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Chapter 7 Trust Him

            The next morning I had woken up about 15 minutes before Nick did. I didn’t sleep that much that night. I kept dreaming of Nick cheating on me while he was on tour. I kept waking up and glancing at him sleeping next to me and shaking the thought from my head. But now I found myself fully awake because I really had to pee. I delicately picked up Nick’s arm from around my waist and slowly got out of bed. I was trying to be quiet but I couldn’t see where I was going in the dark and I banged my hip on the bedside table and let out a loud, “Ouch!” Nick kept sleeping like the log he was. I quietly giggled and headed for the bathroom.

            I returned to find him still sleeping. I lay down next to him and placed his arm around my waist again. I just laid there and stared at his face. I rested my left hand over his heart and with the other caressed his golden hair.

            Then the moment I was dreading came; the alarm he had set went off. Nick groaned and opened his eyes.

            “Morning babe,” I whispered.

“Morning Kay,” he yawned back.

            I rolled over and shut off the alarm. When I rolled back Nick had flipped onto his opposite side and hid under the covers.

I giggled and flipped back the covers, “What’s the matter honey?”

“I don’t want to go!” his words were muffled into the pillow.

“I know you don’t. But,” my voice dropped, “you have too.”

“Alright I better get up,” he rolled over, wrapped his arms around my waist and laid his head on the top of my chest.

I laughed and ran my hand through his hair, “Sweetie this isn’t exactly getting up.”

“Shh. I’m not awake yet.” He smiled and squeezed my waist. “You’re so comfy Kayl!”

“Comfy? Nickolas there’s nothing there!” I said jokingly.

“Kalie you’re what a B cup? You’ve got plenty there which means you’re comfy.” He nuzzled his head deeper into my skin.

I just shook my head, “Get up and take a shower. That’ll wake up you up.”

“Will you join me?”

“No I’m not the one who has to go on tour.”

He raised his head and pouted at me.

“Come on babe just go take a shower… alone. If I take a shower with you, you’ll be late or never leave.”

“Can I have a kiss first?”

“Of course.” I pecked his lips and he looked at me funny. “What?”

“What type of kiss was that?” he joked, “I’m leaving for tour and you give me only a little kiss.”

“You’re not leaving this second. You’ll get more kisses before you leave.”

He smiled at me, kissed my cheek then headed into the bathroom. As soon as he shut the door behind him I started to think of ways to distract him so I could keep him from leaving.

I walked through the dining room into the kitchen and passed Nick’s mask sitting on the dining room table. It was a silver and black half mask which was a part of his costume for when he performed Larger Than Life. He couldn’t leave without that mask. “Perfect!” I thought to myself.

I grabbed the mask and went back into the bedroom. I stuffed the mask under the pillow and made myself look busy while I made the bed.

Nick started singing I Want It That Way in the shower, badly. The harsh discords floated into the master bedroom and I couldn’t help but laugh. My guess is that Nick heard me so he kept singing louder and louder. This continued until he finished the song doing his best parodies of his band mates. I don’t know how I was able to make the bed because I was laughing so hard. Just as I finished folding up the big green blanket we kept at the foot of the bed, Nick walked in with a towel around his waist.

He took one look at me and asked, “Why are you crying babe?”

“You made me laugh too hard!” I replied as I plopped on the bed.

He chuckled and turned to grab his clothes from the dresser. As he did the towel fell and I couldn’t look away from his bare butt. My eyes stared at it until he looked over his shoulder and asked, “You staring at my ass?”

“No I’m staring up at the wall,” I said sarcastically.

He pulled up his boxers and walked over to me, “I could feel your eyes burning on me… it felt good.”

“Ok then… if it felt good I’ll look more often.”

He crashed his lips onto mine. Then I felt his body push mine onto the bed. He hovered over me as we kissed.

Nick pulled away and exclaimed, “Damn Kay! Stop turning me on! I’m never gunna get out of here if you keep turning me on like this.”

I giggled and caressed the side of his face with my thumb. “What do you want for breakfast? I’ll make it while you get ready.”

“How about pancakes?”

“Strawberry and banana?”

“Yes please.”

“Ok babe.”

I fixed the pancakes and just as I was about to call for Nick he walked into the kitchen.

“I was just about to call you. Good timing.”

“No, I read your mind.”

“Oh really?”

“Yeah I’m just good like that.” He chuckled and I shook my head.

After breakfast Nick started to collect his things and put them on the front steps. The taxi would be arriving shortly. He started to become frantic when he couldn’t find his mask.

I, playing dumb, asked, “What are you looking for?”

