***BJ***
"Jace...will you please come with me to see Maggie?" I asked my boyfriend, I knew it was a lot to ask, seeing as Backstreet Boys and Nsync hadn't exactly got on so well, but I knew that if they got to know JC, and didnt judge him for being in Nsync, they would learn to like him and hopefully .... learn to love him like I do.
JC smiled at his girlfriend, he had never felt this way about anyone,
"sure" he whispered, then kissed his girlfriend, They spent the rest of the morning hanging out together, and decided to go later that afternoon to the hospital,
***Maggie***
AJ and I had stayed up untill early hours of the morning talking, I had told him everything that had happened to me since the day I left, we decided to take things slow, I know I had agreed to being his girlfriend but after a lot of talk, we decided to start off just as friends, I was afterall in no condition to have a boyfriend, and AJ needed to concentrate on getting help, rather then the stresses of a new relationship. In spite of everything that had happened over the last week, I was just glad to have my Alex back.
"hey" BJ called from the door way, I looked up and saw a very nervous JC standing behind her, I grinned at them and invited them in to the room, AJ look less then thrilled to see JC, but I nudged him and gave him a warning look, to tell him not to say anything, I huged BJ and smiled up at JC.
"okay Babe, i'm outta here, got somethings to do, i'll be back in a while" AJ said, bending over and kissing my cheek, I smiled at him and watched as he pushed past JC and out of the door.
"Bye Beej" he said from the doorway, she gave a little wave then turned back to me.
"Hey" JC said softly, I grinned thinking he was so cute,
"This is my best friend Maggie, Mags .... the love of my life JC" she introduced, I smiled up at JC.
"Its so nice to finally meet you ... BJ hasnt stoped talking about you" he said, I grinned at him,
"Its really cool to meet you too" I told him,
"come sit down" I said indicating to the two chairs next to my bed,
"I'm sorry .... Maybe I should just go" JC said, looking nervous as Nick walked in,
"Yeah, thats a brilliant idea, maybe the best one N sync has ever come up with" Nick replied from the door way, I grabbed JC's arm as he got up, and shot Nick a warning look telling him to shut up.
"No ... Stay JC its fine" I said, with a smile,
"yeah baby, don't listen to my brother he's just an asshole" BJ said softly, Nick groaned and stormed out of the room. I grinned at the two as we sat in silence.
"Are you sure its okay, I don't want to start any trouble" JC said again. I just laughed,
"Its fine, Besides; I'm the one who asked BJ to bring you, because I haven't had the pleasure of meeting you yet" I told him with a smile. BJ looked at me and smiled,
"Thank-you Maggie"BJ said softly, with tears in her eyes,
"For what?" I asked,
"For being the only person who is happy for me and JC," she answered, I pulled her into a hug,
"C'mon, Beej, the guys want you to be happy, they just got to get to know JC, besides, you two make the cutest couple ever" I said with a smile, just then Kevin, Kristen, Howie, Brian and Leighanne walked in.
"Hey Girl" Brian said walking up to the side of my bed, he looked at JC, but didnt say anything,
"Mags, meet Leighanne, my wife" he said proudly I smiled and said hello to her,
"How you feeling?" Howie asked,
"Like if anyone asks me that question again, i'm going to hurt them" i said laughing, if felt so good to laugh again.
everyone chuckled, I spoke to everyone for about half an hour, but felt bad, as JC was kind of left out.
"So Jace, hows tour going?" I asked, I knew that N Sync had just started with thier tour, he smiled at me, as all the guys looked at me annoyed, but I couldnt just leave him out,
"Its good" he said softly, the guys looked at each othe,
"We going to go, we'll come back later" Howie said, then smiled at JC,
"Bye Beej" the all said, I could see BJ was really upset,
"Was that really necessary?" she asked, JC sighed and wrapped his arms around her,
"Its okay" he said,
'NO ITS NOT" BJ shouted, tears falling from her eyes,
"everyone one thier girlfriends, i've been nothing but friendly and nice to, but do you think they can do that for me?" she cried as she hugged JC, thats when I realized that she really did love JC, more than any guy she had gone out with, Jc just hugged her, I felt so bad for them,
"I think i'm going to take her home" JC said to me with a sad smile, I nodded sadly and hugged BJ,
"If you need to talk, know that I am here, i'm not going anywhere" I told her, she smiled and hugged me back,
"Thanks" she said softly, I hugged JC as well,
"its was really nice meeting you JC, don't take any notice of the guys, believe me they can be jack asses" i said, with that BJ and JC were gone, I sat there thinking of them, I had missed the guys loads, but thinking of the way they treated JC made me want to phone them and scream at them.
