1. Chapter 1 by Jenna
2. Chapter 2 by Jenna
3. Chapter 3 by Jenna
4. Chapter 4 by Jenna
5. Chapter 5 by Jenna
6. Chapter 6 by Jenna
7. Chapter 7 by Jenna
8. Chapter 8 by Jenna
9. Chapter 9 by Jenna
10. Chapter 10 by Jenna
11. Chapter 11 by Jenna
12. Chapter 12 by Jenna
13. Chapter 13 by Jenna
14. Chapter 14 by Jenna
15. Chapter 15 by Jenna
16. Chapter 16 by Jenna
17. Chapter 17 by Jenna
"Nick, you doing alright?"
"Brian, for the fifth time, I m fine." Nick said, with a hint of exasperation. However, he
couldn't keep the smile off his face. For the first time since everything had come down, he
was out of that damn bed. His nurse wasn t very happy to let him off the floor without
another nurse, but Brian was very persuasive. The nurse relented, but insisted that they
come back if Nick was having any trouble at all. He was hurting, but didn't dare say
anything.
"Yeah, geez Brian. I'm gonna laugh when he gets out of that chair and busts your ass." AJ
commented.
"Hey, it's my hide if Nick passes out in his wheelchair." Brian defended.
"Well your protective ass is safe cause I'm not going to pass out." Nick grinned up at
Brian. Brian only rolled his eyes.
The three got their food and settled in the food court, off to the side. It was just after the
dinner rush so it wasn't very crowded.
"Nick...?"
"Brian..." Replied a warning voice in return.
"Okay, sorry."
"So, back to this dream..." AJ started.
"AJ, give it rest!" Nick glared at AJ, frustrated.
AJ held his hands up in surrender. "You're a little worked up about that dream aren't
you?"
"Nightmare, AJ, it was a nightmare. And I don t want to talk about it anymore." Nick
stated.
AJ glanced at Brian and Brian shook his head slightly. Brian almost smiled, knowing there
was more to Nick's angst than just the nightmare. "Alright, consider it dropped." AJ
turned his attention up to the closest TV. They were sitting too far away to be able to hear
what was on, but the picture that showed on the screen could be seen by anyone. "Oh
shit." AJ squinted at the TV.
Brian and Nick turned around to see what had caused all the color to drain from AJ's face.
Brian gasped. "I thought this shit was over..." Nick moaned softly.
"Aggie, come on! The place is going
all to hell!" Marilyn shouted to her cell mate. The noise was deafening and the heat from
the flames was drawing near.
"No, Mar. If I get out of here, they will put me in lockdown. If the other inmates don't kill
me first." Agnes said firmly as she sat on her bed.
"Dammit Aggie! They don't know you did it! You think this is going to bring Marcus
back? I know you ain't the type of bitch to let them win, to roll over and die. We can
make a break, let's go." When Marilyn saw that she was getting through to her friend, she
pushed harder. "Come on, Ag. We can get out of here. You want to see Terri, don't you?
You want to avenge your son, don't you? Make those kids pay, Aggie." Marilyn smiled
when she saw that her words were having an effect on Agnes. Finally Agnes nodded.
"Let's go."
"This breaking news, just in! It
has just been reported that there has been an inmate riot at FMC Carswell Prison in Fort
Worth, Texas. Witnesses say that a fire was started by Agnes Miller. For those of you that
can't place the name, Miller was incarcerated nearly six months ago for attempted murder
and kidnapping."
"Whoa whoa! So what Kevin is saying is that Nick never died?"
"Nick, how were you gravely injured??"
"How has this affected the group?"
I almost laughed at the last question. If I weren't so tense, I probably would have. Honestly, people, you don't want to know. We're edgy, nervous, fearful, beaten, battered, angry, and sleep-deprived. Shall I continue? I felt a gentle squeeze on my hand and I glanced at Nick. He stared straight ahead, appearing to be nice and calm. I bit back a smile and squeezed his hand back.
"Lizz?"
My attention snapped forward. "Uh, yeah-yes?" I stammered, my voice small.
"I was just asking how you felt about going on tour with the rest of the guys." A lady asked, smiling.
Okay, that was easy.
I smiled, the nervousness easing a little. "I'm really excited. I mean, I've always wanted to travel and now, not only am I getting to do that, but I get to do it with the Backstreet Boys!" I said the last part with added emphasis, stretching my grin wider. A bunch of people chuckled and I felt myself relax. Maybe this wouldn't be so bad.
"Nick, according to Kevin, you and Lizz went into hiding together. Could you tell us a little bit about that please?"
"Well, we hated to deceive everyone by making them think I was dead, but with our lives at stake, we felt it was the best choice. At one point, they had even threatened our fans if we didn't do what they wanted. So for everyone's safety, Lizzard and I went into hiding."
Lizzard?! During a press conference?! Smooth one, Nicky.
"We both altered our appearances, as you can tell by my brown hair and I don't know if you remembered from last time, but Lizz had reddish hair. Anyway, we stayed in an apartment, cutting off all contact with anyone we knew." Nick continued.
"Wait, you and Lizz stayed in an apartment together?" The same reporter asked. Immediately, the cameras started flashing faster and I felt the color rise in my cheeks. Here we go...
"It was safer that way... " Kevin started, trying to take the pressure off of us.
"Nick, can you tell us if you and Lizz are involved romantically?" The woman persisted.
Okay, now my face was on fire. I resisted the urge to bang my head against the table in frustration. Instead, I sat there frozen, waiting for Nick s answer along with everyone else.
"We' re friends, good friends. Next question?" Nick said, closing up. I almost laughed out loud. That answer was soooo Nick-like.
" This question is directed to all of you, but namely Brian, Nick and Lizz. How do you feel knowing that Agnes has escaped prison and do you feel that she is a threat to you? How will this affect your touring?"
Thanks dude, you just had to go and bring her up again, didn't you. I had no plans on answering that question and thankfully Brian took it.
"Of course it doesn't sit very well with us that Agnes has escaped, but I am confident that the feds will capture her and bring her to justice. We are going to put everything we have towards the tour and don't plan on letting that woman get in our way. Our fans deserve the best and that is what we are going to give them." Brian said with determination.
I looked at him, my eyes a little wide. He almost sounded pissed! I felt myself nodding slowly.
"Lizz, you agree with Brian?"
I stared straight ahead. "Yes, I do. I guess what Brian said pretty much sums it up. We've been victimized by those people for long enough. Granted, the threat is still out there, but we re not going to live in fear any longer. Like Brian said, their fans deserve the best. We'll be dam-darned if they aren't going to get the best!" I said defiantly.
More camera flashed and after a few more quick questions, the press conference was over. As soon as people started to leave the room, namely the cameras, I let out a sigh of relief.
"Geez, Lizz. You just dominated that last one didn't ya?" AJ teased as the room cleared out.
I flushed. "I guess what Brian said really hit me. Those freaks have put us through hell, but I want to get on with it though. I mean, I know it's a lot easier said than done, but I'm gonna fight it. I doubt I will be able to stop the nightmares and stuff like that, but I can try to change my thinking. Like I can try not to dwell on everything so much. I mean, you guys are getting ready to start the tour and are nice enough to let me tag along. I want to do what I can to help you guys out with things. Be helpful and not be a bur-"
"Lizz, you aren't a burden." Brian corrected, quickly.
I rolled my eyes, but still smiled appreciatively at him.
"I agree, as hard as it is, we need to try to get back to normal." Kevin said, nodding.
I noticed that Nick had been pretty quiet throughout the discussion. We were hovering in the room. Nick was sitting in his chair still, face a little pale. I walked over and plopped down in the chair next to him.
"What's wrong hun?"
"I'm fine." He stated.
I sighed. Did he really think I didn t know him just a little better than this? "Talk to me."
"I'm just a little tired." He said, smiling slightly.
I shook my head. "I would have thought you would be feeling a little better since they had released you this morning."
"Do you?"
"Not really." I admitted. As of 9am this morning, I was a free agent. They had decided that the sutures had healed enough that I could be released. I was under strict instruction to be very careful and avoid anything strenuous. It still hurt to move around, but I was getting better and better at hiding it.
"Okay then." He smirked.
"Oh shuddup. It's probably that ugly ass sweatshirt. It's just bringing you down." I retorted. I knew full well he wore that Seminole sweatshirt just to get a rise out of me. "That's okay, we all know who the 2000 National Champs are."
"Sure, blood and sp-"
"Nick! Knock that off already!" Brian exclaimed, cutting Nick off from making fun of the colors.
I snickered as Nick muttered dork under his breath. Just like Nick to be a pervert.
"So, I guess its back to your room then?" Brian said to Nick.
"Nope, they ended up releasing him this morning too!" I grinned.
Kevin narrowed his eyes. "I don't think you are ready."
"Well my doctor did, evidently." Nick replied, somewhat uncomfortably.
"Have you already signed your discharge papers?" Brian asked.
"No, uh, yeah." He stammered.
I looked from Brian to Kevin. "Even that one about the cafeteria food warning?" I asked, raising an eyebrow.
"Huh?" Nick looked at me, perplexed.
"They gave it to me. It had something to do with something that happened in the kitchen and that if you get sick from their food in the next 24-36 hours, to come right back. Something about something getting into the food that shouldn't have been in there..." I trailed off, as if I were thinking.
"Oh yeah, I got that one. Can we go now?" Nick said hastily, standing up.
I shot a pointed look to Brian and he nodded. AJ noticed and merely shook his head.
"Busted, man." He snorted.
"There wasn't any such form, Nick! You're trying to do it again! I wasn' t here before to stop you, but I'm here now and you aren't getting out AMA!" I exclaimed, poking my finger into his chest.
"AMA?" AJ asked.
"Against Medical Advice. Right Nick?" I said, folding my arms.
"Yeah, so? I'm ready to get out of here. Lizz, you know how it is when you are ready to get out, but they keep you longer anyway! You guys were all just talking about moving on. Well how can I move on when I am stuck in there?" He said, going from defensive to almost pleading.
"Yeah, I know how it is, but as much as I hated it, they kept me for good reason. Cause I still had some getting better to do!" I argued. And I hated to argue with him about this. Because I did know. I knew all too well the desperate feeling of needing to get out, but not being able to. Knowing that life was passing you right by, people were getting on with new things in their lives, but you were still stuck in that void of time.
Nick didn't reply, but only held my gaze.
"What if we can get you out today, but on a couple conditions?" I asked softly.
"What conditions?" Kevin broke in, not looking pleased.
"Like number one, you have to rest exactly as much as your doctor tells you to and for exactly how long he tells you too. No cheating at all! Number two, if he puts you on any meds, you take them. All of them! Number three, quit trying to hide stuff and sneak your way out of things. The next time you try to pull a fast one on me, I'll put you back in the hospital myself." I said, ticking the conditions off on my fingers.
"And this is all only if your doctor agrees." Kevin added, frowning. "I don't like this, but I can't force you to stay in there, short of tying your stubborn ass up."
I snickered at the mental picture, but evidently AJ took my snickering for something else because his eyes grew wide. He opened his mouth to say something, but Brian shook his head, making a face.
I stared Nick in the eyes. "Do we have a deal?"
Nick saluted. "Yes ma'am."
