other, they needed eachother they needed something only the other could give. A type of love that was so strong you only read about it in cheezy romance novels, or really, really sappy chick flicks. It wasn't fake it was real, and thats what made it ten times better.

"God I love you Keria moaned" As nick kissed down her collarbone, then back up to lightly kiss her neck.

"I love you too baby, ohh god your driving me crazy Ker." Keria lifted off nicks shirt, and rubbed seductive cirlces all over his back.

Keria stopped driving nick into a frenzy and grabbed his hand "Why dont you let me show you just how much I love you." Keria kissed his neck and grabbed his hand, nick got up in record time and picked kiera up in his arms and carried her to the closest bedroom, at the moment he was so hot he didn't care where just as long as he was with her it was a perfect as perfect can be."

Nick started to slowly undress her " Are you sure?" Nick asked as he pushed the strap of kerias bra down painfully slow and kissed every bare inch of skin he could find along the way.

"Please." Keria moaned into nicks mouth once he finally had her matching white lace lingerie laying in peices on the floor next to his own clothing.

Nick didn't need any more coaxing, she was driving him completely crazy just as nick pushed himself into her he whispered " I love you."

Keria watched as nicks face expressions changed during their lovemaking " I love you so much." Keria gasped between kisses.

"I love you nick." Keria said through shaky altering breaths,

"I love you too Keria, so much I really dont think you know just how much."
Nick smiled and kissed her " But I have to say something, thats probably going to ruin the moment but here it goes."

Keria giggled " Anything, you can say anything to me."


"I almost forgot how that felt" Nick giggled after him and keria were spooning " I never remember sex being like that, that was amazing."

Keria looked up at him, with a completely different expression " funny thats what you said the last time we did this."

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Keria instantly felt a cool breeze come over her body, She still remembered that day like it was yesterday, plain as day it was the day that changed her life forever.

[I]~*Flashback*~

Keria was so excited she just turned 21 and her and her Friends decided to take a roadtrip, They were Drving to sunny california, which was a trip in itself none of the girls have ever seen anything Like Traffic in LA, they were insane. None of them were real strong drivers but they didn't care they were belting out the lyrics to every single backstreet boys song ever, and listening to girly music, anything with attitude. It was Just two small town Canadian girls in the Big city of LA. They looked around like 2 kids on christmas day, seeing what they have always dreamed of seeing.

Keria just took her turn driving, so now it was one of her bestfriends Natalie time to drive, so just as Keria was about to fall asleep from their long trip. Keria placed her head on the window then she heard the Screeching of tires and everything went black. Lets just say Howie Days song Collide has a wholw new branch of meaning. Keria heard her Bestfriend hyper ventalating.

"Ohh my Keria you need to wake up, come on you need to wake up. Its the Backstreetboys, WAKE THE HELL UP GIRL". Natalie Yelled a little louder.

"**** it Natalie, Why in the hell did you slam your breaks so freaking hard." Keria asked annoyed the 8 hours straight of drving and lack of sleep was really getting to her.

"Its The-the-the Backstreet boys." Natalie studded.

Keria wasn't understanding " Their bus is right there and I can see the top of A.J's head." Natalie started freaking out.

"Sweetie you do know hes happily married, right?" Keria said with her eyes shut and she yawned and finally opened them when the informtation finally sunk in.

"Hes not married yet, hes Engaged." Natalie Argued.

"Ohh kay, well They are in love its so obvious just the way he looks at her and I think its a great to see him smile again."

Keria smiled thinking of the changes she has seen in A.J over the past few years since he has been with his girlfriend. There story could of been a love story, turned into a movie. Everything was just perfect Katrina and Alex, When their story came out they actually wanted to make a movie out of it and they said no because they didn't want it to be someone for everyone to know, it was personal. Recovering alcholic fell in love with His AA sponsor someone he can always count in, and completely trusted it was bound to happen. It just seemed like one of the relationships that would work.

"Hello, earth to Keria." Keria snapped out of her thinking trance.

"Sorry, I was just thinking how great it is that Katrina and A.J are together." Keria smiled again.

Natalie rolled her eyes " Yea I guess its good he does seem happier, but I really want to Kiss a Backstreet boy." Natalie joked "We have to stay true to our pack we always said if we saw them we would kiss them. I mean come on im getting married to Adam in a month, Just a little peck."

Keria laughed and sighed " Yea, But There is no way im going to ask a married backstreet boy for a kiss, that just seems wrong.

Natalie sighed " you do what you want, I told chad if I saw a Backstreet boy I was gonna give him a kiss, and he agreed that I could."

"Probably cause he never thought you were going to meet them." Keria laughed.

"Well if we dont hurry up and get our asses in there were not even going to see them, Ever. I got permission for my Kiss, so screw that im getting my Kiss. Alexander James Mclean here i come." Natalie ran she was 22 and on a mission.

Keria laged behind she did not want to see what was going to take place.

"Hi can I help you?" The Hostess at the front asked when Keria walked in.

"Yes please can I have a Table for 2."

"Im sorry but all of our tables are booked up for this evening we are hosting a Christmas party."

"Okay thats Great and all can we have some take out or something?" Keria asked annoyed she was hungry, and her friend was gonna make an *** out of herself.

"Sorry Kitchens closed." The annoyingly annoying Hostess smacked her gum.

Keria looked around "Im sorry, but the Kitchen doesn't looked closed to me."

The hostess named marliyn snapped her Gum " If you think im missing my chance of getting out of here early, I have been here for 10 hours already and my sons sick, im not staying another second."

"Im sorry im just really hungry, can you direct me to another person that can help me out with my dilema." Keria tried her best to smile.

"your looking at her sweetie, and the kitchen is closed until the night staff comes on for her shift and she is probably late as usual." The hostess tapped her foot impatiently watching the clock with anticipation like it holded the answers for all internity.


"Fine, im just going to go in there with my friend." Keria looked around for Natalie.

"Im sorry Miss. You can't go in there there is a private party."
The Hostess said in a obviously fake demeanor.

Keira looked around again and was getting even more agitated " Look miss, get off your power trip. My friend is somewheres in here and im not leaving without her."

When Keria saw natalie she practically choked at what she saw she was full on making out what looked to be a younger version of Nick carter.

" Thats my Friend Making out With Aaron Carter." Keria giggled on her words.

The Waitress spun on her heels "Right this way Miss." She said in a annyoed tone.

"God I dont mean to put you out." Keria said once she arrvied at the table she seen all the backstreet boys looking at her like who in the hell is this, and what is she doing here.

Marilyn looked at her like what in the hell is she doing " You didn't put me out sweetie the kitchen is just closed, and our special guests dont like to be bothered, but frankly darlin I have had enough of your attitude."

Keria lost it, she got right up in her face " you want to talk about attitude, im sorry your sons sick. But this is a job and you are the head of customer service I really dont appreciate being talked to like im freaking stupid. I know resturants dont close at 6:00pm, even if there is a private party, there are still a bunch of 'Non special guests in here.' So dont talk to me about attitude!!" Kerias face was practically Red from holding in her fustration she was trying to keep her cool.

"Look you little *****, you know nothing about me but im more than willing to take you outside." Marilyn responded.

"Names Keria Marilyn, Im not going to fight you I was just saying you should really be careful with what you say when your boss is right behind you." Keria smiled and Kevin and A.J were standing up ready to hold them back. The passion between them was immense.

"My boss isn't standing behind me." Marilynn snapped.

"Yea I know that but the point is he could be then your Screwed and your sons Sick. So you kind of need your job. The next time you want to talk to someone like that. Im pretty sure if your boss heard you talk like that to somebody you would be out of a job so i am just giving you a heads up. Thanks for showing me to my uhh Friend." Keria started to finally realise all these eyes on her, most of all she noticed pericing blue eyes in the reflection of the privacy glass.

Marilynn was speechless she didn't know what to say or do " Look im sorry its just-".

Keria cut her off " you know what dont say sorry unless you really mean it, otherwise its just another word with no meaning."

Marilynn was so flustered she didn't know what to say or do, so she just walked away shamelessly with her head bowed.

"**** girl you sure told her." Natalie smiled she was sitting next To Aaron carter and Nick carter Between the Carters.

"Im just aggitated drving for 8 hours with no real food or real sleep kinda gets to you, I wasn't in the mood to listen to her powertrip, Anyways im sorry boys for intterupting your dinner I just came to fetch my friend, and Were not really from California so do you know any good places to eat.?" Keria asked.

She noticed smiles on all the boys faces kevin was the first to speak " your more than Welcome to join us here we have plenty of food. and Aaron has already asked your friend Natalie to join him for the evening.

"I uhh mmm..." Keria stuttered

Nick smiled " Take a seat." Nick got up and pushed an extra seat to their table. It looked very fancy.

Keria did as she was told so she took a seat next to Nick and Natalie where he pulled up the table.

Nick was talking to her all evening about everything to his job, to her job at mickey d's in Canada. To their hometowns and childhood memories. Through that either of them realised that they were getting Drunk from the very expensive Wine Jive Records was happily supplying.

Nick asked Keria to Dance " Dance with me?"

He gave her the puppy dog eyes and keria coudlnt resist.

"Your sho cute Nick." Keria said in a Baby Voice.

Nick and Keria were dancing awfully close grinding up against eachother, Nicks hands roaming all over her body. Making her hot with desire and Kerias hands were all through his hair.

Finally a slow song came on and Nick burried his head in her hair. "you smell so good." Nick inhaled her scent and held her closer.

Nick was so tunred on, he never wanted anyone as much as he wanted her, the song they were playing was the last song of the night, it was a slow song of the backstreet boys it was I need you tonight. In Nicks Drunken state he started to serenade her ear, and he sang the song to her on the very last note, he sucked her ear into his mouth. And left a trail of kisses down her neck. They were both so caught up in the moment they didn't notice the rest of them at the table watching immensly and so close. " Can I kiss you?" Nick asked " For some reason I dont think I should but I have never wanted anyone as much as I want you."

Nick captured her lips with his and kissed her so hard with so much passion. Keria leaned herself into the kiss, she knew nothing could ever come out of thier night together, but one could dream right.

When nick broke away he held her tight and whispered in her ear I need you tonight, I dont care if its wrong or right. I just really need you tonight."

Keria nodded they barely made it inside the hotel, before Kerias clothes were already half on the floor. They were both so drunk from the alcohol, and Drunk with need that either of them noticed or even cared about tomorrows repurcussions they just went with it, with the flow with every touch, every caress, every stroke, every time the other gave you goosebumps. If there was one thing Keria would never forget about that night, its that They never lost eye contact, and when they finally reached the edge they went off together, that has never happend before.

Nick was the first man to ever Give her an Orgasm, it was like they had a connection from the very beginning. When they were done Nick held her close to him, and said " I never remember sex being like that, that was amazing."


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They cuddled for a little bit until the phone rang and innterupted them, and her night with Nick was over forever. Keria could still remember the tone in Nicks voice like he wasn't happy with her, the other woman, or was she the other woman. " Baby, Im sorry you know how press like to twist things around."

Keria could hear the screaming on the other end " **** YOU NICHOLAS, WE ARE TRYING TO HAVE A BABY! IM SITTING AT THE HOTEL WAITING FOR YOU AND YOUR OUT MAKING OUT WITH SOME RANDOM CHICK. NICK **** IT WHY ARE YOU LIEING TO ME." Nick held the phone away from his ear, like he heard it all before he didn't care.

Keria could still remember his expression on his face their was none " Thank you Baby." Nick got up put his clothes on and walked out of the hotel room and out of her life Nick gave her a kiss on the cheek. " thank you for the escape from reality, I really did have a good time with you. If things were different than maybe. I'll see you at the show tommorrow night nick put a pass around her neck, i think the other guys would like to see you again." Nick gave her a half smile grabbed something out of his bag and took off.

That was it Keria had no idea where she was and she was to drunk and disorientated and hurt to figure it out, so she laid down in the filth and sin her and Nick Created in mass of sheets tangled at the foot of the bed and curled up, and fell asleep with the memories of nick singing to her and thier intimate love making session.

Keria woke up the next morrning and called her friend on her cell " Natalie, pick up come on Natalie."

"Hey sweetie where are you? wow did you have a good night with Mr. Carter." Natalie grilled her for details.

"No, not really, Yes **** I don't know." Keria sighed into the pillow that still smelled like Nicks Gravity cologne.

"Uhh, hold on I'll ask Aaron."

Keria twirled her fingers around her hair while she waited for Natalie to ask Aaron. " He says your right next to us, **** you too were some loud last night. so is thor how we imagined him to be.?" Natalie asked happily.

"yea thor is" Keria said monotone " But Nick. Isn't the Mr. Prince charming we thought he was."

Keria was about to burst into tears, Natalie sensed that and Ran over through the adjioning door. " Aww, sweetie its okay, have a shower and i'll get you some of my clothes, that I went and got early this morrning."

"Thanks sweetie your the best, please tell me you didn't do more than just kiss with the younger brother?"

Natalie smiled " No, I came back here last night cause I didn't know where you were, and I called Chad and we talked all night, I love him so much were moving up the Wedding."

"Awww, sweetie thats great, I am so happy for you."
Keria tried her best to share in the happiness vibe but she just wasn't feeling it.

Hours later after much convincing from Natalie and Aaron Keria decided to take advantage of the Backstage pass that nick had put around her Neck before she left.

Keria saw A.J first " Hey A.J, how are you doing?"

A.J smiled and winked " A lot better than Nick, hes pretty sick hopefully you dont catch what he has. Well it was really nice meeting you I think Nick would like to talk to you."

"By the way it was really nice meeting you last night, you are a Riot I have never seen a Girl out drink Nicky, before Ever. Major props to you Darlin!" A.J gave her a big hug.

Keria walked down to the room where the security guys directed her as to where nick would be.

Keria knocked a couple times, but the door was already open she heard no answer. She walked in on Nick and gasped at what she saw. She saw Nick snorting a line of coke."

Nick saw her and instantly got paranoid...
and ran and shut the door

"I tried to stop, but the pain was just to much. Its all to much for me right now, I needed it." Nick sat down and rocked back and forth on the Green and blue tiled floor.

"Nick what are you doing?"

"I dont know please dont say anything." nick pleaded with her.

"I know I dont deserve it but just this one last time, I know I dont deseerve anything from you. Please I dont want the boys to know. I promise I will clean my act up. Just its okay im not addicted to it, I just like to do it to relax every noe and again." Nick rambled on talking really fast the fear evident in His face.

"I have to go nick, were leaving early have a good show."

"Keria's head was spinning, Nick was a coke addict. He definately wasn't the little angle people made him out to be. She needed to tell someone before he gets completely lost.

Keria ran into Kevin " Nick was asking for you."

Keria walked away gave all the boys a hug and drug natalie out with her " Come on were leaving."

"Why?" Natalie asked annoyed that they just got there.

"We dont want to be here when this happens."

just then Kevin walked out of the room with a furious face, half smiling at Keria. And rounded up the other boys. A.J looked out and slammed the door he couldn't belive nick would do something like this to himself espeically after what he saw A.J go through.

Natalie was confused but kind of happy to get back to her boyfriend, they didn't stay in Cali very long, but those 2 days realizations and revelelations happened and made big changes.

On the Radio they heard that That the Backstreet boys show was cancelled due to nick being to sick to perform. Next is an oldie " I want it that way" By the backstreet boys.

3 months later Keria found out she was pregnant, and Nicks affair was public, he said it was just a mistake and meant nothing and was very happy with his soon to be wife, and he annouced that they were trying to start a family.

Keria through the remote at the TV and called Natalie.

Through her tears Natalie answered on her honeymoon " Im sorry Keria, What are you going to do?"

"I can't tell him."

"I know me and chad will be there for you."

"I know you will, I just have to tell my family." Keria sighed deeply.

***End of Flashback***

"Baby what is it?" Nick asked coaxing her and rubbing her forehad " Have we had sex before?"

"No, its what you said the last time we had really good ice cream baby I remember cause you licked it off my nose, after putting it there."

"I remember that." Nick smiled and held her closer " It was really good.

"Nick smiled and noticed her sad expression "You sure everythings okay baby?"

Keria lied through her teeth " Of course everything is okay, its just you leave in a couple of days and im going to miss you so much."

Nick held her closer, tighter wrapped their bodies around eachothers like they were one almost " I know lets not think about it right now."

"Okay baby." Keria grinned fakely she heard nicks breath starting to get heavy and she knew he was sleeping. Keria couldn't tell him, he would be horrified. Nick can never find out about her secret.

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Keria watched as the moonlight came in through the window and made Him look even more angelic than he really is, it softened all of his rougher features, even though you can tell he is and was physically exhasted with life and everything life has to bring, all that eases away when he sleeps its like its a drug that whipes hours, days away from your life. Or Perhaps maybe Keria is Nicks Drug, and it has nothing to do with the moonlight, it has to do with Nicks recent company, and the Auora of love that surronds him.

That look of complete and utter contentment made Keria Sick to her stomach, knowing it was her lies and decipht that was keeping nick in his peaceful state. Keria always promised herself after her past relationships she was never going to slide back into her catty ways of lies. A knot of lies can only hold so much before the knot gives way and causes everyone holding on to the rope fall things get Broken in this case, hearts and lots of them.

Keira was sweeping the stray peices of nicks hair that would fall into his face every so often, she just watched him sleep and she knew she couldn't do it anymore. She made her bed and she had to deal with it, it kills her with every word that comes out is followed by a string of lies. She couldn't do it to him or herself first thing in the morrning she was going to leave without another care in the world, just leave.

"Its better this way right?" Keria asked Andrea, while she had one of her hands whiping the stray tears that escaped from her.

