***AJ***
I sat there starring at her, my heart breaking into a thousand pieces at the thought of her not waking up,
"My baby" Debra cried, as she ran up to Maggie,
"oh baby girl, what happened?" she asked looking frantically to me, I sighed and told the whole group about Josh,
"I'm just glad she got out when she did" Jack; Maggies father whispered,
"I'll kill that asshole, if I ever see him again" I said, getting angry, at the thought of watchining him beat Maggie up,
"and the baby" Debra whispered, I looked at her sad face, she didnt take her eyes off Maggie, I sighed, not really sure how to answer the question, she looked up at me worriedly,
"im sorry" I whispered,
"the doctor said he kicked her in the stomache, and killed the baby" I said, I watched as Debra fell into Jacks arms, the tears pouring from her face,
"my poor baby girl" she sobbed, I had to look away, because if I didnt I knew I would start crying soon.
It had been a few days, and Maggie was still out, It was breaking my heart, but I refused to leave her room, I knew she would need all her family and friends there when she woke up, and I was going to make sure that we were all there for her.
That night, I lay quietly just staring at a photo of the two of us together, BJ had brought an old album with her for us to look at, but had left it when Nick took her home. The picture I had in my hand was taken on BJ and Maggie's prom, and I gentle touched the picture as a tear rolled down my face, things seemed so easy back then, I sighed and put away the picture before laying my head down and holding her hand.
***Maggie***
I woke up, and looked around, Where am I? ,I thought to myself panicking, thats when I remembered the beach .... Nick and the gang .... Alex ... Josh I whispered to myself, then turned to look next to me, I smiled sadly and my heart began to race, as I noticed Alex fast asleep, his head laying next to me, and his hand in mine, I lay back down and snuggled closer to him before trying to go back to sleep.
"Morning" I whispered to AJ, his head perked up and a grin crossed his face.
"hey" he said softly,
"how you feeling?" he asked concerned,
"Im okay, my stomache is a bit sore," I told him honestly,
"have you seen the doctor" I aked, wanting to make sure my baby was okay, I noticed him go pale, and he looked away,
"Whats wrong?" I asked him concerned, just then my mom and everyone else walked in.
"MAGGIE" My mom said, running up to me with tears in her eyes,
"we were so worried" she told me, I instantly knew somthing was wrong, everyone looked concerned and sad, she hugged me tightly but I just sat there, not sure what do or say, I wanted to know what the doctor had said, but I was scared, it must have been somthing really bad, my hand instictively went over my stomache, and I just had to ask.
"How is my baby" I asked AJ, in a whisper, he looked like he was going to burst into tears,
"We're here for you" BJ answered as she ran over to me and hugged me, I went silent, what did she mean, they were here for me, was she telling me my baby was .... dead?
"What do you mean Beej" I asked, the tears getting ready to fall from my face,
"I'm so sorry .... you lost it" My mom said, now crying as she hugged me tightly,
"It?" I asked her getting anger, "its not a it .... her name was going to be Alexis" I whispered, then looked over at AJ, his eyes grew big and I could see sadness in them as everyone went silent, knowing that I was naming her after AJ,
"Baby, I'm sorry, it'll be okay" he said grabbing my hand and holding it tightly, I got mad,
"HOW IS IT GOING TO BE OKAY ALEX, I JUST LOST MY BABY .... AND MY FIANCE' .....I DON'T EXPECT ANY OF YOU TO UNDERSTAND," I shouted at them, I didnt mean to sound so nasty, but how could they just stand there and act as if I could just go buy another one, it was my baby, I had been carrying her for 6 months, I was supposed to protect her, how would I be able to live with myself after this, I thought sadly to myself,
"Can you all please leave, I just want to be by myself" I told them after a few minutes, I could see the sadness and concern in thier eyes, but I just turned my head, I couldnt be with anyone now, I needed sometime to myself to morne the loss of the baby I started to love but never got to meet. I lay down and closed my eyes, hoping they would just obey my request and leave.
I sat their crying, my heart aching at the thought, that bastard I screamed at myself,
"Can I come in" I heard someone ask from the door way, I looked up and smiled sadly at Denise, I felt bad about the way I spoke to everyone, they just didnt understand what it felt like to lose a baby.
"Sure" I whispered and tried to sit up a bit,
"look Denise, i'm really sorry about how I spoke to everyone earlier" I told her quietly, she smiled and took my hand,
"its okay sweetheart" she answered,
"you allowed to feel like that, you just lost your little girl" she told me, I couldnt keep the tears in anymore, I hugged her and we cried togeather,
"I know it feels like the pain will never go away, but belive me it does, you'll always feel sad, but it wont hurt like this" Denise told me as we pulled away,
"and as for your fiance, do you really want to be married to someone who treats you so badly?" Denise asked as she stroked my hair away from my face,
"no" i cried shaking my head, Denise and I talked for while more before she left, eventually I was exhausted and decided to sleep, it had been a very trying day, I lay down but I couldnt sleep, my thoughts kept going back to Alex, I hadn't seen him for the rest of the day, and I felt really bad. He hadnt' left my side since I was brought in here, and I shouted at him like that. I rolled over and looked at the door, I smiled when I saw him leaning against the door-frame watching me,
"hey" I whispered, he grinned at me
"Hey" he said back softly,
"you can come in" I told him, he slowly walked over to the chair,
"How you feeling" he asked as he brushed my hair out of my eyes,
"like a bitch" I said, just staring at him,
"I'm soo sorry about everything," I said not looking at him,
"Don't be, I'm the one who should be appologizing, I was drunk at the party, but I still meant every word of it" he told me quietly, I just starred at him,
"Really" I asked, scared that it was just a dream,
"yeah, when I found out that you left, it just about killed me, I knew I loved you, but I was scared to tell you at the beach, because I didnt want to ruin our friendship, it was to important to me ..." he trailed off, I smiled and took his hand,
"Can we talk about this tomorrow, i'm tired" I told him, he grinned at me, kissed me on the cheak and got up,
"sure" he answered as he walked towards the door,
"AJ" I said, he turned and smiled at me,
"please stay with me tonight" I asked him, he nodded, I moved over a little so we could share the bed, he lay down and I rested my head on his chest, as he wrapped his strong, tattooed arms around me, and softly started to sing to me.
In a moment
everything can change,
feel the wind on you shoulder,
for a minute all the world can wait,
let go of your yesterday,
Can you hear it calling, can you feel it in your soul?
can you trust this longing and take control
Fly, open up the part of you that wants to hide away,
you can shine, forget about the reasons why you can't
in life, and start to try, 'coz its your time .... time to fly
All your worries leave them someone where else,
find a dream you can follow,
reach for somthing, when there's nothing left,
and the world seems hollow.
Can you hear it calling, can you feel it in your soul?
can you trust this longing and take control
Fly, open up the part of you that wants to hide away,
you can shine, forget about the reasons why you can't
in life, and start to try, 'coz its your time .... time to fly
And when your down and feel alone, and you just want to run away
trust your self and don't give up, you know your better then anyone else.
In a moment
everything can change,
feel the wind on you shoulder,
for a minute all the world can wait,
let go of yesterday,
Fly, open up the part of you that wants to hide away,
you can shine, forget about the reasons why you can't
in life, and start to try, 'coz its your time .... time to fly
In a moment,
everything can change
"Fly ~ Hillary Duff"
Author's Chapter Notes:
hey, here is chapter 7 hope you enjoy and please read and review
Thanks
Tracy
Thanks
Tracy