~~~BJ~~~
The drive home was silent, I couldn't believe my brothers would treat JC like that, I didnt even realize that we were home untill JC switched off the car,
"Baby" Jc said softly, I turned to look at him and wipped my tears,
"I'm so sorry Jace" I said crying as I clung to him, I wanted everyone to love him as much as I did, I'm never speaking to any of them again I thought angrily,
"Its okay .... I .... I can't do this to you anymore" Jc said softly, I quickly looked up at him and saw tears in his eyes,
"No ..... No ..... JC please" i begged, he couldn't be breaking up with me, he just couldn't I thought to myself,
"BJ, Listen to me" he said sternly, I looked up at him,
"I love you to much to do that, I'm not letting you and the guys get into a huge fight, and never speak again" he said sadly, I sighed, but couldnt keep the tears in, how could he do this, I nodded my head and looked at him,
"I know" i said softly,
"but i love you" I cried, he pulled me into his arms,
"Baby ... you have no idea how hard this is for me, thats why I have to end this, I love you too much, you deserve someone who your brother likes, someone that can make you happy weather the guys are around or not" he said softly kissing me, I didn't want to let go, because I knew once I let go, this would be it, we would be finished, and the thought was killing me. After a while JC gently pushed me away,
"I ... gotta ... go" he chocked, climbed out his car, as the tears fell down my face, and watch as he drove away, when I couldnt see him anymore, I fell to the grass and sat thier sobbing, I couldnt stop the tears, all I could feel was my heart breaking into a million pieces.
3 hours later I was still sitting thier sobbing, it didn't matter what I did, the tears just kept falling,
"BJ" my mom shouted, as she came home and saw me sitting thier crying,
"Sweetie ..... whats wrong" she asked pulling me into a hug, but I couldnt speak I just clung to her and cried, once I calmned down, I started thinking about how the guys treated JC, and I got so angry, so I asked my mom to take me to the hospital, obviously I didnt tell her what happened, It felt like a long drive and my mind went back to JC, It had only been a few hours, but I missed him so much, no understood me or knew me they way he did.
Once we pulled up to the hospital parking I jumped out and stormed into the hospital, and went up to the floor that Maggie was in, I felt bad, I didnt want to fight with them in front of her, but they had to know what they did, and how much I was hurting.
~~~JC~~~
I couldn't take the heart ache anymore, I didnt want to lose BJ, but I had to do this, they always say, if you love some thing let it go, if it comes back its yours, if it doesn't it wasn't yours to start with, so I had to let BJ go, she was every thing I had ever dreamed of in a companion and even more, but I couldn't let her and the guys stop talking because of me, and I knew BJ well enough to know that, that's exactly what would happen if I didn't end it here, I pushed her back slightly,
"I .... gotta .... go" I chocked back, this was by far the hardest thing i'd ever had to do, I watched as she silently climbed out the car, then turned to look at me, tears running freely down her face, I felt so bad, but I could'nt change my mind so I knew I had to go now. I drove away quickly, not daring to look back at her, for fear of if i did, I would be back there pulling her into my arms, although thats all I wanted to do, I just couldn't do that to her, once i was out of sight, I pulled up on the side of the road and cried, I didn't cry often but this was one time I couldn't hold the tears back, after about half an hour, I dried my eyes and went to the hotel, we had the weekend off, but decided to hang out at Chris's hotel room.