“My mask for Larger Than Life. You know the silver and black half mask? I’ve looked everywhere for it. I could’ve sworn I left it on the dining room table last night. Maybe it’s in my duffle bag.”

He went outside to search in the duffle bag and I sneaked into the bedroom. I waited to hear his footsteps and him think out loud, “Where the hell is it?”

I put on the mask and walked into the dining room.

“Babe take a breath,” I said.

“I will when I find my m…” he turned around and a relieved look came across his face when he saw I was wearing the mask. “My mask. Where did you find it?”

“I hid it under my pillow while you were in the shower.”

“Why? I’m going to be late. The taxi is already here and my things are already in the trunk.”

“I wanted to keep you here longer because I’m gunna miss you like crazy honey.”

He removed the mask from my face and said, “You won’t miss me if you come with me. It’s still not too late.”

“Baby you know I can’t go.”

“Oh yes you can.”

“No I can’t. I have to go to that dance competition. My class would be crushed if I wasn’t there. Besides my cousin Kate is one of my students and I have known most of those kids for 10 or 11 years now. They’re like my extended family. It’s not just a competition anymore it’s turned into a family obligation.”

“Well Mark will be there maybe he could record it for you.”

“I know they’re going to do well and Mark and I have worked so hard with them. It won’t be the same if I watched them win on a video. I really want to be there for them.”

“Oh alright. Then you know what? I’ll bring you back something from every stop on the tour.”

“Don’t do that Nick. All I want is for you to bring back all your lovin’ to me when you get home and promise me you’ll be faithful.”

“Oh Kalie I would never cheat on the one I love. I love you too much to cheat on you.”

“Awe Nickolas,” I wrapped my arms around his neck and he grabbed my waist.

The taxi driver honked the horn.

“I gotta go sweetie.”

“Alright then here’s your kiss.” He smiled before our lips met. While we kissed his grip became tighter.

The horn sounded again and Nick pulled away from me to glance at his watch, “Shit I’m going to be late if I don’t leave now. I promised to meet everyone at the half way point in 45 minutes.”

“I’ll walk you out.”

We walked through the hall hand in hand. He grabbed the mask and stuffed it into his backpack. He slung the backpack onto his shoulder then turned to me for the last time before getting into the taxi, “I’ll be home before you know it I promise.”

“Alright babe. Be safe travelling and call me when you can.”

“I will Kay. I love you sweetie.”

“I love you too Nick.”

We kissed one last time then he climbed into the taxi.

I watched the taxi drive away until it was out of sight. Then I went back inside and flopped on the couch. I grabbed my camera and lap top that were sitting on the coffee table and stared downloading the pictures Nick and I took the day before. I flipped through the album and smiled at the funny faces Nick was making in most of the pictures we had taken in the park. After the park pictures came some from the club. There were a few of the girls and I dancing together and a few really good ones of us laughing at some sarcastic remark Michelle made.

I was bored so I started uploading the pictures onto Facebook. As soon as I was finished tagging and editing the pictures Chris popped up on the chat.

“Hey Kgirl! Go check out my Friends album. I have new pics of you and Nick up.”

“From when?” I replied.

“Last night.”

“Ok let me check them out now.”

I found the album Chris tagged me in and flipped through the pictures that I didn’t know he took. There were a lot of candid shots of Nick and I dancing. The one that I loved was of Nick standing behind me holding both of my hands while we were dancing closely together. Nick was looking at my face with so much love and affection in his eyes, mine were closed but my lips were curled up in a smile. That picture made me smile and sent a warm, tingling sensation through my entire body. That picture was one of the first things that made me truly realize that Nick really did love me. I copied the picture then went to my pictures from that day and stared at the one of us kissing. I was starting to miss Nick already.

It was about an hour after Nick left when Rochelle called me from the airport.

“Girl why aren’t you on tour? You’re a part of the BSB Family now. Nick needs you with. He’s already pinning for ya.”

“I’m starting to pine for him too but I have a big obligation I need to be home for. And how am I a part of the BSB Family?”

“You’re dating; no scratch that living with Nick now. You’re a part of his life so you’re also a part of his BSB Family duh!” Rochelle laughed and so did I.

“Well thanks for clearing up the whole BSB Family thing.”

“You needed to now. And you need to be on tour.”

“I need to be there for my students at their big dance competition. Especially since my cousin is one of my students.”

“Oh it’s a family obligation.”

“Yup.”

“Then I understand why you’re not on tour. Do you think you’ll be with us for the American leg?”

“I don’t know yet. I’m thinking about it though.”

“Well I’m pretty sure you’ll make up your mind pretty soon when you really start missing your boyfriend. And speaking of the devil he wants to talk to you so here he is.”