Andrea had no idea what to say to that, she was at a loss of words " I really dont know I think its best if you tell him that he has a little girl named Maddison sweetie. I know its hard but she is a spitting image of him. We can look after as long as you need, even if you don't think your ready to tell him. As soon as he sees you together hes going to put to and 2 together. Just Remember she is your daughter, and she misses her mommy. We will be home a in a week. Do you want to talk to her?"

Keria sniffed and smiled and Remembered the first day she held Maddison Kayla C. Marie, in her arms. She has never loved anyone as much as she loved her. Her Her Best friend Andrea and her Husband have been a godsend while she was on her special mission, 'Get Carter'. Soon enough though Andrea and her husband james had to come back .Andrea was in her 6 month of preganancy with a Baby boy Braden James Smith. Keria couldn't thank god enough for Nick going home it gave her some more time to think about how or if she was going to tell Nick the Truth. Of course he deserved to know, but did he want to know that was the question that has been lurking over her head for a couple of years now.

"Keria, are you there hunny?" Andrea asked

"Yea, Im here I uhh of course I wan't to speak to her, shes my baby girl."

Andrea sighed " You know somedays im not so sure."

Keria covered her mouth so nick wouldn't here her loud sob, when she heard Andrea yell for her and Nicks babygirl.

"Maddie, sweetie mommy's on the phone."

Keria took a deep breath " MOMMY, I miss you so much! When is your business trip done? I love you so much Uncle James has been teaching me how to swim. I wish you could see me Auntie Andrea tells me I am like a fish. I miss you when you dont tuck me in or kiss me good nite. I saw a little girl yesterday at the pool at Auntie Andreas grandmothers house in mexiKo. Mmmm, well where we are now. She asked me why your not here and where is my daddy. I Told her that you are very busy working, and im on a Vactaion. And I told her I dont know who my daddy is. Mommy who is my Daddy?" Maddison inquired for the hundreth time in her short life span of 3 years old.

Keira felt so Guitly she was keeping to amazing people from meeting eachother, she was keeping a father and daughter seperated she feels she should go to jail or something. At frist she told herself she was protecting them, deep down she knew she was protecting herself from loosing the man she loves, and losing the respect from her little 3 year old daughter. It made her sick to her stomach that when she mentioned Maddie to her father, she told him that she was only 2 and not hers.

She felt so guitly...

"Mommy, are you there?"

"Yes im sorry baby girl mommy is here, Im going to get to see you real soon and someday I will tell you who your daddy is sweetie."

Maddie sighed " You know when is someday, mommy someday never comes."

Keria swallowed her tears " I know baby girl someday it will though okay, I love you so much tell Auntie Andrea, and unlce James I have to go, see you soon sweetie. Mommy misses you and loves you."

"Mommy...I love you, dont be scared Nickers is home to protect you, mommy can we get a dog like Nickers or maybe a kitty kat?"

"Well see baby, mommy loves you so much."

"Bye mommy I love you too- Ohh wait mommy before you go I want to sing you a song I learned today. Are you Ready?"

Keria smiled " You betcha, but then I really have to go okay?"

"Okay mommy, here it is...

"You are my Sunshine, my only sunshine
you make me happy when the skys are grey.
Ohhh, mommy you dont know how much I love you.
Please dont take my sunshine away"


Keria let her sobs escape, she never realised that the water turned off, she was so into the intense conversation she was having with her little girl...

"I love you baby, You know I loved it. I have to go okay. Bye Sweetie I cant wait to see you."

Keira hung up the phone " **** it why am I doing this to us." Keria asked herself outloud then suddenly she noticed the water was stopped and she put her head up and looked in the mirror and saw nicks face staring back at her.

She saw the angry expression on his face " Thats exactly what I want to know, whay are you doing this Keria you say you dont want to lie anymore. Then you come into the bathroom and talk to your other lover. After you make love to your current lover. Keria you make me dizzy with all the ****ing lies you tell!" Nick yelled punching a hole in the wall.

"I Actually believed you were different than that!" nick went and grabbed his shirt and started to put it on. Here I was listening to you cry on the other side of the door thinking it was about the 6 month no sex rule. Is that just something you say with part of your head games. Im leaving Keria, I cant take your bull****. Any of it." Nick shut the bathroom door and sunk down it.

"Why do I let every single person do this to me, Am I just destined to be alone?" Nick waited for Keria to say something her silence said it all, its all true everything. The love of his life or so he thought the person he knew was his one and only was ****ing some other inocent fool behind his back.

"Nick its not like that!! God its complicated." keria pleaded and walked over to him.

"Haha, yea right its not like that you know what im not gonna be the innocent fool in this game. I caught you plain and simple. I dont think your current love affair would like to know about your boyfriend, wait a minute maybe hes your husband. I have been the victim to this hell i even was the affairee before. Im not going to let you get away with this." nick said pissed grabbing kerias phone and pressing redial and pressing the speaker phone.

"Mommy, you called Back. I knew you missed me. Guess what me and Auntie Andrea and Uncle james are doing? Were playing the aminal games that we play. When you make a noise, and I have to guess Im having so much fun. I wish you were here mommy is your buisness trip finished?"

At first Nick thought maybe she called an aunt or uncle. and she got mommy and auntie confused. Deep down he knew it wasn't true though. As soon as he heard andrea get on the phone " Keria I think you really should wrap things up with Nick, and Get back to your daughter. you need to tell him".

Nick looked over at Keria with wide eyes " Its for you."

He walked out of the room and went and sat on the bed, and waited for keria to hang up. A few minutes later she walked out with puffy eyes and cheeks.

"So what lies have you been feeding me now Keria?" nick asked emotionless " What do you need to tell me?"

Keria stuttered....

Nick got up from the bed and lit a cigerette and paced around the room in circles " you know what I already know you have a daughter and a family. Your leaving me."

"**** it keria I deserve to know." Nick screamed.

"Im sorry Nick...I have a daughter im sorry I didn't tell you, The father isn't around though."

Keria was beating herself up inside " Lies, more, lies,More ****ing lies."

"you have a daughter?" Nick stuttered.
,
"You didn't tell me why?" Nick questioned, not a picture of her or anything.

Keria opened her wallet and behind her drivers liscense was a picture of maddison.

nick took it in his hands his heart rate starting to come back to a steady pace. He flipped the crumpled picture over and saw Maddison Kayla C. Marie.

Nick asked shakily "Shes gorgeous Keria, what does the C. Stand for?" Nick couldn't help but smile at the little girl, for some reason Nick wanted to be the first person Keria would ever have a child with.

Keria took a deep breath " Her Daddys last name."

"Im sorry I didn't tell you." Keria sighed.

"Yea, me too. I really dont know what to do with this. All these lies. I dont trust you. Maybe we should just cool off for now, and give me time to think this through, and see where our hearts are. If you cant trust me enough to tell me that you have a daughter. Then I really dont think we should be together. Im sorry I freaked out on you, but uhhh I dont have any trust in anyone female. so Uhh im going to leave now." Nick stuttered and gave Keria a big hug. " I love you, I really do. I just dont think you love me as much as you think you do. If you did you wouldn't keep breaking my heart like this."

With that Nick walked out of kerias life, and left Keria speechless. She was her own worst enemy she really should of listened to Natalie when she told her that.

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It has been 2 months since Keria and Nick have spoken, and it really showed in both of them, they were both just so emotionless and less passionate with everything. Nick and the boys have been trying to record a song and practice for the up-comming tour they were going on, it was going okay but Nick was always in LaLa Land, he missed song cues, he was missing dance cues, he was messing everyone up. And taking everyone away from doing other things, at this rate the album was going to come out in 2 years and not one. They have already spent 5 days recording and dancing to routines they have already down pact from other tours. His head just wasn't in the game.

Johnny came out and slammed the door " Carter, your flat again you would think by the 10th time, you would have it by now."

Nick just took a deep breath "Sorry, just not feeling well "Nick lied through his teeth he felt better than he has in awhile health wise but his heart just feels empty.

Johnny eyed him supsiously " Nick, the last time you acted like this you were on every kind of drug and were to drunk or hung over to focus, are you sure your alright you need to talk to the counselor Stephanie again? Cause I can have that arranged. I know you have been under stress lately and all so if you need to talk to someone dont be afraid to ask."

"Yea were here for you Bro" Kev spoke up then all the others came over too, and patted his back.

Nick put his hands up " No, its not that" Nick yelled in fusturation "Trust me its not that I wont put any more of you through that."

"Carter if I didn't know any better, I would say you left yourself in Australia." Johnny sighed " Lets try this again, Nick please dont mess up after this you all can go home. Just this one song thats all i ask for. I dont think its to **** much." Johnny rubbed his tense neck muscles and went back in the recording studio.

Nick looked out the window and at his bandmates and took a gulp out of his water bottle, in this particular song it was howies and a.j's song on the Album all nick had to do was harmonize right with the boys in the chorus and durring the bridge the each had to sing a line. Thats all he had to do and it has taken them all day to get one track down. Nicks heart just wasn't into singing about love and trust. Heartache he could nail, but this just wasn't working for him.

"Johnny's right you know Nick, you really need to get your head in the game here, obviously somethings bothering you." Howie stated " I wouldn't be pushing you right now but i really gotta meet the fiance to figure out the food menu. I have a flight to catch at ohh lets say 90 mins, but johnny said no one can go until you nail this." Howie sighed fusturatedly.

Nick pep talked himself " Howie, do this for howie." Get out of here and get drunk! sounds good.

it took 2 more takes but they finally got it right...

Howie ran out the door as fast as he could, and Brian said he had to go cause kevin was leaving, and He and the family were staying at Kevins while they were recording.

So nick was just putting his sweaty clothes in his Nike bag, and zipped it up when A.J stopped him. "So when are you going to call her?" A.J rolled his eyes.

Nick played stupid " Call who?"

"Nick I always hated playing your games and trust me their still not cute, the Freakin easter bunny man. That chick you were seeing, you havent been the same since you got back."

"Mmmm, Shes great, Im great everything is just ****in fantastic..." Nick rolled his eyes and sighed scarcastically while he replayed the 2nd confrontation of the evening at Kerias a week ago.

[I]"Yea, I Agree with Natalie on that one." Nick half smiled, and shook his head.

Keria whiped hey eyes "You came back?" Keria asked hopeful.

"Not for what you think, I just came back to get my belt." Nick sighed and bent down and picked it up.

Keria laughed " You came back for a belt?"

"Yea, I guess I couldn't leave you like this." Nick looked at his shoes, like he was trying to figure out how to tie them with out bending down and tieing them.

"Why didn't you just tell me the truth?" Nick sat down next to her on the bed, and placed his arm around her. "do you think that I wouldn't like to know you have a daughter. Do you think I would judge you. Do you not trust me enough to let me know the truth." Nick asked with hurt in his eyes.

Keria didn't say anything just looked at him, and thought to herself 'The truth I don't even know what the truth is anymore I lie so **** much. Nick would never forgive me if he knew.'

Nick looked at her and stood up when she said nothing at all " Thats it isn't it.
Your silence says anything if thats what you really think about me. Do you really think I would be that cold god I love you Keria, God forgive me I don't know why I love you all you do is ****ing hurt me with your lies. your the most selfish, amazing person I have ever known But I love you god I have loved you since the first day I met you. I broke things off with my ****ing wife to be with you, Keria. This is what I get, Absolutely nothing in return. " Nicks voice started out loud then got really quiet and had to fight away the tears that were threatening to escape.

Keria started to cry a little harder and found it hard to find her voice but once she found it she sure did use it "**** it Nick, are you shure this is the first ****ing time we met, and you didn't leave your wife for me you left her because you were unhappy. You want to know what, when you remember all those nights you spent all drunked up and ****ed up on everything you come and see me and until then dont bother speaking to me. I gave you something alright and you know what you gave me something in return."

Keria didn't say another word, she walked into the bathroom and locked the door "Keria what in the hell is that supposed to mean?" Nick shouted banging on the wall.

Keria opened the door "Okay so tell me to my face you remember everyone you were with".

"Keria I Remember everyone." Nick said a little ashamed that he just lied to her.

"You know what Nick, Your pissed at me for lying but you know what your just as selfish and cold as I am." Keria was barely thinking straight anymore.

"Do you know something I dont keria about my life, where you following me then too?" Nick asked this was not how he pictured there last night with eachother. " Do you always sleep with the people you are stalking, I bet that girl in the picture isn't even yours?"

Keria glared at him "Trust me she is, 10 hours of labour prove it. You know what **** you at least her Daddy wasn't a crack addict like you."

"Ohh, yea he must be a real winner if hes not in your daughters life, by the way does your daughter know, how ****ed in the head you are?"

"You said it Nick not me, Her Father is a real peice of work thats for sure." Keria had tears rolling down her cheeks. " Good thing hes not in her life, I wouldn't want him to break her heart like the bastard standing before me Broke mine. Leave Nick I never want to speak to you again."

"Ohh trust me Baby, I am gone and for the record if you write any of this. I will sue your *** and you will lose the child you care so much about, that is never with you and hasn't been with you in a few weeks. Thats real good child care. I grew up with gold digger parents like you that dont give a **** and you know what I dont wish that on anyone. When i have a child I will treat he or her a hell a lot better then you have treated your child. you know I can't believe the person I see, and the person you are so different guess i was blinded by ****ing lies."

"you know what Nick your the person I always thought you are, and thats why things are the way things are. You haven't changed as much as you think you did you didn't trust me your still the same guy you were when you were 25, guess it wasn't just the drugs to make you be an *******, that was all you babe." Keria was yelling in his face.

"Leave before I call the cops, and take your stupid belt with you" Keria through the belt at him and went back in the bathroom and slid down the door. "What have I done?" She asked herself.

Nick walked out the door for the 3rd time in 5 days but this time she finally pushed him away with good, the door slam was the signal for that.

***End of Flashback**

A.J laughed a little " Ahh, do I sense some scarcasm there?"

Nick faked smiled " Can't I have a bad day, why do you all think something is bothering me?" Nick defended himself.

"if nothing is bothering you then, why do you have tears in your eyes?" A.J Asked

Nick smiled to himself 'leave it to A.J to state the obvious.'

'Well I am living with my ex wife until i find a place of my own, hearing her have sex with everything with 2 legs disgusts me.'

"Nick, Stop lying you hate liars. You know thats not it, Isabelles a ***** and always will be whats really bothering you?" A.J and nick were still sitting in the changing room at the rehersal hall.

Nick sighed " How bad of a guy was I, When I was messed up a few years back."

"Pretty messed up Man, I always knew cause I went through it. I wish I would of said something or confronted you. The group and everyone was just getting a long so well I didn't want to jepordize things with you, I wish I would of though. I sometimes feel responsible to how you got the way you did.I also know you weren't ready for help, Until that Girl I dont remember her name but Nick she saved you. Not me or the other guys if she wouldn't of said anything I don't know where you would be today, or any of us." A.J replied shutting his eyes recalling the events.

Nick looked at him stunned "Really, you knew. Guess it doesn't suprise me, tell me did I sleep around a lot."

A.J laughed " Man, every night you had a new hooch. Even when you were with Issabelle, when things were pretty good between you too, too."

"Why all the questions?" A..J asked. "Do you need to talk to stephanie ag-" The rest of his conversation was cut short when the phone rang.

"Yes Babe, Okay Im sorry I was talking to Nick. Im sorry I dont know how I could forget our first doctors appointment for our baby. Yes I know that your carrying this around for another 6 1/2 months. No im not going to forget to pick our child up, Yes I will be right there. I love you, Yes I know im lucky that you love me. Yes I want to be able to have children again, I'll be there baby with your favorite ice cream. Yes I know your lucky to have me. Yes I know im the best. Baby, I'll be there. I love you, Bye see you soon." A.J hung up the phone.

Nick laughed " Dude, she got you whipped. Guess you gotta go huh.?"

"Yea but at least im makin babys, the Alex Gene is spreading and yours are getting all old and rusty. wont be able to have little carters thank god for that. Wait your brother is still alive. Were in trouble. Seriously though dude call her, it will make you feel better."

Nick laughed " Yea, maybe well give your best to Kat and my little neice or nephew, you better get there. Or your not getting any in a long time."

A.J laughed " Yea, you wanna bet shes as willing as she has ever been and kinky. **** she can't do without. im good to go. bye Nick."

"Later Man." nick walked out to his truck and drove to the ocean, and contemplated calling her.

"Hey, Keria its me Nick....

Keria its me Nick" Nick hit sand in pure fusturation and kicked the hood on his car, "Keria its me Nick" Nick said in a lower more serious tone of voice. Then he tried saying it in a sexy voice. He laughed at himself "This is Ridiculous I have abosolutely nothing to apologise for, I didn't do a Freakin thing wrong." Nick rubbed his face and massaged his temples hoping to fight off the headache he knew was on its way.

"Sonny why don't you just start with im sorry" A small tiny voice came from no where.

Nick looked over and seen this very elderly wise possibly drunk, but she was definately the spitting image of lonely. Nick smiled towards her, she reminded him of one of the ladys he used to visit back when he lived in a senior citizens home. "Excuse me?" Nick asked " Are you talking to me?"

The lady looked at him appalled "Well, you dont see any other sorry fool sitting here in the sand do you, talking to himself?"

Nick chuckled and tried to hold back his smile but it was no good " Guess not? So what makes you think I did something wrong?" Nick was very intrigued, he often looked passed the elderly but he always had a strong respect for them, and wished he could do more to help them out.

"Well I don't give out advice to strangers" She winked "The name is May Holland, you may call me May though"

Nick stuck out his hand, When he shook her hand he felt every wrinkle, every exposed Vein. He was sure though that every wrinkle had a story, and he was sure this lady a lot of wisdom and advice.

"The Name is Nick Carter, you can call me Nick though." Nick smiled. May just rolled her eyes in response Thats your first mistake your cocky, you need to have the last word.

