Brian's Bus: 7:30pm before getting ready for the show at 9 and right before singing warm up for the Final show in Tokyo, Japan.[/i]

  When we finally got to Brian's bus; I was so realeaved. "So explain." AJ said after he shut and locked the bus door after kicking everyone, even the record company out. "Well, Jessica was more in control then, but now...."I said without thinking. "It's like she is lost, knowing we're not there. That she is alone, and I think she doesn't want to be alone. I think SHE WANTS ME. NOT THE CELEBRITY ME, NOT THE RICH GUY ME, JUST ME, BECAUSE I GET IT." I finished.

 Howie looked at me and raised his right eyebrow at me. "What?" He asked. "Your saying that because she is a demon slayer. That she does some of the weird things she does, and also because that she is alone all the time, singled out, used, messed with, a joke, an outcast, etc. she can relate to you." He tried to reason.

"I don't get how that is the same, her fame, what little she has got on her own, alot of it is incidental. Just by talking to us." He explained. In his black leather jacket and velvet dark blue shirt and skinny jeans. Kevin rolled his eyes. "Give her a break Howie. She isn't after the group. She just wants Nick to love her back and mean it." He tried to explain back to him with some compassion and a more laid back attitude compared to Howie's snooty, college grad, uptight, party guy one.

 "I don't think there is anything wrong with her." Brian told me, as he gave me a big hug. In his simple goofy sky blue sweater. "She hasn't even tried to go after anyone since 2009. Plus, it's your own fault for stringing her alone and then giving her hopes up, too many times, and then letting people that WE KNOW. Go after her. Then choose NOT to stop them, when we have the power to." Brian tried to talk everyone into.

Brian wearing Kevin's old light brown leather jacket. Then AJ, who being AJ, dressed to the nines in a red and black number and a yellow t-shirt with a skull and a monkee on it. And with his fave rebel-motor bike dude bands and bracelets and crosses. Wearing all the piercings he wanted in a cool leather jacket and black jeans and black sneakers. You could find him in a crowd.

 "Well she does have faith in US." AJ finally said last, which surprised everyone look at his tattoo of an angel and of a heart with wings. "Roots and wings and help, right Howie?" He asked Howie.

"You have a whole poem for that dude, don't short change my ass!" he said in a smart alec empathatetic tone. "Come on, let's help her, we're her friends and she is tired and DONE being KICKED OUT FOR TRASH!" AJ said.

"BFFEs don't leave, we're FRIENDS FOREVER AND FOREVER. WE DON'T LEAVE!" He talked in a more speech and motivation tone. "LET'S DO IT, LET'S KEEP OUR PROMISES FOR NOW TO EACH OTHER, OUR FAMILIES, HER, OUR FRIENDS, AND FANS." He finished with a smile,

"..plus, she hasn't left me yet and I know she won't." he finished. I just smiled and began to cry a little bit so did the other guys with tears.

Back in AJ's bus.

Jessica got out diary, and as she cried she wrote how she felt down.

I love them. I love Nick, I just can't believe BSB would leave me and God and Jesus would leave me too. My family is so iffy, they don't trust me anymore at all. They think I am Amy Whinehouse or Elvis or Micheal Jackson. Just being crazy and I am not." she said to herself as she wrote then finally. She just cried and wrote and moaned a little in emotionally deep pain and loneliness.

 Jesus has tried to get to me. So have others, but now, I just...I just...don't understand and now I am too confused to know or understand. I just hope AJ or someone comes to help me. Even Nick at this point.  1/27/2012 7:30pm on Break.

Jessica couldn't stop crying and ended up crying in on AJ's seat, when he found her and only saved her from getting into trouble. Because he saw the diary she had hidden in the bus, that she had kept hidden from his 2nd cleaning lady.

On Nick's Bus

 Lauren was talking to her mom and writing down plans. "Don't worry mom, those bullies and the haters I have are totally against that cute pita bitch from Ohio." She said bragging. "I got plans for her," on her cell phone as she picked out places to romance Nick at and what men were into on her laptop. "next to show BSB she is a fake and BOOM! Gone like that." Then as she looked for the perfect sexy dress. "or worst yet, not smart, and they will throw her away. Like Nick has done before. They don't consider her an "equal to a BSB". She gets that, she'll give it up and let me keep him. Just wait. In the mean time, romance him and remind him why he choose me over her."

Backstage before the show 8:30pm.

 "OK GUYS, LET'S DO IT, EVERYTHING EARLIER AND THIS SHOW!" AJ Yelled as BSB did a high five and a quick group only prayer. Then NKOTB walked in and looked at the guys. "Ok what happened now, Nick?" Jordan asked before he did a laugh. "You know the blonde one likes my CDs and Joey M's too?" he asked, right before we went on for the first joint number. "Well..." I said blushing. "I'll explain tonight after the show before we go to bed by e-mail since it's personal mostly." I said, blushing more.

"Jordan, we'll tell you, but you got to help." Kevin finally told him, "Now, I got to see my hot wife and kiss her till she can't breath with me." He said and kissed me on the cheeks. "Happy Early Birthday Nick!" He said with a laugh as he left. I giggled and so did the guys. Then we went on in 1, 2, 3... "Everybody!!!!!!!!!" I sang with AJ and the other guys.