Keria its me Nick" Nick hit sand in pure fusturation and kicked the hood on his car, "Keria its me Nick" Nick said in a lower more serious tone of voice. Then he tried saying it in a sexy voice. He laughed at himself "This is Ridiculous I have abosolutely nothing to apologise for, I didn't do a Freakin thing wrong." Nick rubbed his face and massaged his temples hoping to fight off the headache he knew was on its way.
"Sonny why don't you just start with im sorry" A small tiny voice came from no where.
Nick looked over and seen this very elderly wise possibly drunk, but she was definately the spitting image of lonely. Nick smiled towards her, she reminded him of one of the ladys he used to visit back when he lived in a senior citizens home. "Excuse me?" Nick asked " Are you talking to me?"
The lady looked at him appalled "Well, you dont see any other sorry fool sitting here in the sand do you, talking to himself?"
Nick chuckled and tried to hold back his smile but it was no good " Guess not? So what makes you think I did something wrong?" Nick was very intrigued, he often looked passed the elderly but he always had a strong respect for them, and wished he could do more to help them out.
"Well I don't give out advice to strangers" She winked "The name is May Holland, you may call me May though"
Nick stuck out his hand, When he shook her hand he felt every wrinkle, every exposed Vein. He was sure though that every wrinkle had a story, and he was sure this lady a lot of wisdom and advice.
"The Name is Nick Carter, you can call me Nick though." Nick smiled. May just rolled her eyes in response Thats your first mistake your cocky, you need to have the last word.
I know this because My ignorance and arrogance caused me the love of my life, we had a spat, You see I caught him cheating on me with my sister. I never talked to either of them for a month or so he got called to the very ending of the war and my sister Nattie went to be a Nurse I never got to see either of them again. Dont you see Arrogance and betrayl it doesn't matter who was wrong or who was right, in the end your both wrong. I lost the 2 most important people in my life, over a misunderstanding. He Never was really cheating he sent me a letter the last words he ever spoke and it was a final plea for me to take him back. When i recieved the letter he was already gone. Sometimes I just come out here and pray that they know im sorry.
I don't want to see someone go through what I went through, Im a sad lonely elderly woman whos highlight of the day is the daytime soap operas and Bingo. I had so many plans for my life, but the thing is all of my plans were with my husband and my arrogance took him away from me.
With that the old lady left nick speechless and a pat on the knee. Nick saw May struggling to get up with the hot sun beating down on him. For the first time in 2 weeks Nick has finally seen some clarity and light on his situation with Keria Marie. The young lady, Women of all Women turned his life upside down with the first smile and immense eye contact.
"Here let me help you." Nick stood up " I dont need your help, I may be elderly but I got here, I can find my way back." Nick watched may, The woman with stories and heartbreak just the same as everyone else. Most of all she was full of Regret and sorrow. That was something he never wanted to always wonder that what ifs in life, he wanted to know he did everything possible and never wonder what if you fill in the blank here.
Nick went to assist her anyway, even through her protests " May, With all do respect its the hottest day of the season here, you look tired, please I would feel better if I just walked you to your room." May smiled
"Are you saying I look like $hit?" Nick practically choked on the water, he just took a sip of
"No, not at all". Nick felt bad, most of all he found it slightly humerous when old ladys swear. espeically ones that look so innocent and proper.
May rolled her eyes " Dont look so suprised, looks can be deceiving Nick. I may look old and Lord knows I am old. I am probably in the best shape anyone else out there my age and even 10 years younger. I walk this beach everyday. Somedays I need to stop 5 or 10 times or 20 but I do it, I belive thats what keeps me alive. I was just on my way back you look troubled from a distance and as I got closer i heard you talking to yourself. It was very Nice talking to you Nick carter, tell the other boys that you have helped me get through many hard times. I have been a fan since I first heard your song on my radio about 15 years ago."
Nick let go of Mays Hands, knowing it was a lost cause, every fibre and beam in his body told him not too, and the other said let her go she will find her way.
Nick took a deep breath and picked up his cell phone and dialed the to familair number. It rang and it went to the machine after awhile. "Hey Keria Its Nick, I guess theres not to much to say except I miss you and im Sorry. Please call me."
Nick felt confident if she didn't call back he would know there were no what ifs to wonder about cause he did everything in his power that he was willing to do. He Is a man for one and he swallowed his pride.
Keria was sitting on couch while her daughter was sitting between her legs, getting her hair brushed and done into two braids. " Mommy, why aren't you breathing?"
Keria asked with an inquisitve face " What baby?" Keria asked finally letting out the breath she didn't know she was holding in.
maddie cringed as she felt her mom tug at her braids "I just asked why you weren't breathing, but you are now. Who was that man and why does he have you upset?"
Keria laughed lightly inside " She wondered if Nick was this talkative when he was little, cause god knows its not from her side of the family."
Keria hesitated " Ohh he is just a friend of mommys madison, dont worry sweetie."
"Well why is he sorry?" Maddie questioned " Did he do something wrong? You always yell at me to say sorry when I do something wrong.
Keria laughed " Baby Girl, your to smart for your own good, I love you so very much. dont you ever forget it."
Maddie scrucnhed up her nose " I love you to mommy, do you think if my Daddy was around. Do you think He would love me, and do you think I would love him?"
Keria tried her best to not cry at the sentence a little girl her daughter had just asked her. she was horrible shes keeping to people away just so things are easier. What is easy anyways keria asked herself, cause this doens't seem to **** easy. Im breaking hearts all around, with every sad face my little girl makes my heart breaks just a little more cause I know i know its my fault.
"Baby, Thats enough questions, we have to get your shoes on its time to go."
Keria pushed her little toush.
Maddie sighed " I guess not." Maddie cried she went looking for shoes but her tears didn't go un-noticed.
Keria walked up to her and made her look at him " Baby, someday soon I promise you can meet your Dad, I know he would love you. How could he not?"
Maddies eyes lit up " Really!!! Im going to get to meet my daddy?"
"Yes, Baby Girl no come on were late." keria locked the door behind her.
Keria walked maddie into her classes and begun to prepare herself, for what was to come it was time to swallow her pride and tell Nick the Truth.
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