I know this because My ignorance and arrogance caused me the love of my life, we had a spat, You see I caught him cheating on me with my sister. I never talked to either of them for a month or so he got called to the very ending of the war and my sister Nattie went to be a Nurse I never got to see either of them again. Dont you see Arrogance and betrayl it doesn't matter who was wrong or who was right, in the end your both wrong. I lost the 2 most important people in my life, over a misunderstanding. He Never was really cheating he sent me a letter the last words he ever spoke and it was a final plea for me to take him back. When i recieved the letter he was already gone. Sometimes I just come out here and pray that they know im sorry.

I don't want to see someone go through what I went through, Im a sad lonely elderly woman whos highlight of the day is the daytime soap operas and Bingo. I had so many plans for my life, but the thing is all of my plans were with my husband and my arrogance took him away from me.

With that the old lady left nick speechless and a pat on the knee. Nick saw May struggling to get up with the hot sun beating down on him. For the first time in 2 weeks Nick has finally seen some clarity and light on his situation with Keria Marie. The young lady, Women of all Women turned his life upside down with the first smile and immense eye contact.

"Here let me help you." Nick stood up " I dont need your help, I may be elderly but I got here, I can find my way back." Nick watched may, The woman with stories and heartbreak just the same as everyone else. Most of all she was full of Regret and sorrow. That was something he never wanted to always wonder that what ifs in life, he wanted to know he did everything possible and never wonder what if you fill in the blank here.

Nick went to assist her anyway, even through her protests " May, With all do respect its the hottest day of the season here, you look tired, please I would feel better if I just walked you to your room." May smiled

"Are you saying I look like $hit?" Nick practically choked on the water, he just took a sip of

"No, not at all". Nick felt bad, most of all he found it slightly humerous when old ladys swear. espeically ones that look so innocent and proper.

May rolled her eyes " Dont look so suprised, looks can be deceiving Nick. I may look old and Lord knows I am old. I am probably in the best shape anyone else out there my age and even 10 years younger. I walk this beach everyday. Somedays I need to stop 5 or 10 times or 20 but I do it, I belive thats what keeps me alive. I was just on my way back you look troubled from a distance and as I got closer i heard you talking to yourself. It was very Nice talking to you Nick carter, tell the other boys that you have helped me get through many hard times. I have been a fan since I first heard your song on my radio about 15 years ago."

Nick let go of Mays Hands, knowing it was a lost cause, every fibre and beam in his body told him not too, and the other said let her go she will find her way.

Nick took a deep breath and picked up his cell phone and dialed the to familair number. It rang and it went to the machine after awhile. "Hey Keria Its Nick, I guess theres not to much to say except I miss you and im Sorry. Please call me."

Nick felt confident if she didn't call back he would know there were no what ifs to wonder about cause he did everything in his power that he was willing to do. He Is a man for one and he swallowed his pride.

Keria was sitting on couch while her daughter was sitting between her legs, getting her hair brushed and done into two braids. " Mommy, why aren't you breathing?"

Keria asked with an inquisitve face " What baby?" Keria asked finally letting out the breath she didn't know she was holding in.

maddie cringed as she felt her mom tug at her braids "I just asked why you weren't breathing, but you are now. Who was that man and why does he have you upset?"

Keria laughed lightly inside " She wondered if Nick was this talkative when he was little, cause god knows its not from her side of the family."

Keria hesitated " Ohh he is just a friend of mommys madison, dont worry sweetie."

"Well why is he sorry?" Maddie questioned " Did he do something wrong? You always yell at me to say sorry when I do something wrong.

Keria laughed " Baby Girl, your to smart for your own good, I love you so very much. dont you ever forget it."

Maddie scrucnhed up her nose " I love you to mommy, do you think if my Daddy was around. Do you think He would love me, and do you think I would love him?"

Keria tried her best to not cry at the sentence a little girl her daughter had just asked her. she was horrible shes keeping to people away just so things are easier. What is easy anyways keria asked herself, cause this doens't seem to **** easy. Im breaking hearts all around, with every sad face my little girl makes my heart breaks just a little more cause I know i know its my fault.

"Baby, Thats enough questions, we have to get your shoes on its time to go."
Keria pushed her little toush.

Maddie sighed " I guess not." Maddie cried she went looking for shoes but her tears didn't go un-noticed.

Keria walked up to her and made her look at him " Baby, someday soon I promise you can meet your Dad, I know he would love you. How could he not?"

Maddies eyes lit up " Really!!! Im going to get to meet my daddy?"

"Yes, Baby Girl no come on were late." keria locked the door behind her.

Keria walked maddie into her classes and begun to prepare herself, for what was to come it was time to swallow her pride and tell Nick the Truth.

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Keira was sitting at the local coffee shop across from maddies school, just looking for the answers some sort of guidance as to what she should do. Sometimes things are left better un-said and shes just not sure if this is the right time for her to bring her daughter into a mans life she hardly knows. She just knows what he likes in bed, Thats all she has ever known from Nick carter. She doesn't know what he likes on his toast in the morrning, she doesn't know his favorite cologne, she doesn't know his favorite place to eat.

She knows nothing about the world known heart throb all she knows are things every backstreet fan knows, which is nothing personal. All she knows are the facts of nick carter. The relality is she knows absolutely nothing else about him, So what is there to seperate her from every other lurker, every other girl out there? Nothing she knows nothing truly special she may have had a glimpse of his heart, but it was just that a glimpse a gander. Nothing personal. All she knows is she loves him and thought that he loved her, but at what point does love stop being enough, what is the breaking point. When is love just not enough?

"Sweetie, you come here every single day for the past month and just sit there and stare at your coffee, you never even sip at it. Is everything okay?"

Keira was snapped out of her thoughts and she stared at the beautiful lady obviously the result of a great plastic suregon or maybe she just has really amazing genes. "When does love stop being enough."

The ladys who's name tag read martine had the most elegant looking eyes she has ever seen. It was like looking into the ocean she was very calming and her voice was so soft she said something that lit up her heart. " Sweetheart if its really love, then it should always just be that. Enough. Because anything less isn't love and your just fooling yourself."

"Well sweetie im sure we will chat again soon, but I need to go and pick up my daughter. It was great talking to you, just remember that. It should never stop being enough no matter what if you truly love someone and they love you. You should be able to work though everything and any possible problem you have."

Keria smiled and said to simple words that make you feel just that much better about yourself when your feeling down. Besdies the other 3 words woman always Love to hear 'you look great', But 'Thank you'

"No need sweetie it was my pleasure."

Martine smiled and like she entered Kerias life she was gone just as fast, but leaving her with words of great wisdom, words that should be published, but I guess anyone in love would know thats the answer. Keria found she was just a fabrication love, it wasn't the real thing was it?

Keria took a deep breath inhaling the sweet exilerating aroma of coffee and chocolate. She got up off the cafe bar stool, and walked over to a booth where she could maybe quite possibly have a little privacy. Possibly close to the restrooms incase she felt the inscessant need to vomit.

This cafe has been like a milestone To Keria's life. It was where things first started happening for her, its where she ran away from her small town in the massive country Canada when she found out she was pregnant with Nick carters child. Its where she found her first friend and confident someone she could trust and talk too. Its where she first met Andrea at the time, Andrea was working at this cafe. Keria remembered it like it was yesterday...

**Flashback**

Keria walked into the cafe and the bells chimed, it was a very quaint and safe looking place nothing like the other places she walked into. She walked into a place called "Wet Knickers" Kerias small town vulnerbility kicked in she thought it was a bathingsuit store. She was being shouted obsenites by all the men, there were even some women shouting comments at her. She was sure they had to do with something sexual, but she wasn't so sure people think Canadians have an accent they sure as hell haven't been to Australia. Keria shook her head at the thought, she thought it was funny that she cracked some guy in the jaw though. She was pregnant and they tried to get her to get up on stage, to dance by the name of Kiki!

Keria walked in and she was instantly greeted by the sweet smell of chocolate and exilerating aroma of coffee. **Sweet Aroma** was the name of the cafe. they sure were right maybe it was because Keria was 6 months pregnant that everything just smelled right, like she was at home sitting in Grandmas kitchen. Most of all she felt comfortable there, all the signs were true its just like grandmas kitchen. Once you visit, you never want to leave. That was their slogan.

Keria took a deep breath as soon as she waddled her way over to bar stool number 99, and took another deep breath. She was quickly interupted by someone snapping their fingers.

"ahhh there it is, the smile it took you long enough. Heres your picture." The waitress chuckled.

Keria looked and blonde green eyes beauty, she looked like someone right out of a magazine or on entertainment tonight. Keria took the picture out of the girls perfectly manicured hands "Umm, Thanks".

"Its a Tourist attraction, its true though everyone who makes that little bell chime and step foot in here. They always come back, I have asked a few and they said its the smell. The lady who owns this place made a fortune, before she opened up this place she took off her knickers. Now her Knickers are worth millions. The names Andrea, what can I get for you?"

Keria laughed " Tourist Attraction? I guess so. Names Keria umm whats good here?"

"Hun, you should't drink anything here. Everything here is either loaded with so much caffiene or their are little shots of baileys or kahula. Its all good though. I'll give you a lemonade on the rocks its on the house."

"Thank you." Keria smiled.

"Its my job Keria, so what brings you here? I mean you dont really sound like your from around here. No offense but you look a little lost!"

Keira stiffled her laughter " Mmm, yea I am a little lost, but im sure I will find my way."

Andrea nodded and said the lemonade on the rocks in front of her, stuck a straw in. "your going to need a place to stay my boyfriend is gone and im not used to staying alone. So you can stay with me."

"Ohh really I dont want to impose, its fine really besdes i barely know you, its crazy." Keria stated a little un-sure of herself.

"No, whats crazy is you travelling here from where ever it is your from, obviously very pregnant, with no wheres to stay. Alone. Thats whats crazy. I get off work in a few hours i'll be off work you can stay with me."

That was that they have been there for eachother ever since that fatefull day in sweet aroma. Keria never really ever showed andrea how much it meant to her, but it meant more than she will ever know.

Keria sat down and moved away from her stool 99, she was now in booth 23 her lucky number. It was the day Maddie was born, maddie was born on febuary 3rd. Keria had to do what she had to do here, it was where she felt most comfortable.

It rang a few times and rang before someone picked up "Hey, Nick its Keria."

"Who?" Issabelle smacked her gum, nick just came home and got in the shower and left his cell phone on the counter.

"Keria, the name is Keria!! Keria said annoyed can you please just tell Nick I called."

nick walked out of the shower in just a towel, and came down to get his cell phone and lock himself in the guest room and put in ear plugs and watch the T.V on mute anything was better than listening to his ex wife moan and groan with other men. Nothing pissed him off more, cause in the past year they maybe had sex 5 times. Now she screws everything with a penis, excpept him hes not going down that road. He saw Issabelle was on his phone.

"Keria, You can tell him yourself here he is." Isabelle haned Nick the phone almost dropping it in the sink on purpose.

"Nick its one of your hoes". Isabelle smirked.

"Issabelle, F*ck off. Wait you do that anyway." Nick Sneered.

"Now, Now Nicky is that anyway to talk to your wife."

"When my wife is a whore yea its the only way, you know what dont worry I'll be out of MY house soon."

"Good cause me and sam are having a toga party and we both think it would be a little awkward for you to be here."

"Whatever, can you please leave." Nick rolled his eyes.

Kerias heart was pounding and she was getting agitated "HELLO, **** IT NICK".

Nick was having a hard time holding the towel and talking on the phone at the same time, he was mystified by how women do it cause they have boobs they need to cover. " Hey Keria, Its Nick I just really needed to talk to you, im sorry about how we left things. Im sorry."

Keria grimaced at what she was about to tell Nick. " Me too, but ummm...listen theres something I need to tell you."
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Nick could here the un-certainty in her voice something he has never heard from Keria ever. A Tone Never, not even when he found out she was lying to him. Her Voice was never more raspy and shaky and strong ever. It frightened him. Nick took a deep breath, and walked out of the kitchen he really couldn't take another run in with Isabelle today or any other day for that fact. So he walked out side grabbed his towel with one hand and dipped his feel in the pool, sometimes just the feel of water burrying deep between his toes was enough to Relax him.

Nick let out his deep breath, and stared directly into the sun, and he found himself muttering. "Okay, Ker Go on im Listening". Nick waited for her to say something just as he was about to coax her further.

He heard her shaky voice come on the phone, and he was sure he heard sniffiling. "Nick, please know that what im going to tell you I thought it was the best decesion for everyone at the time. Espeically maddison and I never meant for any of this to happen to anyone. Im a life Ruiner." Keria sobbed.

Nick heard Keria hyperventalating over the phone... " Shhh, keria Babe you need to breath okay. Whatever it ism its not worth your tears. I promise you that okay. You dont need to tell me hunny, but it might make you feel better."

"Nick- you, you You really don't understand it is that bad, and-and I never meant to hurt you. I th-Though- Thought it was best for everyone in the situatuon. Please dont hate me, I really dont think I could handle that right now."

"Shhh, Keria its okay whatever it is I Promise I could never hate you. Or any part of you, We may not be together but it doesn't mean I still dont love you. I just can't be with you right now." Nick tried to console Keria over the phone, what he would give to be in her arms right now. Run her a warm bath to calm down, rub her back while she cried. He cant do that anymore thats not his place anymore.

"I know Nick and im Sorry". Keria sniffled "Okay here it is Nick, You can hate me all you want but you shouldn't-"

As much as Nick tried to ignore the call waiting it kept beeping in. It was Howie it must be important for him to call me times in the past 15 mins.

"Keria hun, Hold that thought okay im really sorry to do this but Howie is on the other line and i tried to ignore it but it must be important. Stay on the line we can talk as soon as Im done I'll be as quick as I can."

Keria was quickly loosing her nerve not as if she ever really had it in the first place, she was quickly loosing what ever edge, that was brought down to tell Nick he has a little girl. She now thought it was better un-said and to find some other man to claim maddie as their own someday. Or maybe maddison will just forget about it if she puts it off and give up. HA, Keria laughed out loud like that would ever happen. She is Nick carters daughter and my daughter we have to be the most persistant, and Stubborn people I know. I mean hell Maddie has no chance in hell not to be. Keria giggled at the last part.

She wished that Nick was there to see their little girl grow up into the cute little 3 year old she is, to hear her first word which was Daddy. To see her walk her first steps. To help calm her when maddison had a temp. of 103 and raising by the minute. Just to be there, so she didn't have to do everything alone. Even though Andrea and Natalie have always been their for her, in all sense of everything she was alone. Theirs nothing like having the babys father their for all those great things to have that special rock to lean on. To have a bond that only the 2 of you will ever understand because you created something so elegantly yours.

Keria sighed as she heard no sign of Nick clicking over, she needed to tell him and she was going to tell him she just wasn't sure if over the phone was the right way. Or if their really ever was going to be a right way. Keria sighed "Nick hurry"

"Howie, Whats going on?" Nick asked slightly annoyed walking back into the house to see Issabelle makin out with the gardener again. He made himself a glass of vodka and orange juice and headed back outside.

"Jeez, Nick get your pants back on. when are you going to learn its not all about you Nicky."

"They are on Howie, I was just talking to Keria." Nick laughed "Dude whats going on you seem all flustered."

Howie laughed " Man, flustered just doesn't cut it, me and tonya found out that the place where we booked our wedding was over booked, everything sime freakin dumbasss booked 2 weddings in one day. Since our wedding wasn't the first one booked. The only available time they had is sunday."

Nick practically choked on his ice cube "Sunday"

"Yea this sunday Nick which is good that you are talking to miss. Keria I wasn't sure if you were on speaking terms cause whenever u are having women problems everything just isn't right with you. Anyways thats neither here or their its good your talking cause one of Tonya's Bridesmades can't make it this weekend so we are short a bridesmade."

"And you want her to be a bridesmade?" Nick questioned finally getting it

Howies silence said it all "Howie I dont know if thats such a good idea, I mean Keria has obligations and she has a little girl, and were speaking but we are not really speaking you know what I mean. I think she was just about to tell me she is seeing another guy when you called. Just Man Howie, dude I dont think, wow I will see what i can do."

"Thanks Nick, none the less im really looking forward to meeting her, she seems like she is a pretty big part of your life these days. according to all the tabloids and stuff" Howie laughed but he knew as well as anyone else tabloids sometimes do hold the inner truth.

"Yea, she is, I mean was she is definately someone important to me, I just don't think we work well as a couple, their was a lot of lies and I can't be lied to anymore."

"Well you know what maybe their are reasons as to why she lied, maybe you should try to figure out what they are. Thats why I lie sometimes to protect something or someone." Howie smiled.

" Anyway little brother I got to go I have lots of phone calls to make, she can bring her little girl im sure it would keep Bailey entertained at least a little. The Tickets are already at the airport for you guys, you fly out late friday evening, and early saturday morrning you need to get there or Keria has to get there to have the adjustments made on the dress. We need lots of help setting up and decorating and stuff, cause we couldn't find a decorator on such short notice. Im sure with all the girls and all of our backstreet team we can do something." Howie said all jumbled in one breath.
"Howie, I don't know if I can get her there". nick said with his voice full of

"Its a free trip to the freaking bahammas I dont care if you have to promise her thor for life man, you need to get here there. I can't take this Tonya breaks down into tears every 20 mins saying how everything is ruined and were doomed. You need to get there there. I will see you in the sunny bahammas early saturday morrning, Bye Nicky."

Nick chuckled he has never seen this side of Howie before so in power and demading the trump is comming out in him.

Nick laughed " Keria, Hello Keria."

Keria grimaced at how happy he sounded and she knew she was going to sweep that happiness right out from under him. "Hey Nick im still here."

