My stomach is flipping....all that is going through my head is "Is it Alyssa or the baby...or is it both."
Honestly, if I had to choose, I choose Aylssa to live. As hard as it is to lose a baby, it is even harder for the father when the mother dies giving birth. And hopefully Aylssa wouldn't have to much damage to her uterus to get pregnant again.
Of course, I don't want Zoey to die, but we don't really 'know' her yet, and we 'know' Alyssa.

If it is Alyssa though, Nick is going to have to come forward himself about Zoey, and ofcourse Sean isn't going to believe him, and then there will have to be paternity tests done.

Ughhh, this is so nerve racking.

Hopefully I am exagerating and both of them are ok, but one the baby needs blood or something, and Nick is going to be the only one with her blood type and then Sean will find out that way.

By the way, your explantion of a ruptured placenta was very good.

Another reason I hope Aylssa makes it is so that she can tell the truth about what happened. I know Shayla didn't mean to push her, but she did, and she should come clean about it.

Great update Mel.....I so hate those cliffies though!

Author's Response: Aww... Thanks Brandy! I definitely have to agree with your logic in wanting Alyssa to live over the baby if it came down to that. It'll definitely be hard on Nick if the baby dies, but he can't lose Alyssa. As heartless as it sounds you can always have another baby. And if Zoey is to live remember she's two months premature. That could lead to other health problems. I'm sorry to leave it on such a nerve racking note. And I an glad you thought my medical jargon was good! I did some research on placenta abruption and I really wanted it to be realistic. Sometimes it is hard for me when I myself have never been pregnant, so I rely a lot on research and the info of people who have kids already.

It is so sad. I had pretty much already come to grips with the fact that it was probably going to be the baby who died, but it still didn't make it any easier. Poor Nick, it is almost like he has to hide his heart ache. I can't Imagine how hard that would be, to be hurting so bad, but not being able to show it. I feel bad for Sean too, but at the same time I am so angry with him. I just keep thinking that if he hadn't showed up and caused a scene the Lyss would have never been upstairs to begin with.
Then there is Shayla. She makes me so mad! I feel absolutely no pity for her anymore. And it angers me even more that she is trying to be supportive of Nick now. I wish she would just get hit by a mack truck or something.
I can't imagine what it would be like if I were Lyss and woke up no longer pregnant only to find out that my baby was dead. That has to be the most aweful feeling in the world.
Overall though, this chapter was beautifully written and you were able to show so much emotion without to many words. Great job!!! And huge thanks for not killing Aylssa!!

Author's Response: Thanks Brandy! It was a really hard chapter to write and surprisingly what gave me the biggest trouble is Shayla and Nick. I originally had Nick really lashing out on her and it just wasn't working. It was seeming like he cared more about what to do about their marriage than the baby, so i scrapped it and we'll get back to that later. You're right though... It had to be the baby because do you seriously think I'd kill Alyssa after all the hard work I've put into her. I know its really sad and not what everyone hoped for, but I think you'll start to see a rainbow come out of this towards the end. Hopefully I'll get this next half out soon!

I am so glad that Alyssa finally put everything out on the table with Sean. It had to hurt hearing him say all of those things to her, but honestly his reaction was quite normal and expected. If he wouldn't have reacted that way, I don't think it would have been realistic.

And way to go Nick for finally standing up to Alyssa and letting her know exactly what she is doing to their relationship. Nick is right, she has been selfish almost the entire story, maybe not purposely, or maybe under the premise that she was trying to do teh right thing, but all in all she was just trying to make sure she wasn't the bad guy (remember my villian comment?). I am proud of Nick for pointing out that he should have some say in all of this also!
I am so excited to see how this one ends....but kind of sad too.
Are you starting the next installment right away?

Author's Response:

Yea its nice to finally get THAT out of the way huh? I think Sean's reaction was for the most part appropriate although it was pretty effed up calling her a whore and all that, but we needed a bit of dramatic flair lol

I think Nick pointing out that Alyssa was being selfish was something that needed to be said. Not just for the sake of their relationship, but even for me purposely because as you know I've struggled with perfecting Alyssa's character since UMS through this story, but I've realized that she's always going to be a lil selfish. That's just her major character flaw, so now I am trying to use that to my advantage instead of getting defensive about it. She IS selfish although I don't think she means to be that way. In her current situation she's just so busy feeling badly for herself that she is not seeing beyond herself and how she is affecting other people.  This will continue to impact her throughout the next chapter. You'll have to see though if she snaps out of it or not.

As for the next installment I prolly will start it off pretty quickly. I have at least the first two chapters planned out in vivid detail right now. I am also kicking around an idea for a prequel/spin off story that takes place during the B&B tour to give you a glimpse of their early relationship and that'll definitely get into some of Alyssa's earlier issues, but that's not definite yet.

****uhhhhhummmmm*****

tic toc tic toc........

