Sophia’s POV
I have had many hard days in my existence. Some harder than others. Today was a hard one, I know talking is good but that was one memory that I wouldn’t mind being buried. Nick was really sweet and understanding of it all. It all makes sense to him now that I am not some psycho bitch. There was reasons for why and what happened.
It still wasn’t easy digging up the past people say you can’t move on and build a future for yourself and your loved ones until you accept your past, deal with it, and move on. I get that but it doesn’t make it any easier when you are slapped in the face with it and meant to deal with it.
I guess telling Nick I feel like there aren’t any more deep dark secrets that we need to discuss. I mean there are a lot of things but nothing big. Only small stuff like how many men I have been with. Honestly it is not that many. I am sure from things that I have read and comments that have been made to me. He has been with his share of woman. I really don’t care about that as long as he is coming home to me and only me. Also, I mean he has gained lot of experience that suits me just fine.
Im sure he has secrets but he has been pretty open with me about everything. Which makes me extremely happy. He makes me insanely happy. Although today has been not easy- what kills me only makes me stronger right.
Nick snapped me out of thoughts handing me a steaming glass of hot chocolate “Just how you like it nice and hot”
“Thanks” I smiled at him and watch him as he sighed and went and sat on the love seat. He sighed as he and continued looking at his phone.
“Everything okay?” I asked as I curled my legs up into the oversized chair and blew on my hot chocolate. Waiting for it to cool off just enough so I don’t burn my lips.
“Just press stuff- nothing for you to worry about.” Nick gave me a sideways smile and continued shaking his head typing furiously.
He would sit his phone down until it buzzed and he would pick it back up repeating the same process over and over again. Nick doesn’t drink a whole lot but he had a beer by his side tonight.
I got up from my position and grabbed the phone out of his hand “Your life. You. Are important to me.”
I put the phone on the coffee table adjacent the love seat. “You know you can talk to me right? I am not some fragile piece of glass. At the first sign of crack I don’t shatter right.”
I rested my head on his shoulder.Nick pushed a piece of my hair out of my eyes and whispered “ You have been through so much lately Sophia and I can’t help but feel responsible for the majority of it.
My stupid mother and wife that won’t divorce me.”
Nick leaned back more and wrapped his arm around me and took a swig of his beer “ Babe, don’t feel that way it all. It was my actions caused by a bunch of pent of emotions and reactions that have been buried for far so long.”
“Im sorry life has been so rough on you.” Nick kissed my forehead. I Couldn’t help but lean up and kiss him he returned the kiss and broke away.
“Sometimes I feel like if I just stayed out of your life you wouldn’t be dealing with all of this with Lauren and your Mother.”
Nick sighed deeply “Un-fortuanately. They are both crazy.. I guess.If I didn’t have you in my life, Im sure they would have targeted someone.” Nick squeezed me a little tighter “ Im really glad to have found you. Even with all of our issues.”
I leaned into him and squeezed his hand and rubbed my thumbs along his thumb. “Ditto. I love you.”
“I love you to Soph.”
We just sat there in silence. I was avoiding talking about what went down this evening. It can’t have been easy on him. Now he has to sit there and offend me to the rest of the group as well as their wives and management.
“Nick, do you want to talk about tonight or save It for another day?”
I watched as Nick’s eyes turn cold “ Nope- Another night.”
“Okay” I gave him a soft reply as he grabbed his phone and furiously started texting again.
“Babe, would you mind grabbing my Macbook on the kitchen Island?”
“Anything for you.” I watched as he took another drink of his beer. I knew he really wasn’t supposed to be drinking. I mean one beer can’t hurt.
I went to the kitchen island and took my hot chocolate and rinsed out my mug and placed it in the dishwasher.
I decided I was going to take a bath. Nick didn’t even realise I left the room im sure he was talking to someone and he didn’t sound completely happy. Something about his movie evil blessings there was an issue with it.
I undressed and lit some candles grabbed a towel and filled the tub I added some bubbles. I couldn’t wait to get in there and relax. I needed to just de-stress. I needed to do it on my own. I couldn’t help but think about the events of the evening.
It was now 11:00pm it only happened a few hours prior and im not talking about what Nick and I talked about. This was between him and his mother. Then he got Jane to call Lauren and it just got messy.
-Flashback-
Nick and I walked through the door and the dogs ran in and grabbed something to eat and long drinks of water. I walked into the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of water for me and one for Nick. I didn’t even see Jane sitting at the kitchen table on her laptop.