I playfully smacked the shoulder on his good side. " Smartass."
We all filed out of the room, security and bodyguards walking loosely on all sides. Most of the people had been cleared out, but there were a few eager stragglers. Brian pulled up next to me.
"You' re getting good at that." He grinned, motioning to Nick who was walking ahead of us with AJ.
"I learn from the best." I returned the smile, nodding to Brian.
Every time I tried to picture myself on tour with them, I had to resist the urge to pinch myself. Other than the traveling and getting to stay with them, I was all about exciting things and spontaneity. I thrived on it. I knew it would be pretty difficult at times and I knew that was going to be a shock to my system.
People really didn't understand how hard it could be for them. They went from hotel to hotel, sleeping in different beds every other night, never having a shred of privacy. Even knowing Nick as well as I did, didn't allow me to understand it to their degree. It was definitely going to be a major adjustment. Still, I was just an inch beyond excited. Suddenly the door burst open and Nick emerged, grinning. Brian was standing to his left, also smiling. I felt my face light up with theirs. We were on our way.
"Yeah it was. Although I noticed you eyeing another guy. Lizz, I m hurt." AJ said.
I stopped dead in my tracks and stared at AJ. "What did you say?"
AJ cracked up. "Lizz it's so obvious. Why don't you just admit it?"
I continued to stare at him, my eyes wide. "I don't know what you are talking about. You're full of shit Aje, you really are."
He only laughed and shook his head. I felt the color rise in my cheeks, but pretended to ignore it. We reached our reserved table just in time to see Nick down a double in one quick gulp. I glanced at AJ before sliding down in the booth next to Nick.
"Whoa there, take it easy hun. You don t want to get totally trashed yet do you?" I said, laying a hand on his arm.
"Maybe I do." He said, shrugging my hand off, staring straight ahead. His words were slightly slurred.
I backed up, stung. "What's wrong?"
He turned to me, eyes hard. "What makes you think something's wrong? Just go back and dance with asshole some more. Don't worry about me."
"Hey!" AJ protested.
Brian and Lee had taken notice of the conversation and Brian put a hand on AJ's shoulder, silently telling him not to get started with Nick.
"Nick, we just had a few dances. Why are you so mad?" I asked, my voice quivering.
"You don't understand. Skip it." He growled, turning away from me.
Okay, that hurt. I hated when he said that. And on top of it he's going to tell me I don't understand?! Part of me wanted to cry, but the stubborn and slightly tipsy side of me made my temper flare.
"Okay fine! You know what? I've been really looking forward to doing something normal. Our lives have been so fucked up for so long and we finally get a night to have some fun and you turn into an ass. Obviously I screwed up your night somehow so I'll just stay out of your way." I said angrily, hot tears burning my eyes. Before the words were even out of my mouth, I had scooted out of the booth. Trying to keep from crying, I got up, grabbed my jacket and went out the front doors.
"Lizz, wait, you can t just take off like that!"
I turned around, hastily brushing tears off my cheeks. "I dont understand what I did to make him so mad."
"He feels really bad." Lee said softly.
I didn't say anything.
"Really, Lizz, when he's had a few drinks and he gets upset, he can get pretty mean." Leighanne explained.
"But I used to talk to him all the time when he was drunk. Well. not all the time, but way back before we met in person, he would get online sometimes when he was drunk. But he was never like this. He was always really goofy and uh, stuff." I broke off smiling at some of the things he used to say to me. They were bad and I loved teasing him about it. The next morning when he was sober, I would repeat some of the things he said and he would be mortified. He never remembered any of it.
"Probably because he was in good spirits when he was talking to you. If he gets upset, it's a different matter entirely." Lee surmised.
"Why is he so upset with me?" I asked in a small voice.
"I'm sorry, Lizzard."
Lee and I both turned around to see Nick standing there. The expression on his face made my eyes fill with tears again. Lee gave my arm a quick squeeze before slipping back inside.
"What did I do to upset you so much?" I asked softly.
"You didn't do anything. I'm so sorry. I was a jerk and I ruined your night." He said looking down.
I stepped closer to him. "Talk to me."
He looked up, his eyes brimming with tears. "I guess I just felt left out when you were having so much fun with AJ. I m sorry."
"Aw hun, I'm sorry. I totally lost track of time out there, But I was coming back to see if you would dance with me. We haven't had a chance to dance to any fast ones yet." I gave a tentative smile.
"You still want to?" A hint of a smile surfaced.
I grinned. "Of course I do."
"So we're okay then?" That smile grew. God I hated when he did that.
"Hell yeah we are. For future reference, no more fighting when we are a little less than sober, though." I linked my arm through his as we started walking inside.
"Deal. So you want another drink?"
I stared at him. "You realize we are gonna be so drunk."
"Yeah." He shrugged.
"Bring it on!" I said enthusiastically.
When we reached the table, everyone looked relieved to see us both smiling again.
"The war is over?" Howie joked.
I stared at him, my eyes saucers. The man was approaching piss drunk and fast. Hell, I knew he had is own club and everything, but somehow I didn t see this from him. It was hilarious.
"Oh it s over." Nick said with a sly grin, pulling me closer to him.
I giggled. "We need some Fuck Me Sillys. Nick, you gotta try a Fuck Me Silly!"
Brian stared at me, eyebrows raised.
"It's a drink." I laughed.
Brian looked at Lee and shook his head. "Maybe you oughta slow the drinks down a little."
"Party pooper." Nick rolled his eyes. He ordered the drinks while I excused myself to the ladies room.
The bathroom was crowded as club bathrooms always were. I waited for my turn at the sink so I could get rid of the mascara that my tears had smeared. To say I was relieved that everything was okay, was an understatement. I didn't want anything to ruin this night.
Never in my life would I forget that dance we shared. Never would I forget how good we fit, how good he smelled, how hot he looked. Even thinking those thoughts made the heat rise in my cheeks. Never had I felt so safe and protected than right at that moment. It was like magic, cheesy as that sounds. It was like, at that moment, nothing could hurt us or tear us apart. I wanted to tell him what I was feeling, but what if he didn't feel that way? I would feel like the hugest dumbass.
As I walked down the short hallway back to the table, the payphone started ringing. I stopped and looked around, but no one else seemed to take much notice in it. Hearing pay phones randomly ringing always cracked me up so I sauntered over to answer it.
"Hello?"
"Hey babe." A low voice drawled in my ear.
"Uh, do you know you are calling a pay phone?" I smirked.
"Sure do babe. I was looking for someone there at that club." The voice replied smoothly.
"And you think you are going to find her by calling a payphone?" I rolled my eyes.
"Maybe I did."
"I doubt that buddy." I snickered.
"See, she kinda had a thing going with my buddy, but that didn't turn out too well. I thought I would try a shot with her." He said, laughing. He was talking so low, it was hard to hear him, let alone tell how old he might have been.
"Well good luck bud. I've got some own fun to go have." I grinned as I peaked around the corner. Nick was talked to the guys, laughing at something. Suddenly I wanted to be there, with him, not on the phone with some freak.
"Hey, wait." He said sharply, his voice rougher.
I ignored him, shaking my head, and hung up the phone. Weirdo.
I bounded back over to Nick. "Come on, let's go dance." I grabbed his hand and attempted to pull him out of the booth.
"Took ya long enough. Here's your drink." He handed me the glass and stood up with me.
"Sorry, some guy called on the payphone and I picked up. He's looking for this girl that had a thing with his friend and for some reason he thought she would be the one to answer the phone or something." I shrugged.
Nick gave me a funny look.
"What?"
He shook it off. Nothing, lets go.
I completely lost track of all time as we danced, song after song. Whenever we needed a break, we went and had another drink. Or a round of shots. Howie was drinking with us, but the others were just relaxing at the table. I was having so much fun that I didn t notice that the dance floor began clearing out. Finally Kevin came up and told us that it was time to go.
As we all filed out, I noticed that I d had a lot to drink. Nick might have even been worse off than I was. Howie was pretty far gone too.
"You're drunk." I observed to Nick.
Brian turned around, he was walking arm in arm with Lee in front of me. "You are pretty trashed too, Lizz."
Yeah. Chimed in Howie.
"Well, you're shitfaced!" Nick pointed out.
"You're blitz."
"You both...are sauced!" I snorted.
Nick had his arm around me, but that turned to be a bad combination when I stumbled on the curb. I almost lost my balance, but Nick managed to keep me on my feet. Unfortunately, it made him lose his balance and his feet shot out from under him.
"You're drunk off your ass, Lizz!" He hollered as he hit the ground.
"Yeah and you are drunk on your ass!" I whooped.
Howie cracked up too. "It's your fault, you drunkard!" He nodded at me.
As Brian and AJ pulled a staggering Nick up, Kevin turned around. "You guys are obnoxious when you are drunk."
"You're obnoxious all the time." Nick shot back. Howie and I busted up again.
"Seriously, it isn't that funny." AJ shook head at us.
By now we were roaring.
The drive home was fun. Nick and I laughed at absolutely everything, Astonishingly neither of us or Howie had gotten sick yet, but I guessed we would before the night was over. As we headed up to our hotel floor I suddenly realized something. I think Brian and Kevin noticed too because they were huddled togehter talking. I ignored them and went back to watching Nick struggle with the room key. It was very amusing.
"Brian, we can t let them go in there together." Kevin warned.
"I know. It wouldn't be appropriate. But surely they wouldn't...well, I mean..." Brian trailed off.
"Bri, they are both piss drunk and it's obvious how they feel about each other. Nick won't remember any of it tomorrow and Lizz probably won't either. We can't let them do something they might regret." Kevin observed.
"Lizz, are you doing alright?" Lee asked softly, smiling.
I groaned. "I wonder if Nick feels this crappy."
She chuckled. "I'm sure he does. Maybe if you guys hadn't tried to out-drink each other..."
I grinned, remembering our boasts to each other the night before. Nick seemed to think it was hilarious that I would even think that I could come close to winning since I was just a "tiny little thing." I gleefully pointed out that being half-German and half-Irish gave me a higher tolerance for alcohol than I probably should have. So started the war.
I think we both lost.
"Morning Ladies." AJ appeared in front of us. I hadn't even noticed him come up.
"What are you grinning at?" I stared up at him, indignant.
"Nothing, nothing at all." His smirk grew wider.
I shook my head, immediately regretting the action. The rest of the guys filed in and I observed that Howie looked pretty haggard. Nick was the last to straggle in, looking rather spaced out. He offered me a sorry attempt at a smile and sank into the chair next to me.
"How are ya feeling?" He asked, softly.
"Mmm...shitty, you?" I replied, smiling faintly.
"I want to crawl into a hole...a dark hole, and die." He mumbled.
"Yeah, and you have to go on TV feeling like that, too." I shook my head sympathetically. Dang it! Why did I keep doing that? You'd think I would have learned the first time, but nooooo. It would appear that I wanted to keep this headache.
"Hi Lizz, how are you feeling this morning?" Brian asked, after affectionately greeting Lee.
I groaned. "You have to ask?"
He frowned. "I knew you were a feisty one, but I don't think I expected last night."
"Lay off her." Nick growled.
