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I'm a 22 year old blue eyed blonde hair girl from Orlando,Florida.I have been a backstreet boys fan since day one. My favorite is Nick (of course) and I have been lucky enough to have met him twice. I love dancing,going to the beach, hanging out with friends, writing, listening to music, mudding & 4-wheeling. If you have any more questions feel free to email me!

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Summary:

She had always known what she wanted and had worked hard to make her dreams a reality, nothing would come between her and her ambitions....


....even if it meant saying goodbye to him


Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Nick
Genres: Drama
Warnings: Sexual Content, Violence
Series: None
Chapters: 61 Table of Contents
Completed: No
Word count: 253726
Read Count: 152853


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06/05/08 » Updated: 07/06/10
Reviewer: Southern_Sweetheart Signed
Date: 04/16/09 Title: Chapter 40: Use Somebody

Wow that was a quick update!

OMG ARE YOU INSANE?!! Why do you keep doing this to all of us readers? Noooooo more cliffe's lol.

I am so so so so happy that Adie went to Nick. She doesn't need to be going through this alone and the only person she needs by her side through this is Nick, since he's the only one (other than the boys and okay her sister) who can help her through this.

This entire chapter kept me on the edge of my seat, deep down though, I knew she was going to him and I'm glad she did.

Now Nick is this chapter had ME freaking out a little bit,lol. But I can understand his character because if my spouse had left me once before and something like this happened, I would be the same way. It was cute though to see him all worked up. I hope in the next chapter that he is all lovey dovey on her when he sees her rather than yelling and freaking out on her. I can't wait for the next chapter and hopefully it comes as quick as this one did! Keep up with the fast updating!

Author's Response:

Cliffee's are what get you coming back for more!! LOL! I know how frustrating they are though!

 

There is going to be a huge argument about this, but deep down I think Nick will understand her reasoning and he will be there to help her through because he loves her and he knows he can't be without her, he just needs to make her see that she can't be without him!

 

Thanks for the review hun!

Reviewer: Southern_Sweetheart Signed
Date: 04/19/09 Title: Chapter 41: Don't Let Me Get Me

I really like these fast updates!

But I won't get used to them....update when you can. I think out of all of the chapters in the story, this one is my favorite. I am so happy that you decided to write a little about what she did before she went to Nick's hotel. Adie made the right choice by going to him and FINALLY saying that she isn't going to run anymore. Its about freaking time that she just be's herself and be happy with Nick.

I really thought the part that your wrote about Nick falling on his ass and hitting his head was funny; then for Adie to bandage him and make a smart ass comment about labor was cute. The bantering between them is finally coming back and I hope that everything does work out for them so we can get the happy Nick & Adie back for a few chapters.

Can't wait for the next update!

Author's Response: I think it is important to get that bantering back, at least for the next few chapters. Of course this is fanfiction so more drama is on the way, it's like an unwritten rule, they can't be happy for more then three chapters in a row! LOL! Thankd for the review hun!

Reviewer: Southern_Sweetheart Signed
Date: 04/24/09 Title: Chapter 42: One Step At A Time

I liked this chapter. Adie is definitely coming along and I can't wait to see her progress even more. I'm really glad that she told Nick about that dream, that's something that has been plaguing her for awhile now. It was a really sweet paragraph that you wrote, where Nick was talking to her belly.

You named the baby!!! You just threw that in there and kept on right with the story as if that part didn't really matter,lol. It's a cute name and I can't wait to have her arrive/included in the story.

I like the way you ended this chapter, I was wanting a nice fan encounter for her to know that not all fans are crazy/stalker/psychotic. We all really do care for Nick and we do want him to be happy.

It sucks that you have to go back to work!!!! But hopefully you will be able to update at some point. Update when you can!

Author's Response:

I thought it was important to let her see that not all fans are against her because it definetly gave her more confidence in herself and the talk with Leighanne definetly reiterated that as well. She is being a lot more open with Nick as well although I am not one hundred percent convinced she would have told him if he hadnt have walked in on her.

Sdaly this happy stuff isn't going to last and naming the baby is going to be very bittersweet in the next chapter!

Thanks for the review!

Reviewer: Southern_Sweetheart Signed
Date: 04/30/09 Title: Chapter 43: All Good Things Come To An End

Oh you're going to get it!!!!!!! Lol.


This is by the worst cliff hanger ever known in fan fiction!!!!! Ugh now I have to wait another week to find out what happens, you are cruel cruel cruel lol.J/k.

