He lives in Hell. The hands that are suppose to carress him strike out in painful blows. A voice that is supposed to soothe his worries instead torments him daily. Someone who is supposed to love him unconditionally belittles him till he is nothing. He fears that death is inevitible, but is stuck in the continuing cycle of pain, anger, torment, and horror. A truly wicked monster haunts him. And it's his secret.

When she came into his life, Nick Carter knew that things had to change. No more parties. No more groupies. No more drinking. No more cigarettes. No more one-night-stands. Everything in his life had to be for her. Everything in his life had to be about her. After all, she was his everything. But, somewhere along that road of zealous purity, he lost himself. Had forgotten what was so special about himself. Had forgotten what he truly needed. That is, until another woman came along…

Co-written with Shrinkingviolet

Always flipping through the various songs of his career, Howie Dorough comes to a hard realization. That his voice is missing. Somehow, through the years, he has disappeared from existence. And, with the disappearance of his voice also comes the disappearance of his soul. Unable to handle the stress of the Backstreet Boys, Howie opts for a small vacation before the promo tour of Never Gone can begin. Kevin, facing his own demons of ignorance and underappreciation, decides to join Howie on his trip, never realizing the beauty they could find after being left behind.

Co-written with Shrinkingviolet

AJ McLean is known infamously for being a ladies man, but that type of smoothness doesn?t just appear overnight. In fact, it comes from years of experience. And years of blunders. But, hey, no matter what, the chicks dig it.

Howie was waiting for something special to enter his life. A heart that would chip away the ice from his numbed soul. A smile to take away the pain of his dreary life. A token that would give him the ability to live the rest of his life with undying faith and love. A legacy that would change his heart for the better. And a single hope to drawl out his true love. Yet, with all the prayers he sent above, he never expected God deliver the answers in such a precious bundle.