I put a hand on Nick's knee. "Aw, don't be mad at me Bri. It's just that last night was the first time in sooooo long that we all could go out and have fun. Things actually seemed normal for once. Well, sorta..." I gave him the 'sad puppy-eyes'. I hated the idea that he was upset with me. "Besides, I wasn't that bad. I do remember everything that happened last night." I snickered. Nick never remembered anything after a night of partying. Way back when we used to chat online, we would have whole conversations when he was a little less than sober and he never remembered any of it when we talked the next morning.
"You sure you remember everything, Lizzard?" AJ asked, folding his arms over his chest.
A feeling of uneasiness washed over me. "What do you mean?"
Nick's head shot up also and I swear I felt him stiffen next to me.
AJ glanced at Howie and Kevin before continuing. "So, I guess the secret's out between you and Nick, huh?"
My heart stopped, it really did. Did I really say something last night about how I felt? Could I really have spilled my feelings in front of everyone? I suddenly felt very hot and I knew I was blushing furiously.
"Come on, AJ, knock it off. Leave them alone." Kevin chastised, biting back a smile.
"Dammit old man! You aren't any fun at all, you know that?" AJ huffed.
"Good morning, gentlemen. Are we ready to get started?" A smartly dressed woman pleasantly asked, coming out of nowhere.
Nick didn't even look at me as they all followed the woman to go get prepared for the interview. That suited me just fine. I was too embarrased. As soon as they left, a man came and asked Lee and I if we wanted to watch the guys from "behind the scenes." As we followed the guy to wherever he was taking us, I tried to work up the courage to as Leighanne what had really happened last night.
"Uh, Lee?" I ventured, hesitantly.
"Hmm?" She looked at me as we turned down another hallway.
"Did I, uh...um, say anything,last night, I mean. About Nick? Or um, how I, uh..." I stammered, hopelessly.
Leighanne chuckled. "No, honey. AJ was just teasing you guys."
"Thank God." I murmered under my breath, visibly relieved.
Lee smiled at me. "Would you like to talk about anything, Lizz?"
I opened my mouth to spill my guts, before I even realized it. She just had such a warm aura around her that made it easy to want to open up to her. Too easy. Catching myself, I clamped my mouth shut. No way in hell was I telling anyone how I felt. "Thanks, Lee, but everything's cool." I said lamely. Immediately I wanted to smack myself. How obvious was I? Idiot.
"Okay, but if you ever want to talk, I'm here." She smiled again.
"Thanks." I returned the smile, wanting more than anything to tell her EVERYTHING. Ugh.
The interview started a few minutes later. As many times as I have seen them on TV, this was totally different. It was so much more. I watched them, grinning ear-to-ear. Nick did a masterful job of being his usual self. Only because I knew him so well did I know that he felt like crap. Otherwise I never would have guessed. I thought about all the fans out there. If they only knew. I had to bite back a snicker, seeing as the sound crew told us that we had to stay completely silent.
The morning show host, whatever his name was, asked the usual interview questions. Most of them were from fans that had written sent their questions in. I waited nervously for that expected and dreaded question. Sure enough...
"So, Nick? A number of the fans wrote in to ask about Lizz. It seems that everyone wants to know if you two have become an item."
I held my breath and didn't move a muscle.
"We're uh, just close friends." Nick replied, after a moment's hesitation.
They moved on and I let out a sigh. I don't know if it was a sigh of relief or of disappointment. I rubbed my eyes with two weary fingers. I jumped when Lee reached down and squeezed my free hand with one of hers. She knew. Her eyes told it all, she knew.
"Well folks, that concludes our intwerview this morning. We'd like to thank the Backstreet Boys for coming to visit with us this morning and answering our questions. Stay tuned for a listing of their U.S. tour dates in a city near you."
The guys waved and smiled until the cameras stopped rolling. They filed off the set and over to where Lee and I were watching.
"Did I look as bad as I felt?" Nick sat back down next to me again.
"No, no, you looked great." I assured him. Instantly I froze. Did that sound obvious? NO! I was not going to let things get all weird between us.
"Lizz,are you are okay?" Nick stared at me.
"Huh? Yeah, I was just thinking. So what's next? Please tell me it's breakfast." I asked hopefully.
Nick laughed. "We'll see what we can do."
"Mr. Littrell? I've got a package for you. It was dropped off here at the station, but I didn't get a chance to give it to you before you aired." A young woman rushed up. She looked like she was probably a secretary. She thrusted the package into Brian's arms. He accepted it, mildly surprised.
I turned to Nick. "Is this a normal thing? How did anyone know how to get this in here to him?"
Nick frowned. "I don't know. No, this isn't how things are usually done. When fans send gifts, they don't go straight to us."
A small knot formed in the pit of my stomach as we all watched Brian tear the brown paper packaging off his gift. His look of confusion changed into an expression of shock and horror. His hands shook a little and he sank into the chair that was behind him.
"Honey?" Leighanne asked, alarmed.
"What is it?" Kevin reached for the object in Brian's hands.
All the color had drained from Brian's face. He pulled the rest of the paper off to reveal a magnetic letter board. Just like the one he had to use until he was able to regain his speech back.
"What is this? Why would...who..." He whispered, looking around at us.
I gaped at the letter board and the knot in my stomach grew bigger.
"Where did that come from?!" Kevin demanded.
The young woman looked shocked. "I, uhh...I don't know. It was left on my desk, but I never noticed anything out of the ordinary."
"How could you not have seen anyone?!" AJ glared at the girl.
"AJ." Howie said quietly, putting a hand on AJ's arm.
"I-I don't know. Maybe someone else saw someone. Should I ask around?" She suggested timidly.
Kevin nodded. "Please."
As soon as she left, Lee looked up from her seat next to Brian. She had a comforting arm around his shoulders. "Would someone please tell me what is going on?!" Her voice quivered.
"Brian used a letter board like that while he was recovering from whatever Agnes poisoned his system with." Howie told her softly.
"Do you think it's them?" AJ ventured, his voice barely audible.
"NO!" I exclaimed.
Nick put an arm around me. "Lizza..."
I pulled away. "No! It can't be them. It can't be..." I trailed off, putting my head in my hands. There was no use arguing the point. It was clear that it was them. Somehow they had found out that we were here and had gotten in.
"Why would they do this?" Asking what Brian had tried to ask before, but could barely get out.
"To scare us." AJ said bitterly.
"What if it's more than that?" Leighanne suggested in a hushed voice.
We all looked at her. "Lee's right. What if it was a threat?" Howie agreed.
"The hell it is!" Nick exploded. "They get near him again and..."
"Um, excuse me." The secretary interrupted. She had several people with her, one of them probably her manager and two security guards. "I asked everyone on this floor and no one noticed anything."
I barely paid attention as the man introduced himself as some manager and explained that nothing out of the ordinary was called to his attention. Calls were made and it seemed like everyone was grilled, but nothing turned up. The guys' managers decided that security would be tightened, but didn't see the "gift" as a real threat. We were too well protected, they said.
My confidence was still shaken. I could tell Nick's was too because he stayed right by my side and Brian's as well. We ended up being stuck at that TV station for another two hours while details were ironed out and precautionary measures were taken. We were all reassured that we had nothing to worry about, but the damage had been done.
I could hardly look at Brian. The look on his face just broke my heart. Seeing that magnetic board and being forced to so vividly remember going through all that...I don't think any of us had any idea how hard that had to have been for him. Being stuck, helpless, in a body that wouldn't work and not knowing if he was ever going to recover. Not knowing if he was ever going to be able to sing again. Not being able to have his wife there with him and the uncertainty of not knowing if he was ever going to see her again. He still wasn't 100% yet, but then that wasn't going to happen this soon.
Four days later and we were in North Carolina. I think...Nick kept telling me that I was going to get tired of touring and I'm sure it'll happen, but so far, it was still too new to me.
The magnetic letter board scare turned out to be just that: a scare. We were all on edge for the next couple days, like waiting for disaster to strike. Nothing happened though so we all sort of eased back into the life of touring. My nightmares came back full throttle, but other than that, things were better.
My worry that things might turn awkward with Nick because of how I felt were unfounded. There was nothing that could come between us, not to metion, I hid my feelings well. Unfortunaltey, they were getting stronger, if that was at all possible.
"Niiiickkkkk...I'm boooorrreeedddd." I whined. We had just gotten to the hotel about an hour ago. We had recently found out that the fans had somehow been misinformed on our whereabouts. Evidently a rather large crowd had formed at a nearby Sheraton. We were in a Radisson. For some oddball reason, this greatly amused me and I wanted to run with it.
"What did you have in mind?" Nick was reclining on the other bed in our room. After some arguing, Nick managed to convince Brian that it was fine for us to room together, provided we didn't drink.
I gave him a mischevious smile. "I dunno, you're the expert."
He laughed. "Ya know, I did see some vending machines..."
I stared at him, my eyes growing to saucers. "Oh my god, the pop-tarts!" I exclaimed, busting up.
"You want to?" He gestured to the door.
"Hell yeah!" I grinned enthusiastically. Another thing from our chats "way back when." It was the great poptart scheme and I laughed so hard when he told me about it that I nearly fell out of my chair.
"Let's go up a floor, that way we won't get caught." He suggested, slipping the key card into his back pocket. I followed him out the door, looking cautiously for anyone that might get us into trouble. We weren't supposed to go anywhere without telling detail first.
Thankfully, the hallways were empty so we hurried to the staircase at the end of the hall. "You have change?" Nick whispered as we climbed the flight of stairs.
"Yup." I snickered. We stopped at the landing and Nick carefully opened the door. I peeked around him and was surprised to see this hallway empty too. "Where is everyone?" I whispered.
"Waiting for the perfect time to use the vending machines." He whispered back, grinning.
We made our way down the hall and around the corner. There was an ice machine, a pop machine and a vending machine all side by side.
"Here, give me the money." He whispered, holding out his hand. I swear, two little horns were poking out of the top of his head.
"Sweet! They've got em!" I pointed to the blueberry poptarts on the third row.
Nick smirked as he fed the quarters into the machine and the poptarts thudded to the bottom. As he was reaching in to get them, I heard the elevator button ding.
"Nick, hurry! Someone's coming!" I hissed.
He looked over his shoulder and hastily tore the paper off the poptarts. With a quick grin to me, he shoved the poptart into the money slot, crumbs falling everywhere. I started kicking at the crumbs to hide them, but Nick grabbed my hand.
"Come on!" He pulled me back into a tiny corner with him. We were wedged between the ice machine and the wall, barely out of sight. We held our breaths as the footsteps grew louder. They stopped and I had to fight the urge to peek around the corner. I heard a rustling then, "What the hell?!"
Nick and I looked at each other and I started to snicker. He swiftly clamped a hand over my mouth, his own twitching. More footsteps sounded and we both froze, listening.
"Hi, there."
"Yeah, hi. Uh, I hope you weren't planning on getting something out of there. Some dumb kid shoved something in the money slot..." The irritated man explained.
"Oh, you've got to be kidding." A woman's disappointed voice replied. "Well, maybe another floor then. Would you like to join me?"
"Nah, thanks. It ain't worth the trouble." The man grumbled.
Nick's eyes met with mine and I could tell it was taking all of our power to not totally bust up. When I figured I was composed enough, I took his hand off my mouth. Only I didn't let go right away.