Aside from the huge cliffe ending this was a good chapter. I like how you made sure everyone is aware that Adie has "ballooned" up. Nick completing the nursery was a sweet thing. I really liked how the two of them were talking and just being content.

I hope everything works out for Nick & Adie and I can't wait till you update again. I wish you didn't have to work!!!! Update as soon as you can lol.

Author's Response:

You should know by now that cliffie's are what I live for! I have to say that they effect me to because after I post a chapter with a cliffie like that all I want to do is start writing the next chapter but this time I couldnt as I had to get up early for work! All day at work I was thinking I need to start the next chapter like this... I need to make sure I include this.... I must research this before I do that...

I felt it was important for you  guys to realsie how far she is along now, how big she is liekly to be and how excited they are about the arrival, that was before I snatched it all away from them. Thanks for reviewing hun.

Reviewer: Southern_Sweetheart Signed
Date: 05/06/09 Title: Chapter 44: Long Road To Ruin

This chapter is heartbreaking. My heart goes out to them, I could never imagine how it feels to lose a baby. I don't know why you made this happen but I'm sure we'll find out soon enough.

I just hope that Adie doesn't close up and shut herself down from Nick and everyone else. She needs his support as much as Nick needs hers. I know it will take time but I hope everything works out.

Author's Response: There are going to be so many obstacles in their way and it is going to be a very bumby ride. This situation is going to test their relationship to the brink and the jury is still out on whether they will both make it to the otherside! Thanks for the review!

Reviewer: Southern_Sweetheart Signed
Date: 05/08/09 Title: Chapter 45: Now That She's Gone

Wow you are on a roll with these updates!

I just don't know what to say to this situation. Adie is going to retreat back into herself and that is the part of her that I can not stand. It seems like she is going in circles and that she will never truly get out of herself. I understand this is a hard situation for her but she needs to realize that it is hard for Nick too, she isn't the only one suffering here. Adie's character plays the victim card waaaaay to much and I'm sick of it. I personally would like to see Nick's side of the story for once. You give us a little taste of his perspective but then put us right back in with Adie's view point.

I hope that you don't end this story with them apart. I really would like to see things work out of them eventually and I know that they will work through this, however I have a feeling that with the loss of the pregnancy that if and when Adie retreats back to her old ways Nick won't be there to help her. Which I think would be good since she needs to learn to take care of herself & love herself before she can be with anyone else. That's the biggest lesson she needs to conquer.

Keep up with the fast updates!

Author's Response:

It is a really difficult situation because every time she tries to break out and be more open and more optimistic something comes along to knock her back down. She is going to blame herself a lot in the next few chapters, she is going to withdraw from everyone and she is going to make a lot of people angry at her. It is going to get to the point where people get so sick of her that they won;t want to be around her anymore and I think Nick already realises that.

You are right in what you say about her needing to love herself before she can be with Nick completely.

 

Thanks for the review

 

Reviewer: Southern_Sweetheart Signed
Date: 05/11/09 Title: Chapter 46: The Pieces Don't Fit Here Anymore

Okay its official this is by far the best chapter of your story! It is filled with so much emotion and heart it is amazing!!

The way you wrote this chapter is astounding! I still don't like Adie right now, given the circumstance she is allowed to grieve and be upset but for her to completely withdraw and pull away from Nick is pissing me off, that's all she ever seems to do. I understand she is in pain but so is everyone else, especially Nick and he even told her that; but yet again she refuses to see anyone else's problems but her own. Apparently no one knows how she feels or what she is going through, obviously no one can relate to her or be there for her. At least that's the way I am perceiving Adie.

Honestly I'm glad she walked out and I am SUPER SUPER proud of Nick for giving her that option (as hard as it was), Nick needs to focus on himself and his emotions and he doesn't need to deal with her and her childish ways right now. He tried to help her but again she refused him and shut down. It goes to show you that Adie hasn't grown up because if she had she wouldn't run anymore no matter how hard the situation is. For right now I say "good riddance" to Adie because I am just over her character,lol. I know she loves Nick and I know Nick loves her too but for once Nick can't & shouldn't have to fight for the relationship. Adie needs to do it at some point, she needs to prove her love for Nick.

My favorite part in this chapter was by far the argument scenes. I loved how Rachel just fired right back at her and honestly Adie did deserve it. She needs to wake up and face reality instead of always running away and pointing blame at other people when in actuality its her that is to blame.

You are on a roll with these updates and I love it!!!! I just hope you can continue with updating as often as you are. Keep up the good work!!

Author's Response:

Thanks for the amazing review hun, if this is my best chapter then your review is by far the best I have received!

