" "Lauren, I love you, will you?" he asked her. "No, Never." Lauren said in a smart as fashion as he could see the wrinkles on her face. "I don't believe in committed realationships are realistic to have. That is why we lived together for 3 years," then as she shook herself in her tight red dress with a hole for her boobies to show through. Her hair all tied up. Nick didn't even realize he was just in a simple, white t-shirt, blue jacket, and blue jeans."the speaker continued. "I need you, your like water to me." he said crying. In some beautiful hotel somewhere in their garden."
The speaker still continued. Then Jesus showed up. "Hey, what's up?" he asked. "Hello. She is still here, Nick, why do you try to agrivate the Father?" He asked. "Lord, I...We'll talk later." Jesus said wearing a white robe, and Roman era basic sandels, and a read shaw/blanket or it could be for him, the length and size and his chestnut brunette here. He looked alot like the Shroud of Turin and that one Remebrant painting of his portrait alot. Then he touched Nick as he cried and shouted. "Why!", "WHY!", "WHY!" Then Jessica came into the room. The speaker continued.
BRIAN AND AJ GET OUT OF MY JOURNAL, PLEASE, GET YOUR OWN, LET ME FINISH WRITING MY DREAM. As I had been wanting to write for a week NOW!
I was shouting "WHY MY LORD, WHY? WHY PUT ME THROUGH THIS, WHY HAVE ME BE ALONE OR WITH SOMEONE "Unworthy"?" Then he hugged me, picked me up, and just said. "Learn to rest in me, and READ YOUR BIBLE! Your on Zacharia for goodness sakes." He wipped away my tears gave me a hug then left.
The last night, Jessica told me about her dream. She said she was in a castle, I think she has a thing for Disney or fairytales still, but then again, she has always loved myths and folklore, and all that stuff on the history channels, even if she doesn't always agree with all of it or believe all of it. But Christ of chorse, but that is just her beliefs and I can only speak for myself and her at the moment. Anyways, in her dreams, I hold her and kiss her after she rescues from demons and from prision with NKOTB. It's some big building like from "Perfect Dark" an old N64 spy-alien-area51 kind of game or 007 sort of building. Then I kiss her.
"So how is that Journal coming?" Brian asked. "Can you and AJ not write in it anymore, please? It would be greatly wanted and appericated." I told Brian. "I am still have nightmares about Lauren being gone." I told him, with a sigh and a couple tears came out. "It will be ok. Besides, AJ and I had fun messing with you and making you laugh again." Brian said with a smile. "Have you checked your business e-mail, I think someone sent you cards." Brian said with a smirk as he took my chips from my tour bus. "HEY! Those are my chips." I told him.
"No, you gave them up, so the chips don't want to be with you, they want to see if they like me first, plus you got new chips to try." He said using chips as an allegory for the situation so he could philopshy it. "Oh no, you did it now man." I said with a huge smile on my face. As I hugged him on to the couch and took them back.
11/28/11 Later that day, now we're in Spain btw, the place Jessica wants to go. I don't know why she does, but she has always wanted to go since the 7th grade when she tried spainish, I guess she studied it in class and thought it was cooler than Mexico or Mexico and that area were too much for her anyways to ever consider going to as far as foreign countries go at all. But as for a dream place, that isn't that bad, alot of cool churches. Ohle'! We're almost going on break in 2 weeks, so I'll be back in the states then we finish the tour through May. Thanksgiving was awesome. She was all like this,...
"I am cooking corn and peas, and mashed potatos, and pudding today, and rolls! YAY! Rolls!!!!!!" lol. That is how she is. She likes old fashioned american food. I told we could only go through till March or April, she said, "We should because Lauren needs a chance to find out if she NEEDS you anyways." she wrote me online. "Plus, I love you guys, I am sorry if my blessing got out of hand."
"Have you been having visions like I have lately?" She asked me. Now their even happening at work. "I have been drinking everyday to cope, since I miss her smell and stuff." I wrote her.
"Nick please don't do that, I'll cry because I am worried you and AJ will get into trouble or hurt yourselves." She wrote me back.:( A sad face attached. "But, Howie said..." I told her online. "He meant for a couple of days cutie sexy, not a whole month." she wrote back.
"What did she write, did she shoot those arrows? Does she hate us? Is she a witch? Are you getting back together with Lauren?" Kevin e-mailed me. I relplied. Yes, I'll send it, yes, their good, no worries, no, she loves us, no, but she still knows how to fight them back like one, I don't know about us getting back yet." I sent him.
