Keira woke up to the feel of comfort complete and utter warmth. Something she hasn't felt in a real long time and she welcomed the feeling with open arms. She no longer felt scared, ashamed, and empty like something was missing in her life and she could never just narrow it down to one thing. She always found her self come back to the word happiness, of course she was happy but was she really happy. normally every time she woke up her in bed she found her self questioning that very same analogy but today she wasn't.
Keira felt complete and utter bliss when she was tangled around Nicks body. When his arms wrapped around her protectively she felt anything but scared, she was terrified to let someone in to give in to the burning desire of her heart and pass it on. To surrender her heart, mind, body and soul to someone else to treasure her heart until they drop it and stomp on it repeatedly until you feel you can no longer stand the pain and become numb. Most of all she was afraid because she couldn't stop herself from doing that. Keria Marie was afraid to put her heart into the skilled hands of nick carter.
Nick watched as Kerias eyes lazily fluttered open then shut in a last attempt to block out the late afternoon sun, to go back to her sanctuary where she can dream and reality is at a stand still she finally opens her eyes. Nick couldn't help but smile at the woman laying in tangled sheets with him.
Nick couldn't help but laugh when she finally opened her eyes and cuddled in closer to his neck. He felt her body tense up when she looked under the covers and saw that they were both as naked as the day they were born.
Nick laughed "dont worry we didn't sleep together, well we did but you get what I mean."
Keria smiled "your awake?"
"Yea I have been awake since umm after we were rudley interupted and very muchly anticipating to finish up where we left off, only to find you passed out on me."
Keria giggled " I didn't?"
Nick smiled back " Ohhh, you did hun."
Keria laughed " Im sorry" Keria then got more serious " You know we shouldn't of let it get that far-"
Nick leaned over and kissed her on the lips softly and pulled away " I know but I can tell you one thing, It wouldn't of been a one night stand, and I wouldn't of regretted it." Nick said making sure Keria was looking at him when he was saying this.
Keria tried to look away but his eyes, and the beat of his heart made her stare directly into his. Capturing her gaze with his, she wanted to run away, far, far away from Nick she was scared ****l*ss after all the drama with her Ex and recent flings, they all turn out bad. Keria was half ready to become a Nunn and sware off men for good, then she realised thats absolutelly crazy then the minute Nick walked into her life and after there first kiss. She threw that idea out the window like an old shoe.
Keria coundn't bring herself to leave Nick arms and some weird some strange way. It was terrifiyingly comfortable, being in Nick arms was terrifiyingly comfortable, which was too good of a feeling to pass up. Keria was absorbed and highly addicted to the auora of being around Nick Gave off. Keria wanted nothing more to leave but she couldn't she was stuck on nick and the words. Hell there were no words for her to describe what it is she feels for nick and how she feels at this moment. Maybe if she did she would of ran away. The fear of not knowing is sometimes better than knowing.
Keria did all she could do but nod " I know nick and it terrifys me because I feel the same way too." Keira leaned up the rest of the way and squeezed nick tighter.
Keria couldn't help but smile at the look of relief that washed over him, she heard him let out his breath. It was like she could litterly see a barrier fall down around them, one that neither knew was up until this moment.
Nick moved the stray peice of hair that had fallen into her eyes, and skillfully moved it away. " Keria it scares me too, I was married I am still married soon to be divorced but I have never felt for anyone as I feel for you. Its like I just can't explain it. Im not ready to give up on us yet, Im not ready my hearts not ready."
nick sat up as he felt Kerias legs move from out beneath him and around him, he watched as she tried to process everything. She sat up clinging the sheet tight around her. As if it was the last part of herself she could cover up, cause her heart was no longer in its rightful place it was already in her, just waiting for nick to capture it.
nick noticed her pull away from him "What are you so terrified about?" Nick asked as he watched her, she looked she just seen a ghost, and that ghost was nick he was no longer invisible to her.