Nick smiled " Good, because Howie was having a crisus and you are just the one to fix it."

Keria rolled her eyes " Me, how can I help, I dont even really know Howie"

Nick took a deep breath "So here it is, Howie's wedding got over booked so they needed to move up the wedding. Doing so People can't make it impotant people. like a bridesmade. So really they dont know you, but Tonya needs someone to stand up there. so thats where you come in I know its short notice, but hell its a free trip to the bahammas. Maddison can come too. Im on my laptop right now in my room and im booking tickets for you to fly to my house and i'll be at the airport to pick you and maddie up, tonight. Im not taking no for answer Keria, you owe me this much. If you dont come its just something else for the guys to blame on me, besdies you were suposed to come anyways so whats the different of 2 weeks." Nick ranted.

"Nick, so whens the Wedding?" Keria kicked herself for even asking.

"Sunday, this sunday" Nick stated back.

"This sunday Nick are you Crazy?" Keria got up from the table she was sitting at signed her name on the recipt mouthed Thank you and left.

"Nick I cant take maddie out of her classes."

Nick chuckled " Its preeschool Keria, im pretty sure 3 days isn't going to hurt her we will be back wednesday the earliest it might end up being 5 days it depends we can stay at the bahammas for week, where they messed up the wedding the hotel is giving everyone of the guests 2 extra days to stay on top of the 3. Basically Keria think of the less stress your putting the bride in on her wedding day." Nick was pulling everything to get her to say yes, if he had to go as low as make her feel guitly that was what he had to do.

Keria rolled her eyes "Nick guilting me isn't going to make you get your way, but I will do it as long as when we get there we talk about some stuff."

Nick made a kissing noise into the phone "Aww, you know I love you Keria, you made Howie the happiest man alive right now, until his and tonyas wedding day im sure." Nick chuckled.

"Yea, Yeah" Keria smiled it was going to be nice to see Nick, she missed him.
she missed hearing his laugh and seeing his gorgeous smile and his bright eyes light up when he got excited.

"You know Keria we will definately talk, and if what you wanna tell me that has you so upset is you found someone else, or your getting back with Kerias dad im all for it. I wasn't ready for all the Keria marie girlfriend drama.and I know im not ready to play daddy, especially playing the part someone else is suposed to be playing. I do love you though, I really do. I think talking will do us some good. Well sweetie thank you for everything and ill see you soon"

Nick hung up the phone and whispered. "Lies, All lies im more than ready, I just can't let her know how much she hurt me"

Nick decided to go out and pick a few things up for Kerias and maddies guest rooms. He still remembered the stuff keira liked, and he was going to wing it with maddie. He just wanted to show Keria how much all of this meant to him.

Keria was trying to absorb the words Nick had just told her. The words kept running in her head " Not ready to be playin someone elses part" little did Nick know that was his part.

Keria whiped the tear from her eyes, and put the phone back in her pocket and hung up all her dreams she had for her and Nick. Opened her arms and looked at the spitting image of her daddy came running in her arms and closed her arms tightly around young little maddison C. Marie!!

Nick Watched the clock in confusion, he wasn't really sure if he wanted the clock to move forward anymore. He wasn't sure what it was going to be like to see Keria, and he definately wasn't sure if he was ready to see Keria Play Mommy. He wasn't sure if his heart could feel anymore love for her. He was just talking to Brian last night about it, he basically told him he was crazy, and should let fate take its course. Brian was a man of faith, and if it were meant to be it would be. Nick was a Realist, of course he has been very lucky and the big guy upstairs has been very good to him. Somethings you just can't wait to happen you need to make it happen. So as Nick watches the clock move forward he gets that familair fluttering feeling in his stomach hes not sure if he welcomes that feeling, or he just wantes it to leave all togehter, including the young lady and her daughter that are going to be arriving in the next 30 mins.

Nick took a deep breath, and wanted nothing more but to light up a cig, and inhale the toxins, that are so over whelming soothing and calming. That none of the warnings in the world are going to change your mind at that moment and time. He looked around the Airport for any bar, or designated area that allowed smoking. Allowed him to calm down for those pure 5 mins of bliss, no such luck, so he had to rely on a three dollar pack of gum. Nick hasn't been this nervous in a real long time the first show back from his "little vacation" Other words rehab, and the day he married the wicked b*tch of the south. Nick's mind snapped out his trance, when he heard them announce their flight number. Flight 403 direct flight from Austrailia arriving at gate 37

This is it Nick thought.....

"Maddie, baby you need to wake up sweet girl." Keria stiffiled a yawn.

"Mmm, no mommy 5 more mins." Maddie snuggled into the pillow and blanket, she cuddled with.

Keria laughed at how much like Nick Maddie was, Keria remembered a morrning with Nick one of the best memorys she has of him. Keria couldn't help but smile.

Keria hated morrnings more than anything, especially after just falling asleep a few minutes before. God **** alarm clock she thought. Of course the Alarm, was on Nicks' side of the bed. So she was just about to reach over and shut it off when Suddenly Nicks head goes under his pillow, with a loud huffing sound and Nicks fist comes in contact with the alarm clock and instead of it sounding like a normal beep, it now sounds like a dying cat or sheep or something along the lines. It was the most awful sound.

Nick pulled Keria under the pillow with him, and wrapped his arms around her tight, it was at that moment she knew she fell head over heels for the man laying next to her. It was that moment she knew he felt the same way.

Nick smiled sheepishly "It's a little quieter under here."

Keria smiled " Uhh, what world are you living in Nick. Its probably quieter on the streets in NYC than it is in your bedroom right now. Your right though it is nice under here."

Nick held her just a little tighter " Im glad you see things my way." With his free hand he brought it to her forehead and traced the curve of her face with his finger. "I could get used to this." Nick half sighed.

Keria giggled " You could get used to that noise?"

Nick laughed "nah, that has got to go. I could get used to waking up next to you." Nick leaned in and kissed her eye-lashes.

"Mmm, me to babe". Keria opened her eyes to see Nicks blue eyes, gazing intensely at Kerias full pouty lips.

Nick leaned closer to keria and moved his hands from tracing the curves of kerias body, and pulled the pillow off their head, and he pulled her on top of him. "Uh huh" Nick smiled and captured her lips with his own. Making them connect on a more personal and some may say more intimate level.

The Alarm got quiet all of a sudden then out of no where made this really loud high pitched noise which caused Keria and Nick to both jump out of their skin. Nick ended up biting Kerias lip, making her already swollen lips bruise, with the indents of Nick carters teeth. Which made Keria jump up in pain, which made nick jump up to apologise, and they ended up banging heads, which gave them both a concussion, needless to say they had some fun trying to keep eachother awake.

The memory faded away for Keria like the sun going behind a cloud it would always be there, but needed to stay hidden for the clouds to roll in. The Sun would always shine brightly when needed though, enough to make you smile.

keria smiled at the memory, when she opened her eyes from her little blast from the past. She saw Maddie looking at her like she was from a completely different planet. Somedays Keria felt she was, this moment and time was definately one.

"Mommy, Mommy take my hand I dont like this part..." Keria shut her eyes tightly. Keria noticed she wasn't breathing.

Keria rubbed her back " Maddie, Sweetie! Everything is going to be okay you need to take deep breaths okay.

She felt her little girl ease at the sound of a mothers voice, her voice. In those few seconds the plane was landing she felt, like a failure as a mother. She was suposed to protect her daughter from all the evils the world has to daughter to teach her and guide her to do whats right. Here she is 3 years old almost 4, very intelligent for her age. She has lied numerous times to her. The one thing that would make her little girl complete is the one evil she can't keep her away from anymore. Her Father! By the end of this trip Nickolas Gene Carter, was going to know the truth.

"Can I open my Eyes, now?" Maddie asked through ragged breaths.

"Sure, if you want to Maddie." Keria laughed as she watched maddie open her eyes just quick enough, to say she blinked.

"Mommy my ears hurt...Mommy maddie cried hysterically. Mommy make the pain go away."

"Maddie hunny, you need to chew the gum I gave you, chew it really hard and just keep swallowing. Okay".

She noticed maddies facial expression changing to a somewhat calmer one, she still looked in pain. she was no longer screaming anymore.

The plane finally landed, as the wheels screeched to a hault. You could almost feel the tension on the plane leave. As people started getting out of their seats, and turned on all of the electronic devices, and the once deafly quiet plane was now alive and awake.

"See Baby you did it, you were such a good girl." Keria smiled and grabbed maddies hand, as she grabbed her carry on bag

Maddies eyes lit up, and she saw just how Nicks eyes lit up..Father like daughter. "Good enough for Ice Cream?"

Keria laughed in that sense maddie was definately her daughter, Ice cream always makes everything better even if it is just for those few short moments.
"Definately good enough for Ice cream."

"Alright maddie I need you to stay put for just a second, dont talk to any strangers or anyone okay. while I get our bag okay. "

Okay mommy"

Nick was able to get in, it was good having airport connections, he didn't feel it was right to tell Keria over the phone. But she was definately going to need a body guard or some one watching over them. Everyone knew about Her and Nicks' little love affair. Many people suported their relationship, but the majority had hate sites about them and their little 2 month fling. He wanted to get as close as possible to warn her and their daughter of camera flashes.

He watched Keria tug her cary on bag behind her and watched her laugh and smile about something with her little girl. His heart ached he still didn't know why she shut the most beautiful part of her life away from him. He didn't know why all the lies where there but he was ready to get to the bottom of it and see if maybe Brian was right, maybe she was protecting herself or her daughter from something. The more he thought about it, the more it made sense, but why couldn't she trust him. Those were questions he was hoping to have the answers to by the end of this week.

He watched them from a distance completely, The innocent bystanders having no Idea they were being watched. Nick walked over to Keria and got to her eye level, after doing so with Bailey all the time. He knew that Bailey always wanted ice cream after flying. So he walked over to her grasping the ice cream in his hand as a peice offering, hell maybe it was a bribe he wasn't sure. "Hey, Maddison im a friend of your mommys. My name is Nick. Your going to be staying with me. I got you some chocolate Ice Cream I hope you dont mind."

Out of no-where maddison started screaming and Keria went running towards the scream, she saw maddie being picked up and the man started walking faster. Keria felt the anger brun deep within her, and the tears welled in her eyes, her heart felt like it was going to beat out of her chest, and her feet couldn't carry her fast enough. She saw them sit down and keria snuck up on him, and motioned for maddie to be quiet.

Nick noticed maddie looking at someone so he turned around and just as he did, Nick got sucker punched right in the jaw. "**** it, what in the hell is your problem lady." Nick stood up and looked right into the eyes of Keria.

"Keria what the hell?" Nick asked he tried flexing his jaw.

"Funny, Nick I was just about to ask you the same thing. What in the hell are you doing. Taking my daughter Nick. She doesn't even know who the hell you are. My god Nick. You scared me half to death. What in the hell where you thinking?" Keria sat down at the un-even table and put her head in her hands.

"Nick, do you have any idea how scary that was. and must of been for her. I heard her scream Nick. I just left her for a second and I turn around and shes gone, I see her being litterally carried away. God, Nick what if that wasn't you. what if it was some sick perverted guy taking my daughter away. Ohh god Nick im a horrible mother.

Maddie watched her mother break into tears yet again, and she licked her ice cream and watched the strange man that brought her the yummy treat. Try to make her mothers tears stop.

"Shhh, keria its Not your fault. Im sure you are a great Mom." Nick Rubbed her back in soothing circles to console her.

"A great Mom wouldn't just leave her 3 year old daughter standing there, I mean- " Keria gasped and put her hand over her mouth, it couldn't of been anyone Nick. Thank god it was you."

Nick sighed "Okay, well it wasn't the smartest thing, but you know what everything is okay, and we need to get some rest we have a I can only imagine hectic and eventful weekend. I mean Howie was really freaking out today, So I don't even wanna know, what he is going to be like this weekend.

Keria rolled her eyes "Nick, How can you say that, just forget about it."

"Easily" Nick turned her around and pointed to maddie licking the ice-cream cone, she had chocolate smeared all over her face, and she had her stuffed dolphin with her, which she somehow managed to get out of her little dora the exploer backpack. She had Ice cream all over the dolphins face. and she was talking to the bear saying sometthing. Nick and Keria couldn't make it out though from where they were standing. "Keria shes okay, now its time for you to get over it learn from it, and move along."

Keira turned around and hugged him " Thank you, Sometimes its hard being a single mom. you never really have a rock to support you. Just yourself and you think you have to be strong.

"Keria, you are strong, Sometimes you just make things more difficult then they really are. Its one of your best qualities, because you always try to get the bottom of everything and make everything all better, but its also your biggest flaw because sometimes you just don't know when to give up and move along."

"I dont like to give up on things Nick" Keria said a little hostile for the situation.

"Look dont take offense, im just sayin. Shes okay, your okay, Im okay. Lets get going."

Keria was very impressed with Nick having a car seat for Maddie all ready to go, and the careful speed he drove all the way home and how he talked to Keria. It warmed her heart to see them together. 'maybe nick was right, I do make things more difficult maybe what I want and need is in arms reach' Keria pondered her thoughts the whole drive to Nicks house.

Nick sat silent, obeying every road sign, and light signals they have. To make it home in one peice and to keep Keria from yelling at him for driving to fast with a little girl in the backseat. Nick watched her in the rear view mirror as she slept. He snuck peaks he just couldn't shake it, there was something about maddie that he was drawn too. He felt it the first time he looked into her eyes, he felt a connection he wasn't sure if it was for how he feels about Keria or what it was but it scared him, cause it was a feeling he didn't want to go away anytime soon, if ever.

Nick watched Keria "pretend" To sleep he knew when she was really sleeping and when she was faking. Now was definately a non-sleep moment she didn't look peaceful and at ease she looked tense and restless. Nick pulled into his driveway and cut the engine, were here welcome to my kingdom.

Keria looked at nick " Ohh, Now you have done it, Nick she loves every single disney movie out there."

"Well then won't it be nice for her to be in a fairy tale for one night then?" Nick winked.

Nick got out of the car opened the door, and Keira un-buckled her daughter, and nick grabbed Maddies hand.
"Let me to show you to your room princess, then I have a suprise for you."

"Ohhh, yey are you going to tell me your my daddy, or who my Daddy is?" Keria was following closely behind enough and she heard what keria said. Nick was a little in shock.

"Uhh, no im sorry sweetie. I dont know who your dad is, I would like to know too. A pretty little girl like you is going to need someone to keep you away from all the boys when you get older."

Maddie giggled " Silly Nick. I dont like boys. They are yucky and gross."

Nick smiled " Good, now are you ready to see your room and then your suprise?"

Nick took her hand and looked at her cute little face, and her dimpled smile and cute little bunny scrunched nose, and he felt that feeling again, this time it was stronger. Keria noticed the look on Nicks face and her heart all of a sudden felt heavy again. knowing she had to say something. Keria was lost in thought again when all of a sudden Keria heard a high pitched scream, she followed the sound of her daughters voice and what she saw instantly brought tears to her eyes.
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Keria gasped as she felt like her world was caving in around her, most of all she knew she was the reason her world was caving in. She saw the bond that was already starting between Nick. Maddies father but yet a stranger to the young girl. If anyone was to see them together, she was just waiting for someone to come up and say what a lovely family you have, you are a spitting image of your father. Secrets and lies destroy a relationship deteriate it. Everyone knows that truth always comes out in the End. Of Course Keria knows it, Keria has always known it. She just never knew it would be this soon. For she was going to tel Nick the truth this weekend. She has never seen to strangers take so quickly to one another before.

She has wanted so much for this day to come, and she never knew she would feel this empty, over joyed and Broken hearted. She has had many Broken hearts before but this she is carrying the weight for everyone, Nick, her daughter and her self this burden. Now she stands at the door way her mouth covering her mouth with what she is gasping for air, and feeling light headed and just really needs to get out of their before they notice her. All 20 of them. How in the Hell 20 people where inside and she thought that they were still only 3.

She watched as maddies dream came true and her Daddy made it that way. A stranger to maddies world, The Destruction of hers. Nick had somehow managed to get all of the Disney characters to come and have some Brithday cake with Maddie. How Keria forget her own daughters birthday was beyond her she felt like the worse mother ever. Yet Nick made it happen made her daughter probably have one of the best birthdays known to any little girl. Keria watched from the side of the doorway not wanting to be noticed, she needed time to gather her thoughts, she needed to get away she needed air. Hell she needed the biggest shot of something strong...hell maybe half a bottle would do the trick.

Keria watched the content look on Nicks face mixed with an incredible Smile, and The look of shock as maddie squeezed him until Nick said.

" Sweetie your choking me" Maddie Blushed " Im sorry. This is the best birthday present ever. Your the best Uncle Nick."

Nick smiled " Anything for a sweet girl like you, I think you better go over prince charming has something for you." Nick winked. He finally took notice to Keria. Standing in the doorway with tears in her eyes, looking awfully pale.

Maddie Interupted Nicks thoughts " My mommy looks sad, she always looks sad. You make her smile though."

Nick smiled " I thought you were going to Talk to Prince charming, their little girl dont you want to see what he has for you?"

Maddie Giggled and smiled a Smile that Mirrors Nicks " Silly, I told you I'm not allowed to talk to strangers."

Nick ruffled her hair " Well thats a good rule, do you want me to come with you."

Maddie nodded shyly..."Yea, but my Mommy looks sad, maybe shes sad that prince charming isn't here for her. She always told me Cinderella was her favorite fairy tale and she needed to be swept away."

Nick chuckled " You know I think you are very smart, pretty girl. I am looking for my Cinderella always have been." Nick sighed.

Maddie smiled " Well, maybe Mommy is your Cinderella. Cause you seem pretty prince charming to me."

Nick laughed " So what are you in this whole story".