He didn't either.
Suddenly I realized how close we were standing. Our eyes locked and my heart started beating a little faster. Instinctively I started to close my eyes.
"Hey! What the hell?" An all too familiar and annoyed voice demanded.
Busted...
I flopped down on my bed and proceeded to flip the channels. The noise in the hallway died down, much to my relief. Even though nothing came out of that stupid letter board, I was still a little uneasy. I hated that wacked out family for making me so paranoid and untrusting. I've always been the type to look for the best in people no matter what. I still do that, but it's not the same. There are now a small handful of people that I would just as soon kill them as look at them. A chill came over my body when I realized that I actually had killed one of them.
I committed murder. That haunted me day and night. Never a dream went by without that gruesome death scene playing over in my head. As much as that tore me up inside, if it came down to it again and a gun was being held at Nick, I would kill again.
" AHHHHHH, SON OF A BITCH!!!"
I jumped at the horrific sound of Nick's screams. I raced to the door, my heart pounding. "Nick! NICK!" I called frantically, throwing the door open. Nick stood outside the shower, hastily wrapping a towel around his waist, dripping wet and visibly shaken.
"What? What happened?!" I cried, grabbing his arm.
He didn't say a word, but pulled the shower curtain back, barely holding the edge of it with two fingers.
"Oh my god! I croaked, backing away." The floor of the shower was crawling with black spiders. "Those-those" I stuttered.
"Were in that bottle of bath soap. God, Lizz, I shoulda listened to you and gotten rid of it. I opened the bottle and went to dump it in my hand and they just poured out." He shuddered and I wrapped my arms around him. Despite the grim circumstances I couldn't help but notice that he was only wearing a towel. Then the spiders flashed across my mind and I pulled away.
"Can we get outta here?" I nodded to the shower.
"Gladly." He agreed. Out in the room, he started rummaging through his backpack for some clothes.
"Nick, do we need to wash them down the drain? I don t want them coming in here." I grimaced at the thought of spiders crawling on me in my sleep.
"We'll get detail to do it. As soon as I get dressed." He gave me a pointed look.
"Oh!" I turned around, my face heating up. But how ludicrous was that? With what just happened, how could I be thinking things like that? Easy, I was scared and was trying to avoid thinking about it. "Are you sure it was a 14 year-old girl?" I asked, hugging my knees to my chest.
"Come to think of it, no. A camera went off right before I was handed the package. I couldn't see jack shit. The whole time...okay...I was out there, cameras were going off so I never saw anyone." He interrupted himself, giving me the okay to turn back around.
"There's no way this is a coincidence too. Nick, you know that." I said, my eyes trailing back towards the bathroom. I did not want to see any spiders come crawling out from under that door.
Nick came over and sat down by me. "Agnes may have escaped, but she wouldn't have tracked us down by herself and done all this on her own. If this is her, and we don't know that, she still can't get close to us. The letter board was dropped off and that," he nodded towards the bathroom, "could have been given to someone else to give to me. There is no way she can get close enough to us to hurt us. We'll just have to be extra careful with gifts and stuff." He reassured me.
I nodded, feeling a little better. "Should we tell the others?"
"I don't think so, it would just freak them out. Especially Brian. That board really shook him up and I don't want to add to it. I just want him to keep focusing on getting better." Nick said emphatically.
"Yeah, you're right. About cleaning that up though..." I grimaced.
Nick shook his head. "Detail."
I breathed a sigh of relief. "I hate the idea of showering in there again. I mean, spiders don't really freak me out, but that is a little much for me."
"Well, I could go in there with ya to protect ya." Nick grinned playfully.
I blushed. "Aren't we the funny one!" I smacked him on the arm for good measure, hoping he missed my grin. Shame on me for such thoughts! Then I remembered what he had said earlier. "So, what did you want to talk to me about?"
I turned around, surprised to see him on the phone already, probably calling detail. I guess he didn't hear what I had asked. Ah well, later.
"Nick, I m booooorredd." I sing-songed as I paced the floor.
"Lizz! Don't even go there, look what happened last time you got bored!" Nick
exclaimed, setting his Sports Illustrated down. "Besides, how can you be bored? We've
been running our asses around all damn day. Sit down, you're wearing me out!" He
flashed me an exasperated smile.
Today was another one of those early days. I woke up to Nick shaking me, telling me to
get up or I would have to leave the hotel room looking like I did. That was enough for
me. There were way too many people out there to see me in my boxers and tee shirt, not
to mention totally disheveled hair. It was a long day and it wasn t even close to being
over. The guys made another TV appearance (no bad gifts this time, thank God), a photo
op, and a couple of those mini interviews that I know Nick hates. Now we were back in
the hotel until it was time to go to the venue. I smiled to myself just thinking about it.
Nick assured me that I would get tired of seeing the show over and over, but I knew I
wouldn't. I loved watching them perform and that was something I would never get tired
of. "Okay, I'm hungry then." I stopped and flopped down on Nick's bed.
"We're gonna eat at the venue. We re leaving at 6:00. Can you wait that long?" He put
the magazine down again.
"Ni-iick! That s almost an hour away from now!" I pouted, batting my eyelashes. Okay,
normally I hated them because they were always hitting the back of my sunglasses, but
sometimes they came in handy.
He laughed. "Order room service then, piggy."
"Hey! Just for that, I m not sharing." I paused. "Okay, I ve stayed in a ton of hotels, but I
have never ordered room service. Do I, uh."
Nick rolled his eyes. "Allow me. Grilled cheese okay?"
"Perfect. Not too heavy, but it will hold me over till the banquet." I grinned, watching
him dial room service. "Thank you, maybe I'll share."
"You better." He grumbled, hidden back behind the magazine. I could tell he was smiling
though.
I wandered aimlessly around the room, waiting impatiently for my food. The window
shades were pulled, but I snuck a careful peek around the curtain. The sky was not only
dark, but lightning flashed off the distance. I smiled inwardly. Storms were my all time
favorite kind of weather and I had to push back the urge to go chase it. Old habits die
hard My stomach growled, and I looked quickly at Nick to see if he had heard.
Thankfully, he was too engrossed in the magazine to notice. A quick knock at the door
got my attention and I hurried to the door. I had my hand on the handle, ready to whip it
open when I thought of something. "Uh, Nick, we tip right?"
He snickered. "Yes, Lizz, always. Money is on top of the TV."
"Right." I nodded, grabbing some bills. But when I opened the door, no one was there. In
fact, the hallway was totally empty.
"You forgot your tip, dumbass." I muttered, kneeling down to pick up the tray that was
on the doorstep. Somehow I thought the service would be a little better at a hotel like this.
Oh well, I had my food, thats all I cared about. Even though I was just bringing it back
into the room, I couldn't help myself as I lifted the lid on the plate. "AHHHH!' I
screamed, jumping back, only to lose my balance and landing on my butt. The lid clattered
to the floor and I looked frantically up and down the hall. "NICK!!
"Lizz?! What is it??!" Nick rushed up behind me. I felt him kneel down and take my
shoulders. I lifted a shaky hand to the tray in front of me. Instead of my grilled cheese
sandwich, two bloody rats laid on top of the bread. A note, written in what looked like
blood, wrote, YOU WILL DIE LIKE THE RATS YOU ARE!
"What the fuck?!" Nick hollered. "WHERE ARE YOU, YOU BASTARDS?!
Several doors flew open.
"Nick? Lizz?" Brian rushed out of his room. When his eyes fell on the rats, he paled.
"What the hell kinda prank is that?!" AJ demanded, glaring at us.
"It wasn't a prank AJ!" I cried. "We ordered a grilled cheese sandwich and when I opened
the door, no one was here and this was on the floor."
"Lizz, are you sure you didn t see anyone?" Kevin asked, his face a mixture of anger
and more anger.
I shook my head. The hall was totally empty.
"This shit is not going to keep happening!" Kevin seethed.
"God, that's so gross." I stared at the rats. "I can't believe they would even want
to touch those." I was starting to breathe a little more normal now. The fact that Nick
stayed next to me, reassured me. "It's okay though, right? I mean, she was here, but we're
all okay. She can't do anything to us now and now detail is gonna be all over the place so
we'll be safe right?" I asked, trying to convince myself.
"No one is getting close to us." Nick said in a low voice.
I sighed. We were all sort of hovering in front of Nick and I's door. I wasn't sure why,
but I guess maybe we felt safer all together. At least I felt that way. " Well, I know this is
going to sound gross after our little rat meal, but I m still hungry." I offered a tentative
smile, trying to lighten the atmosphere.
"Please tell me you are joking, Lizz." Brian groaned.
"Hey, you are talking to the girl with the iron stomach." I joked.
"Good you are a perfect match for dumbass, then." AJ quipped.
"Hey." Nick protested. "You sure you don't want the sandwich, Lizzard?"
"Yeah, a rat sandwich doesn't quite do it for me." I laughed. Even though I was still
mildly shaken, I wasn't going to let it get to me. I was perfectly safe here with the guys.
No one was going to even get near us, not now. This was just another sick joke to scare
us.
"How about rat soup?" Offered Howie, a smiling forming.
"Howie!" Brian exclaimed, disgusted.
"Rat pot-pie?" Nick added, laughing at the green tint that was forming on Brian.
"Guys, come on, that's sick." He complained.
"Well, I've had rat pie." Kevin informed us, his face deadpan. We all stared at him in
shock. "Yeah, it was about 4 years ago, somewhere over in Europe. It wasn't that bad."
"Kevin, you're kidding. Right?" Brian stared up at his older cousin, a look of pure horror
twisting his features.
"Yes, I'm kidding. Now enough of the rat-talk. We need to deal with this mess". Kevin
shook his head at our gullibleness. I cracked up, just picturing it. Nick was laughing too
and despite the circumstances, I felt a lot calmer. Agnes could scare us all she wanted, but
she wasn't going to get close enough to us to hurt us.
Suddenly, without warning, we were plunged into darkness. Being in the middle of the
hallway, where there weren't any windows, it was pitch black.
"What the hell?" I exclaimed, alarmed.
"Shit." Nick said softly.
"Okay this isn t cool." AJ groused.
"It's probably just the storm. The lights will come back on in a second here." Kevin
reassured us.
I shuddered in the darkness. I didn't like this at all. I felt a hand graze across my cheek
and I jumped. "Nick! Don t do that!" I yelped.
"What?"
"You- you touched my cheek." I stammered, suddenly feeling sick.
"I didn't" He trailed off as the lights came back on. It was just the six of us, but now
other doors were opening all down the hallway. "Oh god" He stared in horror at me.
"What?" I whispered. They were all starting at me, totally horrified. My cheek felt sticky.
"What is it?" I cried, starting to tremble.
"Lizz." Nick started. His eyes scared me. He looked angry and scared at the same time.
He started to move towards me, slowly as if afraid I was going to flip out.Slowly, I
reached my hand up to my cheek. It was met with a cold, sticky substance and my
stomach twisted. My heart started racing and I felt the panic rise. My eyes flickered
around the hallway before settling on the hand that I had held out in front of my eyes. It
was covered in blood.
