The Sun was Beeming in through the sheer fabric, swaying back and forth from the slightly adjacent window. The Australian weather at this time of year was hot, humid, and sticky. Nick was been tossing back in forth in His messed up Bed all morrning nick was trying to decide covers on or covers off. Nick Sighed and staired at ceiling hoping, wishing somebody would here his prayers for him to be able to sleep. Nick wiped the thin layer of sweat that was beginning to form on his forehead.
"**** it" He cursed to anyone who was willing to listen Finally having enough, and giving up on the attempts for his body to surrender to sleep. with one last punch in his pillow he truged over to his suitcase and pulled out a pair of boxers and sleepily ran into the wall, while trying to make it to bathroom to have a cold shower. "Ouch, **** today just isn't my Day." Nick said after he forgot the low clearance of the condo bathroom and smacked his head straight on.
After Nicks shower he suddenly got the inspiration to draw, so he headed out and went to a local arts and crafts store. Luckily only a few people recognized him so he was bascially in and out. It wasn't like back home in the states he couldn't go out with put flashing cameras and reporters contstantly asking him about him and his wife's marrital issues how they knew he had no clue. He just smiled and said I would rather not discuss my personal life, that was on a good day or he would just give the paparazi a finger and the next day nick was on the head of the national equier giving his wife the finger. It never ceased to amaze him how there mind works.
Nick went back to his condo, and he walked out onto his Balcany he was over looking the ocean, he saw a father and son fishing so he decided to capture the moment and he got to work sketching, blending, shading. Then nick got out the various shades of blue and green he bought and started to color in the ocean. He was outside for a good 2 hours, when insomnia started to take over his body and he fell asleep on his Balcany, letting the cool Breeze mix with the humid air, and the salt. Put him right to sleep. Nicks last thought before he drifted off to sleep was 'This is defifantely what I needed, this is the life.'
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Keria was sitting at home making lost dog signs, she didn't really care if the dog was lost though! That dog has been nothing but a pain in her ***. It doesnt help matters any that she is allergic to dogs. Anytime she decides to show the dog some attention. Keria looks as if she hasn't gotten any sleep in days, her eyes are all red and puffy. She sounds like a sea creature. Not to mention the dog runs away at any sign of a female phermones. Any signs a dog is in heat nickers runs like hell and doesn't come back for a few days. Its normal but she hasn't seen nickers in awhile and was starting to get worried something happened to him. Hence, her making lost dog signs.
This was suposed to be a vactaion for her instead she is stuck looking after a lost dog, while her friends are in Mexico patying in true Feista style. " Getting Drunk as ****". Keria chuckled at the thought. "****, Dog pain in my ****in Rear."
Keria stommped her foot in True take a freakin fit style. " OUCH, **** it today just isn't my day." Keria Sighed as once again she has rememberance of Nick carter stuck up her ***.
It doesn't help everytime she turns on the radio she hears a backstreet boys song specifically one of nicks solo. She turns on the T.V there is anterview with him. Or there is something on T.V about his recent DUI which is a freaking repeat, cause that was almost 4 years ago.
Keria sighed Even if she wanted to forget about Nick Carter, the world wouldn't let her, it doesn't help that for the past 3 days all she thinks about is Nick and his laugh and how much fun they had together. If if she wanted to forget him she couldn't her life has become nick centric. It doesn't matter where she goes, she could go the womens bathtroom and in cherry red lipstick on the Mirror she could see Nick carter is a sexgod. It has been 3 seriously messed up days, and 3 long nights with Keria dreaming about her and nicks could of been kiss.
"What a ****ing Vactaion" Keria yelled exhasperatedly inside her Vehicle as she turned on the The air condtioning after deliversing all of the lost dog posters then she tunred on the. Radio, and someone requested help me by nick carter. " Everywhere I ****ing go"
She switched the radio station and got excited when she heard them introduce the song, then she heard his voice. " This is Nick carter I am taking over the Radio so if you dont like 80's music you better turn the station.
"What the ****." Keria Cursed as she shut her car off she fustratedly mumbled under her breath " If this your idea of Karma, for being pissed I didn't tell him I knew he was 'The Nick Carter'. This isn't funny anymore." Keria sighed defeated, waving her finger in the air.