“Ohh, Hi dear how are you feeling.” Jane asked me sweetly. If I already didn’t know better I would have thought she was being sincere.
“ Have you been talking to my son?”
Nick came over and and grabbed the other bottle of water. Jane looked shocked she had no idea Nick was here I could tell she looked found out.
“Yea Mom, we have talked about a lot.” And walked over to his mother “You, I want you out. That was the last fucking straw!”
Nick pulled her chair out from behind the table “Go. Grab your stuff. Get the fuck out of my life. Stay out of Sophia’s life. I booked you reservations and heres some spending money.” Nick threw the money right at her I have no idea what was there but he threw that and a visa card.
“Take the money, the car, sleep in the most fucking lavish hotel possible and stay the fuck away from me. You have a drinking and drug, and a fucking problem. I can’t fucking believe what you did to me and Sophia who is someone who told me to give you a chance.” Nick glared and stared her down and started shaking his head.
“I knew it, you standing on my doorstep was a problem. She reminded me you were my mother and to give you a chance to prove that you are fit to be a mother.” Nick raised his voice and practically growled the last part
“Get out before I call the cops and have them escort you out.” Nick motioned towards the door.
“Nick, I have no idea what has gotten into you. Are you on cocaine again?” Jane went over to her son concerned.
“Get away from me- I don’t want a hug from you and no Im not on FUCKING DRUGS!” Nick said exhasperatedly.
I looked at Jane and I sort of felt sorry for her. I mean this is her son kicking her out of his place.
“Nick- come on calm down. This isn’t going to make matters any better. “Why don’t you let her talk.” I looked over giving Nick a confident reassuring shoulder shrug and nod.
Nick walked away so he wasn’t right in her face.
“No Sophia. You have no idea what I have gone through with this woman. This woman may have given birth to me and raised me when it was convenient for her but you have no idea and this…what she did with Lauren is just. Its really just the last straw.”
Nick walked over his mom and he had cold tears in his eyes. “Do you have any idea how hard it is to be like yup this is mother. I have given you so many chances because you are my mother. A mother doesn’t do this stuff to her child- any of us. Its not right mom."
"So you know that take the credit card, take some money and place to lay your head in return don’t come to me until you have gotten the psychiatric help you need.”
“Nick- you can’t treat your mother this way” Jane said to him “ I am your mother.”
Nick shuddered “ Look up the definition of mother. You are not even in the close proximity of being there.”
“Nick- where is this coming from?” She looked defeated.
“How, can you treat me this way. You don’t even really know this girl. I mean she attacked your fans.”
Jane pointed fingers at me. Nick picked up the phone “ Get out. This girl your pointing at is the reason. Im not throwing you out on your ass with nothing. She just tried to defend you- knowing full well what you and Lauren were trying to do and almost succeeded.”
Nick walked over and wrapped his arm around me while picking up his phone “ I will call the police don’t think I won’t.”
“Your Reputation- really can’t handle that right now can it Nicky?” Jane spat back
“Because of you Mom, and things that you and Lauren did. You have no idea- do you the lives you hurt and you don’t care.”
“Im calling the cops mom so you either go or your going to be escorted out”
“Im not going anywheres..”
“Fine. I called the cops.”
“So why we sit here! why don’t you call Lauren for me im sure you need to tell her your plan failed.”
“I did it for you Nick. You don’t know this girl at all and your throwing your mother out and your marriage.”
“Well I guess you didn’t know she left me, she cheated on me, she is the one that told me to throw you out a couple years ago at Christmas." Nick pointed at me
"Sophia tried to get you to stay. You fuck with her life. Do you even know know what Sophia has been through and the memories and hurt you stirred up. I bet you don’t even fucking care.”
Jane put her head down “ I didn’t know-“
“Nope you didn’t- you didn’t care too. All you saw was fucking dollar signs.” Nick shook his head and threw her belongings on the table in front of her.
“ I’ll send you the rest.”
“Call Lauren”
“I don’t know what your talking about?”
“Call Lauren…” Nick slammed his fist down on the table.
“You wanted to look like a shred of human being call her”
I walked over to Nick and put my hand on his arm “ Nick, calm down. Its not making matters any better babe. You can’t make someone do something. They don’t want and aren’t willing to do.”
Nick softened his tone “Please call her Mom.”
Jane sighed defeated – “Pass me the damn phone.”