"I am definately the little mouse that helps cinderella get Prince charming." Maddie winked.

Keria watched this whole scene infront of her she knew something was going on, but she couldn't hear it looked like they were conspiring something. Before she knew it, she was standing face to face. To her could of been family.

"Mommy, Mommy look what Nick did for me, he says Prince charming got me something for my birthday, can you believe it?"


Keria looked quizzically at Nick " No, Its just like fairytale baby isn't it."

"Mommy, come on what are you waiting for?"

Keria has become very good acting over the years she plastered on a big fake smile, which now everyone thinks is her Genuine smile. She couldn't remember the last time she smiled the same smile she had when she was maddies age. She guessed Never.

"Nothing, I'm just tired from the flight sweetie. Lets get over their and party like its your birthday" Keria smiled and gave her daughter a big hug and kiss on the head.

"Mommy, you are silly. Who says that anyways?" Maddie laughed.

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It was now hours later and Nick and Keria were cleaning up dishes of Cake and melted Ice Cream. And party hats. While maddie was passed out on Nicks sofa.

"Nick Thank you for this."

"It was nothing really Keria." Nick smiled and whiped away one of her tears " Whats wrong Keria whats up you have been acting, well lets say not yourself all day. I know its not just the flight."

"Nick, I forgot my own daughters birthday. I completely forgot it was her birthday. How could I forget my little girls Birthday. Most of all how could of I now known to tell you the truth about maddie, I lied about her age I lied about it all. Yet your still here. I just dont deserve any of this, I dont deserve my little girl. This, you. I dont deserve your compassion. Or you whiping away my tears. I went though hours and hours of labor, yet I can't remember only a few years down the road, how the greatest gift of my life blessed me for life. Us, how could Of I ruined this bond we have a by a lie."

Keria was gasping for air and hyperventalating now. Nick had a paper bag he found, leading her to the chair kneeling in front of her. "Shhh Breathe, take deep breaths keria thats the way. Calm down everything is okay."

After Keria regained her composure "Nick, are you great at everything you do?" Keria asked baffled.

"Naw, I have just calmed down lots of fans before, sometimes it back fires and caused them to pass out though cause im super sexy." Nick joked.

Keria laughed " Yea well when your right, you are right."

"Really you think im Sexy?" Nick raised his eyebrows.

"You will never know, anyways thanks for being their Nick. You really are going to make some little girl a lucky one. You will be the best dad you will spoil her or him rotton im sure. Look what you did for maddie and up to a few hours ago she was a stranger to you. How did you know it was her birthday today anyways...

"That picture you showed me one time had a birthday on the back, i just remembered it. I figured you never lied to me about that too." Nick said the last part with a little more edge than he meant too.

"Im sorry Nick I really Am-"

Nick cut her off " You know what Keria, It doesn't matter how many times you say it. Its not going to change. You made a mistake and thats that. Lets just see if we can get past it. I feel a connection with you and strangely enough to maddie too. Life is to short, I found out early this morrning that a guy i went to school with and talked too over the weekend died. Life is to short, and I maybe want to try and be frienfd hopefully more someday. and Maybe Keria can see me as more than just a uncle."

"Nick, wow! I really Dont know what to say-" Keria Yawned and nick yet cut her off again.

"You know why dont you go upstairs and catch some sleep you look exhausted, and you already hyperventalated I don't need you to pass out too. Dont worry about maddie I got her, I will take her up when im done on the computer, I half to check our flights and see if they are still going to take off tomorrow night.

"Alright, if your sure Nick."

Nick nodded, and watched Keria sleepily walk towards the stairs "Aren't you forgetting something?" Nick asked.

Keria looked around? Ummm...no, Doesn't the hero get a hug or do you only give hugs to princes now?"Nick asked teasing Keria about when prince charming and the other princes hugged her causing her to blush.

Keria walked back over and wrapped her arms tightly around Nick and breathed in the essence that was nick. she whispered in his ears " No, I hug heroes too superman." Keria winked and gave him a kiss on the cheek.

Nick chuckled "Good night Cinderella"

Keria turned around and smiled and went to bed....

After Nick watched the staircase where Kerias presence was he found himself day dreaming about all the times he thought about bringing Keria to his house, his Home. Not some condo on the beach but his actual home where he lives and desisgned his house to best suit his, and well at the time Issabelles taste. For the past few years now it has been his home and after Howies wedding Nick is Looking to buy another house.

None the less Nick found himself thinking of the day he could Carry Keria in his arms and into his bedroom, Nick was smiling thinking about the way he would lay out candles on the each stair of the winding stair case. At the top their would be rose pettals scattered everywheres, leading to the master bath...Nick found himself picturing her lips, on the sensitive part on his neck sending shivers down his spine. It was so real to him it almost wasn't a dream.

Nick made his way over the computer and logged onto America arirlines and went thought the motions of putting in his password and checking all of the flights seeing as they were going to be on time. As nick saw Kerias Name he found his finger trace the letters to her name like it was his thumb tracing keria's cheek bones.

'Why is that I always wind up loving the ones that hurt me, the lieing and dechipftful ones. Why can't I get her out of my head, just the other night I Nick carter Womanizer went to a strip club and some girl I met their apparantly she worked their I really knew nothing about her. All I knew was she had big green eyes and Firey red hair, and a double DD cup size. I guess thats why I asked her home with me, no attachment and what better way to get over someone at least for a littlewhile than to f*ck some random chicks brains out no expectations or commitment. Im sure she probably at least expected me to get it up. Lets just say Nicky Jr. couldn't preform that night he had stage fright. Im not talking about singing either. I know you can't cheat your heart but since when is a guys **** and Heart Attached to one another, I know I love keria but their was one point and time where My **** didn't care who I loved it loved pretty blondes with big boobs silicon filled or not. Nicky jr didn't need to know names or adresses. Now he refuses to prefrom its like hes on strike until hes with Keria or something. Everytime he see's her he gets a little more and more less fightened.'

'Great now im Reffering to my **** as Nicky Jr. which makes me talking to myself in 3 person, maybe its time I paid mr. Quack a visit. I know its funny my shrinks last name is mr. Quack hadn't talked to him for about a year now. This is some bigger issues, than a cheating ex wife. I can't get it up. Not that I dont want too, but as soon as Nicky jr sees miss Keira.He tries to stand at attention. Their gotta be something for my little problem, and theirs no way in hell im gonna go on viagra im sure my grandfather doesn't use the **** hes a carter. We don't need drugs.

"Great, I need sleep...Sleep isn't comming easily tonight." Nick said the last part out loud.

He heard a tiny voice " Why not Uncle Nick, you look sleepy."

Nick smiled to the little girl " Why its sleeping beauty did you sleep well?" He noticed the tears in maddies eyes.

"Maddie sweeite why are you crying? Nick said as he got off of his computer chair and picked her up and carried her back over to the couch "

"I woke up and I didn't know where she was, I didn't know where i was."

Nick wrapped his arms around the fightened girl " Its okay, shh your okay now."

"Wheres mommy I want Mommy." Keria sniffed

"She's asleep do you want me to take you to her." Nick felt hopeless, he knew she must of had a bad dream because she was still shaking, and crying lightly. more like hyperventalating.

Maddison nodded and wrapped her arms around Nicks neck when suddenly, one of his pugs started licking her toe, then the other ones came over and started licking her, jumping up to lick her.

The giggle he heard from maddie was enough to make his heart jump, it brought the biggest smile immaginable to his face. "Maddie, meet my little babies. Coco, pebbles, and lucky." Nick said pointed to each individual pug.

"Aww, they are so cute. I think they are tired too, They yawn just like us."
Then maddie yawned.

"I think you are right pretty girl. Its time we get you up to your mommy, or do you want to go in your own bed now, I can send the pugs in with you, to keep you company if you want too."

"A few minutes later he had Keria all tucked into the room where Nicks little boy or girl was going to sleep before Issabelle lost the baby The room wasn't finished Nick and A.J got the call as they were painting it and bringing in the crib and the new little bed and putting up the little border. It brought tears to Nicks eyes. Maddie was already sleep, but Nick found himself watching her sleep just thinking about the day he was going to have a little boy or girl of his own.

Keria woke up in the morrning searching everwhere for Nick and she couldn't find him then suddenly she saw Nick sitting in a rocking chair fast asleep. She walked over and found an extra blanket at the end of the bed. She made sure maddie was all covered up good, and then she covered up Nick.

"Good night Nick, I love you. God if only you knew the truth."

Nick woke up and stretched a little and tried to snap his neck, it was a little stiff from his night in the chair."

"What truth Keira?" nick asked.

Keria stuttered she can't keep lying to him....

"Nick, uhh theirs something you need to know." Keria took a deep breath and her voice was shaky.

Okay it was now or never....

"Keria what ever it is, we can and will get through it together, I love you. But you obviously have something on your mind. What is it. I love you and i want to be with you, and I would love to know your little girl better. I wan't to be the father she never had.

"Nick, Im Pregnant."

Nick swallowed the lump in his throat and hear he thought, today was just going to be another day. Boy was he wrong.

Nick swallowed the lump in his throat, suddenly he felt very Dizzy and found it hard to speak he stuttered once, He then cleared his throat. "Your What?" Nick asked in the same hushed voice as keria had just used only moments ago.

Nick didn't even have to ask the look on her face said it all "Okay so your pregnant". Nick said to her but mostly to himself, trying to coach himself to stay calm and not freak out, bascially to make it real and just not another figment of the imiagination.

Keria took his hand and lead him out of the bedroom where Maddie was sleeping peacefully. She really didn't want maddie to woken up by all the talk of babies and pregnancys.

Keria was getting a little upset at his little freak outs it has been 15 mins and nick has still been sitting their at the kitchen table polishing the same apple repeating the same words over and over again. 'your Pregnant' She swore if he said it one more time she was going to lose it. Maybe it was the hormones, or the fact that she really wasn't a morrning person. But nick was driving her crazy.

Then he did it " So your pregnant" Nick asked again still in his daze.

"Thats it" Keria slammed her fist down on the table " Yes Nick we have established im pregnant already actually me and the doctors have established it so what do you wanna do about it?" Keria said fusturated taking a big drink of her orange juice. That she freshly squeezed herself, since she got the news text to her from the doctors office at 6:00am this morrning.

Nick took a deep breath " Im sorry Keria I really dont want to ask this question but is it mine?"

"No Nick I just wanted to make you sit their and think its yours. Of course its yours. Your the only guy I have ever slept with and got so caught up in the moment and not used. Ya know protection."

As soon as those words keria keria put her hands over her mouth, she was freaking out. She hoped nick didn't realise the little slip of her tounge. "How is that possible Keria, I mean I can't be the only guy because proof lies upstairs asleep in my guest room." Nick asked confused.

Nick was still giving her that questioning glance then he finally said something that made her heart stop. " Because if that were the truth, that would make maddie my daughter and we all know thats not possible, because I just only met you this year. So you must of meant to say that i have been the only guy you have slept with in awhile."

Keria shook her head " Yea that must of been what I meant to say." All the while shaking her head and screaming at herself to tell nick the truth. Perfect oppurtunity right then and their, and she blew it. She wanted to tell him so bad and she was waiting for the perfect crucial moment. She had it and threw caution to the wind like her and nick did at least to times.

Nick looked at her he really didn't want to say what he needed to ask in his line of work and all of kerias recent lies he didn't want to do it. He knew it would hurt her. A peice of him felt like she was still keeping things from him. He would be lying if he told you he trusted her. Well that would be a lie, because truth be told you don't have to trust someone to fall in love with them.

Nick rubbed his hand through his hair and scratched his chin "I really dont want to ask you this, but with our most recent history I feel I need to. Are you sure that this child your carrying is My Baby?"


Keria gasped "Nick, how in the hell can you ask me that, besides i already told you. That you are the ONLY man i have ever let myself get that carried away with. What do you not believe me Nick? Do you think i wanted to get pregnant again. Do you think I fu*cking trapped you because you are a celebrity because of how much you make. Trust me honey if thats what I wanted from you I could of had it a long time ago."

Nick stood up " Keria what in the hell is that suposed to mean, you could of trapped me a long time ago? What are you getting at!!!" Nick glared at her, waiting for her to say something to clear this up.

"Nick you know what it doesn't matter, you don't believe me thats your right but I know its yours and you calling me a whore. That all i want out of life is money then trust me babe I don't want you to be a the father of my baby."

"Dont put words in my freaking mouth Keria Not once did i say or call you a whore you just assumed and insinuated things that aren't really their. Your, god Keria sometimes your just impossible to talk too." Nick sighed.

Keria tried to calm down " Okay, so you didn't call me a whore, but it doesn't mean that you didn't think it."

"You know what Keria, dont change the subject. The first thought that ran through my head was ' Wow, Im gonna be dad, but wait is she telling me the truth this time. Keria you lied to me about so many things. how do I know that this time your telling the truth huh?" Nick sighed and sat down again. "Keria I want to believe you, but I can't with out proof."

"Fine, you want a paternity test done, we will get one done after Howies wedding. Now if you dont mind im going to check up on MY daughter." Keria pushed her chair away from the table and was about to walk away.

Nick came up grabbed her arm lightly " Look im sorry okay, were not finished here. we still have lots to figure out.

"Like hell we do still have lots to figure out, we have nothing to figure out until you see the results. Im not talking to you anymore about this until then."

Nick turned her around and spung her into his arms like they do in the tango. "Fine if thats the way you want it, but that leaves plenty of room for you to tell me about the whole trapping issue that you were talking about earlier. How, could of you trapped me?" Nick whispered in a hushed tone into kerias ear.

Keria whispered back into his ear and in the process she licked it a little remembering how much it turned him on and tortured him. "No nick now who is putting words in whos mouth all I didn't say anything about trapping you yes i may have mentioned it. But If all i wanted was money I could of had it from you awhile ago. Remember how i was undercover for a tabloid, you would never imagine the stuff i digged up about you that I burned. Because I fell in love with you, Silly me. When am I going to learn to stay away from *******s." Keria stepped on his feet and left.

While she was walking she was swallowing the lump in her throat and the familair burning in her throat most of all she felt her two pools of water brimming to the edge and her vision started to get more blurry with the sound of nicks pleading voice to come back, what hurt most was when she didn't here his pleading anymore but the back door slam, and a car squeal their tires. causing keria to look out the window but all she saw was a puff of smoke.

keria slid down the wall why am I doing this to him to us, I really dont understand this any of this. I dont know why I just can't tell him the truth. I really dont know what the truth is anymore. He has perfect reason to have a paternity test done, god why can't I just say Nick you are the father of my daughter and soon to be son/daughter.

If I tell Nick the truth not only well it tear me and him apart, it will tear me and maddie apart. Most of all it will tear nick and the other guys apart, I know it will. Because they will start taking sides and thats not what any of them need right now on verge of bringing out a new album. Nicks going to know the truth that maddie is his little girl, but he can't know the whole truth it will break him apart inside.

Nick promised himself he was going to quit smoking, he knew it was bad for him in every possible way and with a career as a singer and an entertainer he knew it was even worse for him, and he was not only letting his himself down, but his bandmates and most of all the the more than faithful fans. As kevin reminded him. Right now he didn't give a flying F*ck, he just found out he was going to be a dad. Keria she drove him so crazy it almost turned him on, which drove him even more crazy because he didn't want to be with her. Mostly because he doesn't know who in the hell "She" is. He doesn't even know if shes really pregnant.

Nick rolled down his window to get some fresh air, and let some of the posionus toxins out of his car after all he was going to have a little maddie in their and he didn't need her to get all choked up. Nick had no idea how long he was sitting at the now green light. Until he heard horns and obsene comments being yelled at him. He even got called a grandma. Which pissed him off even more so he raced this little 16 year old with 2006 mustang, sure profits of Daddys money.

Nick looked in the review mirror to get in the next lane to catch up with the little Prick, and what did he see. The little blue and red flashing lights, Nick pulled over and rolled down his window and already had all of the nessecary papers for him.

"Ahh Mr. Carter, Nice to see you again." As soon as nick heard that voice he ran his hands though his hair. This was the guy that called the tabloids and made a pretty penny over one of Nicks many mistakes.

Nick rolled his eyes his voice dripped with scarcasm " Yea, always a pleasure".

"Mr. Carter are you aware of how fast you were going?"

Nick sighed " No, Im kind of having a bad day, im not in the mood to deal with you right now. So can you please just give me my ticket and let me be on my way. Like any other normal person."

The officer nooded and handed nick his $450.00 speeding ticket, then he said. "You know what I can make this disapear and all of your other speeding tickets that your lawyer must of forgot to pay for you. Which would give you a clean slate, if you give me $10,000 in cash."

Nick looked at him and shook his head " You arrogant Son of a B*tch, grabbed his ticket out of the officers hand and drove off."

Nick was mumbling obsenities to himself, Then all of a sudden nicks phone rang. He smiled at the number "Aaron, how are you doing?"

"Im doin good, Look Man. Are you Aware that some Chick, and a little girl. That I must say looks like she has some carter in her. Dude she looks almost a little identical to you. Are you aware that they are in yours and Issabelles home?"

Nick chuckled " Yea, I know they are, Keria is the Chick your referring too. and the little girl is Her daughter."

"Ohh, well that explains the strangers in your home, but that doesn't explain why that little girl looks like you."

Nick rolled his eyes " You know I never really noticed. Anyways why the phone call I mean i haven't heard from you in a couple of weeks and now you decide too call, let alone show up at my house."

"Were Family, Do I really need an invite?" Aaron took a swig of Nicks last corona in the house.

Nick smiled and banged his head to some 80's rock, he was sure the old lady in the car next to him thought, he was a devil child. He chuckled at her expression. " No, Aaron you dont need an invite, just normally you only come to visit when you and your wifey are having troubles. Speaking of when am I gonna be an uncle?"