I am totally with you on the whole Adie wollowing in her own misery trip! She needs a bit of a reality check and trust me it's not far away. People cope with grief differently but in Adie's case she isn't coping she is just exsisting, and being a completely closed off cow whilst doing it. She will realise I promise!

I think Nick is at his wits end with what to do to be able to help her and the next chapter will highlight that topic some more. He loves her, he knows she is hurting because he shares that pain but instead of dealing with his own he is dealing with hers as well. There is no support there for him and he really needs it too. He definetly needs to focus in himself for a bit and I think that was why he gace her the ultimatmum. He will regret it though and you will see him battle with himself over that decision in the next chapter, even though he shouldnt.

Thanks again for the great review and I hope that the nexty chapters don't disapoint! 

Reviewer: Southern_Sweetheart Signed
Date: 05/15/09 Title: Chapter 47: Patience

Okay so lets get this review rolling....

I don't even know where to start there is so much to cover. I'm still against Adie, for her to go to Nepal is not healthy I think. The reason I say that is because what is she going to do honestly? She's going to work, and that's all. How is she really going to deal with this situation? She can give all the excuses she wants but I honestly don't think this will be good for either one of them and again she is just running away; I don't care how you put it. I have a feeling that Nick might slip up and find some random chick(s) while she is gone.

For the record when Adie said "Molly defines our relationship" really pissed me off. Again she is just using Molly as an excuse. A baby does not define you're relationship, it's the people in the relationship that define it. I can't believe she would say something that stupid. Ugh!!!! She seriously needs to grow up and put her big girl panties on!

My heart goes out to Nick in this chapter because he made alot of progress in this chapter. He also had major self control during alot of scenes. I'm happy that he finally let his emotions and deepest fears come out. He really needed to do that not only for Adie but for himself as well. It shall be interesting to see what happens to Nick while Adie is away.

I hope that you write some sort of conversation between Adie & Rachel in an upcoming chapter, I'd really like to see how Rachel acts towards Adie after this whole debacle. I still think Adie needs a swift kick in the butt.

Oh and one more thing, I noticed that in all of your chapters you tend to write really long paragraphs several times in a row, I just want you to know from a readers point of view that we will sometimes skip over those because it is an overload of writing because the sentences tend to run together after awhile and you usually just want to get to the good stuff. Maybe you can break some of them up more. Just an idea. Keep up with the fast updating and I hope that things start getting better and HAPPIER soon!!

Author's Response:

Now I have warmed up my fingers for my respsonse! LOL!

I am going to have to stick up for Adie here. From reading the reviews I didnt think people would still be this agaisnt her, But hey that is what I love someone else's view isn't going to be the same as everyone else's. I personally think it's a good thing, she does need to find herself again, and I'm not sure who said it in a previous review, but she can't love anyone else until she loves herself, she is definetly not doing that at the moment. I don't think she is just going away to work either, I have been where she is going, I have done what she is going to do and it is an eye opener, it makes you realise how lucky you are, it is very good for the soul. I think you are definetly right in saying that at the moment but you will see some dramatic changes in her. I keep promising that don;t I? LOL!!! Hopefully by then end of the story I will deliver!

I am very proud of Nick in this chapter too. He has had some amazing growth, while Adie had almosr reverted! Talk about role swap! I think he understands why she needs to do it, even if he hates the idea. He is just petrified that she isn't going to come back.

Thanks for letting me know about the chapters, I'll try to tone that down a bit. I find reading chapter like that okay but for some others it's a bit much.

xxx

Reviewer: Southern_Sweetheart Signed
Date: 05/21/09 Title: Chapter 48: Distractions

Okay so before I start the review of this chapter I want you to answer your reply to my post on the last chapter. Yes I know it was me who said that "Adie has to love herself before she can love someone else. But still in my eyes this journey she has taken isn't something she should do right now. She needs to deal with the pain and nip it in the but per say then go on her trip and "find yourself"


Okay onto the NEW REVIEW.


You are right I am upset with Adie even more in this chapter. First of all she left, suddenly. Secondly she can't even be a big girl and send a letter to Nick? And lastly she did what we all knew she would do; close up and throw herself into her work. I knew she would do it but, I was secretly hoping that she would surprise me and do the opposite of what I had thought. Sadly she didn't, she is letting everyone down including herself. She is continuing to hurt herself by not grieving or talking to anyone about what she is going through. And sadly I don't see this trip going very well for her or Nick.