"Damn, Bounce, where'd you get all that energy" Lance joked, Lance and Chris were trying to watch TV while Justin and Joey were being thier usual annoying selves, but I had to smile, I was happy for the distraction, anything to get BJ off my mind,
"Joshua" Justin said, slowly making his way towards me,
"Where have you been?" Lance asked from the couch,
"Went to visit BJ's friend Maggie with her" I answered as if it were no big deal,
"Woah ... were the Backstreet boys there" Chris asked, I sighed and nodded,
"You okay" Justin asked his playfullness wearing off,
"no .... I uh .... broke it off with BJ" I said sadly, I knew they guys didnt approve of me being with Bj, but they didnt know what we shared, because no-one was willing to give us a chance,
"I'm sorry man, I know how much you liked her" Joey said patting me on the back.
~~~Maggie~~~
I sat thier as the whole gang was thier, but I wasn't listening to them, I was just thinking about JC and BJ, I had almost got into a fight with them early on about the way they were acting.
"BJ" I shouted when i saw her, she was a totally mess, and her face was red she looked like she had been crying for hours,
"Maggie" she cried, and collapsed in my arms, Nick was by her side in minutes,
'BJ whats wrong" he asked, as he grabbed her and pulled her into a hug, but she pulled away just as quickly, and just glarred at him,
"Don't touch me" she said softly but harshly, he took a step back, surprized by her reaction,
"BJ ... tell us whats wrong" AJ said next to her,
"I never want to see or speak to any of you ever again" she said, I pulled her into a hug and knew it was to do with Jc,
"What' Nick asked upset by what she said,
"I HOPE YOU HAPPY" she screamed at them,
"JC BROKE UP WITH ME" she cried again, the guys sighed in relief,
"its okay, told he was a ass" nick said, trying to comfort his sister, BJ looked at him shocked.
'HE BROKE UP WITH ME BECAUSE OF YOU GUYS" BJ screamed again, the guys looked shocked as she said that
"HE .... HE SAID I DESERVED SOMEONE BETTER, SOMEONE MY BROTHERS LIKE' she cried, then turned to me,
"Maggie .... he's the one I want .... I wanna .... wanna .... marry him" she cried, I quickly pulled her into my arms as she cried, by now Jane was at the door and knew what had happened,
"Maggie .... your my best friend ever" she said then looked at her brother,
"I can't believe your so horrible, I've never treated any of your girlfriends like that, don't you want me to be happy?" she asked, Nick looked tacken back, and you could see the guilt on all five of the boys,
"BJ ... how can you ask me that? Of course I want you to be happy .... yeah we all do" Brian and Nick said bending down, it was the first time BJ hugged nick, she clung to him so tightly, Nick hugged her back and they tried to get her up but her legs were to wobbly to walk, they placed her on the chair,
"Can you make the tears stop" she asked looking at AJ, the guys looked at each other, with worried glances the last time BJ had got to worked up was when Bob left,
"Beej ... you need to calm down a bit" Kevin said, kneeling infront of her,
"I can't .... I need him, you guys don't understand that" she said shouting, at them, Jane decided to take BJ back to the house, Nick and Kevin helped BJ to the car as Jane drove them home.
Once they got home BJ ran up to her room, and fell on the bed, she couldn't take this heart ache anymore, it was just too much, she got up and switched on the radio as Christina Aguilera's new song, "A voice within" come on the radio.
Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly
When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means
Chorus:
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
You'll learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
Soon you're gonna see your brighter day
Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When your lost outside look inside to your soul
Chorus:
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
(Be strong)
You'll break it
(Hold on)
You'll make it
Just don't forsake it because
(No one can tell you what you can do)
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you
Chorus:
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
~~~Christina aguilera A voice within~~~
Author's Chapter Notes:
Hey everyone, I'm soooooooo sorry its taken so long to update, i've had writers block and couldnt do this chapter, but here in it is, and the next chapters will be up shortly, also if you like "love don't come easy" its also going to be up soon, got writers block on that story too. read and review, thanks a lot
Love Tracy
Love Tracy