“I miss you already baby,” he said into the phone. He sounded kind of depressed.

“I’m starting to miss you too honey.”

“I really, really wish you were here Kalie.”

“I know you do but…”

“You have to be there for your students I know. Well listen sweetie we are starting to board the plane so I have to go. I’ll call you whenever I get the chance I promise.”

“Alright baby. Be save travelling.”

“I will Kalie. I love you.”

“I love you too Nick.”

The line disconnected and I started getting ready for work.

Practice went smoothly for my students and we even ended the work day early. As soon as I got home I showered and changed to go to Michelle’s house for Girlie’s night.

“What took you so long Kay?” Michelle said answering the door.

“Am I late?”

“Yeah by about an hour!”

“Oh damn I’m sorry did you guys eat already?”

“No I’m just busting your chops. Come on in. We’re going to order Chinese food. The menu’s on the table. Just take a seat. And now that Kay is here you better tell us what happened with Mark,” Michelle wagged her finger at Lacey.

I took my seat next to my sister in law and Crystal then Michelle took a seat and Lacey looked at each of us.

“Ok spill Lace! You said as soon as Kayl got here you would spill the news,” Trish prodded.

“Yeah,” Crystal added in, “What happened with you and Mark?”

She flashed her hand to us and exclaimed, “He proposed!

            We all screamed and hugged Lacey. From there we started talking about how Mark popped the question and what their plans were for the future. Then somehow we ended up talking about my future with Nick.

            “So Kayl,” Michelle started, “Do you think you’ll become the future Mrs. Nickolas Gene Carter?”

            “I doubt it.”

            “Why?!” Crystal exclaimed.

            “We’re both not the marrying type.”

            “What do you mean?” Trish asked.

            “He says that it’s not worth getting married if it only ends in divorce and I don’t think I can trust a marriage proposal.”

            “So you’re saying that you wouldn’t trust Nick if he did propose?” Michelle questioned.

            “No… but… I don’t know. I really don’t like talking about the future because I really enjoy living in the present with him.”

            “But don’t you want him in your future?” Lacey asked. “And don’t you love each other?”

            “I do want him in my future and we do love each other but… maybe marriage isn’t in either of our futures.”

            “Ok then if you don’t want to talk about the future what about the near future. How much are you going to miss Nick when he’s gone?” Trish questioned.

            “I’m going to miss him like crazy! I’m already starting to miss him.”

            “Are we going to have to take turns watching you and having you sleep over while he’s gone? Will you be too lonely in that big house of yours?” Michelle joked.

            “Mich stop. Kalie’s a big girl now. She doesn’t need her boyfriend to take care of her,” Crystal stood up for me.

            “Yeah Kalie can tough it out,” Lacey said as she lightly punched my arm.

            “But can you really tough it out? What are you going to do when you get really lonely at night?” Michelle added.

            “Kalie!” Trish exclaimed.

            “What?” I asked surprised.

            “You won’t cheat on Nick will you? Like you did with Jasper?” she answered.

            “I wouldn’t do that to Nick. He’s too much of a good boyfriend.”

            “And you really love him,” Crystal added.

            “Exactly. I’m just scared that…”

            Michelle cut me off, “You’re scared that he’ll cheat on you.”

            I nodded my head.

            “Kalie! Nick would never cheat on you! He is so in love with you there is no doubt about it,” Crystal said.

            “Nick is the best boyfriend you have ever had Kalie,” Trish added. “And you know that I’ve been there to witness the worst of them in the House of Horrors.”

            “I know what it is,” Lacey grabbed my hand, “You’re afraid he’ll end up like all the rest of those dickheads you’ve dated. Trust me I have been down that road before.”

            It was true, Lacey was in the same amount of bad relationships as I was and pretty much the same situations. She and I were pretty close because of that and because she was one of my dance team mates.

            “To tell you the truth,” she continued, “I was at first hesitant to accept Mark’s ring because of my past. But I thought about how different Mark is from all the rest and how much he actually loves me. I’m the happiest I have ever been because I accepted Mark’s ring. Kalie, Nick is your Mark. Trust me when I say trust him. He really loves you Kayl and I highly, highly doubt he’ll be unfaithful to you.”

            I took those words to heart and kept thinking about them even though the girls and I were talking about anything and everything for a few hours. I even thought about what Lacey said when I was driving home the next day and even when I fell asleep that night.

            Nick had called me just before I got ready to go to bed that night so at least I was able to hear his voice and say good night to him before I fell asleep. But still I woke up a few times from strange dreams to roll over to an empty bed on my right side. I was really starting to miss Nick. And I couldn’t help but wonder if he really was different from all the rest. I guess this was his testing period.