As they walked through arrivals Jess began to feel nervous, she knew from what Aaron had told them that Nick was badly hurt, but just how badly hurt was he ?  
What if he never wakes up, or if he did wake up but didn't know who she was, who anyone was, she began to panic, her breathing started to get faster ... and faster .... and faster .... and .... 

" Jess .. Sweets, look at me, you have GOT to calm down, come on you can do this, " she had stopped still and was having a panic attack, Kayla stood in front of her, 

" Jess ... sweets, " her breathing gradually started to calm down,

" I ... i'm sorry, i just ... what if he wakes up and doesn't know who i am, who we all are, " a tear rolled down her cheek, Kayla pulled her into a hug,

" Think positively babes, you know better than most that Nick doesn't give up easily, " she smiled half heartedly,

" That's true, " they began walking again arm in arm, just as Aj's phone rang,

" It's Q, "  he answered the call,

" Yo, dude .. Yeah were just walking out of arrivals now .... oh really ... no one has yet ... how did they find out ...... ok .. yeah i see ya, " he put down the phone. 

" What was all that about ? " asked Kayla,

" Q said that there are media and fans here, it's been on the news about Nick, we're gonna have to make a run for it to the car, "

" Oh god how did they find out, they probably know more than us, " added Jess

" There's Q and Mike now, you girls ready ? " the three of them walked towards the body guards,

" Just keep your heads down ok, "

" Ok " replied Kayla. 
 
Q and Mike stood either side of the three of them and they began walking quickly towards the car, fans were screaming things at them, ' We love Nick '  ... ' Please let him be ok '  some were holding pictures of him and crying hysterically, some were trying desperately to take pictures of them, it was madness, Q and Mike bundled them into the car and shut the doors.  

" Wow, i wasn't expecting that, " said Aj,

" Tell me about it, " added Jess, as Q lent over towards her and gave her a hug,

" How you doing babe ? "

" I don't really know what i'm feeling to be honest, I just wanna be with him .. How the hell did the fans find out ? "

" We think someone from the hospital leaked it to the press, when they first took him in, before we all got there ... Some people are such arseholes, " Mike replied.

" Ho .. How is he ? " Jess asked reluctantly.

" There was no change when we left, i wish i could tell you something more positive, " Q replied sadly. Jess looked out of the window, trying her best to hold back the tears, Kayla patted her leg supportively,

" Brian and Leighanne are flying back later tonight, with Howie and Leigh, so we've got to come back for them, " added Mike,

" Oh, ok " Jess continued to look out the window, quickly wiping away a single tear that had fallen from her eye away before anyone saw she was crying.  

Brian and Howie had never really liked Jess, and she wasn't even sure why, all she did know is that they had never given her the time of day. At first they were like, ' she's a fan Nick ', then once he told them they were dating they just never seemed interested, simply told him to ' get on with it '. Brian's wife Leighanne had followed suit, but Howie's wife Leigh thought she was nice, and good for Nick, not that she would ever tell them that !

The rest of the journey they sat in silence, Jess continued to look out of the window, she was in her own little world, every now and then Kayla would pat her leg as if to say ' its ok '. About 30 minutes later they past a sign for the hospital, she closed her eyes and took a deep breath,

" Were almost there aren't we, "

" Yeah babes, we are, " replied Aj softly.

Before she knew it they were pulling into the entrance of the hospital, there were media vans and reporters everywhere, not to mention the crowds of fans, who were again clutching Nick pictures, holding banners and most of them crying hysterically,  

" My god, do they know something we don't, " Jess began to panic again,

" It's probably that they don't know what's going on that's making them hysterical, just try and stay calm sweet's, " Kayla smiled at her friend,

" Are you ready to do this, " asked Q, she took at deep breath and nodded at him,

" I .... I think so. "  

The car stopped, Q opened the door and got out, Mike got out next, followed by Aj, Kayla then Jess, the fans went even more crazy as they realised who was in the car.
Jess was shaking so much that Mike put his arm around her to steady her, they walked up the stairs to the main entrance of the hospital, there were constant cameras flashing, reporters shouting out questions, ' Can you tell us how Nick is ? ' ... ' Is it true he was drunk while driving ? '  Mike and Q continued to bundle them into the hospital, until one reporter shouted out ... 

' Can you confirm that Nick Carter died 30 minutes ago ? '   

There was a deadly silence, Jess stopped dead in her tracks, tears now flowing freely from her eyes, she covered her mouth with her hands,  

" Oh god, noooooo, " she choked, Mike steadied her again as she looked as though she was about to collapse, her best friend also ran to her aid, while Aj turned to the crowd,  

" We .. we honestly know as much as you do at the moment, " Aj too began to get choked up, Q put his hand on his shoulder,

" As soon as we know more, i promise we will tell you, thank you for your support at this really .. really hard time, " he turned around put his arms round both girls and continued walking towards the hospital.  

As the automatic doors opened the instant smell of disinfectant hit them, Q and Mike pointed which way to go, Jess was still crying, and shaking, she knew she needed to compose herself before she saw anyone else, Q pushed the button for the lift, they waited quietly and then stepped into it, the lift was full of mirrors, Jess took one look at herself and shook her head,  

" Urgh, look at the state of me, ", she wiped her eyes, pulled her hair out of ponytail and ran her fingers through it, just then the lift pinged and the doors opened.

" Ok lets do this, " she said as she stepped out of the lift, Q put his arm around her,

" That's the sprit, " he guided her down the corridor, Aj and Kayla followed behind hand in hand, Mike just behind them, Jess kept her head down most of the time, frightened by what she might see, 

" Ok, its just through these doors, " she looked up ' C C U ' 

" Critical Care Unit " she mumbled to herself, Q pulled open the door, she slowly walked through, her heart was pounding, so was her head, she felt sick, she felt numb, but nothing, none of the feelings she had felt so far compared to what she felt next.