Author's Response: Haha I am sorry Brandy, but I do have an excuse for the lack of updates. Remember how I said that I was going to get a second job? Well, I finally broke down and did it. I'm going to be a server at Chili's and I started my training all this week which is pretty intensive since I have no restaurant experience. Of course since I started training, I've worked every day teaching in one class this week and lesson plans have been skimpy so I've had to do a lot of outside planning. To top it all off I met a boy Sat night, so I've been pretty distracted. I'm not sure where it's going to go if anywhere. So yea... Not a lot of writing time this week :(. Hopefully next week isn't as busy for me.

I would totally love to try strip areboics!!! I bet it would be a ton of fun! And of course you learn some new moves to put on your man!

I hope Lyss starts to get her confidence back. I know how difficult to can be! I was a size 2 before I got pregnant and was a 10 when I delieved. It took me 15 months to get back to my pre pregnancy wieght! I am now 7 lbs lighter that before I got pregnant, but I only wear a four....the hips just won't go back in a two!!! SO I understand feeling UNSEXY in her new body! It sucks for sure!!!

I am looking forward to Nick and Lyss finally connecting again. I hope we get to see that before this installment ends....

Great job Mel!

Author's Response:

Haha Yea... I've heard some crazy things about strip aerobics being an awesome workout. I thought Alyssa could use something fun like that to get her groove back so to speak and who knows? Maybe some of those moves might come in handy in like the sequel lol *winks*

I knew that you would understand Alyssa's body issues being a mother yourself and having gone through the whole pregnancy thing. Most people I know who have been pregnant said that getting your body back is like the hardest thing and it has to be even harder on Alyssa because she doesn't even have the baby to make it all worthwhile. I'm glad she didn't come off as whiny and you could see this was definitely hard for her.

As for Lyss and Nick reconnecting... Well keep reading. I know the story has been kind of Nickless lately, but I can promise you a Nick/Lyss scene next chapter and after that the last chapter is all them. Thanks so much Brandy!

Where do I start with this Chapter! So much stuff happened for it to be only 4000 words!

Okay, so I will start with Lyss telling Nick, I am pleased with the decision that they have come too. If I were in their position I think I would have done the exact same thing. I am very proud of Nick for believing Lyss. I can imagine that it was a hard thing to believe.

Lyss's revalation about Nick is AWESOME! I knew it had to come eventually, but man I was getting a little impatient! I can't wait to see what Lyss comes up with to break the news to Nick.

It is so sad though....One more chapter and "A Little Taste of Sin" is over.....

I may cry.....LOL!!!!

Author's Response:

Yea I guess that it was a lot for so little words. That's what happens when it comes time to tie it all up.

I think that Alyssa and Nick are prolly doing the best thing they can about Shayla under the circumstances. As much as I know everyone wants to see Shayla rot in jail I don't think a trial would be the best thing on top of a messy divorce. Besides there will be plenty of drama en el sequel.

It is a relief though that Lyss is finally coming around and finally realized her feelings for Nick. Talk about DUH moments! You'll have to see what Alyssa has up her sleeve, but it'll be sweet and simple.

Don't be sad! There's always the sequel, but I know what you mean. I am SOOOO proud of this story and all I have accomplished with it. I'm not sure if I can outdo this one lol.

***tear**** You are very welcome. I am glad to know that I have had even a fraction of an impact on your writing as you have had in mine. You are the type of writer I hope to one day be.....

I cannot wait to see the first posting of When My World is Crashing....I know it will be amazing.

Good Luck in NC.....I don't know how much a NYer will like it. I lived in Camp LeJuene for a while and I am just a Louisiana girl and it drove me crazy, but hey the people are super friendly.

Once again Congrats on such an amazing story....It is one that will be remember by BSB fan fiction readers for years to come!

Author's Response:

Aww thank you Brandy! You did help me probably without even realizing it by sharing all your experiences in the military throughout your reviews. I hope that WMWIC can live up your expectations.

Thanks for the good luck. I'm not sure how I'll like NC, but I am in a bad place right now financially and careerwise and I think my best bet may be to get out of NY cuz it is riduclous here. No worries though. This is not something I'm doing impulsively. This weekend I am visiting some friends who moved down there and one is a teacher so he is going to like show me his school and stuff.

Okay, so I have just read the first 12 chapters of this story and I am really addicted! Talk about full of drama!

I feel sympathy for everyone....except Lauren. I actually can't stand her. She kept Chase from AJ because AJ thought she cheated, but she really didn't.....and she was somehow convinced that it was a good idea to be a selfish bitch and keep him from knowing his son....That is SO low. And now she continues to make Nastasia feel guilty over ever decision she makes and somehow get Stazzie to feel guilty over the decision Lauren makes too. I don't like her at all.

AJ, as badly as he has acted since he found out the truth, his reactions are somewhat understandable. Although he handled himself the wrong way and has taken it to far, I still understand his pain....and it looks as though he is coming around to the fact that he has been to harsh on Stazzie....I do hope he decides to do right by Chase though.

Howie....I am a little dissappointed in him at times, because he seems to shut down at all the wrong times, but I know his heart is in the right place.

And lastly poor Stazzie, being pulled in every direction and taking on the pain of everyone around her. I think I would have already lost it and went psycho on everyone involved. Instead she just constantly apoligizes like everything is her fault.....she needs to stand up for herself.....

I hope you update regularly because I am really interested in seeing how this plays out.