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Nick awoke to a cool sensation on his feet, and smiled " Izzy, that feels so great, why haven't you done this before. This is kinda kinky I thought you were against sex. When nick got the rare oder of dog he instantly jumped up wincing in pain as he felt his Now sun burned arm as he peeled himself up from the plastic, sticky with sweat arm chair.
He looked over and saw a dog panting, tounge hanging out, Dirty as ****, which seemed to be a smile on his face. Nick remembered how Keria described nickers a few nights ago. She shook his head "You gotta be kidding me". He said as he looked at the dog tag with a phone number and a name in gold letters that said. "NICKERS" 657-890-9867~ If I get lost please bring me home.
nick smiled could this be Fate.....
He dialed the number and waited patiently for someone to pick up the phone...
"Hello" Keria answered out of breath.
"This is nick carter...I have your umm dog.".
"Of course you do" she slammed the phone down and grinded her teeth.
"VERY FUNNY" She shouted.
"is this a bad time.? Nick questioned she souded pissed.
"It hasn't stopped you for 3 ****in days, nick 3 just meet me at blandey park in a hour."
"I cant I have to do a little radio interview, but meet me at my place at 3." Nick said very professional like.
and hung up.
"Whats up her ***?" Nick asked the dog and went in search for some water and some left over steak to feed the dog.
Keria stared at the phone in Disbelief Nick has her dog, she was never really a true Beliver in fate and all its purposes and everything happens for a reason. If everything happens for a reason than why do planes fly into bulidings and kill thousands of people. Where is there people in the World Starving, why is there world hunger. Why?? She was starting to belive in fate a little now though how could she not for 3 days nickers the annoyingly horny dog has been missing, and for 3 days she has seen and heard nothing with out the word nick in it, or hearing his voice.
She shook her head in realization maybe nick has always been out there like that, and she is finally starting to realise that now cause he has gotten under skin. Keria swore after her past relationship she was going to join a convent , then she ran into Nick carter the man of all her sexual fantasies and late night Rendevouz in her moment of Rem sleep. She never thought she was going to meet him, everyone has a inentainable crush, someone you never touch. Nick carter has been hers her escape.
Keria Felt horrible shes pissed off at herself and took it out on Nick, None the less she is still pissed and anyone that knows her knows she is just as stubborn as an 85 year old man, that just had a pain in his chest and doesn't want to go the doctor. Basically because they are scared, of whats going to happen in the future. Maybe she should of told nick she knew but she thought it was completely irrealeavent to the situation. She Also knew the grown man overreacted none the less she had to meet the man that has been occupying her thoughts for the past 76 hours, in a hour. She then realised that she doesn't know where in the hell he lives, and the fact that he hung up on her.
'****er" Keria thought as she looked at the phone realising that he hung up on her. Thank god for caller ID Keria picked up her phone and dialed 654-765-0986. She waited impatiently.
"Nick was in the middle of cutting up the steak in tiny peices and he sprayed the dog with febreeze " ****, Nickers you Reek." He said as he placed the steak in front of the dog. He was just about to spray the dog again when the phone rang.
"Hello, Carter here." Nick answered the Ringing phone
Nick instantly Reconginzed the voice on the other end and couldn't help himself but to smile "Hey Izzabelle, How are you Baby?"
Isabelle rolled hey eyes " Nick, How many times do I have to tell you not to call me your Baby. We lost our Baby Remember."
Nick clenched his teeth together and smiled " How could I forget?" He muttered Scarcastically. "look can we not do this right now, im not in the mood to argue with you. I have to to a radio interview in 10 mintues."
Isabelle smiled knowingly " Can you forget about your ****in job for a minute Nicholas and put me first, you remember your wife. You never put me first."
Nick Raised his voice " Keria, I never put you first." He instantly winced at his slip up.
Isabelle was pissed " Who, in the **** is Keria, is she your new side prospect? Answer me Nicholas!!!" Issabelle screeched into the phone.
"No, Look I didn't say Keria I said Isabelle, Izzy can we talk about this later." Nick asked as he was looking for his keys to his rented escalade, and his Hat, and sunglasses.
"No, We Cant ****ing do this later, everything is do it later with you Nicholas." Nick winced at his full name.