Aaron laughed " Dude, your getting old. Do you really not remember. You asked me to house sit for you while you went to Howies wedding." Aaron looked quizical at the phone thinking his brother has lost it.

"Ohh, **** thats right. Im sorry Aaron things have been well crazy to say the least. I completely forgot you were comming."

"Yea, obviously well whatever it doesn't matter im here now. So whats the scoop on you and the pretty lady downstairs, and where is your wife?"

Nick laughed " Well things with Keria are complicated and lets just leave it at that. My wife is probably off frollicking with the pool boy, or the gardener or some other man that speaks a foreign language, or has a ****. Whatever comes her way first!

"You sould bitter! Are you alright big Brother?"

"Yea Im fine Aaron look im just gonna pick up some milk for Keria and maddie for Breakfeast cause im almost positive that we are out. Then i'll be home."

"Alright, Dude why you are out pick up some more Beer, I drank your last one."

Nick rolled his eyes " Always stealing my stuff, see ya in a few."

Aaron came out from outside and saw Keria staring at her hands sitting at the table and saw maddie watching T.V quietly, and brushing her dolls hair. He waited for her to say something but Keria was in a completely different world zoned out some how.

" Hey, Im Aaron Nicks brother". Keria shook her head and finally noticed someone was talking to her, Keria recongized him from various pictures Nick had scattered around the house.

"Hi" Keria said shyly " I'm Keria and that little munckin sitting over their is my little girl Maddie." Keria smiled.

Aaron like her their was a certian kindness about her, to be honest when he first saw tabloids of her with his Brother. He was pissed, he didn't know how marriage could mean so little to some people.

Aaron smiled " Yea I know, I called Nick to make sure he knew people were here this one time I came over and Their were these to Naked girls doing Nicks dishes. For a minute I thought I died and went to heaven, but then quickly realised they were just some crazy fans. They thought I was nick, so they came over and kissed me. Nick was away on the never gone tour I think he was in Germany or something. It was funny, I just told the girls to leave." Aaron laughed.

Keria laughed " Mmm, Nick always the ladies man." Aaron noticed the far away look on kerias face. He waved a hand up and down to get kerias attention.

"Hey hun, are you okay?"

"Mmm, yea well I think im going to grab maddie and take her to beach, take advantage of this beautiful weather. It was nice meeting you, hope we can talk again soon."

Aaron smiled "Im sure you can count on it. If I made you un-comfortable, Im sorry Nick is going to be home really soon."

Keria giggled " No, Not at all. Just want to take advantage of the beautiful weather and Well I just need to clear my head a bit. Get out of the house. Take the grand tour of Nicks back yard."

"Okay, Well talk to you later." Aaron turned around and grabbed something and chucked it at her. "I was saving this for myself and hiding it from Nick. I think you may need it more though".

Keria caught the flying object and noticed the label right away it was blue and gold and said " Corona". "Im sorry Aaron, as much as I would love to drink this I cant."

Aaron looked at her funny $hit did i offer a beer to a recovering alcoholic again'? "Sorry, why can't you drink it.

"Cause shes pregnant with my baby." Nick sat down his groceries consiting of coca pebbles a 2 gallaon jug of milk, and a 12 pack of corona. He took a corona and drank it all in one gulp. looked at the sleeping girl on the coach, and noticed for the first time just how much they looked alike.
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The Words were ringing in nicks head over and over again. Him saying it was making the situation real, it was no longer just words he heard everyone else say.'I'm gonna be a dad' and Secretly wish that for once in his life he could be saying those words instead of Kevin, Brian, A.J and all the rest of his friends that took the plunge and settled down. Now Nick was saying the words and it felt great but at the same time, it felt wrong their was nothing traditional about it. Their was no talk of marriage. Although Nick thought about it a lot at one point and time. There is no denying he loves Keria and probably always will. He just can't trust her and thats a big part of a realtionship to him.

Nick cracked open another Corona chugged it down and left to go have a shower and his thoughts. Nick left the uncle and mother together Aaron was just about to pour a bowl of cereal when Nick annouced that keria was pregnant with his baby. Now Keria was sitting on the other side of Aaron waiting for him to say something. Now it was Kerias turn to wait!

"So your the lucky lady thats going to make me an Uncle, huh?" Aaron smiled the way he saw it Nick was probably putting enough pressure on her.

"Uhh, yea I guess so. That would be me" Keria smiled and took a bite of the cereal she just poured for herself.

"So I take it Nick didn't take the news well." Aaron asked like they have been old friends for a long time now.

"Yea well i think well is an Understatement, he accused me of lying and this not being his baby that im carrying."

Aaron looked up at her " Well, do you not think he has reason to? I mean from what I understand you guys haven't been together too, too long. You were seperated for a couple months, and you lied to him about some stuff. So do you not think he has good reason to doubt that this baby is his."

Keria looked at him, like she couldn't belive those words just came out of his mouth. " Look do you have any idea what this is doing to me? I know I made mistakes but this un-born child is NICKS, he is a carter through and through. Like it or not he is as much of a carter as you are. I am not even 30 yet and i already have a little girl, and another baby on the way." swallowing her tears, and the stinging in her eyes.

Aaron stood up and walked over to her and tried to hug her but she put her hands up. "Nooo, Dont Aaron, Please Dont. you had every reason to say what you said, just don't."

Keria got up and left the table and walked out the back door to get some fresh air. clear her mind!

Nick came down the stairs and saw Aaron and Maddie playing Mario Kart. For Maddie being 5 years old just yesterday she was making Aaron take a run for the money.

"Hey guys whos winning?" Nick smiled at them and laughed when maddie made Aaron go off the road by hitting him with 3 shells.

"Hey thats no fair" Aaron laughed Maddie hunny im done, how about you pratice a little more.

"Excuse me mr. I just pullmerized you I think you need to prac-practice." Maddie stuttered just as 5 year olds do sometimes.

Nick laughed " Thats right maddie, give it to him."

Nick and aaron went over and sat at the kitchen table nick sighed. "I could really use a toke right now".

Aaron laughed " I bet you could, your staying away from all that stuff though right?"

"Ohh, yea I am. Times like these though its hard. Some people can smoke up like nothing. But i can't it will lead to other drugs the only thing i can do is drink. But i dont wanna become one of those either. The other thing that works is Sex, or used too before I was married to Isabelle and the whole Keria situation."

"Yea, I can only immagine at least your getting Sex."

"Ha, me and Keria only slept together twice, both times we didn't use a condom but she was on the pill."

"Nick, how many times did you lecture me on using a condom cause their are lots of diseases below the belt that are floating around." Aaron laughed and shook his head.

Nick chuckled " Yea I know do as I say not what I do. Seriously though if I could take it back. Having sex with Keria was great Amazing even it just complicated the relationship even more than it already was."

"Yea I get that, but where is your head at. I mean with the buisness that were in, and our profession. You told me so many damn times. Seriosuly you were worse than dad was." Nick just gave his brother the finger in response.

"I dont know Aaron one minute im physced to be a dad, and the next im scared. I find myself wondering what in the hell I was thinking getting involved with Keria in the first place."

Aaron nodded " Well one thing you dont need to worry about is being a shitty father. Cause your going to be a great one and I guess im going to be a more than great Uncle." Nick turned around and wrapped his arms around his brother in one of those back slap hugs.

"Thanks Aaron that really means, well it means so much to me that at least someone supports us."

"Seriously Bro, what made you get with Keria in the first place. When I heard you went to Australia I tired calling and you never picked up. The One time that you did pick up though you sounded happy." Aaron pushed Nick, he had always kept things locked up from time to time. So Aaron tried to get it out of him.

"Yea Thats the thing I just met her and we had a connection from the beginning. I talked to her, but its like I met her before somehow. She gets me like, Nobody ever has. She understands things about me, that took years for other people to understand. I was able to talk to her about things and not worry if shes judging me or going to sell me out, or write a book about me. When shes not driving me crazy, she makes me happy. I love her man, I do. I really do just theirs somethings that I have been through already with past girl friends and Isabelle that I dont want to go through again."

Aaron patted him on the back " Yea, but from what you told me with hilary when she cheated on me with her ex joel. you told me realtionships take work, you just need to talk to one another and work through the bad stuff and if their is still good stuff left than you need to hold onto it. I think thats the best advice I have gotten from anyone. You should take it."

Nick hunched his shoulders " Yea i guess easier said than done though. Speaking of where is Mommy to be anyways?"

Aaron looked all around " Yea I think I might of said somethings to her, and she got a little upset and walked out."

Nick looked at him incrediously " Your just telling me this now!?!" Nick smaked him in the back of his head.

Aaron looked around " What the hell man, one minute your confessing your bortherly love to me and next your smacking me. Honestly when you came in I didn't think you wanted to talk to her the way you said she was pregnant."

Nick looked at him " You know what thanks bro, but i need to talk to her. so can you keep maddie occupied."

Aaron looked at him " Yea of course man."

Nick nodded to him and walked out to find Keria and found her sitting with her hand on her stomach, and tear stains runnind down her face. With her feet dangling in the water, just gazing and thinking.

"Keria" Nick whispered quietly

Still no response " Keria, listen we need to talk about this. I know this isn't easy but just know im here for you and the baby what ever way you need me to be."

Keria bit her lip and still didn't answer Nick.

"Look, okay I guess your not ready to talk about this. I dont know if your packed already or not but we have a plane to catch. If you dont want to go I completely understand."

Nick turned to walk away when keria finally found her voice and confidence.

"I think i want to get a abortion Nick, like I should of all those years ago."

"I think i want to get a abortion Nick, like I should of all those years ago."

Nick couldn't believe the words that were comming out of Kerias mouth. He knew he wasn't being as supportive as he should be, with all do respect he has only known that he was going to be a dad for not even a day. The Words stung him. That was a sentence he never, not in a million years expected Keria to say.

Nick thought back to the day where they were sitting at the beach watching the sunset and nick had his arms wrapped around Keria. They were talking about everything from their favorite kind of Jello, To the Death Sentence. one of the topics they got on to was pregnancy and abortion and what their views were on it and Keria's View on it was strictly No, but as she said she was never put in the positon to do so. which now Nick knew were purely lies. He just never thought he would hear her say those words ever.

Keria watched as she saw the look of shock wash him over " Keria, you dont mean that." Nick stated with a shaky breath.

"Nick, Dont tell me what I mean and what I dont. When you clearly dont have a clue. Im not even 26 yet and I already have one child with another on the way. Im not even married I dont even have a steady job right now. Im barely functioning myself I go to therapy 3 times a week to sort out my problems. how in the hell can I bring another innocent being into my crazy little fucked up world." Keria said through her tears and her shaky breath her whole body was trembling.

Nick walked closer to her and sat down next to her and forced her to look him in the eyes " Look Keria you may think I dont know you, But I do. We may have not known each other for as long as you knew Maddies father. I know you, I know how much you love your little girl. I know how when she smiles you smile right along with her. I also know she is the one that makes you get up in the morrning. You may not have the picture perfect life. But what is picture perfect anyways."

"nick trust me when I say, you don't know me. In all honesty you don't know the first thing about me. If you did im pretty damn sure you wouldn't be sitting here talking to me. As for maddies father I knew him for about the same amount of time as I knew you."

Nick wrapped his arms around her "Keria, stop trying to push me away, because Im not going anywhere. as for you wanting to have an abortion I dont think its the right thing to do. Seeing as I want to be a father and this baby is as much a part of me as it is you. If you do have an abortion you will regret it im sure of it. Your not cold and heartless if you were, we wouldn't be having this conversation in the first place. You would of just done it without even talking to me. Its your body, its your life, and your decesion. Im just asking you not too."

With that nick kissed the top of her head and walked away" Im going to go and get showered and ready and packed we have a wedding to go to if your still interested."

Keria looked up at him with red puffy eyes and saw nicks hand was outstretched, she looked up and grabbed it. "Nick Im sorry, im just really confused and well pregnant and I really dont want to go through this alone again. I just don't feel right being with you like this, when i haven't been 100% honest with you. you deserve more than that, than this. Than us. Then me you Deserve more than me." Keria whispered as they walked with nicks arm around her.

"Babe your not going to go through this alone, im going to help you, not only help you. Im going to be with you 100% of the way. I will go to doctors app. with you, I wont miss a single one. I will do the late night cravings, Baby I will do it all if you let me. Just please give me a chance to be a father. The chance I was robbed of with Issabelle. Please Keria." Nick said with the utmost concerned and pleading voice.

Keria stuttered " Okay, Nick we can have this baby." Keria had tears streaming down her face, and Nick had his own tears he was holding back. Nicks reasons for tears and Kerias reasons were completely different.

Nick picked Keria up and spung her around and kissed her hard on the lips. something he has wanted to do since he first saw her get off the plane " Baby, this is a new begining for us. One where we can be truthful and honest and up-front with eachother. Not afraid of our past, only of our future."

"Nick what was that for?" Keria asked trembling as she touched her lips. "Nick you can't just go and kiss me like that, where not together and after what I tell you after the wedding because I dont want to to ruin this weekend for you.We will never be together okay. Your the dad and I am the Mom. Thats all we will ever be, were not going to be a family."

Keria walked away and left Nick stunned, Nick grabbed Kerias arm and swung her around " Keria, why dont you let me be the judge of how I feel for you, stop pushing away from me and just let whats meant to be, be. Nick said as he moved the hair that was falling into her eyes.

"Why dont you just let me love you, the way I do. Keria I love you god help me I do. Somedays I dont know why I do, I dont how it happened but it did. After Isabelle you were the thing that made me get up in the morrning, you and the boys. But mostly you, you showed me how to love again. I fell in love with you Keria Marie. So why wont you just let yourself go, why wont you say 'I love you too.'" Nick asked pleading with her

Keria took a deep breath
"Nick there are lots of things you dont understand. I can't let myself love you again nick. To only be words. I need love to be more than words Nick. I dont mean a ring, I need to know that after what I tell you this weekend if you will still love me and want to be with me. Do you have any idea what its like to keep a secret Nick and knowing that if this secret gets out, your life will never be the same again?"

Nick moved away from her and shook his head "Why are you pushing me away, Keria?"

Keria bit her lip to keep the tears from falling, so she could remain strong. " Because Nick I dont want to hurt you more than I already have."

Nick spoke up " Don't walk away from this Keria. we are going to spend all weekend together its already going to be awkward just answer me this. Do you love me?"

Keria looked at him and kissed his cheek " Of course I do Nick, more than you will ever know."

"Nick im afraid of you saying the words and then taking them back. Trust me you need more than me."

"Keria, I might need more than you. Im a grown man let me be the judge of what I need and what I dont need." Nick was through being nice and calm he was hurt he finally told her how he felt. She knows from previous conversations how much being a father meant to him.

"Nick please, just please drop this. This isn't the right time or place to tell you. Trust me their are more people at risk here than just me and you. Im not going to give maddie a father for a few days and then him turn around and walk out on her just because he is pissed off at her mother.

Nick shook his head and shouted " KERIA WHAT IN THE HELL DOES MADDIES FATHER HAVE TO DO WITH ME ANYWAYS." Nick softend his voice a little seeing the look of shock written all over kerias face. Getting pissed off at a pregnant lady wasn’t going to help matters any better. “Im not maddies father Keria okay, I will never try to be, and trust me I wouldn’t just waltz into her life and out of it just because of a mistake you made. That’s not fair to her shes a sweet kid and to be honest someday I would love it if she was to call me dad and make me a fathers day card.”

“Okay Nick you know what this conversation is over to much for me in one day you confessing you love me is one thing, you saying you want to be a father to my children is another.”

Nick shuts his eyes in frustration “ I can’t let you walk away from me Keria I love you, and I am going to do everything in my power to prove it to you. That its more than words, I love you is more than words to me.

“Nick I really hope your right because I can’t lose you again for a 3rd time” with that Keria left nick with his thoughts and went to go pack for a weekend in a fairy tale dream.

Nick was left standing out their stunned. He didn't know if it was just the pregnancy or what it was. He was confused to his knowledge him and Keria only broke up twice. I guess they still are broken up, but she really seemed kene on the fact that he was gonna hate her after the big mystery secret came out. Nothing can be as bad as it already was. Or could it?"

"Earth to Nick..."

Nick didn't snap out if it 'Damn what is Kevin gonna say?'

"NICK, I seen the kiss, it wasn't that good man." Aaron chuckled.

"Aaron, how long have you been standing their?"

"Long enough to know that you are whipped man, damn I have been here for almost 5 mins trying to get your attention." Aaron shook her head.

"Yea, no I would have to be with her to be whipped. She made it pretty clear to me that we will never have a future together this weekend is my last weekend to prove to her that I love her, and im just thinking how am i gonna do it. Not to mention im going to have to break it to the boys that Baylee is gonna have a playmate in few months. Holy fuck, im gonna be a Father. Your gonna be a Uncle. What a fucking day." Nick ran his hands through his hair fusturatedly.

"Aaron give me one of those." Nick asked as Aaron was lighting up a Cig."

"I dont know man, but I have never seen you act this way about a girl. Its kinda fucked that im gonna be an unlce but kinda cool. To tell you the truth if i didn't know any better I would say you are already a father. Dont ask me how that would happen. but have you looked at that little girl in their. She looks a lot like you, unless Keria was dating someone Identical to you. I can sware that lil girl in their is yours. you can't look me in the eye and tell me that you dont see it!!!"

"Alright, I do see it. I do but theirs no possible way so please just drop it. I dont need Keria hearing this, and freaking out on me again." Nick said inhaling a little

"How, I could use something a little stiffer than this right now."

"I can seriously see the headlines now Aaron, nick chuckled."

