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Summary: I've been divorced from Nick Carter for almost five years now. The only thing keeping us together? Our son, Connor. All I wanted was for Nick to love me, and part of me thought that by giving him a son it'd make everything perfect in our lives. But I couldn't have been more wrong. But now, I feel like I may need him more than ever. Will he actually be there?

[I'm back :)]
Rated: PG-13
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Group, Nick, Other
Genres: Drama, Romance
Warnings: None
Challenges:
Series: None
Chapters: 17
Completed: No
Word count: 30264
Read: 38883
Published: 01/30/08
Updated: 01/16/09

1. Prologue by sarahmarie0727 [ - ] (1350 words)
I'm back! An update on my health:

Yes, I'm still quite sick. Unfortunately I can only report that things have remained the same/gotten worse in the past few weeks. I've been in and out of the hospital, but as of right now, things are more stable than ever. So, I started writing again.

I really want to touch back on my old stories [especially "Every moment in between"]. So watch for updates from that/those very soon!

This story, however, is going to contain the disease I have somewhere along the way. Hopefully in a new light that hasn't been overdone. [Just read it, you'll see :)].

I'll try and keep you updated as time goes on. But right now I just thank you for your patience and your kind words that I received when I announced that I had been diagnosed. Thank you!!

2. Taking Care of Business by sarahmarie0727 [ - ] (2020 words)
Thanks for the reviews! Keep 'em coming :]!

Also, the character Jacob Young is a celebrity - he's from All My Children, the ABC Soap Opera. I don't own him or anything, I'm just using him in this story :].

3. Boys Will Be Boys by sarahmarie0727 [ - ] (1749 words)
Wow! I was completely blown away at all the reviews! Thank you so much!! I'm so glad you're enjoying the story so far :]. Please keep the reviews coming!!

4. Normal For A Change by sarahmarie0727 [ - ] (2158 words)
Thank you all so much for reviewing! I hope you enjoy :]. Keep the reviews coming and I'll try to update ASAP.

5. Words Don't Fail Me Now by sarahmarie0727 [ - ] (1920 words)
Thanks for the reviews & for being patient! This story is going to be harder for me to write, simply because a lot of what I'm writing is stuff I'm going through right now. Idiopathic dilatation of the main pulmonary artery really is a disease that exists, yet it's very rare. So all the facts I'm using in this story are REAL. I'm living proof. Please keep on reviewing!

6. The Way He Frustrates Me by sarahmarie0727 [ - ] (1684 words)
I wasn't planning on getting this chapter out until later rather than sooner, but my Physics professor just cancelled our lecture for this morning! [YAY!!] So I had time to write up the last bit and get it out to you. Keep the reviews coming! Happy Reading!

7. Goodbyes and Proposals by sarahmarie0727 [ - ] (1542 words)
Thanks again for the reviews! I'll try and update soon :].

8. Pizza and Memories by sarahmarie0727 [ - ] (1353 words)
Thanks for the reviews! Keep 'em coming!

9. Moving On? by sarahmarie0727 [ - ] (1561 words)
Thanks for your feedback! Keep it all coming and I'll try to get the next chapter out *hopefully* soon. Thanks :].

10. You're My Sanctuary by sarahmarie0727 [ - ] (1975 words)
So this chapter was a HUGE deal for me to write. For a few of you that have asked, YES. This disease IS real. I have it. And this chapter explains a LOT of stuff that I've been going through. It felt good writing it; I think this story is going to help me a lot. So I thank you for reading AND reviewing! And I can promise you the next chapter is already in the works of being written :]. Keep your reviews coming!

11. Lilies, Not Roses. by sarahmarie0727 [ - ] (2120 words)
Thanks for the reviews!! I seriously appreciate them so much! Keep them coming! I can try and update *hopefully* tomorrow. I'm really busy today with studying for exams, but I'll get on it ASAP :].

12. Just Like Old Times by sarahmarie0727 [ - ] (2156 words)
Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU for the reviews! Oh my goodness, it was amazing to come back and see all the positive reviews waiting for me! It definitely encouraged me to write a lot more AND a lot faster :]. Thanks so much! I'll try and post another chapter tomorrow sometime, but don't hold me to it ;]. Tomorrow's Valentine's Day, and I don't know about anyone else, but I've got myself a date :]. So, actually, you can probably expect the next chapter Friday. BUT, if I get a lot of reviews [hint-hint] then I'll try to post tomorrow :].

Happy Valentine's Day!

13. Silent Goodbyes by sarahmarie0727 [ - ] (1898 words)
AH! Sorry for the wait! Between classes and doctor's appointments, life has been CRAZY! Ironically, I think I've set the date for my heart surgery! [Crazy how I wrote that last chapter and my cardiologist called to say he found a surgeon!! YAY!] So keep me in your thoughts or prayers, if ya could ;]. I'm excited!! Reviews would be lovely :]. I'll try not to stay away for too long this time ;].

14. Revolutionize by sarahmarie0727 [ - ] (1531 words)
I know, I know. I have been gone for FAR too long! I apologize. Life has been crazy (excuses, excuses). Truth is, I really lost all motivation with my writing in general. I'm coming back from a VERY long writer's block so please bare with me. I would LOVE some reviews on this just to see if I still have any of my old readers, though I'm somewhat doubtful.

I won't be away as long with this one! I'll try and write more very soon. Happy reading!

15. Christmas in The Air by sarahmarie0727 [ - ] (2066 words)
Thanks for the reviews! Hope ya'll are enjoying it :).

16. Right Side Up by sarahmarie0727 [ - ] (1768 words)
Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU for the reviews! Seriously, you guys have no idea how much your reviews encourage me to write! I just want to remind you all that this is PURELY FICTIONAL! There are certain topics discussed in this chapter that ARE NOT REAL. Thanks =). PLEASE keep the reviews coming! I'll update soon!

17. Making Promises by sarahmarie0727 [ - ] (1413 words)
Thank you for the reviews! I appreciate them all :). Keep them coming + I'll try to update again ASAP!

Also, I found it HILARIOUS that apparently hours after I posted that last chapter (or maybe it was a day or two? I can't remember) Howie & Leigh announced they're expecting! Haha. Crazy coincidence. ANYWHO! Enjoy :).