"Nick!" I screamed as I watched his eyes roll back into his head. His grip on me loosened so I held on tighter, determined to keep us together. The bus was fishtailing and I knew we were out of control. Suddenly, almost as if someone had pushed the slow-motion button on their VCR, all movement ceased. In a split second, the bus started to tip. Nick and I were thrown roughly to the floor and my desperate grip on him was torn away. Stuff was being thrown everywhere, hitting me and probably Nick in the process.
I landed hard and the impact knocked the wind out of me. I laid face up, unmoving on the floor of the bus. Only thing was, windows were straight above me. That would mean we had tipped over and I was actually laying on the side of the bus, right? "Nick?" I called, disappointed in my weak voice. I started to roll over, letting out a sharp gasp as my broken body protested to the movement. "God..." I murmured. "What the hell happened?" My eyes widened as I took in the surroundings. It looked like a tornado had blown through, wrecking havoc on everything it touched. Furniture was overturned and broken. Cabinet doors were open and shattered dishes were scattered about. I forced myself to sit up, groaning softly. "Shit! Nick! Why couldn't I think straight??"
I very quickly noticed the left arm of my dark sweatshirt was soaked in blood. Slowly, I crawled over to Nick. Putting any weight on it was out of the question. It hurt like a bitch. I pulled the neck of my sweatshirt away to try to steal a peek of the injury. Okay, that s pretty...About three inches below my shoulder was a pretty little gash. Nick was laying prone, a few feet away from me. From what I could tell, he was unconscious.
"Nick, honey, open your eyes." I coaxed, trying to fight the panic that was building. I needed to stay calm. There was a nasty cut on his forehead and it was bleeding freely. I grabbed a kitchen towel and pushed it up against his head. I'd hoped the pressure would get him to wake up, but he didn't even stir. Even in my clouded mind, I realized that we were in trouble if I didn't think quick. "Nicky, sweetheart, I'm going to go try to get help. I'll be right back okay? I love you."
I crawled over to an overturned table, using one of the legs to pull myself up. "Okay, just take it slow." I coaxed myself. I staggered over to the door and was surprised to be faced with floor of the bus. I looked up, gasping as a wave of dizziness washed over me. The door was above my head, along with a row of windows, but there was no way I could pull myself through one of them with my arm hurt like it was. "Maybe, oh no..."
"Dave?" I yelped, rushing over to our bus driver. He was laying sideways in his seat, the seat belt having prevented him from going anywhere. I held a shaky hand out, almost afraid to touch him. I took a deep breath and felt the side of his neck for a pulse. When I felt a steady beat, I sighed with relief. Unfortunately, he was unconscious as well.
It was gonna have to be one of the windows above my head. I went back to the table that I had used before and turned it right side up. Slowly, and nervously I climbed on top of it. To my relief, the window was a lot closer to me than I had thought. Fueled by pure adrenaline, I pulled myself as carefully as I could through the broken window, wary of the shards of broken glass that rimmed the edge. If any of it cut me, and it probably did, I was too much in shock to feel it. As it was, it felt like the accident had happened hours ago when I knew it had only been a couple minutes.
Now on top of the bus, my only choice was to just jump off. I took a deep breath and jumped, hitting the ground hard and dropping to my knees. Shakily I stood back up. The sun was setting and the sky was rapidly growing dark. In the distance I could see one of the other guys buses.
"Oh god, dont leave." I whimpered.
Almost as if they heard, the brake lights lit up and the bus started slowing down. They were just going to turn around, thank God. I had no idea who had been ahead of us and I didn't care. Nick's bus had been last cause when we had stopped at a fast food joint a few hours ago, we took the longest.
The noise of an oncoming car caught my attention and I whirled around. A white panel van had appeared out of nowhere. I waved my good arm frantically at them as they approached, my desperation starting to get overwhelming. The van came to a stop right next to me and my stomach clenched. There was suddenly something about this van that made me very uneasy. Probably just cause panel vans had a bad rep. Kidnappers used them because they were perfect for hiding in and keeping their victims from being seen. The door flew open and a man jumped out.
"Please help us! Our bus crashed and my friend is hurt. So is the driver. Please..." I froze. "Vinnie!"
"That's right, Lizz. Remember me?"
"Oh god... " I choked out, my knees getting weak.
The passenger window rolled down and another familiar face grinned at me.
"Terri?" I whispered, unable to believe what I was seeing.
Time to pay your dues, bitch. "Where's Carter?" She sneered.
"He must be the one that's on the bus, still hurt, right?" Vinnie snickered. I only stared at him in horror, not comprehending the events that were unfolding before my eyes. A heard another door open and moments later, Agnes appeared from around the other side of the van.
"Well, well. Lizz, don't look so shocked. You knew you would never be rid of us didn t you?" She laughed. I could only stand there and shift my gaze across their faces. I was totally helpless. I couldn t go anywhere, not with Nick still in the bus. Not like I would have gotten far anyway. The squealing brakes of bus tires got all of our attentions. Whoevers bus I had seen braking only a few minutes ago was now coming to a stop in front of us. The door flew open and AJ bounded down the steps.
"No, AJ! Go back!!!" I screamed.
"Oh no, I think you ll keep on coming this way." Vinnie called out.
AJ stopped in his tracks. "What the fuck is going on here?!" He demanded.
"AJ RUN! It was them!! Get help!!!" I cried.
Shut up! Agnes whipped around and raised her hand at me. I shrank back. "Keep it coming, AJ. You wouldn't want us to kill her, would you?" She coaxed him.
"Sonofabitch." He swore as he walked towards us. I whimpered in despair. Now they were gonna get him too.
"Perfect, time to get out of here." Agnes announced as she looked off in the distance. We followed her gaze to see the rest of the buses coming.
"Wait! Momma, we need to get Carter!" Terri whined.
"No! You aren t fucking going near him. You'll have to kill me first." I growled.
"As if you have a choice in the matter." Vinnie sneered.
"Where is he? Is he okay?" AJ's attention shot towards the bus, alarm in his voice.
"He's unconscious, he got hit in the head. H-he was b-bleeding." Tears filled my eyes.
"New plan. We re leaving. Now." Agnes announced.
"Momma!" Terri protested.
"Shut up, Terri!" Agnes barked. She turned to AJ. "Get in the van."
"Over my dead fu-"
Agnes whipped out a gun. "Don't make me say it again".
"No..." I moaned, planting my feet. "I'm not leaving Nick."
Vinnie reached over and grabbed my arm. I gasped as his fingers snaked around the gash. The pain made my vision go black for a split second and my knees turned into rubber.
Aw, whattsa matter? Lizz got an owie?" He mocked. He jerked me roughly, and I nearly fell. I felt a rough shove against my back and I tumbled onto the van floor. AJ managed to partially break my fall and pulled me closer to him. Vinnie hopped in and pulled the van door shut. Agnes was already starting the ignition.
"Momma, why did we leave him there? It was our chance!" Terri protested angrily.
"It was not our perfect chance." Agnes snapped in return. "Did you not see the other buses heading this way? It doesn t matter, this is even better."
"How?" Terri grumbled.
"We want Carter to suffer in the worst possible way right? Hurting him isn't going to make him suffer nearly as much as hurting his friends. Knowing that they are going through pain and there isn't anything he can do to stop it. This is the new plan..".
I looked up at AJ, fearfully. We were both huddled against the side wall of the van, not daring to move. Vinnie sat across from us, keeping the gun trained to our faces.
What did we want from the beginning? Our money from the National Enquirer. We're going to take it a step further now. A kidnapping case is bound to be newsworthy right? We take some pictures, send them in, get our money. Maybe after we get sick of that tattooed freak, we could arrange for a trade for that other one. We're keeping the bitch though. That way, Carter will do whatever we want. Finally, of course, in the end, we ll get Carter and kill him slowly. All of it will be publicized and we will get our just payments. Then, disappear into Mexico or something." Agnes explained, grinning at her cleverness.
I felt sick. "You can t..". I whispered.
"You fucking psychos! You will never get away with it!" AJ spat.
Agnes glanced at us in the rearview mirror. "Oh we will. If the media doesn t cooperate, you' ll die. If the Enquirer doesn't cooperate, you'll die. If your group doesn't cooperate, you'll die. Either way, Carter dies in the end. I guess the only part up to you guys is how many people will join him"
“Just sit tight, Littrell. You’ve seen the damage we can do, don’t fuck with us.”
“Oh no...” I whispered, praying I hadn’t heard Brady right. Praying it wasn’t Brian that was in Brady’s grip. But when a sliver of light fell on Brian’s face, my heart sank. Brady took notice of my dismay, smirked and gave Brian a hard shove. With his hands bound behind his back, Brian was unable to keep himself from tumbling roughly to the floor. Brady nodded in satisfaction and left the room, slamming the door behind him.
“Brian!” I cried, doing my best to crawl over to him.
“Lizz?” Brian panted, trying to catch the breath that had been knocked out of him. He’d managed to pull himself up so he was sitting on his knees. “Are you okay?” His voice rose in alarm when he got a look at my battered condition.
“Fine.” I said hastily, unconcerned with myself at the moment. “Wh- Where’s AJ? Is he-”
“He’s alive, Lizz. He was beaten pretty badly.” Brian said softly, shaking his head.
I tried to swallow around the lump that had formed in my throat. “God Brian, I tried to stop him. AJ and I were trying to find away out of here and we got caught. Brady attacked AJ and Vinnie dragged me into this room. I saw the phone in here,” I stopped to show Brian, but it was nowhere to be seen. “Well, it was in here. Anyway, I called Nick, but almost immediately Vinnie came back in here. He ripped the phone from my hand and started knocking me around. Then he called Nick back and told him to come get me and AJ. He said AJ needed medical attention.” I stopped again when I saw the expression on Brian’s face.
“He called him back. Dammit.” Brian looked pained. I raised an eyebrow.
“Vinnie called Nick before that?”
“No, well yes. He called Nick, but I was in sitting with him. Since Nick was finally asleep, I answered his phone and Vinnie thought I was Nick and directed me to come to this address.” He explained, shifting uncomfortably against the handcuffs.
I shook my head slowly. “’Sitting with him?’”
“Nick’s in the hospital, Lizz. Or, well, he was before he disappeared.” Brian said softly.
I put my hand to my mouth. “Oh god.”
“No no! He’s okay, he was just banged up from the accident and I think waking up to find you and AJ gone didn’t help.” Brian said quickly.
“But you said he was gone. Shit Brian! He’s going to come here! They’ll kill him!” I cried.
“Kevin’s here too, hopefully he’ll find Nick before anyone else does and get him out of here.” Brian assured me. I might have actually felt better if he’d sounded convinced himself. Instead I just wrapped my arms around Brian, trying to fight the tears that were behind my eyes.
AJ couldn’t hold back the small whimper that escaped his throat when he was thrown into someone’s arms. He was completely and totally disoriented. Nick was supposed to be the one that was there, but instead he had heard Brian’s voice. Brian was telling someone not to worry, that he would take care of Nick and himself! He almost didn’t care who had him since he didn’t think it was possible to be in much more pain than he was already in.
“Beat it, before I decide I’m not done with that little freak.” Brady sneered.
Kevin sucked in a breath and instinctively drew AJ closer to him, determined to keep his younger brother from any more harm. The mere idea of leaving Brian and Lizz at this foul place made him sick to his stomach. But he had to get AJ out of there and find Nick. “I’m going.” Kevin ground out, teeth clenched.