"Look Issabelle, I tried to talk to you before, and you woudln't even listen to me or hear me out, now I dont have time to listen to you ***** about how im a terrible husband, and how im never there for you." Nick Quipped back at her as calm as he could possibly be which wasn't to calm."
"No, look I have to go you know I do have a job, one of us has to work."
"**** you Nicholas." Issabelle yelled.
"No, Izzy thats not possible for us cause that would involve you and me touching, Isabelle I cant do this anymore ever since you lost the baby you havent been the same, its like its my fault you lost the baby. I can't take it everything happens for a reason Issabelle. Im sorry if you lost our child i think I was just as upset as you were. I can't do this with you anymore Izzy I want out, I need out. This is where the sidewalk ends. I love you, but im not in love with you anymore I can't do this Issabelle, I just cant it hurts to much. All we do is Fight, which would be alright but we dont even touch and we haven't its like were strangers." Nick took a deep Breath and sighed.
"Issabelle, I didn't want to do this over the phone, but I cant Issabelle Either me and you go to counselling or Im out, you know what Second thought Im out anyways, I cant live this lie any longer. You me and me just got married becasue we were afraid of bein alone, and look at this we are prisoners of our own hearts either of us are happy. Issabelle you can have the house you can have it all. I Cant do this anymore. Nick said as he felt the tears run down his cheeks. He was crying because he was finally letting go, this is where the sidewalk ends.
Isabelle felt her tears run down her cheeks as well her tears, were tears of finally it worked pushing him away worked and it seems as though she pushed him right into the arms of someone named Keria. Issabelle should feel happy she can stop all of the sneaking around, she can stop pushing nick away. She can stop feeling guilty. She should be relieved but she wasn't she was sad, Sad the lost her bestfriend and husband.
"I, Uhh Nick Im sorry, so Sorry I didn't mean to make you feel this way, its just I have a lot of stuff going on right now."
Issabelle bit her lip knowing it was over this is where the sidewalk ended.
Nick spoke silently " And I dont Issabelle, I have delt with the loss of our child as much as you have, I have a new album comming out, I am dealing with getting over my drug addiction im dealing with life just as much as you are. It would of been real great if you would of been there for me though all of this like a supporting wife." Nick stated.
"I know and im sorry Nick, what more do you want me to say."
"Issabelle, I dont want you to say anything, there is nothing left to say, i have given ypu lots of oppurtunities to say something contribute to our realtionship and you never talked about it, you told me its all my fault." nick sighed.
"Isabelle, Yes I know I may have hurt you at first I couldn't help it we got married when I was just starting my coke binge ask any of the guys as soon as I found out you were pregnant I called them they came over. They flushed all my drugs down the toilet, they threw out all my stash." Nick bit lip to stop it from quivering, remembering the dark time in his life.
"The weekend after you told me I left, I checked myself into a rehab clinic I wanted to be there for you and our unborn child as a good and stable father should be. I know I yelled at you and called you a **** and how you were using the baby to hold onto me. Im sorry for that, I apologized numerous times. what more cdo you want me to say god didn't want us to have that baby." Nick saidl letting it all out, once and for all.
Isabble started to cry "Nick, it was your hurtful words that we lost our child, I went to my doctor and asked for the monrring after pill, i said me and you got carried away and we weren't ready to have children. What i didn't tell him was that i was already 4 months pregnant. So I took the pill at the doctors office, it didn't hit me until after your concert. keria stated through shakey breaths, remembering everything her mind flashing back to that day.
"I got horrilbe pains in my stomach and I doubled over in pain and I was bleeding I made us lose the Baby. For you, and because of that after I had the self inflicted abortion, I didn't go get myself cleaned up. I had my pap test the month later and he said I am not able to carry children anymore. So I Blame you Nicholas, you and Your ****ing Addiction as to why I cant have children. Thats why I am such a ***** to you, Because I ****ing hate you with everything I am. I HATE you. For what you made me lose." Keria Screamed into the phone.
nick sat up straight and felt like someone stomped on his heart " Isabelle, you told me you just found out were pregnant."
"Yea, well I lied I learned from you." Izzy stated bluntly.
"Nick, I was Scared and alone in the world, you called me a **** and I ws using our child as baggage, to claim you and hold onto you because I knew you were mad that you cheated on me."