"I, I, Umm..Ahh God Nick so many things, Im afraid to give you my heart, Im afraid of you not being over your ex wife/current wife. Im afraid you are going to hurt me even though you say you wont. Love hurts Im not ready to go there, my Brain isn't ready to go through this nick. Im afraid because I dont have a choice of feeling you because you have gotten to me. Do you have any idea how far I want to run away right now. I dont deal well with my feelings and trying to put them in order. I have been hurt far to many times. I dont trust easily when your on tour with those girls Im going to be jealous. I will never show it though it will eat me up inside. That will hurt you and its not fair to you. I will push you away from me, when I only want to be closer to you. Most of all I dont know what you seen in me. I Am nothing special trust me-"
Nick listened to her every word he took all of it into consideration...
He decided on a simple phrase..
"Keria none of that matters because I Love you, I know I do if its not love than It is soon to being so. I know its soon and really fast paced. I can't help how I feel! I know love sucks trust me it does. But You know I would rather love and lost. To not love at all. I would rather lose you in the end, and experience great memories with you like what makes you pissed off, what gets you so incredibly hot you melt under my touch. I want to know more about you. I want to know more about you and the tour thing, I am a very flirty guy, but know I am comming home to you. You are the one I want no matter what. I know how you feel because trust me I am the same way, im not very trustworthy of other people. I think I am more scared than you, but sometimes fear is exciting you know your heart races, you get butterflies and all that chick flick stuff." through his little speech he had to stop and gently whipe her tears away. He kissed were the stains were.
"Nick I dont know what to say?" Keria muttered and swallowed her tears.
"Say you will give me, us, a Chance." nick grabbed her hands and kissed her knuckles one by one. " please."
Keria shut her eyes and punched the bed " **** it Nick, dont make me regret this. nick I dont want to be your rebound girl."
Keria couldn't get the last Ssss sound out before nicks lips crashed onto hers.
"I'm not about to make promises and trust me you were never my rebound girl. I wanted you to be but it didn't turn out that way. So Thank you baby. Do you mind if I call you that?"
Keria Giggled and sniffled " Nick, your crazy you have been calling me baby and hun and sweetie. I havent said anything to you about it yet so why would it bother me? I never really had a guy call me a pet name before so I find it incredibly cute."
"Just Cute?" Nick asked while pouting, but giving her a sexy smirk in the process of doing so.
Keria, contemplated this for a moment until she felt nick pull her closer to her body and wrapped her legs around his. " I like being tangleg up with you." Nick whispered sexily into her ear, and rubbed his 2 day old stubble against her neck causing her to giggle.
"you know nick do that look again."
Nick laughed " What look?"
Keria rolled her eyes " The look where you pout and smirk at the same time. When you are trying to pursway me to do something for you."
Nick rolled on top of her so they had skin to skin contact and leaned down and kissed her lips and looked at her " you mean this look?"
Keria giggled " No, not that look. its more of a non cocky type of thing. right now you are extremely cocky."
"Why thank you." Nick grinned proudly.
Keria swatter his arm " No you dumbass, not that cocky."
Nick pouted "There it is." Keria screeched out in delight.
"That look is extremely what did you call it? Beachable?" Keria leaned down and kissed him deeply, letting nick explore for a little bit then rolled over off him.
"Get up nicky." nick winced at his niccame of many years.
"Please dont call me nicky or Nickolas now that this is official no calling me that, unless its during sex, got it?"
Keria couldn't help but laugh "Alright, only durring sex."
Keria was getting ready to duck...
"Alright well then get up Thor."
Nick tackled her with his skilled hands and tickeled her until she begged to stop. "You did not call me what you think you did". Nick said ouloud then brought his head down to her ear and released his grip. "Only in the bedroom cause you dont want to awaken the beast from deep within."
"Nick to much in time movies for you." Keria laughed "We are in the bedroom so I can call you thor."
"Fine since we are in the bedroom I will call you P*ssy".
Nick winked and laughed "P*ssy, i will see you later." Nick made a bad impressesion out of the movie doing the whole to hand guns things. From western movies.
Keria winced "Nick that just sounds wrong, I feel like im in a porn movie." Keria giggled at the thought.