At the sound of Kevin’s voice, AJ let himself relax somewhat. Kevin would figure something out and get everyone safe. AJ refused to let himself believe otherwise. Since he couldn’t see anything, he focused instead on the sounds in the room. Kevin’s rapidly beating heart was pounding so loud in his ear that it was impossible to miss that. The door squeaked open and Kevin carried AJ through. AJ jumped when the door was slammed behind them.
“You with me bud?” Kevin asked softly.
“L--” AJ paused and cleared his throat weakly. “Lizz’s next door, Brian now too...”
Kevin’s gaze immediately fell on the closed door that they were behind. Again, Kevin had to fight back tears. They were so close, yet there was nothing he could do. He was so damned helpless. “AJ, I’m getting you out of here, finding Nick and we are gonna be back for them.” He swore, his voice low.
“Brady told me-” AJ was forced to stop when his beaten body was wracked with coughs.
“Shh-hh AJ, take it easy.” Kevin coaxed.
“No, Kev! They’re going to torture Lizz, then Nick. Then kill him.”
Kevin stared down at AJ. “Sonofabitch! That big guy told you this?”
AJ nodded. Kevin looked hurriedly up and down the hall, trying to figure out what to do. Thankfully the hallway was vacant, but that luck was about to run out. Vinnie’s two way crackled from the other side of the door. Her words were too muffled to understand, but Vinnie’s were clear as a bell. “You heard the woman, Brady. Go get Richardson and your little punching bag.” Vinnie laughed at his cleverness in AJ’s nickname.
Kevin’s eyes widened. “Oh shit.”
“Shit.” Nick muttered. He looked to his right, figuring there was a side door he could slip out of, unnoticed. Lizz and AJ depended on him getting to them and he couldn’t let them down.
“Nick! Oh my god!”
“Hey look! It’s Nick!”
“Nick Carter?”
“Oh shit. Shit!“
The next thing he knew, people were all around him and he felt his chest tighten. They were all trying to get his attention and they all wanted something from him. He needed to get to this address and get to Lizz and AJ before it was too late.
“I need to get through! It’s an emergency.” He said urgently.
“Mr. Carter, could you answer a few questions for us? There are a lot of questions regarding your bus accident...”
“Please, I don’t have time...” Nick shook his head, pushing through everyone.
“Nick? There are rumors that AJ is missing. It’s also being said that Lizz was on that bus with you and that is missing as well! Can you-”
“No!” Nick cried, desperately. If that information got out, there was no telling what could happen if Agnes and Vinnie found out. He was beginning to feel panicked and was about to totally break down until a cab pulled up in front of him. The passenger window rolled down and the cabbie leaned over.
“Get in!” He yelled.
Without thinking twice, Nick jerked the door open and threw himself into the backseat. The cabbie slammed his foot down on the gas and the car peeled away from the curb before Nick even had the door shut.
“I can’t thank you enough.” Nick leaned against the back seat, trying to catch his breath and settle his pounding heart.
“You’re in some trouble, aren’t ya son?” The cabbie peered at his young passenger through his rearview mirror.
“My friends are. I need you to take me to...” Nick paused as he shoved his hand into his pockets. “Oh shit! The address is on my menu. I ran out of there so quick, I didn’t even think to grab it! I don’t know how to get there!” Nick moaned in despair, convinced he’d just sentenced his friends to death.
“I know where it is, son. You just sit tight and ol’ Carl will get you there.” The cabbie smiled thinly.
“Bu- H-how do you know...?” Nick stammered.
“I picked up your two friends, your other bandmates. Already took them there.” Carl replied.
“What?! Oh shit, Brian and Kevin?? Mister, please hurry! They’re gonna get killed!” Nick exclaimed, panic setting back in.
Carl didn’t say anything, but only pushed down harder on the accelerator.
I stared at Vinnie, unable to move. It felt as if every muscle in my body was frozen. He was standing in the doorway, grinning like it was his birthday. Nick was in front of him, on his knees, gun to his head. I opened my mouth to scream, but nothing came out. So I stood there, like a deer in front of headlights, my eyes locked onto Nick’s.
“We don’t have all daa-ayyy, Lizz.” Terri sung out, a sick smile twisting her face.
I broke my gaze from Nick, trying to figure out what was going on. What had happened? Where was Brian? Almost as if reading my mind, Brady stepped forward, rubbing his hands together. I squinted, my mind not comprehending why there was red stuff on his hands. Surely it wasn’t blood.
“Lizz?” Nick’s voice shook me out of my stupor.
I wanted to go to him. Everything was in slow motion and I could tell something was going to happen. Something bad and there was nothing I could do to stop it. But my feet were still rooted to the floor. Almost like someone had glued them down.
Agnes stepped around the other side of Vinnie, gun in her hand. She pointed it at Nick. Yet, I still stood there, unable to move. I couldn’t stop this, there wasn’t a damn thing I could do. But if anything, if all of this was for nothing else, I had to tell Nick how I felt about him. I had to tell Nick that I loved him. At least he would know. I had to tell him before it was too late.
Agnes cocked the trigger. I opened my mouth. The words were on my lips and my heart was breaking. But before I could utter a single sound, the fatal shot rang out.
“AJ, we’ve got to move quick, before they find us!” Kevin whispered, a tone of urgency in his voice.
All AJ could do was give a slight nod, not knowing if Kevin was looking at him or not. He felt his hand slip around his arm, and then Kevin’s arm grabbing his waist to steady him as he guided him to a sturdier standing position.
Rushing AJ as fast as he dared, Kevin tried door after door only to discover that it was locked. As he was just about to give up and resign them both to certain doom, the last door he tried miraculously opened.
“This looks like an old office space, we’ll be safe in here for the time being,” Kevin stated as he looked around the dimly lighted room.
AJ’s only response was several dry coughs followed by a soft, quiet moan.
“Are you okay?”
AJ sighed quietly. “Yeah, ready to party.”
As he leaned against the wall, Kevin looked around the room, surveying the situation he and AJ were in. He narrowed his eyes as he looked across the room. “Hey, I see some doors over there,” he announced as he straightened himself up. “Stay right here, I’m gonna go see where they lead to.”
“Yeah, like I have a choice,” AJ sputtered.
AJ discovered that since his eyesight was gone, his hearing seemed to have become more sharper and he trained his concentration on listening to Kevin’s hard, even footsteps across the wooden floor. Kevin grunted as he pulled on a door. AJ could tell that he moved further away as he tried another door.
“Hey this one looks like it might lead us out of this building, it’s got stairs,” Kevin stated excitedly. “I’ll go and check it before I lead you down here. God, there’s dust and cobwebs everywhere!”
AJ shook his head hearing Kevin’s disgust about the dirty stairwell. He was such a neatnik, always cleaning up after the rest of the guys when they were on tour. “I’m sure it won’t kill you, just watch out for rats.”
“Ha, ha, very funny AJ,” Kevin mocked. “Hey, I see a passage over there----”
A floorboard groaned followed by the sound of wood breaking and Kevin crying out.
Then silence.
Using the wall as a leverage to get his bearings, AJ slowly felt his way along the wall, getting back up again to a standing position. “Kevin? Are you okay? Kev? Shit.”
“Where are they!” Agnes squawked at Vinnie when he appeared in the room, alone.
“I couldn’t find their asses, they’re probably long gone by now,” Vinnie panted, winded from running up and down the hall in search of Kevin and AJ.
“Dammit Vincent, I left you in charge of something so simple and you messed that up too! This is no good, I can’t tolerate this!” Agnes bellowed as she paced the trash strewn wooden floor.
“Hey don’t be yelling at me about this! You told me to keep Littrell with that girl----”
“YOU PUT THEM TOGETHER?!”
“YOU TOLD ME TO YOU OLD BITCH!”
“Good god, gimme the gun, I’ll have to take care of things by my...where’s Brady at?” Agnes sneered as she grabbed the gun from Vincent’s hand.
“Use your freakin two way, dumb bitch,” Vinnie cackeled as he slumped onto the overstuffed, dusty brown couch in the corner.
Agnes glared as she picked up her radio off the table next to the couch. “Brady?”
Silence was soon replaced with static and then Brady’s voice.
“Yes ma’am?”
A broad smile played upon Agnes lips. “See that boy knows how to respect me.” Vinnie flipped the old woman off when she turned her back. Terri unsuccessfully chocked back a giggle. Agnes whirled around to see what Terri was snickering about but her attention was suddenly drawn back to Brady on the two-way.
“Ma’am? You needed me?”
“Yes Brady, I do,” Agnes replied sweetly. “I want you to go and get either the boy or that girl from out of that room and bring one of them to me, they can’t be kept together, they’ll try to escape.”
“Which one do you want?”
Agnes waived her hand in the air as she replied, “It doesn’t matter, which ever one y’all feel you can handle.”
“Be down in a few minutes ma’am,” Brady answered.
“See, that’s all it took, some real man to handle the situation correctly,” Agnes stated as she placed the two-way back onto the table.
“What you gonna do, Momma?”
“Not sure yet, it will depend on who he brings to me,” Agnes smiled.
I peered out the window and swallowed nervously. “T-this is where you left them at?”
“Creepy looking place isn’t it?”
Leaning back on the seat, I pulled my billfold out of my back pocket and pulled out the last of my money - a wad of ones and a twenty dollar bill. “Will this be enough?”
Carl accepted the money from me and fingered the bills. “Yeah, plenty. You need me to stick around?”
The thought sounded inviting to me since this place looked spooky and I was beginning to wonder what I would find when I got in there but I shook my head and declined the offer. “I got my cell, I can call for a cab when I need a ride out of here.”
“Suit yourself then kid, good luck to you and your friends, hope you find them, that building is pretty big.”
“I will, thanks.”
Hesitating only for a moment, I finally pulled myself from the cab and watched as the driver sped off. Adding a dramatic effect to the whole situation, the wind picked up and stirred the sand in the road, blowing it in my face. “Just peachy,” I mumbled as I looked at the hotel.
I approched the obvious - the front door and gingerly pulled on the handle. The steel door groaned in a loud protest as it opened and slammed shut behind me when the wind pushed against it. I jumped and my heart started racing. When the door shut I was cast into total darkness for a moment until my eyes adjusted to the lack of sunlight.
The lobby of the building was strewn with litter, beer and soda cans. I felt a chill go up my back as I looked around. Five freakin stories and they could be anywhere. A rat screeched as it scrambled across the floor twenty feet from where I stood.
Eyeing the stairs, I determined that they had to be safe, there wasn't any other way for anyone to get up to each level of the building. I decided to start from the top and work my way door, floor by floor until I found them. I took a deep breath and slowly and cautiously started my climb.
"Lizz? Wake up honey," Brian soothed as he gently nudged her with his shoulder.
"Ohmygod!" she gasped as she woke, her breathing was labored and her hair was soaked in sweat.
"You had a bad dream, it's okay now."
Lizz shook her head. "Oh god it was awful."
"It was just a dream," Brian assured as he shifted his body trying to find a more comfortable position against the wall.
"But it seemed so real. Agnes said she was going to kill him...."