"Nick, the youngest member of the Backstreet boys is walking around with a little girl, and a lady with a bun in the oven. puffing on a joint." *loL*

Aaron laughed " HA, yea what do you got to lose, your image is already fucked"

Nick got up and pushed him in the pool " Thanks for house sitting bro I gotta finish packing though. NO PARTIES!!! Unless they are all weekend long parties and topless ones."

"You got it Bro, tell Howie i say congrats" Aaron shook his head.

"Yea, aaron you keep your hands to yourself you got yourself a good woman, dont fuck it up!" Nick smiled and left.

He came in and from the corner of his eye he saw keria brushing maddies hair and putting it up, and saw them goofing around. It made nick smile. It made him long for the family atmosphere he didn't see much of.

"Mommy, Really I get to be a flower girl"

"Yea you do baby, are you excited?"

"Yes, Im scared! Since Unlce Nick told me I was going to be a flower girl, does that mean I get to turn into a flower?”

Keria laughed “Nick watched as Kerias whole face lit up and pursed her lips together in response. “ No, Maddison you don’t turn into a flower. You just get to wear a pretty dress and toss flowers down the asile while everyone is waiting for the bride.”

“Whats a bride, Mommy, is she the lady in a pretty dress?”

Nick had the biggest smile on his face listening to them. He couldn’t belive that he would be able to join in on the conversations when his little boy or girl would be old enough to talk.

“Yea, Maddie a bride is the lady in the pretty dress, keep your head still sweetie I know your excited but you need to keep still so I can braid the other side.”

“Okay Mommy, Mommy I Love You.”

“Forever and Ever to the moon and back.” Keria smiled “ Now keep that lil head of yours still”

Those words brought back memories for Nick…

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~**Flashback**~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

“Keria, what are you doing here”? Nick Grinned ear to ear when he saw her standing at his place in his t-shirt cooking. Instantly brought back memories of Issabelle cooking in the Kitchen all hours of the day, not good memories either. Memories of all the fights they had in the kitchen over the same shit. Day after day, Hour after hour. Etc.
Nick was hesitant whether or not to go up to her and wrap his arms around her or not, his thoughts were quickly interrupted when she came over to him and gave him a big hug and started kissing down his neck. Sucking lightly.

Nick picked her up, Kerias legs wrapped around his body and Nick gave her a big kiss on the lips and sat her on the counter. “mmmm, you taste good baby, what are you cooking?”

“spaghetti and meat balls, baby can you do me a favor? Can you stir the sauce for me while I wash some lettuce for Caesar salad?

Nick gave her one last kiss and picked her up off the counter. “ Sure keira just let me change my clothes.”

“Baby you look fine…I don’t want the sauce to stick. Please just stir it hun.” Nick could sense the crankiness in her voice not to mention the eye roll he so plainly saw.

“Keria, is everything okay?” Nick asked as he walked over to stir the sauce as he watched her rip and chop up lettuce.

“Yea, everything is just great!!!” Keria said started slicing and dicing a little harder.

Nick shut the burner off, and removed the boiling sauce from the heat stirred it a little. Then walked over to Keria who seemed to be lost in thought. Chopping the shit out of the Vegetables. Nick walked over to her wrapped his arms around her

“Ker, whats wrong. talk to me."

"Nothing, just got in a big fight with my parents. They think im doing nothing with my life."

"Keria, your doing everything with your life, look I have parents that never really cared about me either. All they wanted from me and my siblings was to make money never once were they parents. I love you Keria" Nick said and traced his thumb over her cheek bone.

"I know Baby and I love you Forever and Ever to the moon and back." Nick smiled

"Your so cute Baby, so why are you wearing my clothes. Not that I mind because they look much better on you than they do on me anyways."

"Thanks Nick for bein there for me" Keria smiled and leaned her head on nicks shoulder.

"Im wearing your clothes cause You make me feel happy and I wanted to be close to you, you weren't here so the easiest way to do that was to wear your shirt babe. Sorry"

"mmmmm, you think I mind. Never in a million years whats mine is yours. Forever and ever to the moon and back.

Keria could sense the playfullness in his voice so she pushed his shoulder. " Get back to that sauce, I want to eat sometime today carter."

Nick gave her a crooked grin and raised his eyebrow he picked keria up over his shoulder and carried her to his bedroom and sat her down he went into the bathroom and ran a bath for her with extra bubbles. He grabbed her hand. "Baby you relax while I get the rest ready."

Keria grinned mischeviously " I have a better Idea, how about you join me, and we make dinner together later?"

Keira said as she pulled his shirt over her head, leaving her standing in nothing but her black laced boy short underwear.

Nick walked into his room grabbed some candles, and turned on some light music. He stripped down so he was in nothing but his boxers.

He walked over to Keria got down on his knees in front of her and started massaging her ankles working his way up until he reached her thigh placing butterfly kisses on her inner thigh he started kissing around her most sensitive parts. Then finally he pulled down her underwear and she stepped out of them.

"Mmmm, how could I turn down an offer like that." Nick mumbled against her belly button as he made his way up her stomach. He got in the tub, and outstretched his hand Keria Grabbed it and Nick pullled her closer to him.

"Mmm, baby I love the way you think, this is much better than my plan. Nick said in between moans between Kerias mouth on his neck, and her hands working expertly on other areas of his anatomy. she was driving him crazy.

"Keria you need to stop, if you keep going I can't exactly say that im going to be able to stick to our agreement." Nick said with ragged breaths.

Keria snickered working her magic harder, this time replacing her hands with her mouth positioning herself a little better " Baby, Fuck, yea shit, damn Ohhh that Feels stop, no keep going harder, harder, harder ohh fuck im gonna, Im gonna Ooohhh" Nick said as his breathing quickened.

"Damn, tell me again why we aren't making love right now?" Nick said as he grabbed her and started kissing down her neck, sucking on her collarbone, and teasing her already taught nipples.

Keria giggled "Because, we both think it would be a good Idea to wait. Besides we love each other, theirs no rush."

