Chapter Four: Vindication Of A Rebel
Waking up the next morning was the last thing i ever wanted to do. The other day was the perfect day as i recall but i hated being in this light of being someone else.
It was going to take a lot of getting use too and a whole lot of journey a long the way. As i was waking up, i gathered some clothes and something to eat before heading
out the door. Today I would be on my way to see Brian, the only friend who remains a friend in this alternate world. Why is that? I thought about that for a while then
realized Brian has always been there no matter what side there was to me. It was a friendship i always needed and always had.
"Thank you Lord."
I shrugged that off as i look into the sky. Yep, today would be different. Today was a new day though it felt like i was living in Hell every hour on the hour. I felt
pain this time around. It wasnt cause of Haylee, it was cause i found myself in the pain. I was bitter. I was mad, hurt, angry not at everyone else but at myself
mostly. I hurt the one good thing in my life. Now i am walking down another street in another world that I do not belong in. And all I seem to know is that i am trying
to make things right on this level. But how can i? Really.. how can i? I've been a rebel for too long. A part of so much vindication in my life that it become all i
wanted.So now i am struggling. I am struggling because i need too, not just for me. For us.
As I thought of that, I kept to my side of the walk way before heading to Brian's front door.
KNOCK-KNOCK
"Hey, Nick. Come In. Leighanne, honey Nick is here."
I smiled big and held my breathe before Leighanne walked in. I gave her a hug and greeted her just as if i had done it a thousand other times before but this time it felt so sincere.
"Nick, sweetie. We are going out on the boat and Haylee wanted to come but she doesnt have her man with her. Do you mind being a stand-in?"
"Of course. It would be a pleasure."
What in the world? "It would be a pleasure" stop messing with my words, old man. Haha maybe it wasnt the old man maybe i was gradually changing. Just maybe doing
something so different. Great AJ was here now. Got to stop thinking otherwise, ill mess up everything. Thinking always seemed to be the trouble.
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They walked in and she was beautiful. She was always beautiful. I kept staring at her as if she would do a trick and finally she looked up and said "what?" I looked up at her.
"Nothing."
"What's wrong, Nick?"
"Nothing. Just looking at you."
"Oh. Well could I talk to you, alone?"
"Ok."
She pulled a hold of me and dragged me to the deck of the house. Her eyes reached out to me. I never seen that look on her face before. Scared, sad, may it was depression. It seemed like i was seeing something more clearly
than that. It was like seeing her be herself but in the pain i was putting her through. I prepared myself to what she was going to say as i continue to observe her. I wasn't ready to hear it but than i did.
"He hit me once again."
"He hit you? Haylee..."
"No dont say it. I already know what you'll say before you say it."
"No you dont. You listen to me, if he keeps hitting you i wont stand back and watch him do it. Ill do something about it."
"Like what? Why do you even care?"
"Cause I do and stop questioning me. Just trust me."
I shushed her up and put my arms around her, holding her close to me. For a first I felt like my life was very much complete. I was very calm and I didnt feel the urge to yell or scream. I was once again in a place
that I felt once before. It felt like how it did when i saw the sunshine bounce off of Haylee's body. Everything felt so right but yet so wrong. I wasnt who i was suppose to be. A part of me just wanting to scream out
and tell her what was going on. But it would probably make me look like im crazy so i just went with it. I stopped thinking when i felt her move a little in my arms.
"Are you asleep?"
"No, i was just thinking what it was like to be held like this. Its been so long since i could hear my own thoughts in my head. All he does is slam, accuse, argue, and fight with me. I can feel alone in this world
sometimes and than i think i already am. You want to know something."
"What, haylee."
"I use to call him my dreamer. Now i dont even know my dreamer. I only get him when hes sleeping."
"Oh."
I kept quiet as i listen to her and eventually Brian and Leighanne went out on the boat without us. I brushed my hand through her hair and listen to her sweet voice. The only thing is i wonder why she called me her dreamer.
I had questions for that but i didnt want to ask. I just let her keep talking to me and let her pour out her feelings and mind. I listen until it was quiet. She fell asleep so i picked her up and took her into the spare bedroom
in Brians house.
"Shhhh... its ok hay.. i got you. Go back to sleep."
I watch her turn over and she grabbed my shirt. I tried to make her let go but I just ended up being in the bed with her. I put my arm around her and fell asleep to the sound of both of our hearts beating together as one..
Tomorrow was going to be different.
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