"Kill him? Nick? Was that what the dream was about?"
Lizz nodded, unable to go into the details of the nightmare that she was afraid that would come true.
"Well, it's just a dream, it's going to be okay," Brian tried to convince Lizz as much as he was trying to convince himself at the moment.
Lizz hoped it was true but the dream still hung in her thoughts, not going away. She decided she had to talk about it, it was breaking her heart keeping the thoughts inside. "They had him on his knees and a gun pointed to his head...and I never got to tell him goodbye, I never got to tell him that I love him," Lizz whispered.
Brian turned his head slowly to look at Lizz. He thought he heard the last phrase, but she whispered it so quietly, he wasn't certain. "You'll see him again soon. It's going to be okay. You can tell him then."
"I hope so," Lizz squeaked before the tears started to flow again.
"Awe sweetheart--"
Brian's words were cut short when the door to the room was flung open and Brady appeared.
"I'm supposed to take one of you to Agnes. Which one should I take?" Brady snickered.
The handcuffs clanked as Brian inched his way up the wall to a standing postion. "Take me, leave her alone!"
Brady laughed at Brian's determination. "A Backstreet Boy with some guts. I like this, you would have never suspected that from you!"
"No, don't take him, take me, it's my fault, don't hurt him!" Lizz protested.
"I'll be back to get you soon doll, just one at a time, that's all Brady wants to take right now, come on boy," Brady urged as he approached Brian and took his arm.
The look on Brian's face scared Lizz. She could see the fear and the apprehension of the unknown in his eyes.
"It'll be okay Lizz, just sit tight," Brian called out as he was led out of the room.
Brady laughed at the statement and then kicked the door shut and the next thing Lizz heard was the sound of a key being placed into a lock.
The search on the top floor was a waste of time, I decided as it turned up nothing but empty hotel rooms. One floor down four more to go. There was something about the fourth floor that was different though. It 'felt' as if it were being used. Hearing a door closing, my heart skipped a beat.
I ducked into a room, leaving the door cracked open as I waited to see what would be walking down the hall. I listened and tried to breathe quietly so I could catch any sounds or voices that would hopefully lead me to my friends.
There were distinctive sounds of chains from handcuffs and heavy footsteps and the sounds of some lighter footsteps of someone that was being taken someplace against their will. Funny how when you can't see something your hearing seems to become more sensitive to sound.
My breath caught when the owners of the footsteps came into view. A huge black man was pushing Brian down the hall, his hands were handcuffed in front, his face looked weary. I decided I would slip out of the room behind them when they past my door. Just a few more feet and I would take my position....
The plans were abruptly ended when the ringer on my cellphone loudly announced I had an incoming phone call.
Shit.
“Brian!” I cried, beating my fist against the door, tears of frustration and despair slipping down my cheeks. “Dammit Lizz, hold it together.” I swore to myself. I took a deep breath and made myself take a step back and think rationally. I had to find out where Brady was taking Brian. I pressed my ear up against the door and listened. The footsteps sounded off to the right. Okay, at least I know what direction I am going. I looked around the room, but there was nothing in here that was going to help me break the door down. As if I had the strength to do that anyway. How else was I going to get out of here? I had a sickening feeling that if I didn’t get to Brian soon, he would end up in AJ’s condition, or worse.
Frantically I scanned the room again, my eyes falling on the window. I rushed over to it as and looked outside. The sun was rising so I could see pretty well. There was a ledge that ran several feet below the window. It was about as wide as a curb, but it ran around the whole side of the building. When I realized what I was going to have to do, my heart started pounding. I wasn’t afraid of heights, but I did have terrible balance. Nick and I had had many arguments on who was more of a klutz. Just the thought of him heightened my desperation to get moving. Time was running out for Brian and Nick was on his way here.
I grabbed the thin sheet that had been laying in a crumpled heap on the floor and balled as much of it as I could around my hand. Then I balled up my fist, reached back and shot it through the window. It shattered and I felt the sting of glass shards go into my knuckles. The worry that someone could have heard me was more prevalent on my mind so I focused my attention on climbing out of the window. The ledge felt a lot skinnier with me standing on it than when I had looked at it. I shut my eyes, panic welling up in my chest. Think of Nick. Think of Brian. Take it slow. Inch by inch I eased my body along the ledge. The first window was only a few feet away. When I got to in and looked inside, it was empty. I was almost relieved because I wasn’t sure what I was going to find, but then again, I wasn’t going to last much longer on this ledge.
“What the hell?” Brady’s attention was directed towards the ringing of a cell phone. It was coming from a room that had been unoccupied for the last few days. Brady knew this because the guy that had been staying there had been killed in a street fight. He shot a warning look to Brian before walking over to the door. It was cracked open so he pushed it the rest of the way. Brady took a step into the room and didn’t see the fist in time. It connected with the side of his face with a crunch. Brady reeled back, stunned by the blow.
Brian stared in shock as Brady nearly plowed into him. Nick suddenly came into view. “Brian, run!” He yelled, ready to lunge at Brady again. He was ready to do whatever it took to keep Brady away from Brian. Unfortunately, Brady had the same idea and got to Brian first.
“Don’t move. I’ll snap his fuckin neck.” Brady snarled, angered that that little punk had managed to knock one of his teeth out. He had one massive arm wrapped around Brian’s neck, tight enough to make Brian gag for air. His other hand had a firm grip on Brian’s hair, showing Nick what little effort it would take to make good on his threat.
“Don’t!” Nick begged. “Let him go! I’ll surrender myself, whatever you want. Let him go, please!”
Brady turned his head to the side and spit out the bloody tooth. “You are going to pay for that, boy. Start walking.” He gestured down the hall with his chin.
Not wanting to provoke Brady into causing anymore harm to Brian, Nick obeyed. Brady followed behind, dragging Brian with him. “Third door on the right. Open it.”
“No! Nick don’t! They’re going to kill you!” Brian cried.
“I’m going to kill you if you don’t shut up.” Brady hissed, his patience growing thin.
Nick swallowed hard. He knew that what was on the other side of that door could very likely mean his death. On the other hand, what was to guarantee that they weren’t going to kill Brian as well. And where was Lizz? Where was AJ? He turned around slowly.
“You have me.” He said softly. “Please let Brian go. I’ll do whatever you say, just please let my friends go.”
Brady stared at Nick thoughtfully. “You’d do anything to save your friends wouldn’t you?”
Nick was filled with a glimmer of hope. “Yes, I would. D-does this mean you’ll let them go?”
Brady continued to stare at Nick a moment longer before busting out in cruel laughter. “No, it just means that this will be so much more entertaining!”
“You bastard!” Nick yelled, starting to move towards Brady.
“Ah ah, I wouldn’t.” Brady warned, clamping a fierce hand around the back of Brian’s neck. “Now go in the fucking room.”
After the fifth window I was feeling beyond desperate and I felt like every part of my body was shaking with exertion and nerves. Then I heard the faint sound of a door being slammed. A lot of loud voices followed and I knew my the next window belonged to the room Brian was in. As quickly as I dared, I inched over to the window and peered in. The horror of the scene in front of me almost caused me to lose my balance. It wasn’t just Brian in there with our kidnappers, but Nick too! He was here?! The window was filthy so it was hard to tell what was going on. They were all in there, I could tell that much. Terri sat stiffly in her wheelchair, pointing an accusatory finger at Nick. Vinnie was standing a little too close for comfort to the window I was hanging outside of. Agnes was standing in front of Nick, hands on hips, yelling at him. Brady had a firm grip on Brian and appeared to be enjoying every minute of it. I could see Nick’s face and he looked absolutely horrified. I couldn’t see Brian’s face, but it looked like Nick’s horror was directed at him. I squinted harder, trying to figure out what was going on. That’s when I saw it.
Brady was holding a gun to Brian. He was going to use it.
With an animalistic cry, I threw my fist into the window. Six shocked heads jerked in my direction. I didn’t even have time to notice as the ledge beneath me crumbled under my feet and I started to fall.
Anything that could go wrong had and was at this very moment I decided as I glanced around the room. Here was my best friend standing in front of me, fear etched on his face. The huge black man named Brady, stood next to Brian - a little too close for my satisfaction - grinning from ear to ear despite the missing tooth, compliments of me actually making contact with the man's face. And then there was the collection of family freaks, Agnes and Terri.
Terri.
I narrowed my eyes as I stared at her face. This woman brought more pain and suffering than what anyone could ever imagine. Granted she was in a wheel chair and the events that put her there would have humbled the meanest soul, but there she was, still yelling and blaming me for everything that had happened to her and her family.
Agnes was just a bitter old woman and looked for blame to place for the way her family had turned out. I was her perfect scapegoat and she kept insisting that I was to suffer for all the wrongdoings I had made happened to her Terri and her Marcus.
"You'll get what you deserve, Nick Carter, I will make you regret the day you were born. You will watch your friends slowly suffer. I had to watch my Terri being punished and suffer because of you!"
"Please, let them go," my voice croaked. "I-I'll do anything you ask me to, just let my friends go."
"We'll let them go Carter, after we're done with them, we'll let them go," Vinnie sneered and then laughed.
"Brady, take Brian and work him over like you did with that skinny tatooed runt!" Agnes commanded as she waved her boney finger towards Brian.
"This will be fun," Brady smirked.
"No! Please!" I begged. I knew I had to think of something fast, some type of diversion or something to stall for time. "Just keep on doing what you want to him but only do it to me, it's me you're angry at, not Brian!"
"No my dear friend, the whole point of this is to put you through hell and there's not a damn thing you can do about it!" Vinnie cackled.
"Nick, no! Just let them get this overwith," Brian pleaded.
All eyes were focused on Brian as he bravely was waiting for the punishment to begin. Suddenly, before I could argue, the sounds of breaking glass penetraited the air. Everyone jerked their heads towards the direction of the dirty window.
"LIZZ!" Brian and I yelled at the same time.
Vinnie jumped and quickly reached out through the broken window and grabbed Lizz's arm preventing her from falling off the crumbling ledge. She was screaming from fear and from the pain of Vincent's firm grip.
I didn't hesitate and ignored Agnes and Brady's commands that I didn't move from my spot as I rushed towards the window to help Vinnie pull Lizz into the room.
"Back off Carter," Vinnie grunted through clenched teeth.
I pushed him off to one side as I grabbed onto the arm that he was hanging onto. "You'll drop her!"
Vinnie started to push me with his body. "NO I WON'T! BACK OFF FREAK!"
My eyes locked onto Lizz's. She knew how to read my mind and through tear streamed eyes, she managed to read what I was thinking and slightly nodded her acknowledgement.
Tightening my grip on her arm, I threw all my weight against Vinnie, pressing him against the wall, causing him to release his hand on her arm. I quickly reached out with my other hand. "Grab it!"
"I... I can't," Lizz cried pitifully.
"Yes you can," I encouraged. I gasped when I saw the amount of blood that was pouring out of the gash on her forearm. I pushed the thought of passing out away. "Come on, take my hand!"
"Let her go so she can just die!" Terri wailed.
"Lizz! Don't let them win, come on, take my hand dammit!"
After a few feeble attempts, Lizz connected and my hand met hers. Putting a foot against the wall under the window for leverage, I pulled Lizz up and through the window, both of us falling onto the floor in a heap.