Okay I have to throw this in here,how you included Nick in Marathon in this chapter was a little ironic at the moment because as of right now, Nick and all the Boys (minus Howie) are here in Florida for Q's wedding. I just thought that was funny. Anyway, it surprised me very much that Nick went to his mother in this chapter. She was the very last person I thought he would go too, but I'm glad he did. I was also very shocked that she talked to him the way she did. I'm glad she gave him the "advice" or the "eye openers" that she did. He needs to see that he himself isn't the only one to blame here. I hope that he tries to get in touch with Adie or something.

All in all I hope that things work out for them soon. I also hope she comes to her senses and deals with her emotions before they eat her alive and cause her to have a breakdown. I know how those are and she can't handle something like that, especially if Nick isn't around. Good chapter and I hope you update soon!!!!!

Author's Response:

You are completly right about Adie. She is throwing herself into her work and not doing what she said she was going to. She is going to realise that really soon!

I di dhave a chuckle myself when I read Nick's twitter page! I thought it was important to show Nick going to his Mother and reconsiling with her, it shows how much he has grown within the story. I think she offered some sound advice and it's good because it's impartial to an extent as she doesn't know Adie.

Thanks for the review hun!

Reviewer: Southern_Sweetheart Signed
Date: 05/22/09 Title: Chapter 49: Question Exsiting?

Are you kidding me?!! Come on! I know you live for cliffe's but this is just plain evil. I'm stuck here on the edge of my seat waiting & wanting to know what happens!!! Hurry back with the update!

Okay aside from the cliffe this was an alright chapter. Adie is finally making some sort of progress. The fact that she actually told someone about Molly is great! That is the first step, and albeit it the hardest. I'm proud of her for that :)

As for Nick in this chapter he needs to grow some balls and just reach for her. Apparently Adie isn't going to do it, so he should. He needs to take that step and tell her how he feels, that's the only way that he is going to feel better. Something like that can eat you alive and it is something you definitely don't want to hold in.

Involving the boys in this chapter was great! I didn't realize how much I missed reading what they would say until now. Although where's Brian??LOL. Hurry back with the update!! I can't wait forever!!

Author's Response:

I told you Adie would eventually make some progress, it just seemed to take forever! LOL! Trust me I was as frstrated as you guys were with her!

I think deep down, under all the emotion Nick is very pissed off with her, that's why he isn't reaching out, he is waiting for her but you will see in the next chapter a slightly different side to him and in about two chapters time there is a side of him that you won't be expecting to see!

I'm not sure where Brian got to, Maybe they couldn't find a sitter for Baylee?! LOL! Thanks for the review!

Reviewer: Southern_Sweetheart Signed
Date: 05/25/09 Title: Chapter 50: Passing By

Yay I'm happy that you updated. Honestly this chapter wasn't the greatest to read. I only say that because it's what I call a "filler". Its the type that has to be put in to make sense of the whole situation, it puts pieces together that we didn't see before.

I was surprised that you chose to use her father as the victim. I honestly didn't see that one coming, I was kinda disappointed. I did like how you ended it though, it was that her daddy was there for her (even though he's the one in the hospital lol)I'm glad he helped her realize what she is truly feeling. I hope she does run after Nick. I can't wait to see what happens.

Speaking of Nick, we didn't get much of him in this chapter, which was kinda sad but it tends to happen. I'm glad he was there and I'm really proud of him for not talking and running to her. He needs to stand his ground and wait for her.

Now here is the true test, will Adie chase him or will she leave him alone? Well shall wait and see. Update soon!!

Author's Response:

It was kind of a filler before we get to the really good stuff!

Who did you want to be the "victim?" His story seemed to fit, it was something she would definetly come home for, and within the next chapter the whole situation is going to make her realise something that she didn't realise the time before. You are just going to have to wait and see if she does go to Nick or not!

You were lucky to get any Nick in this chappie, his scene was a last minute add on! I'm glad I put it in though because it sets the scene for two chapters time! You will be getting a lot more Nick soon!

Thanks for the review hon!

Reviewer: Southern_Sweetheart Signed
Date: 05/26/09 Title: Chapter 51: Back At Your Door

Eeeek! I'm so happy that she went to him!!

Everything finally did work out for her after all that bad stuff. I'm really proud of her for chasing him. Reading how frantic/crazy/upset she was, was funny. It was a nice touch that she ran into AJ at the airport, honestly that does not happen what are the odds of it? LOL.

I loved the way Nick acted towards Adie in this chapter. How he deleted her number, waited for her until his final boarding call and so on. You know he loves her and even though he says he won't fight for her, there is a part of him that still wants too and that is endearing. There was an uplifting scene in there that was just a little funny and that was the part of Angel taking Nick's cell phone. I'm surprised he didn't freak out even more so than he did when she took it. I also love love the song you chose to use for this chapter.