She dialed the number and rolled her eyes the whole time. I watched the anger in Nicks eyes “Put it on speaker phone.”
Jane pressed some buttons on her cell phone. Next thing I knew… I heard Laurens voice over the speaker
“Jane. I thought I told you not to call me. I would call you. Our plan worked perfectly. I will in Nick’s arms in no time and that Sophia slut- well she will be history.”
Jane put her head down- I could tell she felt bad. Honestly, she couldn’t feel bad enough. She hasn’t shown any remorse.
Nick was done listening… he was finished “ You think so do you?”
“Jane, you got a cold or something?” I could hear the nervousness in Lauren’s tone.
“Nope, don’t play dumb lauren” Nick rolled his eyes “Its done. Were done. My lawyers will be contacting yours. I want a divorce. You can have kitt Fitt."
"you think your taking me for half of my works earnings. Not happening.”
“I have much better lawyers than yours sweetheart. I will give you what your entitled too. That’s it nothing more and nothing less. You take 4 million- the papers we signed. Thank fuck I didn’t just marry you with out making you sign papers.” Nick breathed an angry sarcastic sigh of relief.
“I can’t believe you- you would stoop so low.” Nick looked like he was going to throw something. He didn’t throw anything but he punched a hole in the wall.
“Nick- I never wanted you. Maybe in the beginning. Rodderick has helped me in ways and has pleased me in ways you never could.”
I could see the hurt on Nicks face. Its like a huge slap because he loved this woman. I know he did at one point in time. He isn’t the guy to throw around marriage proposals.
“Good to know- stay out of my life.”
“Nick, just so you know the baby was never yours.”
Nick slumped his shoulders and I looked at him he put a hand up to me and shook his head and mouthed not now…later.
“I was grieving for a baby that wasn’t even mine. When you lost the baby you were distraught.” Nick sighed “ You’re the disgusting slut- not Sophia.”
“Papers- sign them- goodbye Lauren”
Just as Nick hung up the phone there was the sound of the door bell chiming through the front entry and the kitchen. The cops were there and they took Jane away in handcuffs and Nick had to fill out paper work. Jane officially wasn’t allowed 100 feet near Nick or I, or his premises.
Jane was escorted out and the police were gone and nick shut the door behind him Nick sighed leaning his head against the wall “Are you okay Nick.” I walked over to him out stretching my arms to him to give him the biggest hug, I felt the wetness on my shoulder. It was just one large tear that’s it.
Nick looked at me defeated “ That was the woman I married and the Mother that gave birth to me- I gave one a restraining order."
-End of Flashback-
I didn’t hear the door creek open I was deep in thought the sound of Nicks belt snapped me out of my daydream. He stood in front of me in blue plaid boxers.
He was draining the water and adding some fresh hot water “ Move your toes back, its pretty hot.”
I inched my toes back as he added the water and some more bubbles.
He removed the last article of clothing I gulped… I always gulped when he got naked around me.
He leaned down and kissed me we pulled apart breathless “ You don’t mind if I join you do I?”
“Of course not” I smiled over at him he positioned himself so he was sitting in between my legs. He was leaning against my breasts and I wrapped my arms around him rubbing my hands through his short blonde hair leaving traces of bubbles throughout his hair.
He closed his eyes against me and mumbled “mmm this is so re..relaxing”
I relaxed under his touch as he rubbed my arm sending shivers all over my body.
“Mmm..the perfect end to a not so perfect day.”
“Mmm, Isn’t that the truth.” Nick turned around so he was looking at me. Although, I know something that could be more perfect.”
“Really what could that be?” I smiled at him.
With out any warning… I felt nick lift me up carried me to the bedroom and he threw me on the bed. I landed in the sea of pillows and I felt felt nick kiss me as he entered me. He moved in and out so slow and loving and attentive. He made my toes curl and feelings run threw me that were there this morning but today after today the feelings were stronger. There was so much love.
He didn’t leave any part of my body un-touched and un-kissed. We were spent- I laid on his chest listening to his heart beat. I knew sleep was soon to come.
Nick wrapped his arms around me and hugged me tight I heard him mumble
“Don’t hurt me Sophia. I don’t think I can take another woman I love hurting me.”
I nuzzled into the crook of his neck “ I would never dream of it.”
“Good” I watched as Nicks eye lids were getting heavier I covered us both up with the duvet.
With that the last thing I remember is being so in love and content in the arms of the man I was so in love with.
I felt like for the first time in a long time I went so sleep content and no worries.
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