"To the moon and back baby". Nick said and kissed her harder, "To the moon and back".

~~~~~~~~~~~~~**End of Flashback**~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


Nick could feel his face flush at the memory of it all.'if only things were still that simple' Nick sighed. and let his presence be known.

"Hey Girlies, are you almost ready?"

"Almost Uncle Nick, Guess what mommy says she says im going to get to meet my daddy this weekend. And Im going
to be a flower girl."

Keria avoided nicks questioning eyes. "Really thats Great, I know you are going to be the best flower girl their is .And my little man Baylee is going to be their as well. Maddie how about you go upstairs and make sure that all of your toys are gathered up that you want to take with you."

"Okie dokie" With that maddie ran as fast as her little legs could carry her.

"Im proud of you Keria. I know it must not be easy for her to meet her father. He must of been a pretty bad guy for you to keep a sweet little girl like that away."

"Yea he was into some rough stuff, actually when we were together he had a wife so i was the mistress of it all. They aren't together anymore so now that some of that pressure is gone. Im hoping that maybe he will accept her as his own."

Nick walked over to her " Hes crazy not too, I just hope you don't go running back to his arms. I need you in my life keria. I feel as if Im this completely different person around you, honestly you make me want to stay away from some of the shit I used to be into.

"I promise Nick, we will always be apart of eachothers lives." Keira smiled and gave him a kiss on the cheek. "Thanks for being their nick."

"Forever and ever, to the moon and back." Nick winked.

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hours later Keria and maddie were approaching the place where the reception was going to be held.

"Nick im nervous." Keria said as she took in her surroundings right now they were walking into the reception hall (Which was a Tiki Bar, a very well decorated tiki bar.). and technically they all just walked down the asile together.

"Why are you nervous Keria? They are My friends, my brothers. They are going to have to get used to you. Like it or not your going to be in my life.

Keria was thinking to herself 'yea, but I already met them. we didn't exactly leave on a happy note.'

Nick was holding maddies hand "why are you nervous munchkin?"

"Im going to meet my daddy, and im shy." Maddie said as her face creeped up a blush.

"Your both going to be great, are you ready."

"Kevin, A.J, Brian, Howie and their wives and soon to be wifes I would like you to meet Keria and hr daughter maddison.

Keria caught the smile in A.J's eyes when she said hello, and she caught the thank you in Brian and howies. She was the backstreet well kept secret.

She caught the look of all hell breaking loose when she looked into Kevins eyes.

Keria said all of her hellos when she reached Kevin he announced he was going to show her to the bathroom.

A.J knew who this girl was she was the girl who saved nicks life. She was also the girl who saved the backstreet boys. he was forever greatful for her. He found it a little odd that kevin was going to show to her the the bathroom. Little did A.J know that Kevin was keeping some secrets from the other backstreet boys.

A.J walked over to Nick who was introducing maddison to Baylee they were both so shy. But baylee walked over to one of the tables and got her a flower. they started chasing each other around.

"So you finally met your guardian angel huh?"

Nick laughed " Why do you say that?"

"Nick Keria is the girl that saved your life, shes the girl you have wanted to meet for all those years. This is the girl that saved your life."

Nick felt Alex's forehead " Alex, man you feeling alright."

"She never told you did she?" A.J questioned.

"What do you mean? she never told me what."

"That it was her." Alex answered back confused.

Finally things started clicking together for him..."Can you watch maddie I need to find Keria. I have some questions that for damn sure are going get answered."

"Kevin Im sorry I know you told me to stay away, but I couldn't, I just couldn't stay away. He deserved to know."

"So If Nick knows why did he introduce her as maddies daughter."

"Kevin, I haven't gotten a chance to tell him. I wanted too I know you didn't want me to come back. I tried to wait for the right time. I couldn't do it."

Kevin patted Maddie on the back with soothing circles " Im not mad Keria. I feel horrible for asking you to do that, but with the news of something like that back then would of sent nick over the edge. None of the other guys know about her. Shes gorgeous keria looks a lot like Nick though.

Keria handed kevin the cheque back that was dated for all those years ago.

Nick walked over to them "Please tell me that your fucking joking, please tell me that im not hearing this correctly."

Nick walked over to them "Please tell me that your fucking joking, please tell me that im not hearing this correctly."

The words rang over and over in Kerias mind. She didn't know what to do she looked over at Kevin. The always wise one was speechless. Of course Kevin had just about as much heat riding on this pluse give or take a little.

Then all of a sudden nick shook his head, shut his eyes and grabbed the back of his neck trying to relieve a little bit of tension. He turned around and yelled into the Phone " Isabelle this is bullshit. Just give me the damn divorce. Theres no way we are going to work this out. This isn't a trial seperation. Sweetheart do you really want me to take you to court?? Cause I will. Please this is howies weekend and im not going to be talking about divorce here anylonger."

Nick turned back to Kevin and rolled his eyes at his Ex-Eife. "Nick, do you realise how chilidish im being."

"Issabelle im not fighting with you anymore over this stuff. one way or another im going to have this divorce, I dont want to be with you anymore I dont love you, I love Keria."

Nick looked to the floor he has never really said those words out loud to anyone before well to Keria earlier and Kevin heard and his heart dropped at the time Kevin was trying to make things right for his lil brother. At the time he thought he had made the right decesion seeing as Kevin never told any of the other guys.

Kevin looked over at Keria and saw the same guilt ridden face. This time their was something a little different about her. Mixed with guilt, their was hurt, but most of all their was so much love. Now it was complicated and messy before it was just messy. Now it gets complicated cause if this secret was to get out it would more than likely be the end of the backstreet boys. Not only as a group but most importantly as Best friends, Brothers!

Kevin remembered the day like it was just yesterday and the months later that followed the decipht of Nick, and his little girl.

Kevin was sitting on the tourbus on the way to North Carolina to do a radio interview. They were on a press tour promoting the new album that was currently left untitled didn't really have many songs recorded cause Nick had most of the harmonies and such. he was out "sick". Or thats what everyone thought no one knew he was in for Excessive alcohol and Drug Abuse. No one knew but the people that needed to know.

Kevin was almost asleep when he heard his cell phone ringing.

"Kevin looked at the number and didn't recongize it but the last time he didn't answer his cell phone he missed his plane and a concert and got in shit for it too. so that wasn't happening this time.

"Heylo" Kevin answered

"Hey, Ummm I Was wondering if i could speak to you about something. I don't know if you remember me or not. But my name is Keria Marie I met you awhile back."

Kevin was racking his brain he didn't know a Keria marie. Sometimes he swore fans expected him to remember them .When he seen thousands of women/girls a day. For some reason the name stuck out to him.

After a moment of silence Keria laughed " This is crazy, you don't remember me do you."

"Uhh, im sorry darlin I dont, but your name does seem familiar for some strange reason."

"I met you at a resturant with you and the other guys awhile back and I kind of told you about Nick and what he was doing."

Kevin smiled " I was waiting for you to call, on behalf of all the boys we want to thank you, I know it couldn't of been easy."

Keira laughed and rubbed her protuding belly, she loved her un-born child. Abortion had rung through her head a couple times. She couldn't bring herself to do it.

"No it definately wasn't the easiest thing to do, but im glad he is getting the help he needs, look theres also another reason why I was calling is their any way i can get in touch with Nick, their is something i need to talk to him about." Keria said with shaky breaths.

Kevin could hear the un-easiness in her voice.
"Im sorry Keria I can't give you Nicks number its not my place unless I talk to him first!" Kevin smiled through the phone. " Speaking of which im not really mad but how did you get my number in the first place."

Keria stuttered " Uhhh EBay *loL* for like $200.00"

kevin chuckled " Wow, well im glad it was the right number. kind of makes me think who to give my number out to, and who not too."

"Yea, kinda crazy, makes you wonder whos trust worthy and whos not. I understand about the whole not giving me nicks number and such but theirs something important that I need to tell him."

"What is it?" Kevin asked " Look keria I know nick probably led you on but him and Issabelle are doing great and trying to start a family. I saw how nick was with you, He connected with you, Im not giving you nicks number. He is getting his life back on track and he doesn't need you to get in the way of that."

"I dont want to get in the way of that Kevin, I never once said that. But its really important Kevin."

"Keria just tell me the message and I will tell him." Kevin was getting fusturated. She knew she coulnd't of been calling just to see how he was doing he was sure their was a price and cheque that was going to get sent to her. She was just like the others.

"Kevin, Look I know your the allmightly fucking protector but this isn't really something that you want to hear from a friend. This is kind of personal and Im pretty sure that nick is a decent human being and would like to know what i have to tell him."

"Keria rasing your voice to me isn't going to get your way its just going to get me to hang up on you. I would love to help you out hunny but I can't."

"Look kevin im sorry for bothering you, but I didn't have $10,000 dollars to pay for nicks number or I would of I thought that you would have the decency to help me out here."

"look Im not calling for a booty call but as I said their is something personal that I need to talk to him about. Im not telling him through you so you can either give me the number or you can make nick live a lie, he would never be living a fullfilled life. Im a true believer in everything happens for reason. I wish it never happened in the first place do you know what its like to be a one night stand and just get left no phone call, no nothing."

"Keria I want to help you I do."

"You know what Kevin stop the bullshit if you wanted to help me you would. you just don't want to too. Because you dont want the BSB reputation to go down the drains. You know what dont tell him when his fucking daughter tries to contact him and does. Because Sweetheart the truth always comes out. Its going to be on your fucking head that nick didn't know he had a daughter."

With that Keria hung up on him and shut her phone off and needed to lay down her head was spinning she was already having a pretty dificult pregnancy she was just so stressed out. They already told her she lost her baby, so for a week she was partying like crazy she was getting use to the fact of having a baby. Then she needed to go in and get cleaned out or something. When she got their she told them that she could feel something moving around in side of her then they put her on medds to calm her down. then she freaked out and said that she could feel something moving that her baby wasn't misscarried and sure enought they did an ultrasound and she definately had a little girl.

Keria was awoken by a ringing phone she layed on the couch with a face cloth over her eyes it helped keep the light out. she was so stressed out and had a miagraine one of the worse ones ever. The whole talk with kevin through her over the edge. She kept patting the floor she didn't want to move cause the room was spinning, her head was paining.

"hello" Keria sighed

"Hello" the voice sounded familair on the other end to keria.

"Hello is this Keria?" Kevin was about to hang up

"Yea this is Keria but look whatever your selling I dont want, I dont want to do any surveys, questionaires. Or anything like that so I would appreciate it if you call back later or never whatever suits you. Have a nice day!" Then keria hung up.

"god damn it, what do you want" Keria said aggitatedly into the phone.

"Keria, I just called here a minute ago and you hung up on me. Im not a tellemarketer or whatever you think it is I am."

Keria glared " I think your an asshole, thats what I think you are. What do you wan't Kevin I have nothing left to say to you.

Kevin sighed " Look I guess I deserve that, Okay I know I deserve that. Look you dont know who you can trust and who you can't and honestly. If you are pregnant how do I know its really nicks. Im not saying thats how you are but its nothing personal. Do you know how many people say that they are having our babies. They put howie through that awhile back and it turned out it wasn't his and he was paying child support. you just don't know who you can trust and you can't.

"Thats why Im going to meet with you sometime, and analyze the situation. Its not the backstreet boys rep im worried about its my little brothers rep. His rep isn't all that great after the whole paris Bai ling thing he's known as a regular play boy. Hes also dealing with drug issues so when the babys born im going to take a peice of his hair and do a DNA test and from then we well take it by ear."

"You know what if you think so fucking little of me I dont need your help nor Nicks help I think its a pretty shitty thing to do to one of your friends. You know what I know its nicks baby, I don't want money or anything from you or nick. I just want Nick to know that in 4 months if all goes well, nicks going to be a father because he deserves to know. so you know what Kevin just give me your adress and I will send you a picture. Im not going to degrade myself enough to have a DNA test done on my little girl. Im not a slut i haven't slept with anyone since Nick. I slept with someone a year prior to that. Not that its any of your fucking buisness. Trust me Nick will know, and he will know that its your fault he didn't know sooner.

"Keria look, as I said its nothing personal. But it needs to be done in this type of buisness."

Keria lost it " You know what what happened to being a fucking human being. You know what i will send you a picture when shes born after all a picture says a thousand words."

"Look, Keria."

"Kevin, fuck off, stop its Done! I dont want to talk to you nor hear from you anymore. If and when Nick knows he can issue a paternity test. You have no fucking right to tell me what i can do and I what I can't. Neither does nick. But its his right to have a paternity test done. not yours I didn't sleep with you its not your fucking baby! God just dont call me ever again, after all if my little girl doesn't know her father its on your head."

She left kevin speechless, she knew kevin was just trying to help out. help his brother, she a great deal of respect for that. But this really isn't any of his fucking business and he was trying to order her around. she wasn't having any of that.

A few months later kevin recived an e-mail, he hasn't slept well since the first convserations they had. Waiting to see when and if nick was going to find out. Their was a few times when nick went up to kevin and was obviosuly pissed at him but it was always for other reasons. Kevin didn't want to be the result of the group breaking up. He wanted to sleep though, the damage had been done. He looked at the picture and felt sick to his stomach. under the picture it said maddison Carter Marie. Obviously she gave the baby his last name. Maddison and Nick looked so much alike you didn't need a DNA test. He emailed her back and got her adress he sent her money and she always sent it back this went on for a year. Kevins wife almost broke it off with him, she thought he was cheating cause he was acting different.

One day Kevin broke down and said im just dealing with a lot of buisness and issues with a friend shes going through some hard times so thats why he sent a cheque. Then kristin would always say why is the money back. He told the truth shes to proud to ask for help and keep the money.

Then one day kevin recieved an email it read like this, Kevin could still remember the words, word for word. Its when he realised he made the biggest mistake of his life.
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Dear Kevin,
Im sorry to be writing you this in email. I just can't bring myself to really speak. beleive it or not you are one of the few people that i have spoken too and know about Maddison. I need money! You know I wouldn't take it if I didn't need it. I need it I am working 3 jobs at the moment I barely see my little girl one of my jobs is just to pay the babysitter basically but 2 jobs just doesn't bring in enough income. Im done asking you for Nicks number, everything happens for a reason im a strong beliver in that so maybe nick would be a horrible father and im just protecting her.

Anyways their was a time when i was pregnant that i was drinking. I was having complications and they had told me that I lost the baby, but by some mirracle I didn't she stayed strong but because of my drinking she got sick. she didn't have Fetal alcohol syndrome. But she has a pretty weak immune system. If their was enough hours in the day I would work a 4th job to make more money but i can't. I dont want my little girl to be sick though its not fair to her to live life sick, because im not a good enough mother.

I really hate to ask but would you be able to send me one of those cheques you were sending me. so maybe I can just work 2 jobs and focus on getting my little girl better. Last night she was emitted into the hospital and she had to stay over night. I couldn't sleep, so im writing you this. My little girl is all I have left out of life, I want to do right by her im trying my best. But i guess my best just isn't good enough.

Sincerly
Keria
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Kevin had tears in his eyes after reading that letter he felt to hopeless. He was scared that he had turned into a monster that Keria referred him too. He couldn't believe that he tore that little family apart. Now it was for nothing really he saw how Nick and Isabelle were fighting she still couldn't get pregnant. They were both miserable and cheating on each other. Guess happiness was something that didn't come easy anymore.

Thats when he got on a plane told his wife that he had been fighting with constantly that their was something he needed to do and to trust him because he loves her and only her. She was hesitant but said I love you too.

Keria was holding the baby on her hip, when she opened the door and was greeted by kevin. she almost dropped baby maddison.

"Kevin what are you doing here?" keria asked and she went and put maddie in her playpen while her and kevin had some hot chocolate.

Kevin walked over to her put his hot chocolate down and the tears just started to fall " Keria, I am so sorry! i dont know what came over me. Its my fault shes sick. Im horrible im keeping her from her father."

Keria rubbed his back and told him to sit down " Look, Your not horrible you just did what you thought was right. I came to the conlusion that you are. Everything happpens for a reason Kevin im sure of it not to sure why. But Nick doesn't need to know, it would just make matters worse with him and his wife i read all about them fighting in tabloids and its horrible."

I haven't been able to be with anyone since Nick, We just had a connection and I haven't been able to get it out of my head. it was definitely a one night stand gone wrong, but I wouldn't change my beautiful daughter for anyone. I have lots of help. I will pay you back every cent, but I can’t right now just the other day I picked Maddie up from the babysitters and she cried and cried when she had to leave. Im just a stranger to her now and I can’t feel like that. Don’t worry about Nick knowing he will never know from me all i ask is just until she gets better and I can get a better job, or a career. If you can just pay the medical bills thats all I ask. Kevin did more that he always asked to see pictures of her. Kevin was the uncle maddie never had, he acted just like one. sending keria cards and money for every occasion he sent keria flowers on mothers day the card read from maddie, but it was kevin. He was always their for him. The Guilt started to lessen more and more. Then one day he got an email that read.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Hey Kevin,
I know we shook on it and said nick would never know. Im sorry but I have to tell him its not fair to Maddie and him. If someone did that to me I would be so devastated I wouldn't talk to them again. Im sorry but it breaks my heart everytime she asks why she doesn't have a daddy and she wants to see him. She always sees little girls and their dads. Shes really smart shes 3 and in preeschool. I need to tell them. I was able to get a job working at a news paper, well tabloid magazine but it pays better and maybe it will lead to me nick.

Im sorry kevin lots of love!

~*keria!

Kevin sighed this secret him and Keria have been carrying is driving him insane ever since he has recieved the email from Keria. He has been waiting for this day to come he didn't know if it was a good thing or a bad thing. All he knew was it was killing him inside he hated lying to his youngest brother he saw how much love he had for Keria it scared him, so he could only imagine how scared nick is.

"So Kevin what do you think?" Nick asked giving him a weird look.

Kevin has been spaced out in his own little world, not realising any of the conversation that has been going on around him.

"Uhh, what do I think about what Nick?" Kevin looked to keria and keria gulped.

"Well Can you and Kristin come to dinner tonight with us, me and Keria have some important news to tell you. So we want you their along with the other boys. I haven't asked the other guys yet, but im sure they will come.

"Nick are you sure its such a good idea buddy, Howies getting married tommorrow. We are going to be in for such a long day tomorrow man."

Just then howie came over " Hey, Whats going on?" Howie asked.

Nick smiled " Just the man I wanted to talk too, what do you say about all of us going out tonight" Nick wrapped his arms around howie and kevin.

Howie smiled " Im so Nervous I think its a Great idea man!! I need something to get my mind off of wedding this and wedding that Im getting married tomorrow my last night as a single man. I dont want myself getting into any trouble, I think its a great Idea. I will go tell the others.

Nick smiled proudly " Don't worry so much Kevin, your going to get worry Lines. Every thing always works out. Im going to go over and see what Baylee is up too I missed the little guy."

"Nick seems happy." Kevin broke the silence.

Keria let a tear slip down her cheek and swallowed " Yea, I know its all lies, hes happy because of lies Kevin. I can't do this and now fuck Kevin now its even more messier than ever possible. I LOVE HIM!!! and he loves me, but he doesn't even know the truth. Kevin I can't freakin do this anymore, I just can't its killing me Im going away tomorrow morrning. Will you help me?"

"No, Keria im not hes happy look at the smile on his face. If you leave Keria I dont know what he would do. we have to face up to our mistakes." Kevin smiled as he watched Nick give maddie a piggy back race, and Baylee was on Brians Back Nick and Brian were racing.

Keria let out a deep breath and walked away...Kevin could only pray that keria would show up at the wedding tomorrow.

Keria walked over to Nick and A.J, A.J smiled and said im going to take Baylee and Maddie for some icecream so you to love birds can go and "Settle in" A.J winked the last part.

Keria smiled a little, nick turned her around and spun her into his arms to the music, as the band was practicing for the wedding tomorrow.

Nick held her tight in his arms and kissed her her head " Keria, you know I meant what you said, I thought i meant it before." Nick stuttered " I mean it though I love you, your carrying my baby and I just want to show you how much I love you. This weekend is going to be a weekend that you are never going to be able to forget."

Nick kissed her neck as he whispered the last part in her ear. he lightly sucked on her neck, making her giggle.
Keria pushed his head away and looked into his eyes "ohh god I love you too Nick, it kills me."

Keria felt nicks heart beat quicken and keria felt her body heat rising. Nick took her hand and looked around making sure he wasn't needed.

"Nick, where are we going?" Keria giggled a little at how bisare nick was. She was going to miss him.

"Shhh" Nick waited for the elevator not very patiently either, he had his hands all over Keria. Keria didn't mind it has been way to long. Seeing nick, and him being so sweet and her being such a bitch. Was such a turn on for her god she wanted him, she wanted him so bad.

Keria laughed as she watched nick press all the buttons on the elevator and nick pull his shirt over her head. "Nick pulled her close to him, now where were we?"

Nick pulled her top over her head "Keria, your so tense. Why do you let me help you release some of that tension."

Nick pulled off her bra and gulped as keria un-did his belt and pulled his pants the rest of the way down.

Keria smiled and leaned up and kissed him with everything she had, she gave him her heart, everything she possibly could with out giving him the truth.

Nick and Keria had that glow to them as they were putting their clothes back on. " Damn, Baby that was Great!"

Keria laughed a little " Yea it was good for you."

Nick pressed another button on the elevator as he put his shoes on and keria was doing up her sandal stillettos. The shoes she had to wear in the wedding.

Nick blushed " Yea, its been awhile babe! You were close right?"

Keria giggled " Yea, I was close babe. You did good! We just had a little bit to much fun before the event." Keria winked.

Nick walked over to her and kissed her hard and pulled away breathless " Well next time we are going to have to go to an elevator that has 100 floors and not 75."

"Nick, your crazy."

Nick picked her up and spun her around " crazy for you"

the door opened and the two of them walked out like nothing happened.

A.J laughed he was sure he was the only one that saw them but it was freakin hilarious they had the just fucked look to them.

"Hey, A.J thanks for watching Maddie, me and Nick went looking for my uhhh..."

Nick chimed in " We went looking for her earing."

Keria kinda laughed " Yea, I dropped my earing and we went and looked for it." Keria looked at A.J with pleading eyes.

A.J was doing all he could not to laugh " Well did you find it?" A.J gave them a sideways glance.

"Yea we found it." Nick said and looked at A.J and knew he wasn't buying any of it.

A.J laughed his ass off he couldn't hold it in any longer "Well did you find the other one?"

Keria looked at him "Damn, did I lose my other one too?" Keria felt her ears playing along.

Keria watched nicks eyes light up at A.Js response. " Well since nick here obviously isn't very good at finding earings maybe I will be able to help you a little better?"

Nick coughed and keria laughed!! nick wrapped his arm around her like a trophy " No, No one but me is going to help her find her earing's around her."

Keria laughed a little she needed to get away "Uhh, I think I hear maddie calling me."

With that Keria scurried away as fast as she could running into a chair along the way. A.J laughed " Man,you must of had a hell of a time finding that earing."

"A.J, you have no Idea I sware to god, I saw lights man. She was amazing a freaking goddess."

A.J laughed " Yea thats what you said awhile ago."
A.J was refering to the first time he slept with her, nick didn't know he meant the night he help make his little girl.

"Well If I was up to sharing I would let you know."
Nick smiled " But shes all mine."

"I dont see a ring on her finger dude, and besides im a married man with a baby on the way. I have enough on my plate."

"A.J thats all going to change dude, I plan on having a ring on her finger by the end of this weekend."

Kevin sighed this secret him and Keria have been carrying is driving him insane ever since he has recieved the email from Keria. He has been waiting for this day to come he didn't know if it was a good thing or a bad thing. All he knew was it was killing him inside he hated lying to his youngest brother he saw how much love he had for Keria it scared him, so he could only imagine how scared nick is.

"So Kevin what do you think?" Nick asked giving him a weird look.

Kevin has been spaced out in his own little world, not realising any of the conversation that has been going on around him.

"Uhh, what do I think about what Nick?" Kevin looked to keria and keria gulped.

"Well Can you and Kristin come to dinner tonight with us, me and Keria have some important news to tell you. So we want you their along with the other boys. I haven't asked the other guys yet, but im sure they will come.

"Nick are you sure its such a good idea buddy, Howies getting married tommorrow. We are going to be in for such a long day tomorrow man."

Just then howie came over " Hey, Whats going on?" Howie asked.

Nick smiled " Just the man I wanted to talk too, what do you say about all of us going out tonight" Nick wrapped his arms around howie and kevin.

Howie smiled " Im so Nervous I think its a Great idea man!! I need something to get my mind off of wedding this and wedding that Im getting married tomorrow my last night as a single man. I dont want myself getting into any trouble, I think its a great Idea. I will go tell the others.

Nick smiled proudly " Don't worry so much Kevin, your going to get worry Lines. Every thing always works out. Im going to go over and see what Baylee is up too I missed the little guy."

"Nick seems happy." Kevin broke the silence.

Keria let a tear slip down her cheek and swallowed " Yea, I know its all lies, hes happy because of lies Kevin. I can't do this and now fuck Kevin now its even more messier than ever possible. I LOVE HIM!!! and he loves me, but he doesn't even know the truth. Kevin I can't freakin do this anymore, I just can't its killing me Im going away tomorrow morrning. Will you help me?"

"No, Keria im not hes happy look at the smile on his face. If you leave Keria I dont know what he would do. we have to face up to our mistakes." Kevin smiled as he watched Nick give maddie a piggy back race, and Baylee was on Brians Back Nick and Brian were racing.

Keria let out a deep breath and walked away...Kevin could only pray that keria would show up at the wedding tomorrow.

Keria walked over to Nick and A.J, A.J smiled and said im going to take Baylee and Maddie for some icecream so you to love birds can go and "Settle in" A.J winked the last part.

Keria smiled a little, nick turned her around and spun her into his arms to the music, as the band was practicing for the wedding tomorrow.

Nick held her tight in his arms and kissed her her head " Keria, you know I meant what you said, I thought i meant it before." Nick stuttered " I mean it though I love you, your carrying my baby and I just want to show you how much I love you. This weekend is going to be a weekend that you are never going to be able to forget."

Nick kissed her neck as he whispered the last part in her ear. he lightly sucked on her neck, making her giggle.
Keria pushed his head away and looked into his eyes "ohh god I love you too Nick, it kills me."

Keria felt nicks heart beat quicken and keria felt her body heat rising. Nick took her hand and looked around making sure he wasn't needed.

"Nick, where are we going?" Keria giggled a little at how bisare nick was. She was going to miss him.

"Shhh" Nick waited for the elevator not very patiently either, he had his hands all over Keria. Keria didn't mind it has been way to long. Seeing nick, and him being so sweet and her being such a bitch. Was such a turn on for her god she wanted him, she wanted him so bad.

Keria laughed as she watched nick press all the buttons on the elevator and nick pull his shirt over her head. "Nick pulled her close to him, now where were we?"

Nick pulled her top over her head "Keria, your so tense. Why do you let me help you release some of that tension."

Nick pulled off her bra and gulped as keria un-did his belt and pulled his pants the rest of the way down.

Keria smiled and leaned up and kissed him with everything she had, she gave him her heart, everything she possibly could with out giving him the truth.

Nick and Keria had that glow to them as they were putting their clothes back on. " Damn, Baby that was Great!"

Keria laughed a little " Yea it was good for you."

Nick pressed another button on the elevator as he put his shoes on and keria was doing up her sandal stillettos. The shoes she had to wear in the wedding.

Nick blushed " Yea, its been awhile babe! You were close right?"

Keria giggled " Yea, I was close babe. You did good! We just had a little bit to much fun before the event." Keria winked.

Nick walked over to her and kissed her hard and pulled away breathless " Well next time we are going to have to go to an elevator that has 100 floors and not 75."

"Nick, your crazy."

Nick picked her up and spun her around " crazy for you"

the door opened and the two of them walked out like nothing happened.

A.J laughed he was sure he was the only one that saw them but it was freakin hilarious they had the just fucked look to them.

"Hey, A.J thanks for watching Maddie, me and Nick went looking for my uhhh..."

Nick chimed in " We went looking for her earing."

Keria kinda laughed " Yea, I dropped my earing and we went and looked for it." Keria looked at A.J with pleading eyes.

A.J was doing all he could not to laugh " Well did you find it?" A.J gave them a sideways glance.

"Yea we found it." Nick said and looked at A.J and knew he wasn't buying any of it.

A.J laughed his ass off he couldn't hold it in any longer "Well did you find the other one?"

Keria looked at him "Damn, did I lose my other one too?" Keria felt her ears playing along.

Keria watched nicks eyes light up at A.Js response. " Well since nick here obviously isn't very good at finding earings maybe I will be able to help you a little better?"

Nick coughed and keria laughed!! nick wrapped his arm around her like a trophy " No, No one but me is going to help her find her earing's around her."

Keria laughed a little she needed to get away "Uhh, I think I hear maddie calling me."

With that Keria scurried away as fast as she could running into a chair along the way. A.J laughed " Man,you must of had a hell of a time finding that earing."

"A.J, you have no Idea I sware to god, I saw lights man. She was amazing a freaking goddess."

A.J laughed " Yea thats what you said awhile ago."
A.J was refering to the first time he slept with her, nick didn't know he meant the night he help make his little girl.

"Well If I was up to sharing I would let you know."
Nick smiled " But shes all mine."

"I dont see a ring on her finger dude, and besides im a married man with a baby on the way. I have enough on my plate."

"A.J thats all going to change dude, I plan on having a ring on her finger by the end of this weekend."