"Izzabelle you cheated on me, I was pissed I found out 2 horrible things in one day, The first thing that came to mind was for how long was it going on, and the child probably isn't mine." nick took a deep breath to calm himself down. "you know I have a temper and I don't mean the things I say."
"2 months" Issabelle muttred " I was cheating on you for 2 months, I knew it was yours cause I was 4 months pregnant."
Issabelle let the tears scacade from her eyes like a waterfall.
"Whoa, you were ****ing some other guy, when you pregnant with my child, our child" Nick shook his head and picked up the knife and through it and it stabbed into the wall. Nickers whipered and left the room, but came back when he heard nick crying. Nickers came over and licked his hand. Nick smiled slighty at the dog.
"Yes, I pushed you away cause I felt guitly, and I started to have more feelings for the other guy, than you and i was torn and scared cause I didn't want to lose you as a best friend, but as a lover i didn't want you I fell in love nick, but durring that time I fell in love with someone else. Someone who is there for me."
"Isabelle, I Was always there for you. Whos the Guy Issabelle. I think I at least deserve to know that dont you think." Nick stated monotone. "Whos the ****ing Guy?" nick asked losing his cool.
Isabelle didn't want to tell him..." Nick, it doesn't matter who it is."
"Holy ****, I have given the brush off enough times, when asked the question that means I know who it is. Who in the hell is it?" Nick yelled getting mad, that his wife Ex-wife would cheat on him with someone he knew.
"Its, Its Nick its Andy."Isabelle waited for nick to say something.
"Andy, as in the Andy that I caught you cheating with before, my security guard that I fired over the incident ANDY?? You ****, how could you cheat on me, I have never onced cheated on you since I was sober."
"Really, well whos this girl thats all over the papers, and the internet. headlines that Read " It looks as if nick carter and Isabelle Carters' realtionship is over, is she the new Angelina of hollywood?"
"so who is she nick."
"Her name is keria and I just met her 3 days ago, shes a friend."
"Hmmm, is that what you call it these days shes your '**** friend' ".
"Look, Isabelle I told you I never cheated it doens't mean i havent wanted too, im a guy I would love to feel loved, im at my peek here and my hand does all the work. Because I stayed faithful to you, like a husband and wife should do, and you are out screwing Andy. screw you, Issabelle Screw you. This is where the sidewalk ends".
Nick hung up feeling a littlr relived and even more pissed off, he was about to walk out when his phone rang..
nick rolled his eyes " Issabelle I told you its Over, I cant do this anymore papers are on there way."
"Umm...nick this is Keria not Issabelle". Nick smiled for the first time since he last smiled at the dog.
"Thats good for you." Nick stated jokingly. "you dont want to be Isabelle right now."
"No your right I dont, I umm am very sorry to bother you I know I am suposed to meet you at your house, but i have been calling you for the last 20 mins and I have no clue where you live." Keria nervously laughed.
"Yea, sorry I hung up on you, you sounded pissed that I called so i figured distance would be good." Nick chuckled
Keria smiled " Yea well, umm sorry about that, I can tell you about that later when you give me nickers."
Nick looked out the ocean, you know how about we meet at this beach its close to my house and i really need to get out of here, I have been in this house for the past few days. I need to get out ill pack a little dinner and we can eat and talk." Nick smiled.
after a few minutes of mindless banter and talking and rambling. Keria spoke up " Great So ill meet you at Merriam beach in 40 minutes."
"Sounds great, its a date." Nick said then mentally cursed himself.
"ummm, kay see you then."
"A date as friends." Nick said
"Nick, I know what you mean no worries see ya then Bring nickers."
Keria laughed " You know what I should bring the food Nick a trade off kind of like a Ransom note, food for dog."
Nick bursted out laughing " Well, my interview is tomorrow i was looking at the wrong date thank god, I thought i missed it
so I figured we should still do this while the sun is up."
Keria chuckled " Okay, then you make the food and bring the dog, Bye."
She hung up before nick could get bye out....
Nick looked at the knife that was stuck in his wall and said " This is where the sidewalk ends". He took a deep breath and took his wedding ring off, and placed it on another finger. He then looked over at the sleeping dog and sprayed some more Frebreeze on him and said " This is where the sidewalk begins." and smiled and patted the dog, and made sandwiches for his and Kerias date, Umm friend date, nah date. Nick smiled and felt relieved.
Author's Chapter Notes:
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