I'm proud of Nick & Adie in this chapter. Now lets just see if they both can keep this going.

Author's Response:

I thought you would be happy!

You are going to see more of "that" Nick in the next few chapters. He is going to be very off with her but it is only because he wants to make her realise what she has done to him. Glad you liked all the cooky little things like Angel stealing his phone and Alex turning up at  the airport!

Thanks for the review hun!

Reviewer: Southern_Sweetheart Signed
Date: 06/01/09 Title: Chapter 52: Masquerade

Okay I've had a very emotional weekend and today is no different. I've just watched The New Moon trailer so I'm freaking out and then I see that you've updated, so I'm freaking out even more.

This was the best chapter you've ever written!!

It has so much raw emotion and love in it, that I feel it pulling at my heart strings. I am so proud of Nick for so many different things. The fact that he finally stood up to her and confronted her about everything is amazing. I honestly am not surprised that he is tired of fighting; I'm not gonna lie there is a part of me that wants him to walk away from Adie, but the other part of me wants them to work this out. So I'm torn, either way though I'm sure I'll love how you end this story.

I'm glad that Adie has finally admitted that she will fight for them, the question is though, is she strong enough to do so? But I am disappointed in her, because once again someone has to force her emotions out of her. I thought it was quite funny when she tried getting out of talking to Nick a few times, I know all of us girls have tried that once or twice in our lives.LOL.

The way you write these two characters is really interesting; as I was reading them in this chapter I felt like I was standing there in the same room with them. I felt Adie's heart break, I heard the sound of Nick punching the wall and screaming at her. I can visibly see Adie crying. This definitely was an amazing chapter. One quick note, I love the title you chose for this chapter. I don't know if you did it intentionally or what. But "masquerade" fits well. Nick and Adie have been wearing masks the entire story and for the first time they are taking them off to face the truth. I just hope that they are both strong enough to handle the truth. Please update soon!

Author's Response:

You keep saying that!!! I am just glad that my writing is improving and getting better. I was up till two am writing last night because once I got into the flow, into the whole emotion of it I found I just couldn't stop.

I am feeling what you are saying about wanting Nick to walk away for his sanity but on the other hand I really want them to work through it too. They have been through so much to let it tear them apart but the jury is still out on that at the moment, I have two endings in my head and I am just going to see how things pan out over the next few chapters!

I think Adie is strong enough to fight for them, I think Nick showing how fragile he is, how hurt he is helped her to realise that she wasn't the only one who lost Molly. Then again with his explosion I think she is going to be scared of him but you will see all of that in the next chapter.

Thanks so much for what you said about actually seeing and hearing them. I know how amazing that is when I read stories, to feel like you are actually there watching these people, like you are in the same room is a huge testiment to the author and I am really shocked that I have been able to create that for you. This is just a little hobby of mine and to know that you enjoy it that much pretty much made my day!

I love the song Masquerade and none of the other lyrics fit about from the verse that Nick sang at the end, it just made perfect sense to use it in thia chapter and it fit as the title as well. They are both so lost at the moment and it just goes to show that you can put on  a mask but if it's not who you really are everyone will eventually find out.

Thanks for the amazing review and hopefully more will be posted soon! x

Reviewer: Southern_Sweetheart Signed
Date: 06/01/09 Title: Chapter 52: Masquerade

Oh and one more thing


KUDOS TO YOU!!!!

Author's Response: Ta muchly!

Reviewer: Southern_Sweetheart Signed
Date: 06/03/09 Title: Chapter 53: Last Request

Okay this review will be short & sweet. I'm glad to see that Nick didn't stay behind to talk to her. I think if he would have he would've given in right away and they wouldn't be able to work anything out, they would just get back into the rut they were stuck in.

The conversation that Aaron had with Adie for a few brief moments was very simple and straight to the point. I'm glad he said that to her, she needed to hear it. I'm glad she saw that side of Nick, she needed to understand every aspect of why he is hurting and how much he is hurting.

I like how you took a turn in this story by them going on a road trip. Them being alone for 3 days should be interesting, the conversations they are about to have are hopefully going to be eye opening, soul bearing and full of emotion and love. I can't wait. Update soon!

Author's Response: I think nick has finally snapped and it has made adie realize that she can't keep pushing him! She does love him and she does really want to be with him but in order to do that she has to open up to him. It's going to be hard but by putting them in the situation where they just can't walk away is a good idea. Aaron was complety right, he as blunt and to the point which is what she needed! Thanks for the review Hun xxx