"Id watch it." Nick said in all seriousness not even cracking a laugh.
"Yea you would, I dont think we will be making any home videos. Skanky bi*che H*es are in your past. Im not one of them.
nick got up and put on his boxers which were hanging off the edge of the bed. and saw the non-humour on her face, he wrapped his arms around her.
"Keria, babe its not like that. I just think its incredibly hot to think of us doing that and watching ourselves. Give me a little break I have been sex deprived of anything for almost 8 months now. I get hot at seeing the little mermaid." Nick joked trying to get her to smile.
"Nick its not that, I dont know how to tell you this. Its just your going to be deprived for a little bit longer."
nick looked at her to continue " If your waiting until marriage I uhh understand it will be hard for a long time. But I will get use to it.
Keria laughed " Nah I wont hold out that long I dont think I will hold out as long as I plan too but I really want too." Keria gave nick an encouraging half smile.
"so your not going to hold out until your wedding night, good thing cause I was going to call for someone to marry us right now cause you look so hot. laying there in all your nakedness. You are my beautful woman!!". Nick laughed at how cheesy he sounded then he ducked the pillow being thrown his way.
Keria blushed " No nick not until my wedding day 6 months, I want to make sure were going to last. I promised myself after my pregnancy scare and me loosing my child, and many permiscuous flings and ending up as one night stands. I didn't want that anymore the fear of being pregnant and the guy not wanting to be with me or not even knowing the father. I want to be with someone I love, so I know if I have the baby at least she/he will be based on all the good times we had. So I would know she wasnt a drunken mistake and I wouldnt have to carry that guilt around with me." Keira said so fast nick could hardly understand.
Nick smiled at her " Your everything you know that Keria. So 6 months? i will wait as long as you need too .I just want to be with you as terrifying as being with you for 6 months is going to be with no sex. I will defiantely take the consulation prize. Your heart." Nick smiled and kissed her and pulled her up.
" Get up babe. I want our last 2 days together to be, just what they need to be."
Keria couldn't help but swallow the lump in her throat "you-your leaving in 2 days?" Keria asked with such a small voice nick was suprised she was even talking."
This was the part he hated about his job, the look of hurt and disapointment that crossed over his loved ones smile. " Yea, Im sorry babe I didn't tell you, It was Brian that called because of the hurricane and My divorce We are actually going to record a few new songs. I am no longer needed in Australia. Johnny and Jive cant take the responsibilty of me being here when such tradegy has blown through here."
"Ohhh." Keria said disapointedly. "Well I guess this is goodbye."
Nick leaned over and hugged her" Keria its never goodbye, I will be calling every chance I get, i will email you. Anything babe I dont want to lose you yet." Nick said getting teary eyed.
"Nick, come here hunny. We will work through it I guess our 6 months will go by even quicker." Keria pulled him into a hug.
"Keria im sorry-"
" Nick dont apologise you live in USA and I live in Australia for a few months. This will just put our relationship to the test." Keria tried to be optimistic about the situation.
Just then Keria and nick heard a loud meowing sound, nick looked down and laughed " Keria the kids are awake."
"**** I have 5 kiddies and not even the fun of experiencing it with you, Nick I thought it was a dream the whole you taking in the kittens."
nick rubbed her back " no its not a dream babe, they are mine well ours."
"nick this is a horrible day, I found out I have 5 kids to care for, your leaving and Austraila is destroyed and to top it off I still have the hangover from hell."
Nick had to laugh " Yea I guess its not a great day, well night do you want to go to sleep?" Nick asked while rubbing her temple.
"No, I guess its time to face reality huh?"
"As long as your reality is still my reality." Nick winked.
Keria kissed him deeply " Im going to miss you so much it terrifys me."
nick smiled " Me too babe, me too."
Author's Chapter Notes:
Were getting closer guys...
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luv ya lots,
oxoxoxoxoxo
~*manda*
keep reading!
luv ya lots,
oxoxoxoxoxo
~*manda*