"Isn't that just fucking sweet," Terri mocked. "You should have let her fall because what we have planned for her now would make falling to her death more pleasant than being slowly tortured until she begs to die!"
"Don't you touch her, just take me, let them go!" I begged as I looked at Agnes and Vinnie.
Vinnie was slowly pulling himself up from the corner, anger was evident in his face. "I'm gonna have so much fun doing her."
I narrowed my eyes at Vinnie.
"There's nothing you can do Carter, so don't you even think about it, we have this all planned out."
I noticed out the corner of my eye how the blood from Lizz's gash was pooling onto the wood floor. I tore off my shirt and quickly fashioned it into a tourniquet to slow the bleeding down. As I helped Lizz up to her feet, I could feel her shaking, her legs wobbly.
"Just let my friends go and you can do anything you want with me, just let them go," I begged.
Agnes clicked the trigger on her gun and gestured for Lizz and me to move towards her. I kept trying to think of some quick move to save us from this mess, but my mind was a jumbled mess of worry and I couldn't think clearly.
"Hands behind your backs," Agnes commanded in a stern voice.
"Lizz is hurt she can't---"
"Put your hands behind your back, Carter," Brady snarled.
Vinnie grabbed his gun and held it against Brian's head. "Do like we say and I won't have to blow his head open!"
I quickly followed the orders and winced when I heard Lizz quietly yelp when her arms were drawn back.
"Couldn't you at least put the cuffs in front of her since she's cut and bleeding?" My eyes met with Vinnie's and I glanced at Brian's ashen face. Vinnie didn't look like he was going to budge, almost as if he was getting off on the hurt he was causing us. "Please for god sakes, show a little compassion, you are human aren't you?"
Vinnie roughly grabbed Brian's hair and jerked his head backwards. "Yeah, I guess or you'll just keep on whining, won't you asshole?" After he let Brian's head go, he nodded towards Brady to undo Lizz and put her hands in front. The blood was already seeping through the tourniquet, not much but enough to let me know that the bleeding hadn't stopped.
We were led towards a windowless wall, far away from where Lizz was dragged in. Brady pushed down on both of our shoulders until we sat down on the floor. Vinnie took his place alongside us. Brian stood in the center of the room and Brady started walking around him, like a lion ready to pounce on it's prey.
"Do Littrell like you did that skinny runt," Vinnie snickered.
Brady grinned and rubbed his hands together. Brian stood still, staring at his agressor, waiting for the punishment that they deemed was necessary.
Before I could beg for more mercy again, Brady delivered the first punch, his fist flying directly into Brian's stomach, emptying all the air from his lungs, causing him to crumble to ground in a coughing fit. I leaned forward to get up but was quickly put back into place by a swift kick from Vinnie into my shoulder.
Brady reached down and pulled Brian back up to his feet by his shirt and punched him in the stomach in four rapid blows.
"STOP!"
Brady let go of him when I yelled and Brian fell down to his knees again. Instead of quitting, the huge black man started kicking Brian any place his feet would land - stomach, legs, chest, back. Brian only cried out once or twice but it was an eerie cry, like he was trying to keep his suffering to himself, almost as if to protect us from worry.
Brady picked Brian up by the shirt again and grinned when he could see that his victim was barely conscious on his feet. He curled his fist up again, ready to deliver more blows when Agnes stopped him.
"That's enough, you can't kill him just yet!"
The smile faded from Brady's face and he let go of Brian's shirt and watched as he fell down to his hands and knees. Brian started coughing so hard that he got sick. I wanted to go to him so badly, but Vinnie pointed his gun towards Lizz so I knew it was better that I stayed in my place. My heart was aching for Brian, I prayed he wasn't hurt as badly as he looked.
"Now the fun begins with pretty girly here," Vinnie mocked as he rubbed the gun across Lizz's cheek.
"God, please just let them go, please!" I begged as the fear of what was about to happen screamed out in my mind.
"Nah, I'm gonna do this for Marcus, he wanted her and he was denied her pleasure, so me and Brady are gonna do this for Marcus," Vinnie grinned. "The best part is y'all get to watch."
"Count me out you sick perv," Terri huffed as she wheeled her chair around and directed it towards the door. "I'll be in the kitchen, let me know when you're done. Momma are you going to watch?"
Agnes sighed in disgust. "Good lord no, I'm going with you. Remember what we discussed boys, and if you're really smart, you should rough Carter up a little bit before you start so his reflexes won't be quick in case he decides to help his little girl out."
Vinnie rolled his eyes. “You are such a fuckin suck-up, ya know that?”
Brady turned around slowly and glared at Vinnie. “Listen, you-”
“Now boys, let’s not forget the task at hand here.” Agnes reminded them, her voice stern.
Vinnie rubbed his hands together. “Don’t worry Ag, I’ve been waiting for this for a long time.”
Terri made a face and turned her head away, growing more and more angrier by the second. How could her brother have wanted anything to do with that little bitch? It was like a slap in the face, a betrayal. And now Vinnie was using vengeance as an excuse to have her. She had half a mind to grab her mother’s gun and shoot the bitch.
“Just let us know when you are done, huh Vincent?” Agnes pointed her bony finger at him. “And don’t forget what I said about Carter.”
Brady shut the door behind the two women and turned around to smile maliciously at us. Vinnie was still standing in front of me, gun pointed to my face. All through their little exchange, my attention shifted from them, to Nick and finally to Brian. Watching Brady beat him was one of the most horrific things I had ever witnessed. I was overwhelmed by that same helpless feeling I had when I had to watch Kurt and Marcus whip Nick.
Brian didn’t even have the strength to keep himself on his hands and knees and had sort of slumped down so he was curled up, as if that would ease the pain he must be going through. He still wasn’t completely recovered from the last abuse afflicted on him those months ago. How much could his body take?
“Alright Carter, you heard the boss. We can’t have you trying to pull any heroisms here.” Brady’s threat broke me out of my thoughts.
“Just make sure you don’t make his dumb ass go unconscious or anything. I want him to be able to watch everything I am going to do to his little bitch.” Vinnie reminded, taking a step closer to me.
I recoiled away. This wasn’t happening, it had to be another nightmare.
“Please don’t touch her! You’ve already hurt Brian and AJ. You have me. Please don’t do this to her!” Nick begged.
Vinnie tilted his head back and laughed uproariously. “Keep talking Carter, that is exactly the kind of shit I want to hear. Makes this even better!”
I was still sitting by Nick and I had a death grip on his arm. Brady walked over and stood directly in front of Nick. With perfect control and ease, he leveled his gun at Nick’s forehead. Nick stiffened and I gasped in horror.
“Come on, bitch. I know you want this as bad as I do. Hell, as bad as Marcus did. You know, he wanted your ass bad.” Vinnie grabbed me by the shoulder of my shirt and started to pull me away from Nick. “I don’t know though, I’ve seen you look better. I may be a kinky bastard, but I don’t go for all this blood. I guess it’s my own damn fault for knockin the shit out of ya earlier huh? Alright, let‘s go, sweetness.”
The harder he tugged at me, the harder I gripped Nick. The pulling was making my forearm throb, but the only thought going through my mind was to stay with Nick. They couldn’t separate us.
“Let go of her.” Brady snarled, cocking the trigger of the gun against Nick’s forehead.
My eyes locked with Nick’s as his grip tightened. Part of me wanted to scream to let me go, but the other part of me was too scared. Our joined hands were my lifeline and I was afraid I was going to lose all my strength if they broke us apart.
“Okay, we’ll do this the hard way!” Brady shouted, lifted Nick to his feet by his shirt. He pulled his fist back and drove into Nick’s mid-section with all his might.
I screamed and fought against Vinnie’s grip, but in my weakened state, his strength was no match for me. Brady kept hitting Nick, much like he had done Brian.
“You bastards! Stop!” I screamed, awkwardly thrashing and swinging my fists at Vinnie. The handcuffs were cutting into my skin and I knew I was bleeding, but I didn’t care. He refused to let go, but one of my swings connected to the side of his neck. He gasped and released his grip on me for a split second. I used the opportunity to get to Nick, but Vinnie recovered before I had a chance to get too far. He grabbed me fiercely and shoved me up against the wall, knocking the wind out of my lungs. Then he swung his hand back and slapped me hard across the cheek. My head cracked into the wall behind me and darkness edged around my vision.
“Enough!” He barked at Brady. Brady let one more punch fall before releasing his grip on Nick. Nick, slumped down to the floor, gasping and bleeding. Brian had somewhat come to his senses, but was too injured to pick himself up. “Time for the show to begin.”
My eyes met with Nick’s, only this time, one was nearly swollen shut. His lip was bleeding and bruises were already starting to form. Brady hadn’t worked him over as bad as he had Brian, but it was bad enough.
“Don’t look at him, bitch!” Vinnie snarled, shaking me like a rag doll. “Right now, I am all that there is. Not that I need to tell you that, you’ll know in a few minutes.” He grinned, pushing me harder into the wall. With one fluid motion, he grabbed the shoulder of my shirt and tore it off.
“Stop! Please, god. Don’t do this!” Nick cried.
Vinnie grinned, pressing himself up against me. “I’m really going to enjoy this, baby.”
I shut my eyes, trying to block everything out. Pretend I wasn’t here and this wasn’t happening to me. But when I closed my eyes, it was worse. I felt every inch of his body up against mine. I felt his hot breath against my neck. The lack of blood was making me lightheaded and I didn’t even have the strength to fight him.
I felt his hand work its way around the back of my bra and I struggled against him. His hands were all over me, doing things they shouldn’t, hurting me.
“Please, please...” I was crying uncontrollably. I barely heard Nick and Brian begging for them to stop. “Please, just kill me.” I sobbed, overcome by the humiliation, the pain, the hopelessness. I was filled with disgust and hate towards myself. Disgust that I couldn’t be brave like Brian. They beat him within an inch of his life and the whole time, he barely made a sound.
Vinnie moaned in pleasure. “Ready for more, sweet thing?” I felt one of his hands start messing with the zipper of my jeans.
“No...” I whimpered. “Nick!” I cried, hating myself even more. It was getting harder and harder to even keep my eyes open. The room was starting to move around me. Suddenly, the pressure of his body lifted from mine and my eyes snapped open. Without the support of his grip, my knees buckled and I fell.
A loud bang filled my ears and I jerked my head up. My vision blurred as I watched Vinnie crumple to the ground right in front of me. Kevin stood in the doorway, gun pointed. Brady lunged at Kevin they both fell to the ground, fighting for possession of the glock. More people rushed into the room, but I was completely disoriented and my eyes started to fall shut again. I knew I was losing my grip. When I opened my eyes again, Nick was making his way over to me. He pulled me carefully into his arms, a shattered expression on his face. If I had been more with it, I probably would have fought him. But I could tell I was running out of time and I had to make sure he knew something.
“Nick,” I gasped, surprised at how hard it was to even talk.
“No, Lizz, don’t do this.” Nick pleaded, his voice breaking.
“I...need you...to know...” I broke off, my body suddenly wracked with a coughing fit.
“Lizz...” He whispered, his eyes welling with tears.
I reached a hand up and wiped one of them away.
“I love you.”